It took all the strength I had to get out of bed the next morning. After my little breakdown on the road, I spent the rest of the day laying on my bed trying not to cry but the tears just slipped out. It was my entire fault; I had waited a long time, much to long, to tell Edward how I felt about him. I couldn't be selfish and tell him now, it would probably only make him feel sorry for me.

I knew I couldn't delay this meeting any longer so I put on a pair of jeans and a green turtle neck and headed to the Cullen's house. I really wanted to see Alice, I missed her so much. When I arrived I stayed in the car for five more minutes, then I took a deep breath.

"Don't be a coward," I said to myself and got out of the car. I knocked the door softly. It was Edward who opened it. My heart quicken its beating rate when he smiled at me brilliantly.

"Ange!" I smiled back at him, how could I not? Then he hugged me tightly and kissed my cheek. I thought I would fall right there but I forced myself to keep smiling."How's my favourite friend in the world doing?" As he said it he let go of me but he placed his arm around my shoulders. I took a deep breath.

"I'm great, how's my favourite friend in the whole world doing?" I teased. It wasn't hard for me act normal anymore. He was happy so I was happy. I didn't have to fake it, I would be myself.

He laughed sweetly. "I'm terrific, wanna go with the rest of the family? They're at the living room with Bella…" he trailed off, then made a mad face. "Why wouldn't you answer your phone yesterday? I called you all day, and it seemed to me like you were ignoring my calls." I swallowed and told him the truth.

"I wasn't feeling very good…"his face went from anger to concern.

"Are you feeling alright now? Why didn't you call me? I could've gone up there and take care of you—" I placed my finger on his lips to make him stop.

"I'm feeling fine now, besides, I didn't want to bother you." He started to protest and I interrupted. "What if you were busy with Bella? You probably had more important things to do than taking care of me all day," I said smiling in reassurance. He rolled his eyes and touched my nose with his index finger.

"Silly girl, nothing is more important to me than my best friend." He was so sweet, that my heart skipped a beat. "'Sides you never bother me, you should know that already," I tried to change the subject before I could humiliate myself.

"Let's go see Alice, I've missed her." He knew I was changing the subject but he let it go and nodded. The living room was a show. There were boxes and bags everywhere on the floor, there was a white half finished Christmas tree in the corner and little Alice was running from a bag to the tree trying to finish it.

"Its coming out good," I complimented. Alice hadn't notice us here and she turn to see me surprised. Then she ran to me and hugged me.

"Angela!" she squeaked. "I've missed you, what took you so long to come see me? Didn't you miss me at all?" she said the last part in a sad voice. Edward smiled and mouthed to me, 'Be right back'

"Of course I did! How wouldn't I miss my little hyper pixie friend?" she smiled hugely. Then she tugged on my hand.

"Come, I want you to meet someone." I knew who she was talking about. I smiled, it was a natural response to a girl that made Edward happy I guess. "Bella! Come here, I want you to meet someone" as soon as she finished I saw a brunette walk into the living room. She was gorgeous, and she looked very sweet. She smiled when she saw me.

"Angela this is Bella, my best friend, Bella this is Angela my sister" I couldn't tell you how I felt at that moment when she presented me as her sister, it was indescribable.

Bella looked confused. "Sister?" she asked Alice. Alice put her arm around my shoulders.

"Yes, sister. You see Bella, we know Angela practically since we were in diapers. She's part of the family, you know" I chuckled and touched Alice's arm.

"Thanks," I said to her, Alice waved it away.

"Well, in that case. It's nice to meet you," Bella said nicely.

I hugged her gently. "It's a pleasure to meet you Bella,"

"I see you got to know each other," I heard Edward say while walking back to the living room with a cup of lemonade in hand. He hand it to me.

"Yeah, Bella's really nice." Edward put his wrist on my shoulder and leaned on it. Not putting all his weight on me, though.

He looked at me. "You're spending Christmas with us tomorrow right?" he looked so hopeful, and I smiled.

"Oh Ange, I hope you have a custom, we're going to have a masquerade Christmas party!" my mouth dropped.

"Wow, you guys really like masquerade parties don't you? umm,I don't know if I have a custom…"

"We can go shopping!" she screamed excited. Bella groaned.

"Sure, but I don't think we have much time,"

"We can go tomorrow morning!" I frowned a little.

"I don't know if I have to work, I didn't go yesterday so I think I might have to." Edward frowned.

"But Ange, you have to, it's Christmas! I'll talk to your boss and—"

"Edward, you don't have to talk to my boss, I will. It's okay, really. Maybe he can let me out early…" I suggested. His frown turned into a small smile.

"Fine, but I'll pick you up alright?" he was so cute when he acted like that.

"I need to shower and change, don't worry about me. Spend the day with your family, I will come as early as possible so I can help you guys finish setting up. I have a car Edward," I reminded him.

"Ange, you are part of my family. And I know you have a car, I just wanna pick you up so you can hurry," I laughed at his last comment.

"Okay, okay. You are so stubborn Edward, did you know that?" he grinned and poked me lightly.

"But you still love me," We all laugh at his comment. He had no idea how right he was about what he said.

"I don't have a custom, and I cant go shopping…"

"Just wear a mask, it doesn't matter what you wear exactly," Jasper suggested, while walking to Alice's side. I could tell Jasper didn't want to let go of Alice, since she was leaving soon.

"Thanks Jazz," I said smiling.

**

After spending the afternoon with the Cullens I went home at eight thirty. They invited me to spend Christmas with them and I told them what I told Edward. Bella was a really sweet person, she was a little clumsy and it made her blush. She was adorable, exactly what Edward needs. They are perfect for each other.

When I got home I went straight to sleep. When I woke up I took a shower, changed and headed to work. I was early to work and my boss stared at me.

"Are you feeling better today Angela?" he asked slowly.

"Yes, I'm feeling a little better, sorry about yesterday."

"It's okay, if you need to go home early today, you look like you could use the rest again. You're a great employee, and you haven't have vacations in so long. Maybe you ought to take a week off…" I looked that bad?

"I will think about it, thanks" The day dragged and seemed like forever. I didn't leave early; I didn't really feel like it. I got out of work at seven and went to Port Angeles to buy a 'custom.' After searching and searching I finally found a beautiful white dress. It was a night gown really, it was strapless and it showed my back a little. I didn't usually wear dresses like this one but it was the best dress in the whole store, I had to buy it. I found some nice white stilettos and an elegant white mask with feathers and glitter, it covered around my eyes all the way to the point of my nose. On my way back home my phone vibrated.

From: Edward

To: Angela

Da party will b a reception called Empire…it's close 2 were we had da last party , member? Its in Seattle..starts 9:30…dnt b late!

From: Angela

To:Edward

I remember. Thx I'll b der in time!

I was about to put the phone away when it vibrated.

From:Edward

To: Angela

R u feeling better?

From:Angela

To:Edawrd

Yes, I do feel better. Thx 4 askin. Wat r u wearing 2nite?

From:Edward

To:Angela

Nothing special, you'll see

I was a little curious of what he would wear, but I made myself focus and went inside my apartment to shower. Since I was a brunette, I thought maybe some curls would look nice, so I made some loose curls and a nice bump. When I tried it on with the dress I realized it looked good. The hair the shoes and the dress together looked amazing. I added a little glitter on my eyes, mascara, and lip gloss, not too much, just so that I wouldn't look so plain. It was already nine and it took about forty to fifty minutes to get to the reception. I wasn't going to be early like I promised. When I got there I walked fast beside the beautiful fountain in the garden that was in front of the parking lot and inside, I stopped dead on my tracks. It was beautiful. It was all white and silver.

"Come, Edward's been looking for you for ages!" Alice dragged me to where Edward was. Gosh. He…looked…magnificent. Like a god. He smiled brilliantly when he saw us and stretched his hand for me to take.

"May I have this dance?" When he asked, a song started playing on the background. I couldn't speak, I thought he might had wanted to dance with Bella instead of me, so I just nodded.

Edward put his hands on my waist and he put my arms around his neck.

You know, I got this feeling that I just can't hide

I try to tell you how I feel

I try to tell you what I mean

Words don't come easily

When you're that close to me

I watched you when you smiled

I watched you when you cried

And I still don't understand

I cant find the way to tell you

I wish I was your lover

I wish that you were mine

Baby I got this feeling

That I just cant hide

"This song is actually perfect right now," Edward said. I looked at him with questioning eyes. He smiled a little, but his face was intense. "It's just how I'm feeling about you right now,"

Don't try to run away

There's many things I want to say

No matter how it is

Just hold me while I tell you

I couldn't believe he had just said that to me. He had practically declared his love to me.

I wish I was your lover

I wish that you were mine

Baby I got this feeling

That I just cant hide

I wish I was your lover

I wish that you were mine

Baby I got this feeling

That I just cant hide

All I need is a miracle

Oh baby all I need is you

All I need is 'I love you'

Oh baby all I need is you

I didn't know how to respond to what he had just said, I was astonished.

I wish I was your lover

I wish that you were mine

Baby I got this feeling

That I just cant hide

I wish I was your lover (I wish I was your lover)

I wish that you were mine

Baby I got this feeling

That I just cant hide

I wish I was your lover

I wish that you were mine

Baby I got this feeling

That I just cant hide

His eyes caught mine and he looked right through me. I never thought this moment would actually come.

Just want to be your lover

Just want to be the one

Let me be your lover

Let me be the one

As the song drifted to an end, he was still staring into my eyes. He leaned closer making our faces centimetres apart. Then as he leaned even closer I closed my eyes and he kissed me. The kiss was passionate but yet sweet, very, very sweet. I kissed him back with all my might, afraid this moment would end. And so it did. The moment his lips parted from mine he whispered, "Bella." He leaned in to kiss me again but I pushed him away gently and ran out of the reception.

It was raining, and my tears were invisible in the rain. I could hear footsteps behind me, and I had a fairly good idea of who it was.

"Bella!" Edward called for me, but it was wrong, the name was wrong. I didn't stop running, not until I was beside the water fountain and I couldn't run any more. I couldn't run, not because I was soaked in water, but because my legs refused to carry me any further. I had my back to him. It was happening again, the whole masquerade party confusion. Except, this time, he had kissed me. Because he thought I was someone else.

As I stopped running, I heard the footsteps behind me stop as well. I waited in silence, sobbing, in the middle of the beautiful garden.

"Why did you run away like that?" When he didn't hear my answer he spoke again, this time, he was having more difficulty choosing his words. "I know that…maybe, you don't feel the same way…about me. I know this will probably sound cheesy, but…I think…I think, that you are the one. Could feel it, while we danced…I know I cant be wrong." It hurt me very much to know his hear was else somewhere. I couldn't bare it, even if I had said that I would let him be happy. I still wanted him to be happy, so I took off my mask and I heard him get closer. I held out my hand to stop him, I didn't want him to see who I really was. I didn't want to see how his face would turn pitiful when he saw it was me.

"Why? Why don't you want me to be close to you? I know its too fast and I was willing to take some time to figure out my feelings for you. But, when we started dancing tonight, my emotions were clear. Bella, I think I love you." That's all it took to break my heart to a million pieces. Those last words… "Why did you run away from me?" I couldn't take it any longer. I knew that a few more words and I would crumble to the floor and not be able to get up. I turned to face him slowly; he was a few steps away. When he saw me, his eyes winded.

"Because… I' am not who you think I' am," I didn't recognize my own voice. It sounded emotionless, somber. I took advantage that Edward was frozen and ran to my car. It wasn't far, I didn't think he followed. But I didn't look back as I got into my car and took off.