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So here is a new chapter, enjoy! (o, and I apologize for my English, I can't even write with good grammar in Dutch today, so I'm sorry!)
Chapter 5
"So, how was it?" Lynn asked as soon as she had given her daughter a cup of coffee. "Well I can honestly say, not as I expected" Bianca answered, she was still in a bit of a shock, she had never really thought how it would tear that family apart, after all that they had done, it was just hard to think that they had really loved him, well still love him. "what do you mean?" Lynn asked, she was getting a bit worried. "well, they all just looked so sad and depressed and well dear I say it horrible. I mean I just never really thought they would miss him so much. Actually if I'm really honest, it would have surprised me less if they weren't sad. I think I expected them to act like nothing had happened, like they didn't just lost a son, but apparently I was completely wrong" Bianca said, a bit amazed. "They were all so sad, I actually saw Leo cry! I mean I would have never thought of that. I think I need to tell Chris about this. Maybe we have been doing it all wrong!" She continued, barely stopping to take breathes. "Sweetie, calm down! Please could you breathe every once in a while?" Bianca looked sheepish, taking a huge breathe. "Thank you. Now you both have done nothing wrong. Don't go backtracking now, it was the right decision to get him out of that situation. But I do agree with you, you should talk with Chris about it." Bianca nodded, she would. Maybe they could write a letter, telling them how they are doing, it surely would help the family with coping.
"yeah I will. Thank you, you know for letting me ramble" Bianca said, a little embarrassed. "That's okay sweetie. Now do you want to talk about something else?" Bianca nodded again, she needed to sort the whole situation out with Chris before taking action, it was his family after all. "Umm yeah, so how is Becky doing?" Bianca said, changing the topic of conversation easily. Lynn sighed, not a good omen "she is out of control of you ask me, I don't really know if talking is even going to help. Emma is getting desperate. And more family members are getting worried. Apparently she is now talking to some of your more guidable cousins, I really don't want to know what is going to happen if she gets trough to them" Lynn said, worry clear on her face.
"well, then I have some work cut out for me huh, were does she go to school? I can use some distraction today" Bianca said, getting up, ready to face the day.
"Wow, I really don't miss this school" Bianca said, as she walked through her old high school's doors later that day, she reasoned a face to face conversation would do more than a phone call, especially if she is already recruiting. "Then why are you here? And who are you?" the doorman asked. He always was a suspicious man. "Oh sorry sir, I'm Bianca, I used to go to school here. I'm picking up my niece Becky Hillman". The old man stared hard at her, as if that would help him see if she lied. "Well then you'll have to wait for another 30 minutes, because the school isn't out yet" he grumbled before walking away. Bianca sighed, right different time tables than college, she should have known that. Bianca walked outside again, choosing to sit at the benches outside. She hadn't really thought yet about what she was going to say, How could she even help Becky? Bianca kept sitting there, hoping inspiration would hit her before she faced Becky.
30 minutes later the bell rang, startling Bianca out of her thoughts, sadly she had yet to find any inspiration, what was she going to do?
But before she could think of a decent answer to give herself, she students came running out of the building. Bianca waited a little while longer, but then Becky too came through the doors. Her mother had been right, Becky had no friends, she was walking alone.
"Becky!" Bianca yelled, trying to get her niece's attention. After a couple more yells Becky finally noticed her and came over. "Bianca? What are you doing here?" Becky asked, yeah that is what I'm asking myself too, Bianca thought wryly. "Sweetie, we need to talk." Apparently Becky was used to the sentence, and she walked away just as it left Bianca's lips. Bianca reacted quickly, and grabbed her by the arm. "Look you can go and try to avoid me, you can make this all really hard. Or you do us both a favor and you listen, because I have a lot of time on my hands" she said, shocking Becky, who then opted for the latter of the choices. "Good! Now why are you doing this, and don't pretend you don't know what I'm talking about. You got the whole family worried you know!" Becky just looked at her, it was obvious she wanted to talk. "You can talk to me, I won't tell anybody if you don't want to" and that was what Becky needed to hear, because a flood storm of words came out. It all came down to one thing, Becky felt lonely, and in her mind she thought this would give her attention. She had not thought about the consequences. Apparently Becky got bullied at school because of her looks, and at home she felt inferior to her sister, so when she got a boyfriend she did whatever he wanted her to. She realized that he just used her, but she just wanted some attention. Bianca found out who her boyfriend was and made sure she would vanquish him in the near future. After she promised Becky to give her a make-over and made a shopping date, Becky went home. She promised to stop making friends with the evils in the world.
A couple of days later.
"I'm home!" Chris yelled, dumping his bags by the front door, looking for Bianca. He had a lot of fun on his camping trip, but he had missed Bianca. "Bianca? Bi?" he yelled when he didn't get a reaction. Walking through the living room into the kitchen he had still not seen Bianca. "Helloooo, anybody home?". After a pause there was finally a reaction "Yeah, I'm coming!" Bianca yelled, slamming the door shut. "Sorry, I was planning on being home when you would get here, but I got an emergency call from Becky" she said when she hugged Chris. "Oh, is everything okay?" Chris asked, getting worried. He too had heard about the problems Becky had been having. "Oh, it's fine, I talked to her, a couple of days ago, she just needed somebody to talk to you know. So then I gave her a makeover. Now she had been asked on a date, so she needed my help asap. But enough about me, or about becky. How are you! I missed you!" Bianca answered. Chris laughed, he had missed her too and was happy to know he hadn't been the only one. He kissed her before dumping them both on the living room couch. "I had a great time, though my latest dislike is now mosquitoes, they have bitten me everywhere." Chris launched into story after story about the stupid things they had done.
"oh, and sweetie, were going to have to buy a new tent, this one gave up on us. We had rain and after about 10 minutes there was not a dry spot left in that tent" Chris said, shaking his head at the memory, it had been the last night of the trip and they had not been happy. Bianca just laughed, something like that always seemed to happen. But soon the laughing stopped. Bianca knew she had to tell Chris about her little trip, he would want to know, but he seemed so happy and content, she couldn't do that to him. So after a while she just kissed him and told him they were going to eat out today. Telling him would be of later concern.
Next day, breakfast
"good morning" Chris said when he walked into the kitchen, he had been shocked to find Bianca out of bed this morning, normally he woke up way before her and made the breakfast. Actually the last time Bianca made breakfast she had something important to tell, he had to meet her family that night. Remembering this Chris got a bit nervous. "Hi baby! How are you on this fine morning? I made you breakfast!" Bianca said, Chris' worries getting bigger. "Umm, Bianca? Is everything okay? You seem … different" Chris looked out with what he said, her behavior doing nothing to calm him down. "Of course I am okay! I'm just making you breakfast, is there something wrong with me making breakfast" Bianca said. Chris quickly answered "no of course not" and he went to sit at the kitchen table. His plan was to wait for Bianca to get ready to tell him the news. Both Bianca and Chris had a nervous breakfast, the tension was clearly present. "So, I have something to tell you" Bianca began after she put the dishes in the dishwasher, Chris immediately sat up straight, this was what he had been waiting for. "yes..?" he said, coaxing Bianca to go on. "Before I tell you, I want you to know nothing went wrong, and it was just something I needed to do, I understand if you are mad, but I hope you can understand where I'm coming from" Bianca spoke quickly, her nerves making her almost ramble. Chris only got more worried by this words, what had she done? "Whatever it is, I'm sure I could understand and we could work through this" He said, trying to calm Bianca down, surely she couldn't have done something to bad or stupid. "I went to visit your family" Bianca rushed. The kitchen went completely silent. "You did what?" Chris exclaimed, "why would you do that? Why would you want that? Don't you know how dangerous that is, they hate you, absolutely hate you, what if they had seen you huh? I can't live without you!" Everything Bianca had wanted to say died right on her tongue. She had expected him to blow up, to be angry. But she hadn't expected him to worry about her, she hadn't even thought about that. "I'm sorry. I was just so curious as to how they were doing, and I saw how you missed them, and how you hated what you had done, that you had to cut off all contact. I hated seeing you like that, and well I just wondered if they were the same. I just wondered if they at least felt something now that you were gone. I just had to know. I'm sorry okay, I didn't think about what they would have done if they saw me" Bianca said softly. She had been touched that he would be so worried about her. Chris sighed, he understood her, he himself often thought about his family, and how they were doing. He had often wanted to pay them a little visit, but he knew he couldn't. he would be sucked into that life again and that was something he couldn't handle anymore. Somehow he was happy that Bianca had paid them a visit, at least now he could get an answer, now he got to know how his family was doing.
"Okay, well you've already visited them, so it's not like we can change anything now anyways. How did you actually manage to be unseen?" Chris asked, letting Bianca know he wasn't mad at her, he had wanted to ask something else, he has wanted to ask how his family was doing, but was scared to do so. He was scared of the answer, what if they went on with their life's like he hadn't even existed. Bianca let out a breath she didn't even knew she was holding. "I made a potion, to make me invisible. They miss you. They miss you terrible and are still looking for you, even though nothing is working. Don't worry about them okay? They are still searching, but they are also dealing with it, they know the searching won't help, and I know they won't give up, but they will come to accept it in time" Bianca said, giving him answer to the spoken and unspoken question. She knew Chris was scared. "Well, that's good. That they are coping I mean" Chris said, but deep down, he was happy they missed him and searched for him. He was a bit ashamed that he would feel like that. "it's okay to feel happy about them missing you, it doesn't make you a bad person, it makes you human. And it doesn't mean you wish them harm, it just means you want to be loved by them, which again is a very human thing Chris." Bianca said. Chris just nodded. "How.. how is Wyatt?" He asked, he missed his brother so much and he hoped he hadn't taken his actions to hard. "He's coping. It's all I can say sweetie. It was quite clear he missed you terribly and that he was a bit lost without you. You're his little brother Chris, it's a normal reaction for Wyatt to act like he did. I haven't seen much of Wyatt though, he was mostly asleep. But from what I saw is that he is dealing with everything." Bianca had wanted to say more. About the conversation she had heard, but she couldn't do that to Chris, she couldn't hurt him with that knowledge. Chris was one of the most caring persons she knew if he knew how bad his brother really was, no she couldn't tell him. "Okay, I'm just going to take a shower, I need to think" Chris said, walking away. Bianca sighed, they still had a long way to go.
Bianca never saw the blue orbs that filled the bathroom, and she never knew about the letter Chris had poster that day.
Dear Wyatt,
I would ask you how you're doing, but since you won't know where to send a answer to, I'll just tell you how I'm doing.
I'm alive, I'm well and I'm living my life like I had always wanted.
I'm sorry you couldn't be a part of that life, it is the one thing I would really like to change, but I can't. I can't be your little brother anymore, because I'm no longer part of the family, I walked away from that. I Don't regret the decision I made, it was needed. I needed to get out of there. Don't think I did it to hurt you, or anyone else for that matter, because I never wanted to hurt you all.
I hope you can find some comfort in knowing that I'm okay, and happy.
Don't try to look for me, it won't work.
Chris.
Chris needed to post that letter, as short as it was, he needed to let his brother know he was okay. He would never go back, and he didn't know if he could ever really forgive his family for their actions, but he needed to let go and move on, and this was his beginning.
AN. This chapter isn't really anything important, it's more a filler. So I don't know why I put the whole Becky ordeal in the story, I think I kind of lost my storyline. Anyways I hope you liked it. Please review!