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A/N: Hey everyone. I wanted to let you know that the reason for the delay this time was medical. I had surgery earlier this month and my recovery was not quite what I was expecting but I'm doing much better now.
Theme 13: Misfortune
POV: Sookie
Rating: T
The Grass is Always Greener
People always tell you, the grass is greener on the other side. I've never been sure I believed it. Growing up, I didn't have a glamorous life, but I was mostly happy with the way I lived. That's not to say I didn't have my problems, but it was generally pretty peaceful. It wasn't until right before I met Bill that I began to wish for a little more excitement. People also say you should be careful what you wish for.
I may never have been what you would call an "average person" but I at least used to have an average person's luck, aside from my parents dying young. Even then, I had my gran to take care of me and Jason. My lucky days would involve finding a twenty dollar bill in a parking lot or turning on the television when I got home from work and being surprised to find my favorite movie on. My bad luck was pretty much average, too. Aside from being sickened by people's thoughts sometimes, my bad luck rarely included anything more serious than stubbing my toe on a dining room chair, spilling a beer at work, or getting a flat tire. In those days, any one of those things could potentially ruin a day. If they all happened on the same day, my life seemed like a disaster. I thought, then, that I would give anything not to have days like that.
This of course was all before I met Bill. Nothing in my life has been average since then. I my opinion, my bad luck has increased exponentially. I have come close to dying far more times than I would like to count, I have lost several family members (although, to be honest, some of them I didn't know I had until after I became involved with supes), my brother was turned into a werepanther and I have been kidnapped and tortured. From the way the supes in my life have been talking, I don't think my luck is going to change for the better anytime soon. It is still uncertain whether Bill will recover from silver poisoning or not, and Eric's cryptic comments have left me on edge.
On the plus side, because of the amount of vampire blood I've ingested, and possibly my bond with Eric, I no longer am nearly as susceptible to stubbing my toe, or spilling beer or any other minor clumsy accident as I once was. I also know, thanks to my great-grandfather, that at least one of the vampire's I had been in a relationship with did actually love me (the problem being that I didn't know which one).
So the question is, how does it all balance out in the end? Whether big or small, I suppose everyone has to face some misfortune in their life. By have all of these large problems come up, does that cut down on the small annoyances I will have to face for the rest of my life? As much as I sometimes wish it, would it even be possible to go back to my old life now? Would I trade the troubles of my past for the troubles of my present? There are many questions brought up when I think about misfortunes (mostly mine, but I am trying to think more about the problems others are facing) that I don't have the answer to.
Now there are days when I wish I could go back to having a bad day mean I had stubbed my toe and dropped beer and had a flat tire. I would even throw in several overdue bills in the mail and the roof leaking. There are other days when I know if I went back to that life I could never be satisfied. I think that I am starting to believe that old proverb about the grass always being greener on the other side; even when it applies to disasters.
A/N: Next theme is "Smile."