AN. Wow, I'm so sorry it took me this long to update! I have a few reason for not updating, the first I said in the last chapter, then I had loads of school work, and I just got back from a trip to Berlin. Anyways, here is a new chapter I hope you like it. If it sucks that would be my writers block talking.

Last chapter:

"Chris?" Leo said, he was the first to recover. "Hi Leo" Chris answered in a cold voice, he so didn't need a family reunion right now. "O my god, Chris!" Piper said, then silence filled the room again, everybody staring at Chris, they were all hoping the same. They were hoping to ask for forgiveness and they were hoping to get their Cousin/nephew back.

Chapter 10

The silence was deafening and even though Chris did not want a family reunion he was now hoping someone would talk, or just make a noise. Chris looked around, it was weird seeing his family again, the faces were familiar, but still they had changed a lot. The faces of his cousins were changed the most, the last time he had seen them they were still teenagers, now they were adults. While Chris was studying his surroundings, the family was studying him, seeing the changes. They drunk in the image, not knowing how long he would stay and when he left if he would ever come back again. Piper wanted to reach out, wanted to hug him and tell him she loves him, but she didn't dare to move, what if he left the moment someone moves or spoke. The others pretty much thought along the same ling and so they stood still and just looked. Then after a while Prue was sick of it, she knew Chris hated awkward silences just as much as she did, so she said "Awkwaaaarrrddd…. ", Piper's eyes grew wide, afraid of Chris' reaction, but Chris just laughed and nodded. "Well, it was nice seeing you again. I hope you had a nice vacation. You know don't let my presence ruin anything, because really I was just about to leave anyways. Bye" Chris said, hoping that they would just let him go, hoping he could stop this reunion before it even really began. "No Chris, please stay!" Leo said in a desperate voice, Piper rushed forward and grabbed his arm, to stop him from leaving. "Please stay Chris, talk to us, let us say sorry!" Phoebe said, she had so much guilt ever since Chris ran away, and she knew the rest felt the same. They needed to talk, and it was probably good for Chris too, to talk about his past. Chris sighed, he wasn't getting out of this, he knew, he just nodded silently telling them he would stay a little longer.

After Chris called Bianca to tell her where he was and what had happened, which took forever because Bianca was very worried and it took all of his power to keep Bianca from coming to the manor, he went to the dining room where the family was currently sitting and waiting for breakfast that Piper was making. He looked around the table and saw they had left him his seat, the seat he always took when he still lived here. Chris didn't really felt like sitting there again, so he went to the kitchen to help Piper with breakfast. Chris had learned how to cook at an early age, and in the last years he became quite good at it, so helping Piper with breakfast wouldn't be a problem. "Can I help?" Chris asked when he entered the kitchen, he had decided that if he was to talk to the family he should at least be civil, maybe nice even. He did not want to fight with them, they had done that enough, he was an adult now, had a family, a life. He had matured and he was sure they could be civil to each other. Piper looked up, surprised, but nodded "yeah, that would be nice" she said. She was so happy Chris stayed, though she knew it wasn't because Chris wanted to stay but because they had forced him. She was curious to his life, she wanted to know every little detail and hoped Chris would let her in.

They ate breakfast silently, Chris sat in his usual chair silently hating it. They wanted to ask questions, get answers, apologize, explain, oh how they just wanted to talk to Chris again, but they stopped themselves, everybody needed time, time to wrap their heads around Chris' presence, and time to make sure they asked to right questions and explained everything in the right way. Piper and Leo had understood right away what they had done when Chris left, and they had decided that if Chris ever came back and gave them a chance to explain themselves that they would take it, and explain everything, to tell him about his time traveling and such. They had already told everything to Wyatt. And then the whole family was let in on this secret, so everybody save Chris knew the reasons for Piper and Leo's behavior. It was time for Chris to know, they just hoped he would stay to listen and try to understand. They really, really hoped he would forgive them, but Piper thought he wouldn't, that would be asking for too much. After breakfast Chris said "Well, I guess it's time for talking now huh, why don't we just go to the living room, and everybody who has to say or ask something just does that" Chris said, as much as he wanted to leave he would give them this, he would answer every question the best he could. The rest nodded, this was going better than they had thought it would, at least Chris was civil, it really showed how much more mature he had become.

They were all seated in the living room, the first question had yet to be asked, but it didn't take long. "First off, I want to say sorry, I know it isn't enough, not by a long shot. I know I have treated you badly, no horrible and really the reason I had at the time is a bad one. I'm sure everybody else will say it themselves but I want to say sorry from all of us for our behavior, we will explain everything I promise but I just want to know, are you healthy? And are you happy? Piper said, she knew her sorry wasn't good enough, but those two questions haunted her every day, she needed to know. Chris nodded, he had expected those two questions to be the first ones. "Yeah I'm healthy and yes I am happy" he answered, it was a short answer, but really that was what Piper needed to hear. Piper smiled, that was good. "Ahh, good, I was so worried" she said. Chris understood that, ever since he became father he was worried for his children, worried about their health, worried that they were not happy, but the thing he was most worried about was that he was a bad father, a parent like his parents were. Bianca always told him he was great and would never be like Piper and Leo, but sometimes Chris wasn't so sure. But also ever since he had children he became angrier about his parents behavior, he never understood their actions but when he saw his little babies for the first time he understood them even less. How could a parent behave that way? How could a parent make his/her child feel that way?

"I understand you're all sorry, that you want to apologize, that you want to say it a thousand times if it helps anything. But please don't. I know you're sorry, I've known that for quite some time. Not to make you feel bad or anything, but you should feel sorry, you should feel guilty. It makes you all human, and it helps you to refrain from doing it again. I was always worried you know, that when I wasn't there, you would pick another victim. That one of my cousins would be next" Chris said, he had always looked out for news of his family, to make sure that if it happened again he could help, that he could take his cousin away from it, he never wanted to see anybody go through that. His family looked shocked, appalled even. "We would never do that to our children" Phoebe said, but realized quickly how that sounded, she started to apologize, but Chris wouldn't let her. He had long ago decided he had to get over his past, over his fears and flaws. He knew what his family had done, he knew they were sorry, and he knew he knew after a while they would not treat another family member like that again. He had let it rest, he had accepted his past and moved on. It did hurt him sometimes, to know he never really was a part of the family but he had accepted it. "it really doesn't matter anyways, because you haven't treated your kids that way" he said, showing them he had looked out for the cousins, something that warmed their hearts, even though he left, he still cared, he still looked out for them.

"Not to be rude, or to say that we don't want you here, because you are of course always welcome, but why are you here?" Paige said, it was never explained why Chris was sitting in the living room when they arrived, and since Phoebe and Piper had both felt that something was wrong, Paige was a bit worried something had happened, something bad. Prue and Wyatt looked sheepishly, they didn't really want to tell their parents they almost died and that Chris had to save them. "Well, long story short, Prue and Wyatt were attacked, somehow Wyatt was hit and went down, and Prue was alone in the fight, Prue held them off for as long as she could but it did not help in the end. Somehow I was rudely awoken from my sleep to hear Wyatt yelling for help. I orbed here as fast as I could, vanquished the demons thus saving Prue, called my whitelighter Lydia to save Wyatt." Chris explained quickly, hoping that if he told it, nobody would explode, because really he didn't need to hear Phoebe and Piper rage at their children for their stupidity, they already knew how stupid they had acted, and had almost paid the price, though he knew they would still explode, he was an father himself, if he heard his children had almost died he would tell the exactly how he thought about it. "WHAT!" Phoebe and Piper yelled, and the raging began.

After an hour of telling them how stupid they had been, how they could have died, that they should have called for help, and thanking Chris profusely they went back to their original topic. Chris asked the big question, why had they behaved the way they did. "You keep saying you have a reason for your behavior, you have a reason to keep me out of the family, to make me feel unwanted. I would like to know your reason." He said, and he looked at his parents, he really wanted to know what reason a parent could have to do that. Piper sighed, she knew it would come, she knew she would have to explain. She looked at Wyatt and he nodded, Chris needed to know, even if that meant opening up old wounds. Wyatt had been so broken when he heard about Chris coming back in time to stop him from becoming evil, he had cried and apologized a thousand times. Chris had died for him, he could never forget the looks in his parents eyes when they told him how Chris had died. "We will tell you, we should have told you ages ago" Leo said.

When Wyatt was 1, and you weren't even born yet a man came from the past. A man named Chris Perry, or at least that is what he told us. That man helped us defeat the titans, and I became an elder so Chris Perry became the girls' whitelighter. Chris was neurotic, made them vanquish more demons than we can count, he was always on the hunt. We wanted to know who he was, why he came back. But Chris never told us anything if he could help it, the only thing he said was that he came back to save Wyatt. After a while Chris revealed he did not come back to save Wyatt from a demon, but from Wyatt becoming evil. We did not believe him, we hated Chris. Blamed him for everything that went wrong, blamed him for the separation between Piper and I. We treated him so badly. By accident Phoebe found out his true name, and thus who he really was. Paige and Piper were told and it turned out Chris Perry was Christopher Perry Halliwell, second and youngest son of Piper and I, and Wyatt's little brother. You" Leo said, he looked at Chris to see if Chris heard him, to see if he understood. Chris just looked at him, no emotion on his face.

Phoebe continued the story. "When we finally knew who you were we knew you weren't evil, we knew you didn't want to split Piper and Leo up nor did you want to hurt Wyatt. We didn't tell Leo because he had to leave to become a full time elder, and you didn't mind it. In the future you never had a good relationship with Leo. But when there was an attack we were forced to tell Leo the truth. It took him a long time, but eventually they talked and became civil and nice to each other. We all worked together to find out how Wyatt was turned, and in the end we finally found out it was Gideon, an elder we trusted. Leo stopped him from turning and saved Wyatt and the world by killing him, but it was too late for you. Gideon had taken Wyatt from you by hurting you badly. He had stuck you with an poisoned athame in your stomach, because of the poison we couldn't heal you, and in the end you.. You d-died." Everybody had tears in their eyes except for Chris, he was too shocked to cry, he had thought of many explanations his parents could come up with, but this, well this he had never thought of.

Piper continued "You d-died, and…. and on the same day little you was born. We were so broken, grieving for our lost son and nephew, we couldn't believe you had died. But then we were happy to, because little you were born, and you were healthy and living. Your pas self had succeeded, he had saved the future and saved Wyatt and his family. We thought it was for the best if we didn't tell you or Wyatt about something that would never happen. But still you had died, you died fighting, and we were scared, what if that still did happen? We were so scared and so we decided that it would be best if we kept you from the demons and from the fights. We thought we could save you that way, we thought it was for the best." T

here it was, the reason for all his pain. They were afraid he would die if he ever fought demons. He understood some of it, but still he was so angry, all those years of pain just because they were afraid he would die! "You made me feel worthless, made me feel like I was nothing, like I didn't belong, you made me feel unwanted and pushed me away. You did all of that because you were afraid that I might, MIGHT, die? Because my past self had died and I had a tiny chance to die too, so it would be better to just leave me alone in my room, afraid that somebody would be hurt, wanting to help but I couldn't, because nobody ever taught me how to fight, how to use my powers, you left me useless because of some stupid fear! Are you all fucking stupid! Are you so dense you could not see how much I was hurting, how irrational your fear was!" Chris was not just angry he was furious, all his pent up anger from all those years came out now. Stuff in the room exploded because of Chris' power, but everybody let him rage, they knew they had to let him.

Chris began to pace, he had to vent his anger, slowly his anger lessened and Chris took a seat again, he motioned for his family to talk again, to show them he was okay again. "Sorry, I just let the anger get the better of me, won't happen again" He said, he was a bit embarrassed about his behavior, he could not believe they could still effect him this much. Piper nodded, she understood, she had listened to her sons' raging and he was right, they were so stupid with their irrational fear. Chris was 30 now and was obviously still alive. "Were sorry, we know this reason is stupid, and we obviously feared something that wouldn't happen. But we're parents, and parents worry, and I'm good at worrying, so that's what I do. It was stupid, and it was wrong of us to give you a youth like that, to make you feel like that. We never wanted anything like that to happen. But we did it, and it won't change, your past won't change. I just hope you can move on, and have a better life, a good life. I hope you can be happy, and that one day when you look back at your youth you can think of good and happy things, that when you look back you don't think about us in anger and hate. That is what I hope for. I know it's something big, and I won't ask you for your forgiveness, I would like it, but I won't ask it from you, that is too much to give and I know that, I understand that" Piper said, she craved for forgiveness, but she understood that Chris was angry, that Chris probably could never find it in himself to forgive her. If the roles were different she probably wouldn't forgive either.

"I understand your reasoning. I understand that because my past self died early, you thought I might die too. You're parents, parents worry. I know, I worry all the time. But really that reason is not good enough. That reason doesn't give you the right to treat a child like that. I'm worried my children can die because of the path Bianca and I walk, I'm worried that they will be hurt. But really I know they are going to be hurt, when they are older and have their powers under control they will fight, they will continue the battle we stand for. And just like us, and generations before us, they will hurt and experience losses. It is life. I don't want that for my children, if I had my way, yes I would want them save. But this is life, and the evils out there exist, we can't just let them be. And so I will train them, make sure they are prepared for the worst. To make sure they have a fighting chance and then I worry and hope for the best." Chris said. All he got was shocked faces and silence. Then Penelope asked. "You have children? You are a father?" Chris had forgotten not all of them knew, only Wyatt, Prue and Victor knew from this family.

"Yes I'm a father" he answered, he wasn't really sure if he wanted to tell the whole family about his children. He was a proud father, he loved his children to death and would do anything for them. But was it a good idea to tell this family about them, if he told them, they would want to meet, and was it really a good idea to let this people meet his children. He was treated bad, so how did he know his children wouldn't be treated the same way. But then that was a horrible and stupid though. They gave him a reason, and that reason didn't apply to his children, so really they had no reason to treat them badly. "wow, congratulations, probably a bit late, but wow!" Pearl said, she had a boyfriend for 3 years now, and she was ready for the next step, she herself really wanted children. Actually, all the cousins wanted children, and it would probably only be a matter of time before Prue was pregnant, as least that is what Pearl thought. "I'm a grandma?" Piper said, still shocked, she was happy and sad, happy that her son had children she always knew he would give them the first children, but sad that she didn't even know. Phoebe squealed, she loved children, "How many kids do you have? Boys or girls? How old? Omygosh how cute that you have kids!" She was really happy for Chris. Chris had decided that he could tell them. "I have twins, a boy and a girl. We named them Sophia Lynn and Jason Wyatt. They are now 5 years old" he said, a proud smile on his face. "I'm sure you are a really good father" Henry said. "Do you have a photo?" Priscilla asked, and Chris showed them some photos he had in his wallet.

"Do you think you can tell us about your life, after you left us I mean" Paige asked, wanting to know how he was doing. Chris nodded, he could just give them the story he gave Wyatt and Prue. "Yeah sure, I could do that. Well obviously when I left I was in a relationship with Bianca, something you guys hated. Well I'm happy to say we are still together and we are married, I asked her 3 years after I left and we have been married for 6 years now." Chris said, he smiled at the faces of his family, they were happy for him, but they didn't really like the idea of him marrying a demon. "Well, I guess that was to be expected" Paige said, they hadn't told Chris or anybody else about Bianca's visit when they talked about the time travel story, but the older people in the room understood her sentence. Chris just shrugged, he continued "When I left I was in college, I was studying journalism. I graduated at 22, and I work as a journalist for the local television-network. Bianca studied psychology, and she is now a guidance counselor at a local high school. We both love our jobs." Piper smiled, education was important to her, she was happy that Chris went to college and got a diploma. Journalism was perfect for him. "You work for the local station? So you live in this area?" Patricia asked, she never expected that, how could he live here, work here and still manage to stay off their radar? Chris didn't really wanted to tell them that he lived in the area and cursed himself that he had said where he worked, but then thought that it didn't really matter, they still couldn't find him magically, and finding somebody in San Francisco wasn't that easy. "Yes, that is correct, I live in San Francisco, never left the city either. Well yeah to travel, but that's it" They were all shocked, he lived so close by! "Wow, so close by, but still so far away" Coop said. Chris laughed, he found their shocked faces quite funny, but he continued "After Bianca and I were married we got pregnant very quickly, and after a year of marriage Bianca gave birth to the twins. And well, that's really the story" Chris said.

Though Chris never really wanted this reunion, he was still curious as to how his family were doing, so he asked "And you guys, how are you all doing?" Paige answered first. "Were doing okay, considering we all never really got over you leaving, but you know we live. I'm now full time whitelighter, and Henry still works with his parolees. The twins grew up, they went to college, Patricia takes after me and is now a social worker while Penelope works at a magazine." She said, Phoebe went next "I still work at the paper with my column ask Phoebe still doing great, I still write books, I wrote 2 more in the time you were gone. Coop is still a cupid. Same as with Paige my kids grew up too, I had a hard time letting them go you know. But yeah they went their own way in the end. Prue also studied Psychology and now works as marriage counselor, she is engaged to Luca, Pearl loves to cook just like Piper, and she works in the restaurant of Piper as chef, Priscilla is just like your aunt Prue she is a photographer for a magazine, the same one Penelope works at" Phoebe told him, she was obviously proud of her girls, just as Paige was. Somehow the jobs they had didn't surprise him, they really fitted the girls.

"Well I guess that leaves us huh" Piper said, "It was really hard to go on with our lives after you left, Wyatt went in depression, I would not stop looking, Leo neither. We stopped our lives for a while. But then we understood that this was you choice, we made you leave and you did not want to be found, we still searched from time to time, well more like every week we scry and do some spells. But anyways we somehow accepted it a bit. Leo and I made sure Wyatt got help for his depression, and well he got over his depression, oh we were so happy then. I still own the restaurant, and for a long time also P3. But Wyatt owns P3 now. Leo still teaches a magic school, something he loves. We really missed you Chris" Piper told him. Chris was happy to know everybody was doing okay, and he had missed them too. "yeah I know" He answered. He had his explanation, he knew how they were doing. It was time to go.

"Well, I think I should go now. Don't spend your time on looking for me, you won't find me, not magically and not in the normal way, Bianca and I made sure of that. If I want to see you again, talk to you again or something, then I will come to you, but you all need to give me time." Chris said, everybody looked sad, they did not want him to leave, especially when they didn't know if they would ever hear from him again. "Bye everyone!" Chris said, and he orbed away while hearing the goodbye's from everyone. The one of his mother he heard the loudest "Bye sweetie, we love you, you are always welcome here. Please come back again!" she had said. Chris orbed home, he needed to talk to Bianca, because now he had seen them again, what should he do?

AN. And that was the chapter! I hope you enjoyed it!