A/N: How long have you waited for this? I'm so sorry. I left you on such a cliffhanger and I haven't updated in a while. So, here it is...hope you like it!

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Chapter 5: Do I Love Him Back?

He was still kissing me. Why didn't I stop it? I have no clue.

We parted and he looked deeply into my eyes.

"Before you punch me, I don't know how it happened, but I've fallen in love with you. It just took this trip for me to realize how long I've loved you," He said.

I was confused and lost. I didn't know what to say or do for that matter. He was there and just poured out feelings that I didn't even know he had.

I can't do this, I told myself. This was one of the things I was bad at. Admitting the obvious. I just can't.

"Freddie, you don't love me. When you love someone, its gotta be spontaneous. It just floods over you and you don't know how it happened, but your glad it did. You're wanting it to work, so badly. You're wanting to hold on and never let go, but you're afraid it won't last, the feeling will leave you as soon as it came," I said.

"Sounds like you know the feeling."

"I'm sorry, Freddie. I can't do this!" I ran to Jeevers and he ran to his horse.

"Sam! No, please!" I took off on Jeevers. The tears fell over my face as I had realized what I had just done.

I could hear him behind me. I didn't want him to be unhappy, it's just I was so...

...scared.

"Sam!" He finally caught up with me because we were back at Mamaw's place. I was crying. I had never been this scared. He got off and so did I. I was looking away from him, but he took his hand and turned me around.

"I can't do it, Freddie! I just can't!" He cupped my face in his hands. He gently wiped my tears away from my face with his thumb.

"Don't cry. I know. I'm scared too. I know that I love you." He kissed me again and I kissed him back. He put his hands on my waist and I put my arms around his neck. I couldn't think.

"Can I think about it?" He looked at her, "Please, Freddie."

"Of course." He swallowed hard and shook his head, "Well, I'll go help out your Grandma."

"'Kay." He walked past me into the house.

I sighed.

Why is this so hard?

Freddie helped and then went upstairs. He wrote this:

Sam,

I know you're scared. Why do you think it's taken me this long to tell you how much I truly love you. I know you think that I'll leave you. I won't, not ever. I'm done running, Sam. I love you and I want to be with you. Just know, even though I'm Freddie, I might be a geek, but I know you need me as much as I need you. Please don't give up on me, Sam. Please, I love you I'll say it again and again.

Freddie

P.S. It's scary, but it's worth it.

Freddie read over quickly and crumbled it up. He went downstairs and threw it away.

"What am I gonna do?" He said to himself.

The next morning, I came down the stairs. "Freddie?" No answer, "Where is he? Freddie?" I thought of where he could be. I hopped on Jeevers and took off.

I was right. There he was in the middle of Mamaw's field. "Hey."

He turned around and saw me. He said nothing. "I've thought about it."

"And?" Freddie asked.

"Wow, you're actually talking to me?" He gave me a serious look.

"I know you feel like you've got to hold everything back. I felt like that too. Maybe it's not just the fact I love you. I love your voice, your smile, and this other side of you. Everything about you, is just...perfect."

"Well, that's not entirely true."

"Sam, stop. This back and forth, we both know is just a decoy. You know there's just something were hiding from. What is it, Sam?" I put my hand on his shoulder.

"Freddie, I can't answer that question. I can't answer any of them. I'm sorry." I ran to Jeevers and went back to the diner Freddie and I had gone to the day before. I had thought about it. I was just so scared.

Freddie had gone back to the house, looking for me.

"Ugh!" He said. He just happened to see my door open. "Sam?" He slowly opened the door. I wasn't there. He saw my room an looked around. It was very...UnSamish.

He saw something in my suitcase. He quickly went over to see what it was.

A picture of Him and me, but that wasn't all. I had brought a letter. He read it aloud.

"Dear Freddie,

I didn't think me and you would ever have to go on a trip together. We just got here and I feel like something's changed. It's scaring me. I just don't know what to do. You've been there for me ever since I can remember. Since I was Sammy. The best memories I have are with you. I pick on you, and I tease you, and I drive you crazy, but you never have stopped looking after me. I guess this whole point is, this little game we keep playing, I think I might think I need to keep playing, because if I don't, if I don't I'll lose you. I know how I feel about me. I'm not running away anymore.

Sammy"

He thought for a moment. What is she trying to tell me?

He ran outside with the letter in his hand.

"Sam?" He kept running. "SAM!" He finally came to the graveyard. I was sitting the by my dad's grave. I'd been crying, but he couldn't see that. "Sam?"

"I know you want answers. I just can't..." I got up and I wasn't facing him. I didn't want him to see me so upset.

"You won't lose me." I froze. Did I hear him right?

"What are you...you read my..."

"...letter? Yeah." I didn't know what to think. I still wasn't facing him, "I know why you're scared. You're scared because you love me too."

A/N: Another cliff hanger! Sorry! I really like all the good feedback I'm getting! Thanks! :)