Eeeep! Glee was so good yesterday! Points for Blaine for shoving Karofsky! And props to Santana :) so this chapter includes a spoiler that I read that made me super happy! Apparently it was leaked by an extra but not confirmed (the song). ENJOY ;D (p.s. for the song, bold italic is Jesse, regular italic is Rachel, and underlined is both) Also, im really mad at that Nicole girl (Glee extra) for revealing Prom King and uh.. Queen. AND I'M NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT! :( I don't want to ruin it for you guys, because i really didn't even want to know. But if you want to know if you haven't already heard, you can just inbox me.
Chapter 9: Scars of Your Love
The next day...
1 NEW TXT: JOEY
Meet me at the library in 10 ;)
I was a bit confused as to who had texted me until I remembered that Jesse was under the name "Joey"to avoid questions from anyone who rudely takes my phone and scrolls through my contacts. Santana had done that once, but didn't question who Joey was. His number has been under "Joey" since Regionals last year... But why the name Joey? Run Joey Run. It's stupid, I know, but it works.
I read the text over a few times... Should I go? I had told Quinn what happened last night and now I'm worrying again. She said he can't be trusted and said to think of all the bad things he has done to me. I didn't think of the quantity, for the only thing he ever did to me was the egg situation, so I thought of the quality: how much that one event hurt me. I decided to walk to the library to make up my mind on the way.
I arrived faster than I thought... Maybe he wasn't here yet... Maybe I have time to look for a song to calm me down.
I quietly slipped into the music section of the library. I wonder why he wanted to meet here. Maybe because this was the exact place where we met... This first time we connected through song. I had noticed that he wasn't there yet. I began to flip through books and sheet music, and then I found it: one of my favorite songs of all time. It used to remind of Finn and I a bit, but I realized as I read through the lyrics again that this song was practically written for me and Jesse's relationship. I took advantage of the empty room to try and play some of the chords on the piano... The piano where is sat beside Jesse when we sang "Hello." I was honestly a pretty terrible piano player. I fiddles with the keys and gave up. Then I felt his hand on my shoulder and his whisper:
"Deja vu, isn't it?" i turned to look him in the eyes. Mine must have screamed with sorrow because he immediately noticed that something was wrong.
"Rach, you alright?" he asked will deep concern. What am I supposed to do? What if Quinn is right?
"I'm so confused," I whispered.
"About what?" he asked, even more concerned. He sat down next to me on the piano bench.
"I told Quinn what happened yesterday after she left and... She thinks you're up to something. I don't know what to think." as I spoke, his eyes filled with pain and regret. "She reminded me to remember what you did to me... And how much it hurt..."
"I know but you're making me take all of the blame for what happened to us. You hurt me too, Rachel. How do you think it felt to see my girlfriend in the arms of two other guys who she used to date?" he said, noticeably upset. I couldn't pretend that it wasn't partly my fault, but he can't just throw this at me right now! I'm so confused and he isn't helping! I noticed him gazing at the sheet music i was trying to play: "Rolling in the Deep" by ADELE. He took a deep inhale and looked down at the piano keys. He once told me that he liked to play piano to clear his mind. He began to play the song. I couldn't help myself! You know what they say: Songs are for when you have to much emotion that you can't just say how you feel, you have to sing it. So, I began to sing:
There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,
Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and a I'll lay your ship bare,
I looked into his eyes. They were full of passion as he sang.
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do,
There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,
I tore my eyes from his and sang out to the vacant room.
The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
Baby, I have no story to be told,
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair,
Make a home down there as mine sure won't be shared,
The scars of your love remind me of us,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
I can't help feeling,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
We gazed into eachother's eyes. I could feel the fire in mine and could see the regret in his.
Could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
You had my heart inside of your hands,
But you played it with a beating,
Throw your soul through every open door,
Count your blessings to find what you look for,
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold,
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
We could have had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
It all, it all, it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
Could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
But you played it,
You played it,
You played it,
You played it to the beat.
In a split second, I looked from his eyes to his lips. I couldn't help myself... I jerked forward and pressed by lips against his. My hands flew to his shoulders. What was I doing? But then he began to kiss me back. He ran his hands through my long hair. I could feel him smiling. I couldn't help but smiling too... I finally understood Finn when he said he felt "fireworks" when he kissed Quinn. I felt the fireworks... but these weren't cheap carnival fireworks. No, these were like Disney World Nighttime Spectacular fireworks! My emotions of hatred and confusion melted away. All i felt was love. The emotion I hadn't felt in so long. I missed it. I missed us. We both slowly pulled away back into reality.
"...Sorry... I-I didn't know why I did that..." I stuttered, noticeably embarrassed.
"It's okay, Rachel. I liked that impulse of yours," He said with a wink. Why does he have to be so damn charming?
"I just don't know what to think..."
"Then stop thinking for once and finally let your heart decide what to do." He said gazing into my eyes. He put his hand on top of mine.
"Well what does your heart want?"
"...My heart really wants to kiss you again," Jesse smirked. I blushed vibrantly. Before I could say another word, he leaned in fast and our lips met once again...