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Chapter 12: Shadows Pt. 2
"Why didn't you tell me what they did to you?" Jesse asked with a hint of anger.
"Because I didn't want you to worry or freak out like you're doing right now!" The younger St. James fired back. Her eyes were a bit blood shot for she had been crying a bit. Kurt had let the nightmares Jillian had been having to her elder brother. Jesse had waited for Glee rehersal to let out before he confronted his sister for keeping the secrets from him in the middle of the empty parking lot.
"Jill, they hurt you. I could have done something about it! I feel like a horrible older brother for letting them do those things to you!"
"It wasn't that big of a deal! I'm a big girl! I could have handled it!"
"Obviously not if you ran awya to McKinely! They knocked you into trash cans, they've pushed you into lockers, tripped you down steps, cyber bullied you..." Jesse's eyes began to tear up as he chocked on his words.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you..." Jillian mumbled. "I was embarressed."
"Embarressed of what?"
"Of living in your shadow. But I can deal with it..."Jillian wrapped her arms around her chest to make sure to hide her "Born This Way" sure my keeping her jacket closed. Jesse paused for a moment, realizing what she was doing.
"Is that you're shirt for Born This Way?" Jillian looked up into his sad eyes and gave a small nod.
"What's it say?" Jillian refused to show him.
"Jill..." Jesse looked like he was going to cry. It hurt to know that his little sister was bullied out of school because of him. The guilt he felt ate Jillian alive. She sighed and opened her jacket. Jesse gasped at the word on her shirt: SHADOW.
"I'm sorry... I was just doing what Mr. Shue told us to do..."
"Which was...?"
"To... to put our biggest insecurity on our shirt..."
"Being in my shadow is your biggest insecurity?" Jesse struggled to say. Jill nodded, allowing a few tears to escape her eyes and roll down her ivory cheeks.
"I'm really sorry Jesse-" she began to whisper again, but Jesse cut her off.
"Don't apologize. I should be the one apologizing. Its my fault... It's all my fault."
"Jesse, don't say that! It's not your fault that you're a better singer."
"But its not fair that that's the reason you were picked on and tourmented!"
Kurt and Blaine had hear the siblings shouting from the nearest exit. They peeked their heads out the door to see what was going on.
"Damn it." Kurt mumbled.
"What?" Blaine whispered, trying to keep his voice down.
"That's my fault..." Kurt said quietly, referring to the two St. James kids. Blaine gave him a confused look but was quickly shushed by Kurt when he tried to speak again.
"Please forgive me for all of this. I take full blame for what happened to you at Carmel."
"Of course I forgive you, Jesse. You're my big brother... even if you can be a jerk sometimes." Jesse smiled and pulled Jill into a hug.
"Thank you." He mumbled. Jillian broke the hug first.
"I better go get ready for the performance. You're welcome to come watch if you want." Jesse nodded. Jillian smiled back at him and walked off to the door behind which Kurt and Blaine were hiding. They dodged back inside before she could see them. Jesse remained in the parking lot until he heard footsteps approaching him quickly from behind and two arms wrap around his chest.
"That was really sweet of you, Jesse." Rachel murmured. He turned around and smiled at his girlfriend.
"I see you didn't go through with the surgery then..." She smirked and went up on her tippy-toes to give him a quick kiss on the lips.
"Nope. I'm happy with the way I look. I even embraced it," Rachel said, showing him her shirt which read: NOSE.
"Good, because you're beautiful in every way just the way you are." Jesse said, making Rachel blush vibrantly.
"By the way, the little chat with your sister gave me an idea..."
"Yeah?"
"Yup. Now come with me." She grabbed his hand and led him towards the school. "C'mon! Hurry!"
It doesn't matter if you love him
or capital H-I-M
Kurt stood center stage in his red plaid jacket, covering the words on his white tee shirt.
Mercedes and Tina began to take the stage.
Just put your paws up
'Cause you were born this way, baby
Jillian turned to Blaine, who was standing next to her. She had never seen him blush so much. Jill could tell that his eyes were glued to Kurt.
"He should wear his hair like that more often..." he murmured. Jillian laughed quietly. Then Mercedes and Tina pulled Kurt sweater off, revealing the words LIKES BOYS. Blaine's knees went so weak that Jillian had to grab his shoulder to stop him from falling. She snapped in his face a few times to bring him back into reality.
Tina:
My mama told me when I was young
We are all born superstars
She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on
In the glass of her boudoir
Mercedes:
"There's nothing wrong with lovin' who you are"
She said, "'Cause he made you perfect, babe"
Mercedes and Tina:
"So hold your head up girl and you'll go far,
Listen to me when I say"
The rest of the Glee club danced onto the stage, revealing their shirt one after the other.
All:
I'm beautiful in my way
'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Don't hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you're set
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Everyone wore their biggest insecurities loud and proud on their white tee shirts: Four Eyes, I'm With Stoopid, Can't Dance, No Weave!, Can't Sing, Lucy Caboosey, Trouty Mouth, Brown Eyes, and Coward. Blaine's was by far the bravest statement in Kurt's eyes. Even braver than "Lucy Caboosey." He knew that Blaine had a hard time being as courageous as he pushed Kurt to be.
Ooo there ain't no other way
Baby I was born this way
Baby I was born this way
Ooo there ain't no other way
Baby I was born this way
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Kurt:
Don't be a drag – just be a queen
Brittany:
Don't be a drag – just be a queen
Jillian:
Don't be a drag – just be a queen
Kurt:
Don't be-
Quinn:
Give yourself prudence
And love your friends
Subway kid, rejoice your truth
Jillian:
In the religion of the insecure
I must be myself, respect my youth
Mercedes:
A different lover is not a sin
Believe capital H-I-M
Tina:
I love my life I love this record and
Mi amore vole fe yah
All:
I'm beautiful in my way
'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Don't hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you're set
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Brittany ran off the stage, right into the audience where Santana sat next to Karofsky. She smiled when she saw that Santana was wearing the tee shirt that said LEBANESE which she had made for her. Karofsky also had on a Born This Way shirt, but crossed his arms to hide the word AFRAID. He refused to get up as he watched Brittany pull Santana back to the stage with her.
Ooo there ain't no other way
Baby I was born this way
Baby I was born this way
Ooo there ain't no other way
Baby I was born this way
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Kurt:
Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Whether you're broke or evergreen
You're black, white, beige, chola descent
You're lebanese, you're orient
Tina:
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied, or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today
'Cause baby you were born this way
Blaine took Kurt's hand and lead him to the front of the stage where they stood next to Santana and Brittany... who were also hand in hand.
Blaine, Kurt, Santana, and Brittany:
No matter gay, straight, or bi
Lesbian, transgendered life
I'm on the right track baby
I was born to survive
Mercedes, Mike, Finn, and Tina then stepped up and stood with them:
No matter black, white or beige
Chola or orient made
I'm on the right track baby
I was born to be brave
All:
I'm beautiful in my way
'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Kurt ran to the side of the stage and pulled Rachel on. Mr. Shue and Emma quickly followed.
Don't hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you're set
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Ooo there ain't no other way
Baby I was born this way
Baby I was born this way
Ooo there ain't no other way
Baby I was born this way
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!
Everyone cheered and clapped for each other. Sam hugged Jill and spun her around. Blaine definitely couldn't hold in how much he wanted to kiss Kurt so he grabbed his hand, spun him over, and pressed his lips to Kurt's. Jillian giggled and Puck whistled. A few other members gave a few catcalls.
"Wanky!" Santana shouted. The couple finally separated and Kurt gave Santana a deadly glare. She simply laughed in reply.
After a while, the Glee club memebers dispersed. Jillian was the only one left when Jesse finally stepped out of the shadows in the back of the theater. He had a grin on his face as he approached his sister.
"May I say that hat was an awesome performance. You were great, Jill." She ran up to him and pulled him into a tight hug. She quickly let go when she realized that she had changed his shirt. It was now a white tee shirt that said: JERK in big, bold, black letter.
"No way!" Jillian laughed.
"Rachel helped me make it. The 'Jerk' part was her idea." He blushed a big and let out a short laugh. They began to exit the theater. Jesse turned to face his sister once more.
"You're definitly not a shadow. You're a star, Jillian. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise," He said with a soft smile. Jillian smiled back, tears welling up in her eyes. She hugged her big brother again and whisper "Thank you."
"Well, since I didn't really get to take part in 'Born This Way,' I've decided to sing a Lady GaGa song on my own," Rachel smiled the next day at Glee rehersal.
"Awesome, Rachel. Let's see what you've got!" Mr. Shue jeered. Rachel took the floor and waved for Brittany and Jillian to come join her. They took there positions, making a small triangle with Rachel in the front.
(italics - Rachel, Bold italics - Brittany and Jillian, Underlines italics - all 3 of them)
Woah woah woah woah woah
I'm in love with Juda-as, Juda-as
Woah woah woah woah woah
I'm in love with Juda-as, Juda-as
Judas Juda-ah-ah, Judas Juda-ah-ah, Judas Juda-ah-ah, Judas GaGa
Judas Juda-ah-ah, Judas Juda-ah-ah, Judas Juda-ah-ah, Judas GaGa
I couldn't love a man so purely
Even prophets forgave his goofy way
I've learned love is like a brick, you can
Build a house or sink a dead body
Ah-ah-ahhh-ow uh uh o
Ah-ah-ahhh-ow uh uh o
I'll bring him down, bring him down, down
Ah-ah-ahhh-ow uh uh o
Ah-ah-ahhh-ow uh uh o
A king with no crown, king with no crown
I'm just a Holy fool, oh baby it's so cruel
But I'm still in love with Judas, baby
I'm just a Holy fool, oh baby it's so cruel
But I'm still in love with Judas, baby
Woah woah woah woah woah
I'm in love with Juda-as, Juda-as
Woah woah woah woah woah
I'm in love with Juda-as, Juda-as
Ew!
In the most Biblical sense,
I am beyond repentance
Fame hooker, prostitute wench vomits her mind
But in the cultural sense
I just speak in future tense
Judas kiss me if offensed,
Or wear ear condom next time
I wanna love you,
But something's pulling me away from you
Jesus is my virtue,
And Judas is the demon I cling to
I cling to
I'm just a Holy fool, oh baby it's so cruel
But I'm still in love with Judas, baby
I'm just a Holy fool, oh baby it's so cruel
But I'm still in love with Judas, baby
Woah woah woah woah woah
I'm in love with Juda-as, Juda-as
Woah woah woah woah woah
I'm in love with Juda-as, Juda-as
Judas Juda-ah-ah, Judas Juda-ah-ah, Judas Juda-ah-ah, Judas GaGa
The room filled with applause... except Finn. He just sat there, confused as usual. Puck and Mike whistled, but Tina smacked Mike in the arm and he immediately stopped. When the room settled down, Brittany was the first to speak:
"Wait... Rachel, you're in love someone who betrayed Jesus? How could you love a traitor?"
"It's just a metaphor, Britt," Jillian clarified.
"A what?" Brittany mumbled.
"Yeah, Rachel. You were singing about a diciple..." Santana cut in. "When you were reall singing about a Saint..."
"Santana!" Rachel snapped at her. Everyone turned to look at Rachel. To Rachel's luck, the bell rang and everyone left without any questions... except for the girls. They stayed behind...
"So... You and Jesse, huh?" Mercedes asked.
"What?"
"You heard what she said..." Quinn smirked.
"Yeah, I saw you two swapping spit at the Night of Neglect concert!" Santana exclaimed. Jillian gasped and let out a laugh.
"I knew it!" Tina added.
"So, you didn't expect that, now did you?" Quinn murmured, hitting a few keys on the piano. Rachel laughed softly and began to sing, which she often did...
(italics - Rachel, bold italics - the girls)
If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!
Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad
No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love
This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love
You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love...