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Chapter 11

Olivia opened the door to her apartment and stepped inside. Locking the door behind her, she turned on all the lights in her living room and threw her stuff on the couch, then flopped down. She was exhausted. And scared, and angry, and shocked, worried, confused….After Elliot's confession a mere few hours ago, she couldn't think. After twenty minutes at staring at the perp's house without focus, she called it a night and went home, after telling Cragen of course.

She rubbed her eyes wearily, and sighed. Seeing her with Blake put things into perspective, huh Elliot? Now he knew how she felt all those years, how she felt when he got back with Kathy. She didn't know what to do. In her heart, she knew she still loved Elliot, she knew there was still a piece of her heart that aced for him, that loved him so completely that she didn't know how to survive without him. But in her mind, she knew that Blake was better for her that he was a good partner, he was stable..and safe. How could she choose? How could things ever be the same with this confession hanging between them?

Her home phone rang, breaking her out of her troubled thoughts.

"Benson." she answered.

"Liv? Its me, Blake."

"Hey, Blake. Sorry I didn't call you, I just got in." Olivia said, trying to keep her voice steady.

"It's ok..how are you?" Blake asked.

How was she? She was a mess. "Im just tired, you know three hours in the car." Liv lied.

Blake was quiet "Are you ok?"

"Why would you ask that? Im fine" Liv answered.

"Your voice…it sounds off. Olia you know you can tell me, right?" Blake told her, his voice still quiet.

Olivia didn't say anything. What could she say? That her partner of twelve years declared his love for her? How would he react?

"Olia…?"

Olivia closed her eyes, hating that she was lying to him, but she didn't know what else to do. "Im just tired, Blake."

"I'll be over in twenty minutes." He hung up before she could protest.

Oh god, he was coming over. How could she face him? She got up,hurriedly put everything away, and washed her face. The doorbell rang and she went to go open it.

Blake stood there, wearing sweats and a sweatshirt and a frown on his face.

"Why did you come, Blake? I told you-"

"I had to see for my self, Olia." Blake cut her off. He stared at her, trying to see what was the matter, what was so big that she wasn't telling him. She indeed looked tired, but her eyes were sad and sparkling which he knew was with tears. He never knew her to cry, she wasn't that type of girl, knowing she was always so tough. He got a bad feeling in his stomach, he walked over to her and took her hands.

"What is it Olia? Please tell me." Blake pleaded.

Olivia stared into his blue eyes, a shade darker than Elliot's and whispered "It's Elliot."

"Whats the matter? Is he hurt?" Blake asked, trying to read her eyes.

"No, nothing like that. But yes he is, in a way" she added as a after thought.

"What do you mean? Whats the matter?" Blake said confused.

"He..told me he loved me Blake." She looked up at him "He told me that he loved me all his life, that he was divorcing his wife, and he told me that he wanted me to pick between you…and him."

Blake listened, shocked. What? What did she just say? "What do you mean, he loves you? And that you had to choose between me or him. This isn't a contest I already have you, right?" He asked, worried and confused.

Olivia looked at him guiltily, and her eyes were full of unshed tears. "Blake Im sorry that Im telling you this, sorry Im hurting you…but You deserve the truth. I loved Elliot, nearly for eleven years. I knew it was wrong, I knew it was trouble. Knew he had kids, and a loving wife. But I fell anyways. When he left his wife a couple years back I thought something would happen. I thought he felt the same way for me, as I did for him. But I never said anything, because just in case he didn't, I didn't want to ruin our friendship or our partnership. He told me now, because he saw me with you and couldn't take it anymore, and he asked me to choose. Im truly sorry…" She reveals, leading him to the couch and sitting them both down.

Blake looked at her uncomprehendingly. "Do you still love him?"

Olivia looked at him, not sure on how to answer.

"You do, don't you?" Blake stated, watching her.

"Yes, I do..but I love you too Blake. I'm sorry this is all my fault…you don't deserve this…" Liv answered meeting her eyes, still not one tear falling on her cheek.

"Thank you for being honest Olia. This isn't your fault. Whatever you might think. Take the time you need, and when your ready to choose, you know where to find me." He said, echoing Elliot. "Listen Olia. I don't know what Elliot told you, but I promise Ill give you what ever you want. I'll never leave you, I'll give you a house, kids, everything you ever wanted. And I'll never leave you, and I will always love you. When your ready to make your choice, call me I'll be waiting." Blake got up, brushed her cheek and walked out.

Olivia looked after him, more confused than ever. Both of them offering her what she always wanted, both of them loved her. How could she ever choose? She got up and went off to a troubled sleep.

The next morning, Olivia got up and took a shower. She felt better after it, and she put on jeans, a long cashmere brown shirt, and boots. She put on make-up, brushed her hair, and put on perfume. After eating a quick breakfeast, she headed out, nervous. She still didn't know who to choose, still didn't know who was to be her lover, partner.

She walked into the precinct and immediately noticed Elliot. He glanced up as she walked in, and there eyes connected. He noticed that she looked better than last night, but he also noticed the sad look in her eyes. Had she chosen? His stomach clenched, but he didn't say anything.

"Hey Liv." Fin greeted.

"Hey good morning." She smiled, looking away from Elliot.

"You ok, baby girl? You look tired." Fin noticed.

"Im fine, just got home late." she answered, going to make coffee. "Wheres John?" she asked looking at the empty desk.

"He took the day off." Fin informed her, handing her sugar.

"Thanks. So whats on the agenda?" She asked, walking over to her desk and sitting down, avoiding Elliot's questioning eyes.

Three hours later…

Olivia went to the locker rooms, frustrated. This rape case was killing her. Caroline Ford twenty two. Raped, beaten, then shot. There was no evidence, no DNA, and no witness. How was she going to find out who did this? She opened the door, and it revealed Elliot, changing his shirt.

"I'm sorry." she stammered, making to close the door, but he stopped her.

"Liv wait. Close the door." He said, buttoning the last button and closing his locker.

She did as he asked, and locked it, nervous.

He crossed his arms, and looked at her "Have you chosen?"

She shook her head, not trusting herself to speak.

Elliot let a breath, relaxing. Thank god.

"I told Blake." She announced, startling him.

"Really. What did he say?"

"The same thing you said, but in different words." Liv told him, forcing herself to meet his eyes.

They stared at each other, tension suddenly thick in the room.

"Does it waver your decision?"

"No. But it leaves me more confused, and more guiltily than ever."

"You have all the time you need Olivia." He used her full name, not sure he could use her nickname anymore.

She registered her full name "I know." She looked at him, his shirt which was navy blue, her favorite matched his eyes. He was taller, and more muscular than he was five years ago. He looked worried, and scared. His eyes were sill the ocean blue she always remembered, the thing she first noticed about him when she met him. She felt the same aching need as she always did when she looked at him, and knew. Knew her decision. It was suddenly so clear for her, so sudden that it shocked her, making her stagger. How could she ever look or love anyone else, when she had him? Had him, and his love?

"Olivia? You ok?" he said, watching her glazed eyes.

"Elliot. I know who I want." She whispered, staring at him wonder filling her eyes.

"Who is it?" He asked, his voice shaking, scared. If she left him, he didn't know what he could do. How he could cope. He was so immersed in his thoughts, that he almost didn't hear her, but he did.

"You."

"What?"

" You." She repeated, a simple word but holding so much more.

Elliot's eyes lit up with joy and he took a step toward her. "You mean that? You choose me?"

"Yes." She smiled, forgetting about how this would hurt Blake, but she knew in her heart that she loved Elliot. Knew that he was her soul mate, knew that she could never live with another man, while he was in her heart.

Elliot couldn't take it, with a shout of joy, he ran to her and swept her in his arms. He twirled her in his arms, laughing with pure joy. This beautiful, strong, smart, sexy woman was his. His alone, his forever. His soul mate, lover, partner. He brought her close, and kissed her.

Olivia closed her eyes as his lips touched hers, loving the way they fit perfectly. They were soft and rough, and she kissed him eagerly, passionately. Elliot relived in the softness of her lips, he gently opened them and there tongues danced. When he couldn't breathe, he pulled away and looked deep in her beautiful brown eyes.

"I love you." he said, strongly.

"I love you too." She smiled, her voice equally strong, and they both leaned in for another amazing, soul shattering kiss.

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