Chapter 10

RPOV

We have stayed like this for a week now and Bella wasn't getting any better at all. I was staring to get real worried. She didn't talk again. All she did was sob which worried me even more. She was in distraught. Esme came once to check on us. Ness has visited but Bella refused to talk to anyone. It was like she was in a deep coma that no onecould get to. It has been a week and I know that she needed to hunt. Her eyes were now pitch black. I gently nudged her but she didn't respond. I sighed and did it again and I saw her eyes avert to me.

"Bella, you need to hunt. Your eyes are pitch black." I murmured.

"I don't want to, Rose. Your eyes are black as well. You hunt." She told me and I knew from the tone of her voice that I could not persuade her anymore. I sighed and left her for a while and ran to the main house. I needed someone to come with me just in case a human passes by. The burn was irritating my throat. When I got it, I saw Carlisle hanging up the phone and Esme sitting on the couch looking worries.

"Hey." I muttered and they looked at me.

"Rose, are you okay, honey?" Esme asked and I shook my head.

"Alice just called. She told me that she'll be back tomorrow. Aro called as well and he told me that the fourth king would come with Alice and he told me to warn you and Bella if he hits on you just shove him away and he'll stop." Carlisle said and I nodded. Alice was finally coming back. I know very well that Alice can comfort Bella the most.

"I need to hunt and I need someone to come with me." I said.

"I'll come with you. Esme, I think you should watch Bella. She's still grieving and I guess she refused to hunt again. Nessie is getting worried. She thinks that her mother hates her and she's constantly crying. You should check on her Rose." Carlisle stated.

"Okay. Can we go now? It hurts a lot and it's very uncomfortable." I whined and Carlisle nodded.

We both ran outside and to the forest. I smelled deer and I immediately jumped at it and drained it dry. I saw another deer and drained it. Then,a mouthwatering smeel hit me and I badly wanted it. I lunged and I was about to jump when someone pinned me to the ground. I growled and swiped at the person who pinned me but once I recognized the person as Carlisle, I stopped.

"I'm sorry, Carlisle. I'm just so thirsty." I apologized and he smiled reassuringly.

"It's alright, Rose. I understand. We'll go somewhere further, okay?" he asked, calmly and I nodded.

He stood up and helped me up. We ran further to the east and the scent of a mountain lion hit me and I drained it dry. I drank two more deers when a grizzly bear's scent hit me and that reminded me of Emmett. I fell to the floor and sobbed and I was collected in Carlisle's arm. I sobbed again and he murmured words of reassurance which didn't help at all. We stayed like that for a while until I calmed down. Carlisle carried me to our house and set me on the couch and Esme just hugged me tighter as Carlisle went to check on Bella. I was still weak and I knew it. The simplest things reminded me of him and it hurt me badly. I wanted to heal now but I couldn't. My body was resisting any ways of healing which made everything harder. I wanted to be whole but I think that it would never be the same thing again.

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The next day……….

I went to check on Bella again. I talked to Nessie yesterday and she now understood how Bella felt and that she'll check on Bells when she's better. I entered the room and Bella was still sobbing and the usual luster in her eyes still wasn't there. She looked like a train wreck. She didn't acknowledge my presence and I sat down beside her. She was humming her lullaby and I closed my eyes and listened to the tune. Her voice, even in a hum, was beautiful and very much like bells. I smiled weakly to myself. Bella needs to hunt. She needs to look somewhat appropriate for the king and it would hurt Alice to see her like this. She cared for Alice and she would do anything to not upset Alice and even I was pained to see her like this.

"Bella, you need to hunt. Alice and the new Volturi king is coming today at around eight this evening." I told her, soothingly.

"I don't care." She mumbled and I rose an eyebrow.

"Please hunt Bella. You need it. You're weak and the king needs to meet everyone. How about Alice? It'll pain her to see you like this." I pleaded.

"It doesn't matter. I'm as good as dead. Maybe the king would be kind enough to honor me with his gift by killing me." She said, coldly. I was mad now! Bella can't kill herself!

"Bella! You are not going to kill yourself. You will never think of that. Me, you and Alice will get through this!" I snarled and she laughed humorlessly.

"It doesn't matter if I die, Rose. You'll get over my death, all of you will. I might as well die than pain you seeing me like this, as you say." I glared at her.

"YOU WILL NOT KILL YOURSELF!" I shouted and stood up and stared her in the eyes. Her eyes were so distant and it was like her soul wasn't there. "KILLING YOURSELF PROVES YOU WEAK! IF YOU KILL YOURSELF, WHAT DO YOU THINK WILL HAPPEN TO ME? TO ALICE? TO YOU DAUGHTER? TO CARLISLE AND ESME? BE CONSIDERATE AND THINK OF OTHERS." She glared at me.

"Let me ask you something, when you left me before, did you guys even care of what I felt?! Did you think of what could happen to me? NO! So, why should I care now? I've always been a burden to you and I'm pretty sure you only liked me because I had a child!" she shouted and I was shocked and hurt and angry and all I could do was slap her in the face and she didn't face me anymore and she looked at the floor.

"We all care about you, Bella and it's about time you should care about us as well." I said, coldly and ran off. I wanted so badly to cry and Bella's words hurt me so much. I want to cry. I need to cry. I ran to the spare roo, ignoring Carlisle and Esme's worried faces and sobbed because right now that was the only thing I could do.

Bella's POV

I know that I hurt Rose tremendously and that I was being insensitive but I was hurting badly. The slap woke me up. I had to apologize but I didn't have the strength. I need to hunt. I was weak. After I hunt, I can go back to miserable Bella but right now I will hunt. I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror. I was a mess. That was the best way to describe the inside me and outside me. A mess and that's what I would be for some time.