Chapter 4: His First Love

They finally made it to Grell's apartment after the long walk. "Do you walk like this everyday?" Will asked not believing how much he just walked knowing that he has a perfectly good car that could have been used at his house.

"Yeah. I do." Grell stated as opening the door.

"No wonder your so skinny." Will said outloud by accident, but Grell chose to ignore the comment.

"Sit down and wait I will be right back. Remember you promised." Grell said as walking into his room.

"Yeah, I promised." Will looked around at the apartment. It was small, it didn't appear to have anyone but Grell living there. Will looked to his left and seen the family picture of Grell and his family. As soon as he began to look it over Grell came out in a beyond red colored dress. It was long and ruffled along with having a corset back. Will was at a loss for words. When he seen Grell come out he looked more like a girl than he had before.

"This is one of the reasons why." Grell started. "I like- I like to wear women's clothing!" Grell blurted out loud trying to say it as quick as he could.

Will was staring in amazement. He was also confused as to why this didn't bother him. He thought he should be replused or even creeped out but none which then led him to say,"Is that all? Its ok a lot of guys are begining to like the women's fashion now." He tried to cheer Grell up but apparently he was making it worse.

"Thats not all. I am going to say it now just to get it off my chest and if you hate me like all the others I wouldn't blame you. Ok, um here it goes...I am Gay." Grell didn't know if it was supposed to shock Will or what but Grell closed his eyes tightly to avoid his reaction.

To be all truthfull Will wasn't that much surprised. He was comfortable with Grell and he could see that he was a nice guy. So why was him being gay a big deal? Will knew he, himself, was most likely not gay. He didn't really find guys that much appealing but at the same time he never really wanted to date girls either. He just figured that he didn't want to date, and he was sticking by that.

"Thats ok." Will began. "I'm not to worried about that but can I say- as a friend- tell me how you got those bruises?" Will asked afraid of the answer.

"Um. Its a long story." Grell said softly as sitting down in his dress.

"We have time. Lets here it."

"Well, for starters I was kicked out of my house when I was thirteen and I wasn't aloud to come back unless I was strait again. I tried I really tried but it wasn't who I was so I gave up. I moved into this apartment with money I had in my pocket, only $28.56 my landlord let me stay seeing as I had no place to go after I explained to him my "tear jerker story". So then I enrolled myself into a new high school where no one knew me and I figure hey- what the hell go for it and pretend to be a girl since I wanted to become one anyway. So I figured if someone fell in love with me I would just work with it and explain that I would become a woman for them once I got enough money. Cause lets face it not many guys in high school want to be seen dating another guy. So I did meet a person, they liked me. We dated even kissed. Until he found out my secret." Grell took a deep breath. "I didn't want it to go that far. I didn't expect him to find out the way he did. He came over just like he always did after school then we were kissing again and he whispered in my ear 'I know your secret.' I acted like I didn't know what he was talking about but he got angry. He- smacked me and said that I was a 'pretender' and a lot of harmful words I don't think I could ever repeat but- it was the words that hurt me on the inside that made what he did next much more. He- He-"

"It is ok go ahead." Will responded trying to keep the red head calm.

"He raped me ok. He said that he needed to carve every lie that I gave him into me. I didn't intend to lie. I really loved him. I thought I knew him but I guess I didn't and now him and his friends beat the living daylights out of me knowing that I could never tell on them because of him. I still hear him in my mind telling me sweet words on how much he loves me even though I know they are all lies."

"Who is it? Who was He?"

"Sebastian Michealis." Grell said begining to cry. "You can't tell anyone, ever please promise me."

"But Grell if they are hurting you we-"

"Ever!" Grell cried.

"Ok, Ok. I won't say anything. I will keep you safe thats what friends do right?"

"Yeah. Friends. Thats what they do."

A/N: Can't wait till I work on next chapter. :)

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