Chapter 19: His Goodbye
Grell's eyes were wide leaving his glowing emerald eyes to stare confused at his boyfriend. What kind of answer was that? Grell could only wonder. He was expecting a yes or a no even possibly a maybe but an 'i don't know'. That was not was he was expecting at all. Sitting on the old couch became suprisingly uncomfortable for Grell as soon as that comment was said. Sitting next to Will was became awkward, he began to shift in his seat in different directions with his hands fiddling with each other.
The look on Grell's face became aparent he was thinking of something that was really troubling him. Something that he was afraid to say. Noticing Grell's sudden discomfort Will then added to his previous answer. "Grell I-"
"Do you understand Will? Do you understand at all?" Grell spoke his words chosen carefully.
"I am afraid I don't understand what you are trying to say." The shaky tone of Will's voice had not gone unmissed.
"Do understand why I want to become a woman?" Grell put his hands over his face trying to hide the tears that were begining to form in his eyes. Those very tears betrayed him as they slipped in between his fingers sliding down his skin.
"You told me it was so people wouldn't judge about you being a man. That people wouldn't judge you for who you loved because of your gender. Is that right?" Will stated trying to understand Grell's change in attitude.
"Yes, so that people like my father, your father, and all the Sebastians of the world could stop their judgemental eyes. I am sick of it. I feel bad for you because you are the one I ended up loving. I ended up loving you so much more than what I thought was love with Sebastian in the past. If I lose you Will I will fall apart. So I want to do it for myself, for us. I know that where ever you must go you are ashamed to be with a man."
"Grell-"
"Please let me finish. I know that I will lose myself and fall apart if I lose you. I also know that once you are gone and out of my life the beatings will most likely come again."
"Grell your scaring me. What are you talking about?" Will said not liking the way Grell was speaking at the moment.
"I want us...to break up."
"What? Grell what are you saying?"
"Until I get the change we shouldn't be dating. You lost so much already for me. I can't let you lose your family like I lost mine."
"Grell, what ever my father may have said has nothing to do with us. We- its you and me now, just us."
"But what about your college? Law School? Remember that? You have to go Will."
"But Grell I love you. What about that? What about my love for you? Love like this, the love I feel for you only comes once. Law school is always there, if I get money then I can go."
"I will still love you too Will, just until-" Grell's sentence was stopped short as a rough kiss was planted on his lips. His shoulders grabbed pulling him close to the warm body in front of him.
"Grell stop this, you don't mean any of this. Whatever you want to do I will be with you until the end."
"Will please. Please just go." Grell struggled to say as keeping his head down.
Slowly in shock, Will let go of Grell's arms. "If that is what you want, then...I guess we can take a break."
Will grabbed his things and without showing Grell his face which held tears in his eyes he walked out Grell's apartment door. Right before the door separating them shut for good, Grell could only whisper, "I'm sorry. I love you."
Those next few days in school went by in gray. Everything both of the two seen was gray, even Grell. He couldn't bare to look at his red anymore. There was no point in wearing his red anymore if there was not a spec of passion in him. Walking around the school the two seen people getting ready for the big dance. Prom. The night almost every senior was excited for. Will was one of them, as soon as he remembered about prom he was so excited. Unfortunately when he remembered that he had no relationship to take to the dance, his heart felt empty again. But inside his mind he created a plan to make Grell want to give up on him. Getting ready for prom which was in the next few days Will felt this plan was becoming was too much like the movies but he felt this is what it would take to show Grell how much he meant to him.
Tonight was the night of prom, at home Grell was sulking for the pain he felt in his chest for breaking up with Will. Along with the fact that tonight was supposed to be the best night of any senior. Grell knew he shouldn't go to prom because: A) He would dress like a woman and be made fun of B) He would feel alone without Will and C) He had a broken heart. A sudden knock at the door brought Grell out of his self pity. Standing up slowly he wobbled his feet to the peek hole and seen Will.
"Will go away." Grell groaned trying to hide his tears.
"Open the door Grell." Will demanded.
"No, why are you here shouldn't you be at prom?" Grell questioned.
"I should be but I'm not I figured on seeing you instead."
"Will I broke up with you go away." That sentence made Grell burst out in a fresh load of tears.
"If you don't open the door I got the spare to unlock it for myself."
"How did you get that?" Grell demanded.
"Mr. Nakamo who do you think? You gonna open up?"
Giving in, Grell indeed opened the door to see Will dressed in full tux with a red rose in his jacket pocket. "Here" Will said handing him a box. "Put it on or I will put it on for you." Grumbling Grell stomped over to his room to put whatever was in the mystery box on before Will attacked him.
In his room Grell stared inside the box. Will was kidding right? What was going on through his head? But it was rather cute... Ignoring his inner protests Grell put on the item and slowly walked back out to greet Will's presence.
"You like it?" Will asked as staring at Grell who was now wearing a beautiful red dress. The dress was long and slightly poofy and somehow still looked sexy, the top of it hanged low on his arms to show off his shoulder blades. Such a beautiful dress that had a zipper back. Grell fumbled with the zipper until he was roughly turned around. Will's fingers glided up Grell's back softly before zipping up his dress.
"I love it but, I am not going out in this." Grell said shyly.
"I figured you would say that so that is why I brought this." Will said as holding up a CD. He walked over to Grell's small CD player and pushed it as pressing a button.
Skillfully Will pulled Grell close twirling him into a dancing position with his hand enloped with his and Will's other hand placed firmly on his back. As the song began Will spoke, "I love you Grell. I know you want to break up but I want you to always think about me. After this night I will let you live for life, but just give me this night, our prom night to be with you before you force me to leave." The two shifted slowly side to side with the gentle taps of the piano playing in the song.
She can kill with a smile
She can wound with her eyes
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies
and she only reveals what she wants you to see
She hides like a child but she's always a woman to me
"I love that you want to become a woman, but I am not ashamed of you. If you are using that as a solution because you like to wear woman's clothing I don't like it. I like you the way you are, if will keep you the way you are I will always think of you as a woman, but I don't want you to change."
She can lead you to love
She can take you or leave you
She can ask for the truth but she'll never believe
And she'll take what you give her as long as its free
Yeah, She steals like a theif but she's always a woman to me
Will could only think of how much Grell had made an impact on his life. Grell had him feel things he could never had thought he could feel love and pain.
Ohhh she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Ohhh and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind
"Will, I love you. I- I just feel that we should seperate while you go to law school. Its your dream and I care about you enough to let you go off and do that. I will be fine here on my own till you come back."
And she'll promise you more than the garden of eden
Then She'll carelessly cut you and laugh while your bleeding
But she'll bring out the best and the worst you can be
Blame it all on yourself cause she's always a woman to me
"You promise you will be ok? That you won't get into trouble?" Will cautiously asked.
Ohhh she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Ohhh and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind
"I promise, Will?"
"Yeah?"
"Could you give me one more thing before you leave tonight?"
"You"
She's frequently kind and she's suddenly cruel
She can do as she pleases she's nobody's fool
And she can't be conficted she's earned her degree
And the most she will do is throw shadows at you
Cause she's always a woman to me
Soon the showed their love for one another with the same song of Billy Joel on repeat in the background forever now implanted inside their minds.
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