(A/N: Updating again! Hey :D This is chapter 3 in Blood as in, blood? It's a dumb name T.T but, it was the first thing I came up with! Okay, bye! 3)
"Andy, what happens if you get mad?" Andy glanced over at Ashley.
"My eyes become yellow, and I can't control my actions. Why do you ask?"
"When you were talking about Jake, you went through a lot of mood changes… From angry, to sad, to thoughtful, back to angry… It was scary."
"I'm sorry…" Andy looked down, "When something that hurt me in the past comes back, I can not control my emotions. I did not mean to scare you." (Me: I changed his use of words, 1800's… Now it sounds about right :D)
"No, it's fine, really. You should just forget him… After what he did to you."
"It is not that easy, Ashley. He is a part of me… No way around the truth. I will never be able to forget that fateful night." He looked up at the ceiling, the moonlight from outside catching his features. Ashley stared at him, he didn't look evil or deadly. He looked innocent, beautiful even. No! He is a man… So are you, no! Ashley snapped back, pushing away his thoughts. "I am not beautiful. I am a true monster, whether or not I want to admit it." Ashley forgot Andy had the power to read his thoughts, he blushed.
"I don't think you are… I'm not dead yet."
"Open your eyes, Ashley! I can not control my thirst for your blood, with how much I took the first time, I do not know if at this rate, you will survive or not. I am a monster!" Ashley stood up,
"No! You aren't! Jake is a monster, you are a human being trapped in the shell of a monster… But, you yourself, you aren't a monster."
"Do not try to make me see a different reflection, I know what I have done and I know what I have yet to do. I am a monster, and you are the victim."
"What have you done?"
"Killed, out of spite." Ashley's breath froze in his chest.
"But, I thought you said you never killed a human."
"They were not human. They were vampires, they wanted to kill everyone who breathed… The entire human population. I could not stand by and let them do that. I found a corpse, still filled with blood, I drugged the blood stream and threw it into a very large group of Rouges. They swarmed the body, devouring it. I stood by, watching their terrified faces as they disintegrated in to nothing but ash. I have not been the same since I saw their eyes… Their eyes… They burned themselves into my mind." Andy grabbed his head. "I can not ever get rid of their screams of terror… This is all because of that bastard!" Andy held back a scream. Ashley walked as close to him as the chains would allow. He was face to face with Andy,
"Its okay, all of it is over now." He grabbed Andy's shoulder, "They're gone." Andy looked away from him,
"They will never be gone. No matter what I do, or who I talk to, the faces never leave. Do you have any idea what this is like?" Andy looked like he was crying,
"No, ah, no I don't… I'm sorry…"
"So is everyone else. They never mean it…" He hissed, "No one ever gives a damn anymore. As long as they're happy, everyone else can go fuck themselves." This was a side of Andy Ashley never thought he would see.
"Andy… I mean it."
"I know, I can see it in your eyes." Ashley smiled,
"I won't lie about anything, like I keep saying, I don't want to be here, but, I am here… And, I will listen when you need it." Andy hugged him, tightly.
"Thank you…" He whispered, softly, in Ashley's ear. Ashley nodded,
"You're welcome." He pulled away. Andy was still holding him, close. He looked up at Andy, noticing a change in his eyes. He was… Happy again. Ashley felt his heart begin to race, what was happening? Ashley wasn't afraid of him anymore, he was… Attracted to him. Ashley liked the feeling of Andy close to him, even though his body was cold. Andy grabbed Ashley's chin, softly, touching his lower lip. (Me: Oh! They get they kiss on! Oops, spoiler .) He brushed his lips against Ashley's. Ashley let his mind wander, no… No, this is wrong… You don't feel this way about him! No! Ashley pushed himself away, "No!"
"What?"
"Don't kiss me…"
"I'm sorry…"
"Don't be, I wasn't exactly innocent either…" He looked away, "I let my emotions get the better of me." Andy sighed,
"I should not have tried anything on you, seeing as you are not gay."
"No, no… Its fine."
"I can read your thoughts. It is not fine. You're confused… You wanted me to kiss you…"
"No… No, I didn't."
"I can hear your thoughts, Ashley."
"Well, maybe I do, but, it would just confuse me… Even more."
"I do not understand how… I won't pressure you though. I am not like that." Ashley nodded.
"Thanks… I guess." Ashley sat back down. Andy sat down, too, sitting in front of Ashley. He tilted his head to one side,
"Why do you always dream about a shadow?"
"What do you mean?"
"Every night, you dream about a shadow… Like, its something you can't figure out."
"Because, it's a mystery to me. He or… She is someone I can't figure out, but, I feel like I have to. Ever since I've been here, this dream has come up. I have no idea what it's about, this shadow just passes through my mind, then leaves and sometimes, it saves me. What do you think it means?"
"I honestly do not know, maybe its someone you don't know very well, but, you know them… In your subconscious."
"I have no idea what you mean." Andy thought for a moment.
"A face you have seen before, or one you have yet to see, trying to get your attention by pushing its way into your mind." Ashley stared at him, thoughtful.
"Maybe, you're right."
"I could be, or I could be wrong. No one, but you, can figure this out." Andy smiled. His eyes opened wide, and he gasped.
"What is it? What's wrong?" Andy stared off, not paying attention to Ashley.
"The… F- F- Faces… I can see them, hear their screams…" Ashley grabbed his arm,
"Just calm down, it's okay… Calm down."
"No… I can't calm down, I can't…."
"You have to try."
"You don't understand! I can't let it all go! It was my fault that they died!" Andy growled. Ashley grabbed his face,
"Stop. I don't know, but, you can let it all go. It wasn't your fault, you were saving people. Andy relaxed.
"It was my fault they died."
"No, it wasn't."
"I was the one who threw the corpse! I was the one who found it and drugged it, I was the one who watched them crumble to ash… It was me! I did it single handedly…"
"It's okay."
"No, it never will be! I'm a monster…" Ashley didn't think, he kissed Andy, hard. Andy was shocked, he grabbed Ashley's sides, pushing him off. "Ashley, what…?"
"I'm sorry… It got the better of me…" Ashley sat back, letting Andy go.
"You aren't confused anymore."
"No, I guess I'm not." He blushed, "It won't happen again."
"It's fine." Andy stood up. "I'll be back later…"
"Where are you going?"
"To clear my head. I don't want to take my anger out on you." Andy walked up the stairs, leaving Ashley in the dark.