Dreams Are For Losers. I Prefer Reality: Chapter 6
Rachel's POV
"You can go first, Charice." I said politely, wanting to save the best for last.
"Aren't you normally supposed to save the BEST for last? Whatever." Charice quipped snidely as she walked up to the front of the room.
"Well, I would like to begin with Celine Dion's, My Heart Will Go On, from The Titanic." She sang flawlessly, but without emotion. She might as well have been Jesse St. James' younger, uglier, sister. "Now I will sing Jo Dee Messina's, You Belong In the Sun." Another emotionless performance. "And lastly, my song for Finn. For you, I have chosen Carrie Underwood's, I Just Can't Live A Lie."
She cued up the music and began.
"Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away" Boring.
"Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away? Boring…
No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now
Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie"
"Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy" I'm sorry, what?
"The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe
The way you know just what I mean" Oh my god. Everyone was looking at me silently saying that I shouldn't believe what I was hearing. But I just couldn't. Even Finn looked appaled. But I couldn't push the thoughts out of my head. can't live a lie
"No, I can't learn to live without
Ohh, so don't you give up on us now
Ohh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie
Ohh, and I don't wanna try
Ohhhh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie
I just can't live a lie
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just
Oh, I can't live a lie."
I ran out. I spent a few minutes crying when I realized that this is what she wanted to happen. She wanted me to just give up. I cleaned myself up and walked back towards the choir room. I cued Quinn and the music began.
Quinn sang beautifully. "Daylight
See the dew on the sunflower
And a rose that is fading
Roses wither away
Like the sunflower
I yearn to turn my face to the dawn
I am waiting for the day . . ."
I walked in as my I heard my cue.
"Memory, turn your face to the moonlight
Let your memory lead you
Open up, enter in
If you find there the meaning of what happiness is
Then a new life will begin
Memory, all alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again
Burnt out ends of smoky days
The stale cold smell of morning
The street lamp dies, another night is over
Another day is dawning
Daylight, I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin"
Quinn came in with her solo, "Sunlight, through the trees in summer
Endless masquerading"
Then our voices blended perfectly, "Like a flower as the dawn is breaking" I finished. I saw no dry eye. Kurt was sobbing uncontrollably, even Finn had a tear running down his cheek. I knew it was a good idea to sing Memory from Cats. I had chosen the song because it expressed perfectly the sadness of the loss of my fathers and Finn, and how I had left of them were my memories. But that now, I was ready to begin again. Just like a new day.
"The memory is fading
Touch me, it's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me you'll understand what happiness is
Look, a new day has begun"
But now I had to continue.
I knew it was time for Electricity from Billy Elliot. I cued Tina. "Can I just ask you Rachel, what does it feel like when you are singing and dancing?"
"I can't really explain it,
I haven't got the words
It's a feeling that you can't control
I suppose it's like forgetting, losing who you are
And at the same time something makes you whole
It's like that there's a music playing in your ear
And I'm listening, and I'm listening and then I disappear
And then I feel a change
Like a fire deep inside
Something bursting me wide open impossible to hide
And suddenly I'm flying, flying like a bird
Like electricity, electricity
Sparks inside of me
And I'm free I'm free.
It's a bit like being angry,
it's a bit like being scared
Confused and all mixed up and mad as hell
It's like when you've been crying
And you're empty and you're full
I don't know what it is, it's hard to tell
It's like that there's a music playing in your ear
But the music is impossible, impossible to hear
But then I feel it move me
Like a burning deep inside
Something bursting me wide open impossible to hide
And suddenly I'm flying, flying like a bird
Like electricity, electricity
Sparks inside of me
And I'm free I'm free" I used the long musical break to just dance.
"Electricity, sparks inside of me
And I'm free, I'm free.
It's a bit like being angry,
it's a bit like being scared
Confused and all mixed up and mad as hell
It's like when you've been crying
And you're empty and you're full
I don't know what it is, it's hard to tell
It's like that there's a music playing in your ear
But the music is impossible, impossible to hear
But then I feel it move me
Like a burning deep inside
Something bursting me wide open impossible to hide
And suddenly I'm flying, flying like a bird
Like electricity, electricity
Sparks inside of me
And I'm free I'm free
Free, I'm Free." Once again not a dry eye. And I now knew that they understood just why I pushed them so hard about music and choreography.
"My last number is for Finn, but I would appreciate it if Mercedes, Quinn, and Tina would back me up. Thank you."
I sat down at the piano and played the intro before I began to sing.
"Once upon a broken heart
I was walking alone in the dark
Looking for a way to start again
What I wouldn't give for a friend I fell into Finn's lap, both of us looking very happy.
"Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine Finn followed me off of his lap and in front of the piano.
"I could never dream of the day,
That your love would come my way and stay
And sweep me away" Finn (very adorably I might add) picked me up bridal style and spun me around.
There was no love in my life
There was no light in my eyes
All the tears that I had cried and cried
Seemed like they'd never end
And I never believed fairy tales came true
But now I know that they really do
And now that I found you and now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine in you
Show me a world that I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream"
Long ago and far away"
"And I never believed fairy tales came true
But now I know that they really do
And now that I found you and now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine in you
Show me a world that I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine"
"This is a way a fairy tale feels," Mercedes sang to Mike. He ran up to her. I didn't know they were dating.
"This is the way I know it's real," Tina and Quinn sang to their respective boyfriends Puck and Artie. They ran up to them.
"This is the way a broken heart heals, yeah" I sang directly to Finn. Who was holding me quite close I might add.
"And I never believed fairy tales came true
But now I know that they really do
And now that I found you and now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine in you Finn kissed me then. And staying true to fashion he picked me up bridal style and sat me down on his lap. I couldn't help but giggle.
Show me a world that I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine"
"Alright guys, are we ready to vote?" Mr. Shue asked. Everyone nodded.
"Those who prefer Charice?" One hand. Charice's.
"Those who prefer Rachel?" Every single hand was raised.
Then as a joke Kurt said, "Mr. Shue, imma let you finish and all but Rachel had the best version of Memory I evah heard!" Everyone laughed.
"Alright. We now know who our lead female vocalist is. And lastly, though I don't think I should have to ask, Finn, who do you choose?" Finn's response was a kiss full on my lips. I couldn't complain. "That's what I thought."
Two weeks earlier, I thought I could never be happy again. And if you had asked if I had found my one true love, I would have said no way.
But now, surrounded around my family (yes, Glee is my family) I can finally smile again. And being cradled in Finn's lap, I really do believe I have found my true love in him.
When I went home that night I didn't cry myself to sleep. It actually took me awhile to fall asleep, because, in Dr. Seuss' words, "You know you are in love when reality is finally better than your dreams." And reality has finally become better than any dream I have ever had.
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