I know this is not the longest chapter ever, but I really hope you like it.
Just A Crush: Getting Distracted
What did he mean by "why now"? Why did I stop there? No, that can't be it, he couldn't be that much of a jerk. So I just opted for my best option, the one that usually gets me out of situations like these ones.
"I don't know." I said and looked down. That one usually worked for everything, even school.
"I can't believe this is happening now, why didn't it happen back then?" He said, which I was glad he did so I could actually understand what he meant.
"I seriously don't know. But really this couldn't have happened, you have a girlfriend." I said frustrated, I would've hated if this happened to me.
"I know. But you know, I have waited for this for so long." He said caressing my cheek. "And you're a really good kisser, and your lips taste so sweet." He said pulling me to sit in his lap.
I buried my face in his neck avoiding eye contact. I couldn't believe this happened but I sure needed to be away from him. I sat up straight, right beside him.
"I know that back the you were shy and that's why it didn't happen, but I don't know." He said grabbing both my hands.
"James, I think you should get going tho, you have to meet your friends in a bit and Kendall is coming home soon." I said a bit too quickly. He checked his watch and nodded.
"You're right." He said and got up. I walked beside him towards the door. "Just so you know, I really liked this." He said and hugged me. I buried my face in his chest. He tilted my chin up and kissed me one last time before heading out the door.
With the slight pain I still felt in my foot I walked to my room and started cleaning. Yes I was a nervous wreck right now. I didn't know what would happen next. Would he just forget about me? Would he dump his girlfriend for me? Would he want to continue this in the shadows? I don't know, this was so confusing, I never thought I would be caught in this position. I'm still not even sure if this is more than just a crush, as in, can this be love in the future or was this just momentary passion.
I was frustrated at the moment so I grabbed a bottle of Windex and a paper towel and started cleaning the mirrors… Fifteen minutes later I realized I was gonna end up cleaning up my entire room.
I hated that he made me feel like this, but I still couldn't understand what was going on. I wanted to have him care for me, but still I couldn't feel anything special but I felt completely drawn to kiss him even if it wasn't that amazing.
Soon enough Kendall was back and just like he always does he comes in without knocking the door.
"Hey what happened down there? The cushions of the sofa are not where mom left them." He asked. I still can't believe he notices that stupid little detail.
"I fell so I moved them to make me comfortable because now my ankle is hurt." I said pissed off, not that much at him but mostly about what happened tonight.
After that he left and went on with his business. That night I had trouble sleeping, mostly because James wouldn't stop texting me. I decided to be away from him for a bit at least. What had happened shouldn't have happened and I thought I was strong enough to resist him but I was wrong. Maybe not resist him, but his charm, and the fact that my past relationships had been as cold as glaciers didn't help at all.
A couple of days later I decided to go shopping with Claire.
"Wait so you felt guilty because you were kissing him?" Claire asked.
"Yeah, he has a girlfriend, that wasn't right." I said feeling really bad.
"Go easy on yourself, it's not like you were having sex. Or were you?" She asked with a smirk which made me laugh.
"Of course not, not even if it was a fake virginity, I wouldn't give him that pleasure." I said smiling.
"Oh my, I see your evil side comes out at any time." She said giggling. She pulled me by the arm and we continued shopping. We even stopped by David's Bridal to get an idea on dresses for her wedding even if there was no date set.
Last time we had this kind of shopping was when we were fantasizing on what her engagement ring would look like. We knew he was going to propose of course, I however hadn't expected it to be THIS soon. But still dress shopping for the wedding was no different either. It was just to get an idea, have fun, and have most of it planned so it can be executed as soon as its needed. We weren't exactly the girly girls that had this planned since they were kids, or the ones that already have the idea in mind, so better prepared.
Yeah, this was good. I needed to get myself focused on anything but relationships, getting distracted is good…
And I was so close! Just then my phone beeped, I had a text from James. I decided to ignore it and read it later, if I didn't Claire would probably reply to him for me and God knows that always gets me into more trouble.