Title: To Heal the Hurt

Rating: T

Main Characters: Bella Swan & Jasper Whitlock-Hale

Synopsis: Bella and Jasper were married back in 1860, right before the war started in the beginning of 1861. During the war, Jasper goes missing and it tears Bella apart. About 150 years later, Bella and Jasper meet up again, but will everything go back to the way it was and will relationships work themselves out?

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Twilight or any of its characters. They all belong to Stephenie Meyer.

Except Bolton...he's mine=]

Hi=]

So it's been over two weeks since I last uploaded and even though I didn't get the response that I wanted, I decided to just go ahead and write another chapter just for you guys=] the responses that I got were each worth a 1000 reviews in my opinion and I thank you all for it=]

Now...I'm going to be posting a poll in my profile (I'll remind you at the bottom, don't worry=]) to see who Jacob should be with. I've gotten a lot of suggestions and I want you guys to decide.

Beware: A/N at the bottom...sorry, but it helps me write once I can get into a readers perspective.

So, here is chapter 4=] It's a fluffer one! Hehe=]

October of 2010- Jasper's POV

"Goodbye, my love," I whispered to Isabella as I kissed her softly on the lips for a few seconds before I pulled away and smiled over to Bolton, "Be good," I warned him.

Bolton smirked and rolled his eyes, "Of course, Jazz," he said while Isabella laughed slightly.

Both Bolton and Isabella both had to go back to their house just right by the border of Oregon to keep up with the human charade that they play. I've learned that Bolton will begin to attend Forks tomorrow, but as her sister.

I smiled to myself as I walked casually back into my house to find my family smiling ever so slightly towards me. All I felt coming off from the room was adoration and a bit of jealously.

I looked up to see Emmett crossing his arms over his chest while Rosalie smacked him, "Your kid is a punk," he muttered while I smirked a bit.

"Just because a 17 year old boy beats you in a video game competition doesn't make him a punk," I said as I rolled my eyes, "It just means he has a few decades on you on and he's had more time to practice."

He rolled his eyes, "Whatever. The only thing he's good for is pranking," he muttered before he walked up the stairs and walked into his room and slammed his door.

I rolled my eyes, "Sorry about him. He has never been beaten by a kid before," Rosalie said.

I smiled, "Oh trust me, I know," I said while everyone laughed.

"Jasper, when is Bella moving in with us? I'll need to set up a room for Bolton and make sure everything is ready," Esme said while I nodded my head.

I shrugged my shoulders gently before I looked back to her, "I was planning on proposing to her again after a while. Alice was thinking of a 150 year anniversary wedding," I said with a little chuckle.

"And she will be as beautiful as ever," Alice chimed in while I smiled.

Esme smiled a warm smile while looking over to me, "Well you two make a lovely couple," she said while she radiated adoration and love towards Isabella and Bolton.

I smiled and gave a small nod towards Esme, "Thank you," I whispered while she smiled and walked away.

I sighed as I sat down on the loveseat and stared towards the TV where Emmett was sitting playing his video games, "Life is good," I said smiling to myself as I put my arms behind my neck and watched Emmett as he tried to figure out cheats to his game.

(Bella's POV)

When Bolton and I came home, he immediately went over to the TV and sat down playing his video games to try and beat Emmett again tomorrow, "You need to study!" I called out to him while he just shrugged it off.

I laughed a bit to myself as I went upstairs and sat down in my study- a simple beige room with bookcases covering the entire wall space with a desk in the middle with a laptop sitting neatly upon it.

I sat down in my chair and looked down to the drawers as I opened the top one and found a stack of letters sitting there. As I looked closer, I saw there were also torn diary pages mixed in.

I gave a small smile as I picked up the pile and tore the rubber bands off of them as I looked at the old letters in front of me.

I read the first letter on top. It was addressed to Jasper with no address as it was written in my messy scrawl.

Dear Jasper,

I wish I could tell you that everything is okay, but it's not.

I don't know where you are and I don't know what's going on, but it's been about ten years since your disappearance. We have a baby boy, Jasper. Can you believe that? He's just a bundle of joy.

His name is Bolton. Bolton Jasper Whitlock. You would be so proud of him, Jazz. He looks just like you.

I'm not allowed to see him, but when I last did, he was happy. You see, we've been separated for about nine years. One night, I was attacked by a clan of vampires, and they told me that I wasn't allowed to see him until he was seventeen.

Only seven more years, but I know it'll be worth it. He's growing though as he lives with my father and I just hope wherever you are, you know that you have a son that loves you very much.

I miss you. I miss you terribly and I'm miserable. I can't sleep and you know that's what I always did when I was upset. If I could, I'd be sleeping forever because of it. I just don't know what to do.

I've thought about taking my life, but I live with the most powerful vampire clan; the Volturi. There's no getting around them. They can sense everything that I'm about to do, and they would never let me kill myself. They say that I am just too special to let go.

I have a shield. I can protect people from other people's powers, and it is a lot of work. I'm in training for my powers for hours a day and it just is very strenuous.

They tell me that there are other vampire clans out there and one day I'll be allowed to go and find them and possibly mate. I don't like that word, mate. It reminds me of you and it makes me want to disappear.

I think of you every chance I can get. You run through my mind every time I see someone with blonde hair, someone who speaks with a drawl, and even whenever someone calls my name. Isabella Marie Swan-Whitlock.

People call me Bella here. They say that Isabella is too attached to my past life and that I needed to start fresh. Of course, I didn't argue with them, and to be honest, they have a point. Isabella reminds me of a time when I was free and when I could just be myself, but now, I'm a prisoner in chains being damned to this life.

I wish I could say that we'll meet again soon but we won't. You're dead and I'm dead in a sense, but I'm not. I'm a vampire-human hybrid really. I can eat and cry and do most anything else except sleep. I have a heartbeat and if you are in Heaven, please know I'm not a monster; I'm Isabella. I'm your Isabella and I'm not changing inside.

I miss you. I don't know how else to say that. I miss you so much it hurts.

I love you, Jasper. I love you so much and I promise, one day we'll be together. I'll find a way to get to you no matter where you are, Heaven or hell and we'll be together. We'll be Mr. and Mrs. Jasper Whitlock one day.

Forever yours,

Isabella.

I sighed as I looked over that note a few times. Of course, that was only one of literally a thousand letters that I have written to Jasper, but I guess it just gave me a sense of security if I could write to him. It made sense to me that the only way we could be together is if it was in my thoughts.

Aro didn't like what I was doing. He told me if there was even a slight chance that Jasper could be alive, I was breaking the law.

After a few contradictions towards him, we both agreed that I could write the letters, I just couldn't send them and I had to dispose of them after a few decades.

After that situation, Aro and I got along just fine. Although I didn't agree with his eating options, he told me that I was allowed to do what made me feel comfortable under strict observation.

I was a slave under their command. I was to be stuck in their castle unless I had to go out and feed, to which I had supervision who stayed with hearing distance. I did what they told me to do when they told me to do it. I would bring harmless people in for them to feed and I was forced to stay until they were gone.

They tried to persuade me to join them on their views of life, but every time they asked, I walked away. I respected them for everything but their diet. They just didn't care that a soulful human being was being killed in order for them to live.

I did what any good slave would do: I stayed in my room. I stayed there all night and day just writing and reading until I had enough and had to go feed. They would check periodically on me and have literate conversations with me on the classics or science, but other than that, I was left alone until it was their feeding time.

I hated who I was. I hated what I had to do to even stay alive at that point. I tried starving myself for weeks at a time, and then they would force feed me. They would go out and get animal blood and force me to drink it.

They just wouldn't let me die.

Finally, seven years later, we went down to our home in Huston and Aro changed Bolton. It was absolutely heartbreaking to see my child go through that amount of pain, and honestly, I was sobbing for the entire three days.

When Bolton woke up, he didn't recognize me. I told him I was his mother and he started to scream and break things until Aro forced the information into him.

After a few days of isolation, Bolton finally managed to accept the fact that I was his mother and that we were monsters. Bolton quickly agreed to my lifestyle choice and after that, we were finally a partial family.

Every time Bolton asked me about his father, I began to bawl my eyes out. I told him that he died in battle without even seeing you. He quickly got over not having a father, and Bolton took the male role in the family.

He cared for me when no one else did. He would hug me every chance he got, tell me that things will be fine, and he never once questioned my life. He never once asked what I did after Jasper left, and he understood my motives about the whole situation.

After a century with the Volturi, Bolton and I decided to venture out by ourselves. Aro and the rest of them were apprehensive when we made our decision, and we had to agree that we would visit regularly and stay in touch.

Of course, we agreed as long as it granted our freedom.

So, in the year 2001, we moved up to Alaska. We stayed in a small house away from civilization and we both didn't go to school. We lived in a deserted part of the land with a forest nearby so we could do our hunting.

But soon, the animals started to dwindle and we had to seek our prey elsewhere.

After a few weeks, we packed up and moved again to another small house to see a big plentiful forest only a few miles away. We managed to stay there for a few years before we had to move again.

In 2005, we wound up in Canada towards the northern tip in Ontario. We don't really mind the sunlight honestly. We just went where people weren't and where there was forest.

Bolton and I got bored quickly though and decided that he needed people to be around. I was used to being alone for long periods of time, so we enrolled Bolton at the local private high school and I posed as his stay at home mother who was too sick to come outside.

The charade worked for only a year. One day, when Bolton and I were out hunting in the forest, a group of hunters found us out and we were forced to flea the are. Luckily, no one found out of secret, but it was just too risky to stay there.

So a few days later, we would up in Quebec. We found a nice house in the middle of a forest this time and neither of us could smell humans for miles in every direction.

We enrolled Bolton in the local high school this time, just trying to blend in. This time, I went with him as his twin sister. The lie worked for our three years there and no one questioned us.

Bolton made a few friends which was a very odd thing for him to do. He never once tried to go at them for their blood, but once they got too serious in his friendship, we had to leave a few weeks after graduation.

He took it very hard. We both had to understand that we could never be around humans for that long or get attached because we never knew what could happen. He also had to understand with the Volturi watching our every move, we had to blend in without making it too inconspicuous.

The Volturi soon stepped in after they found out about Bolton and his human charade. We were warned that if it ever got that far again, we would be forced to maintain a permanent residence in Volterra.

That was not an option.

A few days later, we would up in London. We found a nice house alone a river to where we found out there was another coven by just a few miles north. When we met up with them, they were human feeders and we actually got along just fine.

There was a man, Jason, a few years older than myself with his wife, Amy, who was my age, and a teenage son, Kyle, just a year younger than Bolton. They were only there for a few more years because they look too young for their ages that they were posing.

We became very close within a few months and Bolton finally had a friend that he could be around. Even though he was a year younger than Bolton, they got along just fine.

It turns out, they were all a family in their human life. One night, a group of nomads attacked and they were left to fend for themselves. We tried to get them to convert to animal blood, but they were just too attached to the human blood to have the animal blood satisfy their thirst.

A few months later, they had to leave. It was the toughest on Bolton and Kyle. Both of them never really had a friendship and it was literally torn apart from them. Luckily for them, they stay in touch and meet up every now and then for a weekend.

Finally, Bolton and I wound up in Forks. Jason and Amy told us that it was the wettest place in the US and that we would be allowed to go out on a daily basis without having to hide.

Freedom was what Bolton and I wanted the most honestly. We loved the idea of being able to go outside and go to school without interruption.

And so, that brings everything up until today. In just a few hours, Jasper and I would be able to see each other again.

I walked down the stairs to still find Bolton glued to his X-Box looking intently at the screen trying to figure something out, "I'm going hunting. Want to come?" I asked before he looked up.

He looked up and bit his lip, "I don't know. Why don't you go and tell me what's here first?" he suggested.

I smiled a bit, "Edward said that there are mountain lions somewhere around here," I said before he got up with a smile beaming across his face.

"Well go!" he said rushing me out of the door.

I laughed as him and I ran at our vampire speed for a few minutes before we reached a dense forest area. As I smelled the air, I could smell deer, lions, and even a few bears, "Maybe this won't be so bad after all," I whispered to myself as Bolton and I both got into our stances.

With one nod coming from both of us, we ran off in separate directions. Bolton headed for the mountain lions while I just went for the deer; easy prey.

After I found a few deer, I smiled a little bit and pounced on the first one I saw and drank it dry within a few minutes. As soon as I stood up, I spotted another one standing by and proceeded to do the same on it.

Three deer later, I felt fully satisfied and decided to go out on the outskirts of the forest and wait for Bolton to finish.

A little while later, I saw Bolton emerge from the forest with a huge grin on his face, "And Edward was right," he said while we both laughed a bit and ran back to our house.

As soon as we got home, I looked at the clock and saw that it was already 6:30 in the morning. Bolton and I liked to take our time while we were hunting just to store up for a few weeks.

I quickly went upstairs and changed into a simple pair of black skinny jeans and a red blouse while I tied my hair up in a pony tail. I put on some light makeup and made my way downstairs to wait for Bolton.

Just a few seconds later, he came down the stairs in his usual pair of shorts and polo and grabbed his book bag from the chair and smiled to me, "Well, you read, sis?" he said teasingly while I rolled my eyes.

We both got into my Porsche and I drive at around 60mph to get to school. Due to Bolton's precognition, we ditched every red light and made it to school in less than twenty minutes.

When we pulled into the parking lot, I spotted the Cullen's cars. I saw Alice and Edward leaning against his Volvo while Rosalie, Jasper, and Emmett, were all outside of his Jeep looking over some notes from last night for show.

I pulled into the empty spot next to the Jeep and quickly got out of the car at the fastest human pace that I could manage.

I slung my backpack over my shoulder and walked over to Jasper. As soon as he saw, his face broke out into a smile as he opened his arms. I walked into his embrace and hugged him back as tight as I could as he buried his face into my hair.

"I missed you," he whisper simply while he kissed my forehead as we pulled away.

I leaned against the Jeep while he put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer almost on instinct. "I missed you too," I whispered back while he smile and kissed my head.

After a few seconds, I saw Bolton come out from the car and walk towards Emmett, "Rematch after school?" he asked while he narrowed his eyes up towards him.

Emmett let out a booming laugh, "You are so on!" he screamed while the entire parking lot turned to face us.

I blushed out of embarrassment while Emmett rolled his eyes, "My house, 3:30, be there," he said while Bolton gave a curt nod.

"I wouldn't miss it for the world," he said sarcastically before Bolton turned to me.

"Come with me to go and register?" he asked me while I nodded.

I looked up to Jasper who smiled down to me, "I'll see you in first period," he said while I leaned up and gave him a quick kiss before I turned to Bolton and walked into the school.

When we got into the front office, I put on my best smile and walked up to the front desk, "Excuse me, Mrs. Cope?" I asked using my sweet voice.

She turned around and just stared at Bolton with a small smile tugging on the edges of her lips, "This is my brother, Bolton Whitlock, and he's here to get registered. He was sick on my first day so he wasn't able to make it," I explained with a perfect lie.

She nodded her head furiously, "Ah yes, Bolton Whitlock, here we are," she said as she handed him the same packet of information that I got on my first day. "I'm sure your sister can help you around school if you wish," she said while Bolton nodded.

After a few more minutes of introduction, Bolton and I were on his way. Since Bolton was going to be registered as a Sophomore, we could stay longer in Forks which made both of us happy.

I quickly showed him to his first class before he smiled and kissed my cheek, "Thanks, mom," he said as his eyes lit up before he walked into class.

I smiled to myself knowing that I was finally happy again and that Bolton finally had a person to call dad. He knew that Jasper was going to be there for him and that the rest of the Cullen family would, but I think it'll just take him a little longer to get used to.

I made my way over to English and sat down in the back in my usual seat to which I found Jasper already there.

As soon as I sat down in my seat, Jasper's mood immediately beamed happiness which radiated onto the class. I smiled a bit, "Control your emotions," I muttered in a low voice to him.

He quickly let the emotion disappear before he took my hand in his, "So I guess Emmett already invited, or demanded, that you two come over today," he said with a little chuckle.

I rolled my eyes, "He only demanded that Bolton come. Bolton was up playing video games last night trying to find a new strategy to surprise Emmett with," I said.

Jasper scoffed a bit, "And so has Emmett. It's been nonstop video games with him. He's looking up cheats and trying to rig the system just so he can win," he said with a slight laugh.

I smirked a bit, "Oh well, Bolton is still a teenager, what can you do?" I asked with a small smile before the teacher came in and began his lecture.

(Jasper's POV)

The day went by without any incident really. Except for lunch.

Bolton and Emmett were at it again trying to figure out who was going to win tonight's video game match, and unfortunately, Edward was stuck in the middle of those two with no way out.

They argued for the entire period and didn't even touch their food like they were supposed to. Isabella was the only one that actually ate.

Every day she would get an apple and a granola bar and eat it without hesitation. Most of the family would just stare at it with disgust trying to figure out what was so appealing about it.

Throughout the rest of the day, Isabella and I kept everything mellow and not really physical as we made our way to our respective classes together.

When the end of the day came, I met Isabella out by her car like we did the last two days. I smiled as I walked up and gave her a small peck on the lips while she threw his bag in the backseat.

"Want to ride with me today?" she asked, "Bolton is riding with Edward and Alice. Apparently they are coming up with a plan to beat Emmett," she said with an eye roll.

I smiled as I nodded my head, "Sounds good," I said as I made my way over to the passenger seat and got in as quick as I could. When Isabella got in the car, she started it up and turned the stereo on to some light country music.

I scoffed, "This is an insult to Texas in the seventeenth century," I pointed out.

She smiled a bit as she nodded in agreement, "True, but it also has hidden meanings. Some of these songs aren't that bad," she said while I shrugged my shoulders not saying anything further about the subject.

We rode the rest of the way back to my house in a comfortable silence while we gave each other a glance every now and then.

When we got back to my place, Bolton and Emmett were already inside with a video game controller in each other their hands. Rosalie, Alice, and Edward were all seated around the dining room table doing to some homework without even trying.

I put down Isabella's bag by the door and took her hand in mine as I led her to the kitchen and soon outside.

When we got outside, I smiled at the sight before me. All the flowers were in full bloom and every tree was full of leaves. Esme really outdid herself with the gardening and even put a pond right in the middle with light above it. There were stone pathways in every direction and it was illuminated by paper lights on the ground.

Isabella smiled as wide as she could when she saw what was before her. I squeezed her hand gently as I led her out in the pathway to where a simple garden swing was.

As soon as she was seated down on the swing, I smile as I went behind her and wrapped my arms around her torso, "I love you," I whispered in her ear.

She smiled and leaned her head back so she was looking at me, "I love you more," she whispered to where I leaned down and lightly but passionately kissed her for just a few seconds.

As soon as we pulled away, I walked in front of her and stared down at her as I reached my hand into my pocket in my jeans.

"Isabella," I started over as I slowly said her name. Her head shot up so we were looking at each other in the eyes. "Isabella Marie Swan-Whitlock," I said before I took in a big breath of air.

"I am truly, madly, deeply, irrevocably, passionately, and every other synonym to those words out there, in love with you. I have been since that first day we met in 1860 and I still am right at this very moment. I never lost my true feelings for you and no matter what, you are my soul mate and always will be my soul mate.

"I can't even begin to imagine another century, decade, year, month, day, and even second without you by my side. I promise you that I will love you every single day of forever no matter how long that may be," I stated while Isabella was looking at me with wide eyes at this point.

I smiled as I got down on my left knee and pulled out the box and opened it up to show a modern day engagement ring. "Will you please do me the honor of renewing our vows and marrying me all over again?" I said as I stared at her.

Her smile broke out across her face as she nodded furiously before she jumped out of the swing and into my arms and wrapped her arms around my neck. "Yes!" she screamed over and over again.

After a few seconds, I let her down on the ground and took the ring and placed it on her finger, "I love you, Isabella," I whispered with as much love as I could as I looked into her eyes.

She smiled back at me as a tear of happiness rolled down her cheek, "I love you too, Jazzy," she said as I pulled her in for a very long awaited kiss.

Well..there is chapter 4=]

I hope it was worth the wait. Honestly, it was kinda a filler chapter. I wanted more of Bella's story and POV in there.

I think next I'll make it Bolton's/Emmett's POV or someone elses just so we can get an outside view on the couple.

Now...I need to know where to go in the story.

So I'm going to post a poll on my profile to help out a little bit, but where do YOU want to see the characters?

Please vote in a review!

1.) Bella is forced to move back with the Volturi and Jasper has to go and save her.

2.) Bolton is in a life-threatening vampire accident

3.) Bella and Jasper get married and live happily ever after

Just to let you know...if #3 is the only one that gets chosen, there will only be about 2 more chapters. I'm at a deadbeat on where to go from here=/ I just want to make everyone happy and I don't know how to do that.

So please go to my profile and vote on who Jacob should be with=] Even though he's a minor character, it'll still make it more interesting.

Now I'm going to be stern on this chapter. 10 reviews or no update. I start school on Monday and I need to know if people will read my story...sorry, but I hope you can see where I'm coming from.

If you review I'll give you a cookie=] yummy=]

Well...thank you for reading so far!

Be happy=]=]

~~Sammiee!