AN note at bottom.
Edward POV
Dearest Edward,
So, the rest of the group is probably standing over your bed glaring at you. Can you please tell them that I already told them not to and I meant it?
I looked up at them and sure enough they were glaring. "Guys? Bella told me to tell you guys to stop glaring at me…"
"Edward. I do not care, just read." Alice seethed. Wow, what was her problem?
Instead of voicing this thought I decided just to listen to her and continue reading the letter.
I guess I should tell you why I'm not there with them right now or why they aren't at school and also, why you're reading this letter.
I left. It's because I can't stand it here anymore. Everything is too overwhelming. I don't know what to do anymore. That probably makes me sound overly dramatic. But I don't care, it's true.
You probably also want to know why I am telling you this, after all you keep hurting me. You are happy with Tanya anyway… But let me just say that I'm telling you this because I care about you. Tanya does not love you as she claims she does. Ask Alice, Emmett, Rosalie, or Jasper. They all know this too and they will tell you the truth. I don't want to tell you this to your face because I don't think I can handle you hating me and assuming that I'm just jealous of you two. Also, if you did believe me you would be so hurt. And I know I wouldn't be able to stand it if you were upset over her.
I'm with Mom, Uncle Phil, and Aunt Jane. I have decided to stay with my mom for a while. That way I can mend. Even if it means you're going to be farther away from me. I am possibly going to stay with Mom next year, than I'll be back for sophomore year of high school.
I'm going to miss you so much but I can't stay in fear of you hurting me emotionally. It's just a risk that I'm not willing to take. Tell Alice, Emmett, Rosalie, and Jasper that I will miss them so much. And I hope you guys forgive me. I love all of you way more than you realize. Even if I get hurt often. I'm sorry.
-Bella
No. There was no way she could be gone. Absolutely no way.
"No… no, No, NO! Why would she just leave like that? She's can't. When did she leave?" I asked frantically.
"SHE LEFT BECAUSE OF YOU. IF YOU HADN'T SPENT YOUR TIME FLIRTING WITH TANYA YOU WOULD HAVE NOTICED THAT SHE WASN'T AS HAPPY AS BEFORE WHEN YOU STARTED GOING OUT WITH HER." Alice yelled at me.
"We found out this morning that Bella is definitely going to stay in Phoenix. That's because her dad is also going to stay there. Emmett didn't want to go and decided to stay here and take care of the house. That way every thing will be in order for when they come back. Emmett will be staying with you and Alice at your house most of the time but is required to at least go to the house every few days." Jasper added, much calmer.
I couldn't believe this. Bella was truly gone. I may not reciprocate her feelings but that didn't mean I disliked her. The only reason I acted the way I did in front of Tanya was because I liked Tanya but she didn't like Bella. In fact she hated her, although I don't know why. I did not like what Tanya did to Bella but I would do absolutely anything for Tanya. Also, she made me promise to keep being mean to Bella so that we could go out without problems. I really did love her. It didn't matter that I was only in 8th grade.
It's not like I didn't try to apologize to Bella, I really did. But the thing was, as everyone says; don't say sorry if you're just going to keep doing it over and over again, this situation was just like that. I knew that as long as I was with Tanya I wouldn't stop being mean to Bella. So it was hard for me to say sorry.
I would miss Bella because she was the girl I would help whenever she would fall and scrape her knee or arm, or break her leg. I would miss the little girl who didn't care if anyone liked her or not. The little girl, who didn't have a care in the world.
"You know what? It's not my fault. I'm sorry that I don't feel the same way for her as she feels for me. I just can't think of her like that. She's like my little sister." I was mad, no… I was beyond that. I was severely pissed off. It wasn't my fault. It's just how I felt.
"For Everyone's sake, YOU DO NOT TREAT BELLA LIKE YOUR LITTLE SISTER. Even if Bella weren't my sister I would treat her exactly that same way I do. I joke around with her often but it doesn't hurt her she knows that I am just kidding. Not like what you do. She's hurt badly and it's your entire fault that's she's gone." With that, Emmett punched me.
"What the hell? Emmett!" Alice yelled at him.
I couldn't believe it. I get that Bella is his sister and all but really? Did he have to punch me? If he just ignored me that would have been perfect. Absolutely. But then again as everyone should know by now, Emmett Swan is not a civil person. In fact he can be extremely harsh and will not take the better route.
"You know what, Edward? When Bella comes back don't even think about looking in her direction let alone talk to her. If you are even five feet away, I'll break the rest of your face. In fact, forget about her right now. Both of you can hate me as much as you want. But I'm watching out for my little sister, because I love her. And there is no one that will hurt her… Especially not you. Just stay with Tanya. You both deserve each other. She cheats on you, and you hurt everyone around you. Perfect." Emmett lectured me, basically seething.
I may have thought that I was mad before but now I was practically fuming. Why did they keep saying Tanya was cheating on me?
"WHY? For the sake of God, let me just say right now that she was cheating on you. We saw her. It was the day before the dance. You were inside the building still and while waiting for Esme to pick us up as usual we overheard Tyler asking Tanya to the dance. So we hid in the bushes closer to them. We saw her say that she wished she could but that you asked her already and she said yes. Then she told him she was sorry and said she'd show him. She looked around and saw no one then kissed him. Can you stop ignoring what we say and being an ***hole?" This time Rosalie ranted to me. They both definitely matched.
With that everyone except Jasper left.
"Man, I know you don't want to believe us but you have to, because you messed up big time. And it's going to be so much harder trying to fix it when Bella comes back." Ending on that note, Jasper left me alone to my thoughts.
Should I believe them? It couldn't be possible could it? Everyday after school I would meet Tanya at her locker then we would go to her house to do our homework. So no, it couldn't be.
Still annoyed with my family, I just got ready for school. Then I went downstairs and got some breakfast to eat. Suddenly, as I was taking a bite of my cereal I remembered. The day before the dance I was in Mr. Brown's class talking to him about my science project for about 10 minutes and when I got to Tanya's locker she wasn't there so I went outside to find her. And then when I found her she looked a little disheveled but I just put that thought aside thinking nothing of it.
No ****ing way. They could be right. But Tanya wouldn't do that to me. I love her, and I know she loves me back. We belong together. That's it. I'm going to ask her today in English. I am so glad school is almost over. Only three more weeks, then summer vacation. Where I don't have to see the same teachers 5 days a week and then me and Tanya can spend every day together since I know she didn't cheat on me.
Tanya POV
"Tanya!" Edward called my name as I was entering our second period English class.
"Hey, what's up?" I may be a blond but under no circumstances was I stupid, I was just a bitch.
"I was just wondering, the day before the dance, after school, what did you do before I came out? Someone told me that they saw you kissing Tyler..." Edward told me and he looked nervous too. I couldn't believe it. I knew I saw Alice, Jasper, Bella, Emmett, and Rosalie in the bushes. I told them to keep their mouths shut. They told him? And did Edward believe them? So many thoughts were rushing through my mind.
"What? and you believe them? Edward, I'm your girlfriend. You have to trust me, not them. You need to care about me more than your sister and friends. That's the only way for this relationship to work. Now le-" All of a sudden Edward interrupted me.
"Tanya... I never mentioned that it was Alice, Jasper, Emmett, or Rosalie who told me. How did you know?" Edward questioned me. I wonder why he didn't say Bella's name. They were probably not talking again. Good for her. He is such a good boyfriend, too bad I'm going to have to drop him soon.
"Umm... Well you see... ughh, well I guess the time is now. Edward, we're over. Sorry, but I don't think it's going to work. Everyone can see that Bella likes you and I'm done with everyone trying to prove it and you not believing and also people coming up to me and telling me that if I'm not careful, she's going to take you away from me. Although on the first day of summer I was going to do this, I'm not going to Forks High next year." I told him, then I walked out of the school even if it was only second period, I'd just get a note from my parents this was to avoid him trying to get back with me. I was through with long-term relationships, even if this relationship wasn't long and I'm in 8th grade. I think that I'm just never going to settle down. That's the way it'll always be.
"Tanya! Tanya! You can't do that, she doesn't mean anything to me. All this time I've been keeping my promise to you. I have acted so mean to her and got punched by Emmett for it. Tanya! I LOVE YOU! Don't leave. Why do people keep leaving?" Edward started shaking and his voice kept quavering as he spoke. He may think he loves me, but I know that he doesn't. It's inevitable, Bella and Edward belong together and I've been in the way for too long.
I was acting the way I did towards Bella because I was jealous of her. She loved Edward and although he didn't reciprocate the exact feelings for her he still felt something for her. When I made him promise me that he would act harsh towards Bella it was only because I didn't want to lose him yet.
However, that didn't mean I would stop being a bitch, I have really got to be putting these feelings away and never access them again. They're making me emotional. And I am not an emotional person. I am just going to forget about Edward Cullen. It's not like any of his friends and sister liked me anyway. Good riddance.
ELY- I give you full permission to sue me. I'm incredibly sorry, but I've just been going about crazy after everything that has happened this past year. Finally, I can worry less seeing as how, like Tanya, I'm going to a different high school from the people I've known for about 4 years, and so it'll take a while for drama to start again... Although I know this is no excuse, I'm sorry. But I'm really trying now. I will succeed in finishing this story, there is no way I'm stopping, even if my life depended on it. Sorry...
Also, I am making sure that I actually update... Chapter 6 is halfway done at this moment, so I'm going to keep writing and yeah... :)
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