AUTHOR's NOTE – So this is my first attempt at M rated writing…so hopefully it wont be too bad.
This is about Sirius and my OC, Naina, and tells of their relationship with each other…how they each battle their insecurities and the others' too and whether they succeed or not…
PLOT – Sirius and Naina – two souls, two approaches to life and love but they are connected by a thread – a thread of life and love itself. But will the thread hold? Sirius/OC. Rated M for a reason.
Disclaimer - I dont own HP, obviously...but I do own my own characters in this story as well as the plot itself. Using either of these without my permission will not be appreciated AT ALL.
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There Is Nothing Else
Chapter 3 – What others say…
After the talk or rather listening to Remus, Sirius felt better but not completely reassured…he told himself that he did not need to take any action just yet…he should give this time, give her and most importantly himself time before making any decision.
And he was glad he did.
The events at Hogsmeade only seemed to have made it more comfortable to be with Naina…and not just in a physical sense…sure, they did a lot of what they did there now but it seemed to have brought them closer and made them more comfortable with each other.
But…the physical proximity…well that was certainly the more obvious highlight as Sirius reminisced about the activities he and Naina had been engaged in just before this period of Potions…after lunch they had hung around because it was a free period while Lily had gone to attend Ancient Runes which she had taken up as a side subject and Teressa had Arthimancy while Alice had made plans like theirs and left to be somewhere with her boyfriend of almost a year, Frank Longbottom whereas the rest of the marauders were 'livin' it up' at the Gryffindor Tower.
Sirius and Naina roamed about in an unused part of the castle, hand in hand with no need to fill the silence with words to cut the awkwardness…why? Because there was none…something which neither of them explicitly noticed either…they were just lost in a world which had the two of them and no one else.
"Oh."
Naina looked at the mistletoe which hung just above them, wondering why on earth was it decorated at a part which was hardly used by anyone except..her cheeks reddened when she realized that she was now a part of that class of the 'except'…
"Well…we most certainly cannot not honour a mistletoe, Naina dearest…" she looked up to find Sirius looking at her with a glee he was not even trying to hide, smiling mischievously and she found herself smiling bashfully back at him and making her way into his outstretched arms and encircling her own around his well defined waist before puckering up her lips suggestively at him.
"Oh…I see…you want to honour the mistletoe? " Sirius asked her with a mock serious expression on his face, raising his eyebrows in comprehension.
"Why yes, Mr. Black…why wouldn't I?" Naina played along.
"Oh no no, you misunderstand me dear…why wouldn't you? Considering you get to do so with such a dashing young man!" Sirius grinned cheekily at her.
"Well, you forgot to add arrogant but what am I supposed to understand though?"
"Hmph. Brushing aside your unsavory comment about the young man, let me enlighten you…you see when you are under a mistletoe with someone you want to kiss, especially when it is under such deserted conditions, you do a bit more than just kissing…if you know what I mean…"
Comprehension dawned on Naina's face and she realized why mistletoe was put in such a deserted place…because it wasn't put by anyone other than her now winking boyfriend and she lightly slapped his chest, still in his tight embrace.
"Sirius!"
"What? Its true, trust me. I am 'Sirius', I swear."
Naina rolled her eyes at the more than enough used pun but was caught surprised by his strong kiss, heating up by the second until they were both fighting for domination while desperately tugging at the robes (as he was) or at hair (as she was).
"Sirius…we don't have time…just 30 minutes to class." Naina gasped out punched by moans as Sirius placed wet kisses on her neck, pulling her robe down on the side giving him the perfect view of the 'exquisitely' creamish wheatish complexion, a result of being the mixture of an Indian paternal side and a British maternal one, of her shoulder where he sucked and nibbled, hardly listening to her pleas about the lack of time…focusing all his attention on how she nearly hung on his large frame to support herself and the sexual sounds and energy she oozed and all Sirius was interested in doing at that moment was lapping up that energy…and that's what he did with his hands, fingers and mouth.
Naina felt tingles wherever she felt his skilled tongue on her now exposed shoulders as her robes hung around her and wherever she felt his hands as they tightened their hold on her and caressed her all the same…she could feel Sirius' arousal digging into her stomach and she realized that how much she needed this but also how today was her turn to pleasure Sirius, just like he had given her all of the importance during their times in Hogsmeade and with this decision, she broke away and looked into Sirius' eyes which were darkened by desire and passion and followed her every movement, while he breathed harshly.
Naina unclasped him, noticing with a satisfaction at how her action caused his breath to hitch and once she had his pants around his legs and he stepped out of them, she turned her attention to his boxers and to his swollen organ which they tried to hide quite unsuccessfully and she slithered down causing Sirius to groan at the sight of her knelt before him.
"You don't have to do this, Naina…" Sirius let out in a harsh with desire gasp.
"Shhh…" and he fell silent and watched her with passion ridden heavy eyes as she hooked two fingers on either side and pulled down his boxers, leaving them hanging there and he almost softly screamed when she started to feel him all over…her face showing excitement and curiosity as she explored his most private part.
He knew she would need a bit of a guidance but he did not know whether he should…maybe it would seem like he was forcing her and he never wanted her to feel that way…specially like this, so he held his tongue as she just turned his arousal around in her hands…
Finally she looked up shy and embarrassed, "What should I do…I mean…"
She did not need to finish that sentence because the next moment, Sirius' hand was around her own and he gently guided her into rubbing his length…and slowly left her hand and supported himself against the wall as she started doing it on her own – applying gentle pressure sometimes and strong sometimes making Sirius whimper in pleasure, trying to suffocate his own sound by covering his mouth with one knuckle.
"Is this the right way?" asked Naina, innocently, alarmed at how it seemed to be growing in her hand.
"Yeah…" Sirius let out a strangled groan, "Don't stop…just keep doing that…"
…
"-ack. Mr. Black…MR. BLACK!"
Sirius looked up in surprise and almost fell down off his chair when he realized he was staring right into Prof. Slughorn's annoyed eyes.
"Ye…yes, professor?" he asked hesitantly…feverishly hoping he had not moaned in class…
"Why were you drooling and groaning, boy? Are you sick?"
"Huh? Ummm…no…"
"Then you were sleeping?"
"Uhhh…what? No…I mean I don't think so…" blabbered a very flustered Sirius, he had never been caught before having such thoughts and so he was out of his comfort zone.
"Well…all I can say is that I hope you had a good enough nap because you have detention tonight at 8, boy!"
Sirius groaned again but fell silent midway at the angry look Prof. Slughorn threw at him but that look was nothing compared to the pure torture that was unleashed on him by his fellow marauders…
He looked sideways at James, feeling his elbow, enquiringly to only roll his eyes and flush and stare back at the suggestive raising of eyebrows James Potter was currently doing.
"So…Padfoot, what exactly was being licked?" said James, closely missing the heavy Potions book which Sirius used to make a swipe at him. Remus and Peter just cackled viciously making Sirius scowl and let out a string of profanities under his breath…
He managed to sneak a quick glance at Naina in the middle of the constant jokes at his expense and he saw that she too was being teased mercilessly by the girls – Alice and Lily – by the looks of it, her face being completely red and what seemed like hot air coming out of her ears…and for a moment, Sirius forgot the embarrassing incident and the guffaws after, all that was in his sight and thoughts was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen…her dark black wavy hair fell in soft turns around her shoulders – shiny and glossy but still natural, his partial view of her full lips sent him in a surge of passion – they were devoid of any lipstick or gloss but they were still inviting…her eyes were simple kajal lined and seemed to hide the comfort of the world in them and her cheeks were rosy and the light dimple on her left cheek just visible as she bit back a smile at whatever Alice was saying…
Sirius felt his gaze moving downwards and he noticed her slender neck and her curvy figure, the hitch in her skirt and her beautiful legs…Sirius felt his breath catch in his throat…Naina Kapoor was beautiful, pure and beautiful…
'What are you doing, Sirius? What are you doing? You cannot hurt her…she is too good for that…but maybe, just maybe…you could try and…just try for her once…'… 'but how?', thought Sirius, miserably, 'I have no idea how to…I have never seen this kind of love…never…I am not good enough for her…she cannot be happy with me and she deserves to be happy…' and just when that thought was crossing his mind, Naina turned to look at him and her big calming eyes caught his and she smiled the most exquisite smile and for that moment, Sirius Black honestly believed that everything may indeed work out…and he felt himself smiling back at her and he watched as her eyes lit up even more…
They were all sitting in the Great Hall finishing dinner with Remus sneaking glances at Teresa from behind his strategically held book while she tried to play third wheel to Alice and Frank and successfully managing to annoy Alice, who was giving her dark looks while pouting at her boyfriend, and making Frank laugh while he tried telling her off for Alice' sake; James sat talking to Peter while trying to impress Lily the whole while as he mentioned important names from Muggle and Wizarding World alike while Lily tried to act as if Peter was also a part of the conversation whereas her mouth was aching to smile at James' obvious attempts to please her and; Sirius and Naina sat opposite to each other trying to eat and listen in and participate all at once while still being acutely aware of the other and aching to be alone for a little while again…
"Sirius?"
"Yeah, Lily?"
"I think its time for your detention with Prof. Slughorn for…you know…" she teased making Sirius fix her with an accusing glare as the whole group burst out in laughter, everything else forgotten, with the exception of Naina who suddenly found the odd piece of salad on her fork the most interesting thing in the world and was staring at it, unwavering in her attention.
"Yeah yeah…laugh all you want…after all who will know more about such things more than Jamesie here…" Sirius said with a wink, getting up, and making James choke on his juice and the others fall into an other lapse of laughter with the exception this time being Lily, who now had a very strange expression on her face and when James looked at her with a strangely afraid expression of his own, her face turned red and she looked down, realizing who exactly would James be dreaming about…making James blush profusely at having been caught by her.
"Adios amigos…Naina." Sirius announced, fixing the last name with a smoldering look before turning and leaving the Great Hall.
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"May I come in, Professor?"
"Yes…Mr. Black, come in."
Sirius entered his potions masters' office and noticed that he wasn't the only student there – Ravenclaw's Betty Rice stood silently infront of Slughorn who without even looking up from his diary asked them both to clean the Trophies Room without magic.
As they both made way to The Trophy Room, they chit chatted a bit…about school and Slughorn and Dumbledore and sugar mice…that is they chit chatted a bit.
…
"Wow…that was fast, thank your friend, Leslie, for helping out!" said Sirius, winking at Betty who laughed out loud and then turned a little pink – after all she had been in the same room as Sirius Black for about an hour before Leslie had made an appearance and well Sirius Black did have a presence…and a reputation and with that thought in mind, with no regard for Naina Kapoor - the supposed the new girl in his life after all Sirius had known to have little care about his relationships himself – Betty moved forward and put her hands on Sirius' strong and hard chest and looked up at him, pouting sexily and licked her lips before leaning upwards to lightly brush her lips against his but to her utter shock and surprise, Sirius Black pushed her back and whispered in a disgusted tone, "I have a girlfriend."
Betty's face burned in embarrassment of the rejection and the disgust in his voice but she steered herself and twirling a strand of her brown hair she tried to give an explanation, "I…I am sorry, I thought…well you know what they say…I mean, I am sorry, Sirius. Please don't get offended…I didn't realize this one was different…anyway, I should get going…sorry again."
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Her words rang in his ears making him sick…'This one was different…this one was different…you know what they say…this one was different…you know what they say…'
Did he really just push off a good looking willing girl off him with the reason that he had a girlfriend? Sirius frantically washed his face with cold water, the heat in his heart too much to bare…was he changing? Was Sirius Black changing? Was Naina changing him? But could he really change? Could she really change him? Did he want to change? And what if he didn't…what if this was a one time thing and he ended up hurting Naina the same way he had hurt various girls on previous occasions…what then? Could he afford that?
'Maybe…I am changing…maybe I do want to change…for Naina…is that so bad? So impossible' Sirius looked into his own pained eyes and Betty's line crossed his mind – 'You know what they say…' and Sirius felt his hope, his halfway thought out resolve slowly dissolve into a dull hurt in his heart and he saw his eyes growing small and hard in his reflection and his body changing its stance from helpless to someone who would refuse help no matter where it came from…
After all when everyone expected it of him to screw this up like every other 'relationship' he had had…was there really any chance? And if there wasn't, he was going to make sure that the hurt she would feel would be the least she possibly could, he would make sure that she did not suffer the agony his heart felt…he would make sure that she would not love him, never love him…no matter how much it may pain him, agonize him, hurt him, make her hate him…he had to do this for the girl with those beautiful purple eyes…and at once, a flash of her purple eyes flashed in his mind and he closed his own stormy grey, hands tightly clutching the sides of the sink…the tap still spouting cold water…
And besides, things were always less complicated earlier on…granted, he had a strange warmth around him these days but surely…surely things if gone back would still be okay…both for him and for her too.
"You're back!" Sirius had just walked in and found Naina curled up on the loveseat in front of the fire place with a book…the others were asleep or at least in their dorms or elsewhere – Sirius had roamed about listlessly hoping not to run into anyone when he did return but his plan had backfired on him and Naina Kapoor looked at him with a smile.
Sirius did not reply but just stood there, his mind wheels seemed to have gotten jammed – she was wearing a too big for her light white sweater and old tattered but extremely comfortable looking blue pyjamas and her black hair was tied in a messy bun, a few strands falling astray framing her tired but alert looking smile adorning face and as if on their own accord, his feet took him to her and made her sit right next to her.
Naina raised his arm gently and snuggled up to him, unsuccessfully hiding a yawn and nuzzled into his thick maroon sweater. He let his arm drape it around her, hoping to enjoy such moments to their full extent before he did what he had decided too…maybe he should do it right now…and Sirius stiffened a bit at that thought…could he do it right now?
Saanse albeli, saanse albeli
Saans albeli, saans albeli
Saanse albeli, saanse albeli
Kaun si ye dor khinchein
Kaun si kaate re kaate re
Saanse albeli, saans albeli
Kaun si ye dor khinchein
Kaun sikaanterekaantere
Saans albeli
Kaahe kaahe mohe
Baante re baante re
Kaun si ye dor khinchein
Kaun si kaate re kaate re
~ Saans Albeli (Arakshan)
Rough Translation of what the song is basically portraying – Which tie should I break and which should I save? My breath tells me why are you dividing me at all…why do you want to break one tie and save the other at all?
NOTE ON TRANSLATION - Sorry…translated it myself but I think it is roughly right…do listen to the song if you can…its brilliant and as has been said numerous times before – Music has no language…enjoy. :)
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