AUTHOR's NOTE – So this is my first attempt at M rated writing…so hopefully it wont be too bad.
This is about Sirius and my OC, Naina, and tells of their relationship with each other…how they each battle their insecurities and the others' too and whether they succeed or not…
PLOT – Sirius and Naina – two souls, two approaches to life and love but they are connected by a thread – a thread of life and love itself. But will the thread hold? Sirius/OC. Rated M for a reason.
Disclaimer - I dont own HP, obviously...but I do own my own characters in this story as well as the plot itself. Using either of these without my permission will not be appreciated AT ALL.
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This is going to be a short chapter…it's the turning point in this fic.
There Is Nothing Else
Chapter 5 – He laughed…he cried.
Christmas had come and gone but the mood for celebration had not really ceased…after all New Year's was next and the students were geared up for it…the lazy and relaxed traditional mood had given way to excitement mongering with parties being held in all the four houses which not only saw a healthy supply of goods nicked from the kitchens but also smuggled items from Hogsmeade if you knew how to get them and so it is safe to say that one could be certain of at least the parties at Gryffindor seeing pumpkin juice, butterbeer and firewhiskey flowing in abundance with sweets and candies and assorted delicacies from the kitchens…
Sirius had a lazy arm slung around Lily's shoulder as they watched James and Naina attempt the chicken dance in the middle of the common room amidst much cheer and catcalls, clearly pretty high on firewhiskey and rum balls (Remus' way with chocolate hunting was legendary).
He couldn't help but grin as those two jumped around and tried to get more people to join in, finally managing to drag in Josh and Allison. They all looked ridiculous but somewhere in the back of his mind, Sirius knew that he would forever remember this moment…it seemed to him that he would be going back to it quite a few times too…
"So Siri…how are you and Naina doing?"
"Great…she is amazing." he replied without even pausing to think making Lily smile softly.
"She is, isn't she? You two look so cute together…"
"Thanks, Lils…same with you and James…so tell me, how exactly did you decide to give James a chance…it couldn't all have been that mistletoe…?" he scrunched up his nose making her laugh and shake her head.
"I don't know…I just realized he had changed…he wasn't that pigheaded asshole anymore…and I just knew I had to give him, give us a chance at least…and boy, am I glad I did!"
Sirius gave her a brotherly kiss on the forehead and thanked Merlin that Lily had finally seen sense…it was heartbreaking to see James getting rejected every time…he really loved Lily and Sirius had never seen him happier than in the past few days…
"It was much like Naina and you actually…Naina finally decided to act out on her crush on you only after it seemed that you were going cold on your playboy ways…she is crazy about you, Sirius…really crazy…she has loved you for so long!"
And Lily never noticed how with her words, Sirius stiffened and his eyes grew decisive and how he made a silent resolve.
"I am cutting in on their dance…see you later."
They were now in an empty classroom and Sirius' hands were all over a considerably sober Naina Kapoor (Sirius had supplied her with his own stock of hangover remedy tonic). He sucked on her neck as his hands removed her sweater and shirt at one go. Naina groaned, her hands running all over Sirius' back, as she felt him blowing hot air on the spot he had just made tender and raw.
"Siriusss.."
"Shhh." He knelt down in front of her and relieved her of her skirt and panties at one go…taking in her bare self with just her heels and bra and a 'Happy New Year' crown on her messy black hair.
Cupping her warmth, he lightly ran his other hand over her bare thigh…suddenly plunging two fingers inside her heat making her jerk violently against him and wildly gripping his hair.
He pushed in and pulled out his digits from her centre, fastening the speed gradually until he could literally feel her coming undone right under his fingers and sure enough with a shudder Naina let go, her eyes rolling back as she gasped for air.
She had not even properly calmed herself down before she felt Sirius standing up quickly and hoisting her up, plunging his length into her and moving fast in her making her shriek out his name…he stopped only when he came inside her, thankful that he had been smart enough to cast a contraception spell somewhere in the middle.
Removing himself from inside her, he gently laid her on the bed he had transfigured in the locked room and took the place next to her, lighting a cigarette and puffing on it while she weaved herself in his arms and quickly falling asleep.
He wondered in the dark if she had ever realized that during this whole time, he had not looked straight into her eyes even once…he knew they would be his undoing and he wasn't willing to take any risks anymore…he just couldn't lead her on anymore…he wouldn't and with that thought, Sirius removed her arm which was draped across his chest and turned his back on her only to turn back just a moment later and taking her in all her glory one more time, thankful she was asleep which meant that he could continue with his resolve of not looking into those purple orbs, before covering her up in a blanket and placing a soft almost not there but still very much necessary kiss on her forehead, caressing her hair…hoping she would understand…hoping against hope that she would not remove him from her life completely…he could not bear that, he couldn't.
Naina woke up as the harsh rays of sun hit her…surprising her…sun wasn't usually this bright during this time of the year. Squinting she realized that she was in some classroom and with a blush she realized how she had gotten here and what she and Sirius had done in this room…thinking about Sirius made her realize his absence. Getting up slowly, she realized she was wearing her shirt…funny she didn't remember thinking this much last night…maybe Sirius did it, she looked around for other articled of her clothing. Finding them and putting them on, she made her way to the door of the classroom and found it locked…Sirius must have locked it. Using 'Alahmora', she stepped out of the classroom into an empty corridor, most students must be sleeping deep in the aftereffects of the various parties last night, bigger than all the rest too, it being 31st December…and with a jolt, Naina realized that it was 1st January…it was the first day of a new year and she couldn't help but smile thinking of in what a perfect way she had entered the new year…remembering Sirius' touch and shivering lightly in excitement. She needed to find Sirius and they needed to get back in bed!
As she trudged on, she thought about how the last few months of the last year had been everything she could have ever asked for her – she had Sirius Black as a boyfriend…as the most caring boyfriend in the world, great friends who were all in their own path of happiness as well and how right everything seemed…Naina feverently hoped nothing would change and that they just would all enter the next year and all years to come with the same happiness and excitement and love.
She softly hummed to herself as she took the familiar path which led to the Gryffindor Tower when a loud moan caught her attention and she bit her lip, trying to hide a laugh…so some people were still in engaged in post New Year party rendezvous'. She decided to ignore them when there came a second moan, much clearer than the first, and Naina's blood ran cold when she made out the name.
No.
It couldn't be. No.
Hesitantly she made her way towards the broom cupboard from where the sound was coming and stood silently outside it, not willing to open it and confront the doubt but not willing to accept it either.
"Oh…Sirius…"
No. Her eyes stung and her hands shook as she reached out and placed them on the handle of the door.
"Merlin…you're hot, Betty!"
No. She turned the handle slightly and taking a deep breath pulled the door open and wished she hadn't.
Betty Rice stood in a state close to naked perched against the wall, supported by an equally attired Sirius Black as he sucked on her breasts.
A sob escaped her otherwise frozen body, and the two looked in her direction.
Betty hastily removing herself from Sirius' grip and frantically searching for her clothes and putting them on haphazardly before making a quick escape, trying not to look into the dark haired girl's bloodshot eyes but she needn't had to worry, Naina's eyes were registering only one person who was currently pulling on his shirt, the same one she had removed herself from him a few hours back, not looking at her either.
"Why?" a single word she said just as he had put on all his clothes and stood there silently.
"Because this is me."
She took two completely sure steps towards him and slapped him hard right across his face, "Never come near me ever again."
And she turned on her heel, stopping only for one moment, "I hate you."
Sirius still held a hand to his tingling cheek, all breath knocked out of him. He felt tired and spent and he slowly slid down the wall and sat on the cold cupboard floor.
She said she hated him…he never thought she would say that…maybe that was his naivety but he actually always hoped that when he finally snapped their relationship, she would be hurt and angry but she wouldn't ever hate him but her voice, her tone, her eyes, her stance…they all said that she wasn't lying when she said those three words…just like she hadn't been when she had said those other three words all those weeks back.
He had left her with one last fleeting look, taking her in as she slept on, calm and peaceful with a small smile on her lips. It hurt him physically to leave but Sirius Black had made his decision and he was not going to change it just because it hurt him to go along with – Naina did not deserve a person like him, unable to love or appreciate her's.
And then he had found the first girl who was willing to 'get it on' with him and Betty Rice had been the 'lucky' one…he had been charming and suave and all his efforts had resulted in her being in his arms and they getting into a position they had been in. He had been observing the Marauders' Map keenly before all of this to see when would Naina wake up and what direction she would choose to take and as soon as those bits and pieces of information became clear, he had put the rest of the plan into action.
He had literally made sure Naina caught him – he had had to do that so as to get her to go away from him and never think of him romantically.
He had felt her presence outside, he had made Betty moan out his name. He could feel the dread in her steps and he had increased the pace of his fingers inside Betty and had pushed his head into her breasts, hiding his betraying eyes. He had felt her open the door and he heard her sob and he broke apart from Betty, mask ready on his face.
She had looked so vulnerable that it would have broke his heart if he had one, Sirius thought bitterly. The way her purple eyes looked at him…he could literally feel the spark leaving them, he could see the sorrow settling in. She did not say a word to Betty, she did not even grant her with a look as Betty scampered from the scene. Her eyes were directed at him and then she spoke, in a broken voice. She asked him 'why?' and he replied most truthfully. And then she slapped him…and honestly it hurt way less than those three words she spat out before leaving for good.
And a croak of a laugh escaped his mouth…bitter and mirthless. He laughed that hollow sound and angrily wiped the moisture from his eyes…he had succeeded. There was no more Naina in his life…or rather there was no more Sirius Black in her life. And so he laughed…and he cried.
When you were young
And on your own
How did it feel
To be alone?
I was always thinking of games that I was playing
Trying to make the best of my time
But only love can break your heart…
Try to be sure from the start
Yes, only love can break your heart…
~ Only love can break your heart by Neil Young (listening to the cover by Gwyneth Herbert though…)
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