Disclaimer: Inyuasha belongs to Rumiko Takahashi. Merely borrowing her characters for my own twisted pleasure.
A/N: Hello again my darlings. I know this chapter has been eagerly awaited and I can't tell you how much your support means to me, every time I open my account and see a new review, I feel like smiling. I hope you will enjoy this chapter and don't forget to review.
Note: For this story Sesshoumaru underwent extensive regeneration with the help of demon healers and gained back his missing arm.
Warnings: Yaoi, incest, bondage, violence, smex, Kagome-bashing and vulgar language. Please click the Back button if you do not wish to continue.
Disparity
By CharmGirl24.
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'I'm dreaming. I'm dreaming. This is all some gruesome nightmare' he desperately tried to convince himself.
Sneaking a look though his closed left eye he saw Sesshoumaru looking back at him with an amused expression. He shut his eye and brought his right hand to his left arm he pinched himself, then he reopened his eye and again he saw the ice prick in front of him.
Sighing in defeat he opened both eyes and sagged against the wall. Trying to process what was happening, he was kidnapped by the asshole, unconscious for a few days, woke up and got violently …attacked. And now he has just been told he was bound to his older half-brother for the rest of his life. His life was turning out like those stupid soap singing things Kagome went on about.
"Alright. Let me see if I get this straight", pointing at Sesshoumaru to his neck. "You bit me in what was not an attempt to kill me, but to tie me to you forever and ever. Right?"
The older demon nodded playing along.
"Now we are both mates. And this is like being married in human terms?"
Sesshoumaru snorted, "Not in the least, as is those sniveling creatures could ever truly possess anything comparing to the bond between us that transcends all other connections, laws and boundaries. We are joined for life to each other, and when the ritual is finally completed we will be unconquerable. Nothing not even that pathetic, irritating fly Naruku could stand against us."
"Wait! Backup for a minute, what do you mean the ritual isn't complete? You mean there is still time to back out of this? Alrightie then let's do it!"
The elder demon chuckled, "Unless you're willing to kill me and live the rest of your life with half a soul contemplating me for the rest of your life, then go ahead."
Inuyasha's jaw dropped and sooner after he amazingly enough began to pout which only increased Sesshoumaru enjoyment.
"So what the heck did you mean when you said it wasn't finish, dickhead?"
"What I meant was since you are the only one marked, you have yet to gain the same abilities I have over you."
"What the- Just what do you got over me, huh?"
"It means little one that I now know the feelings you experience and over time I will be able to communicate with you telepathically. Not only that, but it is my right to protect you and that means you cannot endanger yourself while I'm around."
"Telewhat? Endanger myself? The only onehere bad for me is you. I will damn well do as I please. And don't start back with the pet name shit or I'll cut you slimy tongue out with Tetsuaiga. Got me?"
"Not a few minutes ago you were thoroughly enjoying the use of my tongue" the hanyou blushed a pleasing shade of cherry red, "and its telepathy. In a nutshell. I can send messages and thoughts from my mind to yours, possibly even read your thoughts depending on the strength of our bond. And do not underestimate me Inuyasha, I will not allow you to put yourself at risk and right now I'm in a much better condition to stand behind my promises that you are."
"WAH! No fucking way don't you dare go rummaging around in my brain, you sick perverse bastard", then he mumbled to himself, "oh shit, oh shit, oh shit. Why does this always happen to me? I'm stuck with this sicko for the rest of my life, someone kill me."
"They will have to get though me first and it can now be considered an unattainable feat. You need not worry Inuyasha I will see to your every need from now on, you will want for nothing. The Western Lands will be yours. And completing the bond is your choice, I don't have a problem with you giving up the opportunity to see inside my head, but you would also denied the chance of knowing just how much I feel for you."
"Feel for me. The only thing you've ever felt for me has been hatred and contempt and now you expect me to believe you have had this miraculous change of heart and you want to spend the rest of our life with me living happily ever after, right."
"Essentially, yes."
"Jeez you really do think I'm such an idiot that I would actually take your word on anything?" The hanyou laughed, "For as long as I have known you, you've always been out to get me. First it was because I was a half-breed, then it was because of Tetsuaiga and now, now you just want me to play along with you screwed up mind games. Well listen to this you cow licking, rat fucker, shithead I don't want any part of this, you hear me. As far as I'm concerned you will never hold any importance in my life, so piss off."
Inuyasha attempted to leave the room, but he could reach the door Sesshouraru had appeared directly in front of him stopping him in his tracks.
"You are not leaving this room until we have resolved this issue," the taiyoukai growled fiercely.
The reddish tint of the elder youkai's cornea alarmed the hanyou, but he refused to submit and snapped, "I don't have jackshit to say to you. Now get the hell out of my way before-"
"Before what Inuyasha? I am the alpha in this relationship and you will yield to me."
The hanyou lauged dryly, "Relationship? Who the fuck do you think you're kiddin' Sesshoumaru? What we have could never be called that, what we have is a festering detestable association that I'm breaking. You have crossed the line and as far as I'm concern you're a fucking corpse and I don't give a rat's ass about you. And this mate thing is pure bullshit, just like you."
Not a second later the taiyoukai's hand was wrapped around the hanyou's throat like a vise, his feet no longer touching the ground. "You may insult me however you please, but you will not demean the bond we share, little one."
Chuckling hollowly, "You see. You…… haven't changed…… one bit, you're still …trying to squeeze… the life ………out of me."
It was then through the red haze of anger did the taiyoukai take notice of Inuyasha's inability to breathing and the frightening blue his lips had turned. Immediately he released him and stared in horror as his newfound mate fell to the floor coughing and gaping desperately for air.
"Inuyasha, I never meant to-"
"You never meant to what? Strangle the life out of me?" he mocked rubbing his bruised neck.
Bowing his head in shame and desperation he pleaded, "Please, just- just listen to me little brother. If you don't like what I have to say then I- I promise I will leave you alone from now on. So please just listen."
Meanwhile Sesshoumaru's youki was ranting and raving about his treatment of his mate and yet demanding he be punished for showing such disrespect to his alpha.
Arising shakily the hanyou walking to the opposite end of the room and plopped down crossing his arms defensively.
Taking this as an indication to continue he sighed, "I have made no secret of my disdain and loathing for you over the years. Bu let me start at the beginning, once I found out that father had mated with a human I was furious, to think he would taint our bloodlines with that of a ningen. Not only that I was afraid to lose him, after my mother had passes away all I had left was our father. When he approached me I refused to accept you or your mother.
"And as a result father had to fight al0ne to protect your mother and lost is life in the process. Upon hearing that I became bitter and I despised you for indirectly taking away my father. When we met for the first time I had felt as though the ground had fallen out from under me. You was so similar and it pained me and your innocence, so pure I wanted to destroy you. You were a reminder of my father's supposed betrayal to me.
"As time went by I found myself being drawn to you time and time again. I convinced myself it was because I wanted to keep tabs on you until the day you would be ready for our battle, but I began lingering for other reasons, I was not yet ready to acknowledge them. When you started to associated with that disgusting miko, Kikyo the rage I felt was overwhelming. The thought of you with someone made my blood boil only to later discover that bitch had bound you to that blasted tree.
"When you were revived and found another leech I found another reason to come after you, Tetsuaiga. Our father's fang I desired it, but not only that I wanted to be your sole focus. I want you Inuyasha, I need you and I will not let anyone else have you."
Sesshoumaru pinched his nose bridge, "I have made mistakes Inuyasha and I can apologise for them, but it will not make things better will it? It was because my youki became restless that I engaged in that fight, but it was my decision to make you my mate and I'm proud of it. Whether or not you accept that is your choice, but know I will always be there."
He fell silent, despondent knowing that after all that had occurred he knew Inuyasha would never accept him. And he did not deserve it, after what he had done to him mate he deserved every punishment designed for him and more, but he would do everything it took to ensure his mate's happiness even putting up with the human filth the hanyou surrounded himself by.
"Is that your reason for the torment I suffered? Is that you fucking justification? You fucked-up, sadist bastard, for the past two hundred and fifty years you have done absolutely nothing for me except bring me misery and now you wish to what- just butt into my life and start calling the shots? And after a few weeks, wait not even weeks a couple of days you'll get tired of me and discard me like a piece of trash?"
The taiyoukai was startled the venom and scorn saturating the hanyou words and he could also detect the underlying disbelief and hurt and his heart was being painfully squeezed witnessing the anguish had inflicted on his mate and he wanted nothing more than to kill himself.
And if that was the only was to attain redemption he walked out of the room and when he returned he held Inuyasha's precious Tetsuagia. He stopped a few feet from Inuyasha, kneeling he pulled the sword from the sheath and offered it up to the hanyou.
His head bowed, "If it is my life you seek then take it, if its riches or power or status, I will gladly give it. If you wish me to be broken and tortured I accept it. I will take any punishment you will me Inuyasha, it will never be enough to atone for the sins I have committed, but at least you will have your revenge."
And in that moment Sesshoumaru gave up everything, his pride, his power, his will to live and if Inuyasha decided to strike him down he would allow it. It was uncharacteristic, definitely the craziest thing he had ever done and he would never look back. This was for his mate and he could only hope after he was gone, that Inuyasha would find happiness at last.
Inuyasha stared in incredulity at the passive youkai. Reaching out his hand he grabbed Tetsuaiga and its sheath and stumbling slightly he arose without sparing a second glance at the kneeling youkai and walked out of the room.
His mind was in a state of turmoil, part of him truly yearned to ram the blade of his sword into the bastards gut, but another part wanted to give in and belief that even afterall that had happened that Sesshoumaru really did care for him, even a little, but in the end he ran away, the problem was unresolved, but at least…he would no longer be at the taiyoukai's mercy.
Truly he wondered had he stepped into an alternate reality because everything was seriously out of wack, not to mention how was he supposed to explain what had happened to his group. Sighs, things were turning out to be more difficult than he imagined.
Then with no warning a piercing, unimaginable lonely howl resonated throughout the forest and the hanyou felt his mark pulse and his heart overwhelmed by sadness and confusion. What was happening?
A/N: I know I took forever, sorry about that not sure about the regularity of my update, due to the fact that school has reopened, but I'll try my best. Don't forget to review.
Sincerely,
CharmGirl24.