"Wow, he looks awful."
"Yeah, those bags under his eyes, it's like he hasn't slept in a week or something."
It was only one night. And I could hear you bastards.
"Did you just say something...?"
"WAHAHA, NO WAY! YOU DIDN'T HEAR ANYTHING, RIGHT? !"
"RIGHT, RIGHT!"
Idiots. Well, I really didn't go home until it was already morning. I didn't quite remember half the things I did last night. Around 7 I just got in, changed my clothes and came straight here. It was only an hour and a half and I already felt like there was no way I was going to make it till the end of the day.
I, and everybody else in the office, winced when my phone rang. Again. Some random number had been calling me all morning. I didn't really want to know who it was, though.
"U-Um, Heiwajima-kun, not that I'm complaining or anything, but... m-maybe you should pick it up already?"
I glared at him. He was right but I just wanted to glare right now.
"I don't want to talk to them." Whoever they were.
"T-then maybe you could turn off your phone...?"
"Like hell am I turning off my phone because of some stupid bastard!"
"Ahah, of course! That was just a stupid suggestion, haha!... Now then, where was I..."
Ah jeez, he was right. This was ridiculous. Then, the next time this bastard called would be the last time he made a phone call. About ten minutes later my phone rang again.
Izaya's attention was suddenly snapped to his surroundings. People around him were working as usual, everything seemed normal but he couldn't help but think that something was missing. Even with all the racket going on around it still felt kind of... quiet?
"Ah..." Shintarou-kun.
"Wow, Izaya, forgetting about people? You really need to pull it together.", he murmured to himself as he looked at the clock. He was already an hour late. He asked at the main desk but he hadn't called in sick or anything.
"Maybe Shizu-chan found him later and finished kicking his ass?" He laughed a little at that thought. It wasn't totally impossible.
He could try calling him on his cell. But he never really asked for his number... No! That night before he called Kadota, Shintarou had saved his number in Izaya's cell and told him to call if he needed anything… He was actually a bit proud of himself for remembering such a detail, given the state he had been in. He searched through his contact list and seeing it was really there he hit the dial button. It barely managed to ring once when the call was answered.
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT? !"
I could feel my forehead pulse as I waited for a response that seemed like it would never come.
"Well? !"
"...Shizu-chan?"
"The hell?"
So he was the one? Or he wasn't. I looked at the display but found that it actually read "Izaya"… Damn, maybe I should've looked before answering.
"No way... I couldn't have possibly dialed you."
"Well, look better next time!"
"...Yeah. I'm extremely sorry for bothering you." I could just imagine the face he was making. "Well then..."
"Ah, Izaya-"
"...Wh-what?"
"...Nothing!" I quickly hung up after that.
Agh, what was that? ! There was nothing I had to say to him! What, was I going to ask him about that? It's not like I cared. I didn't... I didn't!
"Shizuo-san?" Oh, that girl. what was her name again? "You really don't seem very well. Is everything okay?"
"...Yeah."
"Are you sure? If you need someone to talk to, you can count on me." Wasn't that nice.
"Thanks."
Although neither of us said anything more she still stood there, blocking my way.
"...Um...Well...This is p-probably very rude of me b-but... if I may ask, could it be that you're having problems with your girlfriend?", she stuttered, moving her gaze away from me as her face grew bright red. Oh, I knew this game.
"I don't have one." Ehh? ! No way! Are you serious? !
"Ehh? ! No way! Seriously? !"
Predictable...
…But maybe I could take advantage. Maybe I needed someone to take my attention away from all this shit. I mean, he already found someone, so-what the hell am I saying? Like hell was my personal life going to be based on what he did! This had nothing to do with him!
"...Do you want to go on a date with me?"
"Wh-what?" She looked up at me and despite the surprise I could see the faintest smile on her lips "...Oh my...I-I..."
"If you don't want to, it's fine-"
"No! I-I do...I really do."
"Let's go somewhere after work."
"Ok!... Ah, well, I have to get back to the phone. S-see you later!" She then ran out of the room, still red and with a now wide smile covering her face. Yeah, she got what she wanted, no reason to stay anymore. Whatever. I turned back to my work as well.
Izaya just stared dumbfounded at his phone's screen. It definitely said Shintarou, so what the hell had just happened? He tried to calm his heart down. Hearing Shizuo say his name after all this time had sent it racing. Did he want to say something to him? What? He guessed he'd never know…
His eyes widened when he checked the number. It was actually Shizuo's! What the hell had that guy done?
"Izaya-saaan!" Speak of the devil. He only listened as the voice got closer, the man seemingly running his way. "I'm so sorry for being late but I had some problems at home so I-Ugh!" Well, he didn't expect that. "... Waah, I-Izaya-san... As a man, I must say that's the last place I'd like to get kicked..."
"Shintarou-kun. You know, something very interesting happened to me just now..."
"For some reason, you smile looks terrifyingly scary right now, Izaya-san."
"I was worried about you so I decided to call and check if you were okay. You'll never guess what happened!"
"Hahahahaha! Wh-what?"
"It was actually Shizu-chan's phone! Can you believe it? I wonder how it happened!"
"Ah, w-well, you know machinery these days! It does whatever it wants, so... You're honestly scaring me right nowww~"
Sighing, Izaya turned away from him as he shoved the phone back in his pocket.
"I don't know why it is that you've been trying to piss him off but you should stop already. He's pissed off enough."
"Huh? But that's not what I've been trying to do at all!"
"...Then what is it-"
"Ah, nothing, nothing! Let's get to work already!"
"What the? You're the one who's an hour late!"
"Yes, yes~"
"Jeez, 'ich one was it? !"
"You only have 3 keys damnit! How the hell can you still not find the right one after 2 minutes!"
"Waah, don't yell at me!"
"Just give me those!"
I snatched the keys from her and finally opened the door to her apartment. She jumped in and I followed after her, heading straight for the kitchen.
"Man, I haven't drank like that in a while."
"I can tell, judging by the fact that you're trying to sit on your tv."
"Wahaha, 't was silly!... Say, Shizuo-san, you're not very romantic, are ya? I mean, taking a girl out drinkin'."
"Would you rather have gone to some fancy restaurant or something?"
"Ah, no, that was good. 'twas fun.", she murmured as she plopped herself on the couch.
I still didn't know her name. Would she be angry if she found out? Meh, whatever.
"Just stay there while I make you some coffee."
"Noo, I don't want coffee!"
"No one's asking you."
"I said I don't want it! !"
Was that how annoying you truly were?
"Fine! Then just go to bed already! You'll probably feel like shit in the morning."
"Ahh, but the couch is so comfy!"
"Fine, then! Where are your blankets?"
I went over to her but there were none in sight.
"Shizuo-sann, stop acting all nice!"
"What?"
"Didn't you come for something~?"
"...Where are your blankets?" I turned around to go look for them but was stopped when she gripped my jacket and pulled me back as I landed straight into the couch.
"I'm not stupid."
"But you're obviously drunk as hell."
"Hmm, whatever."
Climbing over me she wasted no time as her lips landed straight onto mine.
Was this what I wanted? A few hours were enough for me to know that I didn't really want anything to have with this woman. But just doing it? We work together, after all. But I was stupid enough to invite her. And I was also just a tiny bit drunk…
What would she say if she knew the last person I've kissed was a man? She'd probably freak out or something. But then again I'm freaking out just remembering it... Was I honestly thinking about Izaya when there was a woman in my lap? What the hell was wrong with me? This was way better! She had these, after all...
"Ah..."
She gasped when I slipped my hand under her blouse and started feeling her breasts. They were soft and warm... It was nothing like that bastard, he was like a flat board. But he was a man, after all. Idiot. She buried her face in my neck as my hand began to travel downwards. And then there wasn't even place for comparison for this...
"Nnn...Shizuo-san…" This was where a man's dick was supposed to go, damn it! With him I'd just have to shove it back there like some animal. I've never thought of doing it like that even with a woman. I'd totally feel like a-
"Ow! ! !"
Huh?
"What the hell are you doing? ! Are you crazy ? !"
"What-"
"Don't 'what' me! Just where did you think you put your finger, you pervert? !"
"Where else would I-" Oh shit. Or was that the wrong expression right now? That's what you get for thinking about something you're not supposed to think of! ! !
"I can't believe it! So you're that kind of guy? !"
She jumped off from me and backed up in the other end of the couch, looking at me with the most disbelieving look. I'd look at myself way worse if I could. Did I actually do that?
...his fault, it was all his fault! He was messing up my mind!
"...ll."
"What? !"
"Kill. Kill kill kill!"
"E-eh?"
Getting up from the couch I stormed out of her apartment leaving her to look completely terrified. I'd probably feel bad about her later.
Twenty minutes later I found myself in front of Izaya's door. Well, that was enough time for me to realize that I really shouldn't be there. It was his fault but I couldn't exactly just tell him what I was accusing him of, right? That would be completely humiliating. Plus that fact about being just a little bit drunk… and now also a little bit hard. But it had been a while! Fuck, why couldn't I just do like normal men and relieve myself once in a while? !
Okay then, now that I realized it was not a good decision I was just going to leave-
"Excuse me, are you alright?"
"Huh?" I turned around and saw a strangely dressed young woman smiling up at me.
"Well, I saw you just standing there for a while and... Ah, aren't you one of Orihara-san's friends? I think I've seen you around before." Oh great.
"...Yeah, but it seems he's not here so I-"
"What are you saying? You didn't even ring the doorbell. Here!"
Don't! Gah, why you do this to me, woman?
"Yes?" This wasn't fair.
"Orihara-san! How are you? Ah, a friend of yours is here to see you, just thought I'd help him. He looked like he was afraid of the bell~"
His face obviously showed that I was the last person he was expecting to see.
"Is something wrong?"
"...No, no. Thank you, Erika-san."
"Well, see you!" She proceeded to jump down the stairs like a kid, like she hadn't just fucked up my life! !
"...What is it?"
"..." Awkward. What now? Should I yell, hit? Or just leave?
"...?"
"...Nothing!" I turned to leave. Why did I even hesitate?
"...Do you want to come in?"
How polite-no I don't want to come in! Are you stupid?
Stupid is me apparently, since right now I was sitting on his couch. Why. I already made up my mind to not say anything. There wasn't anything to talk about and I still wanted to kill him. Not to mention couches weren't my thing tonight. So why? Because I am retarded.
"Do you want some tea?"
'Do you want some tea?' Fuck you, seriously. "No..."
"Well, I was just making some for myself, so..." He headed for the kitchen and I heard some jingling as he prepared himself a cup.
…Ah, finally being able to sit down normally I felt just how tired I was. But that was a given, having in mind I hadn't slept in precisely 36 hours... No! Stupid eyes, don't close on your own. Like hell could I fall asleep here, that would be the most stupid thing I could do!... What was taking him so long anyway, it was just a damn cup of tea.
Finally he came back and sat on a chair next to the couch. Looking at me he gave me a weird look.
"Are you okay?"
"Why?"
"You look awful."
Wow, thanks! "I'm fine!" How could I look that bad because of just one night without sleep?
"…So what? You're that angry about that call? I really had no intention of that happening. You know you'd be the last person I'd call-"
"I know!"
"...Then what? You just got pumped in general and decided to come train your fists?" Well, not exactly...I mean!
"Shut up already."
The silence was even more annoying, though.
"...Where is he?"
"Who?"
"...That guy."
"Huh?"
"The clown!"
"...Sintarou-kun? At home, maybe... I have no idea. Why would I know?"
"Don't play dumb."
"What?"
"...I know."
"What are you-"
"I know that you're with him!"
Ah, don't spit you tea out like some stupid cartoon character. It's disgusting.
"Wh-what?"
"I don't see what's so schocking. He told me last night."
"Are you crazy? You must have misheard."
"No, I didn't! He said it loud and clear."
"...Shizu-chan, there is no such thing."
"Come on, Izaya. He even told me in details."
"What details? ! There isn't anything-"
"And you even told him about...that. And even about that morning!"
"No!... I admit I suspected that he knew something but I haven't told him a single word! Especially about that time, I'd never tell anyone something like that! !"
"Yeah? How does he know, then? !"
"Ask him! I have no idea!"
"There's no point in hiding anything now! Why are trying to deny it? !"
"There's nothing to deny! I swear it's all a lie! You think I'd just jump to someone that easily? ! Not to mention, a man!"
Uh-huh.
"...I-It's different than this."
"How? ! What's different about me? I'm just a man, like him. We even look alike a little. So?"
"Because I love you!"
"So what? ! I think you already showed what your "love" is that time!"
"What the hell, saying that again? ! Of course that's a normal reaction when the person you love does something like that! What's so wrong about it? ! Plus, you're not one that has any right to talk about love!"
"What? !"
"All these years you were the only one getting dumped. Every time one of those women said they were leaving you, you just let them go! You looked like you didn't even care! Of course I wouldn't expect anything from you, you've never even been in love with a woman, how could I expect you to accept a man? ! You're just a heartless-!"
Ah...
"...I-I'm sorry. I didnt' mean-"
It's not like what he said was true, but…
"Yeah, you're right, I didn't care! So if you already know what a heartless bastard I am, just hurry up and fall in love with someone else! I don't want this anymore!"
I got up and was prepared to storm out, but just when I opened the door it was slammed back shut by the bastard that was now behind me.
"I'm sorry, Shizu-chan. You're not heartless. You're a good person, that's why I love you."
"Stop saying that!"
"…Say, why did you come back?"
"What?"
"You know, when I told you I basically expected two scenarios. Either you'd ignore it just like the confession from that time and pretend that nothing had happened, which was obviously the less expected development, or you'd be completely disgusted and I'd never see you again. At first it just looked like you had chosen the second option and I was fine with that, not that I had a choice. But then you didn't really disappear, you came back to the diner twice, even though you knew I'd be there and you even agreed to come that night."
"…I-I only did it because of Kadota!"
"But Dotachin's not here now."
"...That's-"
"You said and did some strange things. And now you come and continue confronting me about it, although there is already nothing else to say. First I find you just sitting in front of my door and then you ask me things like that, like I owe you an explanation about my personal life… What are you doing? I just don't get you anymore. Are you going to hold that much of a grudge against me? I already said I was sorry, even though that's not really something to apologize about..."
I turned my head to look around at him but only saw black hair as he was currently half bent next to me, his hand still on the door, holding it closed. What a pathetic pose—I almost gasped when my phone started ringing.
Seeig as he made no attempt to move I grunted as I struggled to get the phone out of my pocket. An unknown number again...
"Yeah?"
"...Shizuo-san."
The girl? Ah, that's right. I gave her my number.
"I...Well...Even though you were in the wrong...!...But maybe I still reacted too harsh...I mean, well, everyone has different tastes, even if some of them are a bit weird...Maybe I shouldn't have lashed out like that… And you dashed out so suddenly... T-that is...If y-you wanted to do it like that-"
"No! What? ! Don't misunderstand! Like hell would I stick it in there! I just wasn't concentrated and my hand unconsciously moved there!"
"...B-But why would it unconsciously move… there?"
"Well! That is-"
Looking over I winced at the look he had. Yeah, I had to guess that was one of the weirder phone calls he'd heard recently.
"Ah, look, we'll talk later! Bye!"
"Wai-" Yeah, sorry, bye.
"...What was that?"
"Nothing!"
"Shizu-chan..."
"Look, I have to go, so move already!"
"...So you were with a woman?"
"Yeah, so? !"
"No, I mean, how on earth did you end up coming here? What happened? She apologized, even though she said it was you who did something..."
"Why are you eavesdropping on other people's phone calls? !"
"Hmm, weird tastes...Sticking it there...Huh?... Don't tell me you-"
"Shut up! It's your fault anyway! I told you to get out of my way!" If my face was red now I was so going to punch it again!... Looks like I had to.
"...So you came here to blame me for something like that?"
"Well, you are to blame! But I was just going to leave when that stupid neighbor of yours meddled in!"
"Ah.."
"…How long are you planning on staying like this! Just get lost already!", I yelled as I managed to turn around and push him away.
Probably sensing that he'd crack his head with the strength he'd fall with, though, I barely managed to keep myself on my feet, not expecting him to grab me by the jacket. I stumbled backwards, trying to keep my balance and landed in the door, with Izaya landing straight into me.
"Ah, fuck. That hurt-Ugh!" Okay, not good. I shouldn't have moved! But it's not like I was completely hard so he probably didn't feel it... Judging by his face, I'd say he may have.
"You're...?"
"That's from before! When I was with the girl! Don't think anything weird!"
"And you came all the way here… while you were hard? That... I'm honestly a bit confused right now."
"Well, be confused somewhere away from me!" I moved to shove him away again but he just clutched harder at my jacket. "Hey-!"
"...Are you looking down on me?"
"Huh?"
"You may think that I'm half a man or something because I like someone of the same sex but... All this time I've done all I can to avoid any kind of contact or attachment out of the "buddy" zone. Even after everything came out I just acted distant and didn't push anything on you at all, but... To actually come to me in this state, you're definitely making fun of me!"
"Wait, what-" I was interrupted when his lips clashed into mine. I immediately tried to push him away again but the only way was to tear my clothes away with him. I managed to detach his mouth from mine for a second before he moved closer again, this time his tongue slipping inside. It moved around a little and I felt myself shiver just a tiny bit before I managed to bite it hard. He quickly pulled away and frowned at me.
"Fucking bastard! Are you crazy?"
"...What? Weren't you the one who did this to me first?"
"Sh-Shut up! It was just too early in the morning! I didn't even know what I was doing!"
"Ah, but you mouth sure did."
I wasn't going to listen to any more of this!
"That's it, you bastard! Just...let...go!" I pulled at his hands so hard I heard the fabric tear a little but I still couldn't pull them away. What the fuck was up with that deadly grip? !
"Oww, don't squeeze my arms so hard! Do you want to break them? !"
"That would be your problem! !"
We stumbled a little and I barely managed to register the back of my foot hitting the small stair at the entrance before I was already on my back with that stupid son of a duck on top of me. What the hell was this? These were the most ridiculous situations ever! I couldn't even believe it was happening!
"...Did you just harden more?"
"Like hell! That's just my keys! Or my phone!... You fucking pervert!"
"Hmph, says the person who got hard over touching someone's ass-"
"Gyaaaa! I told you to shut your mouth! It's just cause I'm tired, plus I drank alcohol earlier! !"
"Hmm, wouldn't that usually give the opposite effect?"
"...!"
He leaned in and his face was so close that his breath was almost burning me.
"Don't you dare get any closer! I'll kill you!"
"Well..."
"That's it! You're dead, do you hear me? ! I'll rip your limbs off if you don't stop right now!"
"...But I'm not really doing anything."
"...Oh."
Fuck, even at a moment like that I couldn't help a yawn that escaped me, though I almost choked when a hand went under my shirt.
"You're definitely doing something now!"
"Well, what are you doing, just laying there when you're supposed to punch me in the face and leave?"
"I was just going to! Tha-aa!" He...He just pinched my nipple. Okay, now!
I propped myself up with my hands and was going to throw him off when he grabbed me by the shoulders and slammed me back down. First of all, where the hell did that strength come from? ! Sure that mine was currently a bit down, but... And secondly...
"Ow! What the-! Are you trying to crack my heard open, you bastard? !"
"Shizu-chan, right now I need some time away from you. I can't deal with this if you keep popping up wherever. So if I do something you'd consider the most humiliating thing ever, you'd go away on your own, right?"
I hissed when one of his hands went to unbutton my pants.
"Believe me, the feeling is mutual! ! I'll just leave now and make sure that you never see me again, so-!"
I felt my heartbeat speed up like wild when he took me in his hand and began to pump slowly.
"No, Izaya! !" I moved to get up again but he just squeezed hard enough for me to fall back down as I gasped in momentary pain. "S-Stop it! Do you hear? ! Gah!"
As if not registering my protests and writhing at all he just leaned in and kissed me again, his tongue moving firmly deeper while his other hand brushed my forehead.
No, this-this wasn't happening! And how the hell did the roles suddenly reverse? It just had to stop!
"Stop it! This is disgusting!"
"Why are you fully hard, then?"
"Who the hell knows? ! ! Just cut it out!" I felt a particularly violent shudder run through me when he dipped his fingernail in my slit. I couldn't be this close this fast. I wasn't supposed to be close at all! Goddamn it! I...
He doubled the speed of his stroking and very soon I could almost feel it coming out when he added some slight tugging and rubbing the tip.
The only thing I could do to prevent myself from falling in complete shame was to bury my hands in his hair while I pulled him down so he couldn't see my face while I came hard in his hand.
...worst. This was the worst. The complete and ultimate worst! How did it even happen? How could I let it happen? !
"Haa...Haa...That..."
"Shizu-chan?" He tried to pull away but I only locked my fists harder as I pulled him back down.
"D-Don't move or I'll kill you! !... You fucking..."
I winced when I felt his hand run through my hair and without realizing I let go in order to push it away. He took the opportunity and quickly drew back, staring at my face for several moments.
"Wow, you're blood red."
I turned my head away as I still struggled to regain my normal breathing.
"Goddamn bastard… So you pretended to act all sad and innocent, when in reality you were like this! !"
There was silence for a short time before I heard a snort as he patted my chest a few times.
"You can think whatever you want now, Shizu-chan. I'm not going to try and defend myself. You can even think that I was a prick who was just after your body. Who knows, you could even be right."
"That's it! Get off already! You damn-"
"It was just a joke, Shizu-chan. Hah, only lusting over a body for that long would be kind of sick, don't you think?"
…Probably. It's not like I'd seen anything else from you recently, though!
Seeing that I wasn't going to respond anymore he sighed as he got up from me.
I tugged myself back in and pulled up my pants, hurrying to get up so I could just get away. Rising, however, I felt my knees tremble from under me, while my pants fell back down at the same time, since I was idiotic enough to leave the zipping up for after, and I stumbled around, falling on my ass again. God, I just wanted to die right now.
I tried to get up again, this time being a bit harder since I couldn't really pull up my pants from a sitting position and froze for a moment when a hand was offered in front of my face.
Feeling anger rise within me yet again, I shoved it away with as much force as I could manage.
"Get the fuck away from me! I don't need your damn help!"
He clutched at it, though his gaze never left me for even a moment.
"But if you fall like that again your butt's really going to hurt tomorrow."
Noo, what the fuck was my face flushing for again? !
"Don't say such disgusting shit! !"
"What? How exactly was that disgusting…?"
Funny you're asking!
I twitched when I felt him grabbing hold of my arm and in an instant my desire to kill him was back with full force!... Though I guess I'd do it when I was actually on my damn feet!
"Ah, come on, you know you're too heavy for me to just pull you up…"
"You didn't seem to have a problem with my size a while ago! !"
Fuck! To have to rely on him right after something like that…There was no way this was anything but a nightmare!
Finally getting off the ground I hurriedly moved my hands to my belt but was beaten to it when that bastard grabbed a hold of it first, pulling me to crash in him as he began to zip me up.
"What the-? ! I can do that on my own, idiot! !"
The only response I received was a breath clashing in my neck as he laughed suddenly.
"Who would've thought Shizu-chan would be left this helpless after just an orgasm…"
"Wh-whaaaat? ! I-It's not like that at all!" No blushing, no blushing! "It's because of all your shit that I haven't slept in nearly two days! How do you expect me to be…? !"
"…Oh, is that so."
When buckling up my belt his hand brushed against my crotch a few times and if it was on purpose he was just going to die!
Wait, what the hell were my hands tightening around his shoulders for? ! I moved to shove him away but my breath hitched when he surprisingly did it first.
"Well then, you should go home and rest."
"Huh? What the, you think you're gonna get away with it just like that? !"
"Oh, you want to hit me?" He turned to me and just stared, waiting for the expected hit to land.
That… I wanted to punch him, but… I'd totally decapitate him.
"Come on, hurry up so you can get out of here."
The hell? If you wanted to get rid of me that badly, then fine!
"Don't forget to keep your promise."
Those were the last words I heard before the door closed behind me. Damn it, I was so pissed off, pissed off, pissed off! Fucker doing whatever he wants! He better hope I kept my promise if he wanted to see the light of day again! !
Oh shiiii-
Well, this chapter was a bit awkward... And Izaya actually haz ballz? !