Hey everyone! So I got so excited about the last chapter because I liked it so much, that I decided to start writing more! I have all these ideas in my head and they all want to flood out. So after a year of writers block I finally broke free! I'm so happy it isn't even funny! So I have all these ideas in my head and I have to figure out how to get them all to come together into one! Which it will, I have been thinking about this story for a while! So I'm really excited to start writing more for it! I really hope you guys like this story! Ohhhh I also realized that I love writing in Jacob's pov he most likely is my favorite character to write! Just to let you guys know if it ends up begin in his point of view a lot!
Jacob's POV
The day went by way to slow for me. All the rest of my classes felt like hours and hour's worth of sitting and doing nothing. I couldn't even think straight, cause all I kept thinking about was the way Bella smiled, or said Hi. I kept thinking about the way she swiftly walked out the door. It literally made my heart start racing in the middle of class just thinking about it.
But school was over now and I was sitting my house trying to concentrate on my homework because school work was the only thing that could get Bella off my mind.
Although I was happy to hang out with Bella, I was also kind of nervous the whole reason I was going to meet Bella was to tell her about Mike and I knew that finding out something along the lines of hey your boyfriend is cheating on you, yeah that's got to hurt. Especially, from a guy who you hardly know, and has been in your class for two days.
Yeah I'm sure she was going to love that! But I had to try, because if I never tired and I just left it. I would feel so guilty knowing I didn't try. I would just be like all the rest of her friends at the table. Careless and hardly a friend at all, to I had to tell her. Weather she believed me or I had to try.
Bella's POV
It was 5 pm. I had just gotten back from a great day with my brother. We went into Port Angeles for a bit and then drove out to Seattle just to hang out and eat. We laughed the entire time, about our childhoods and just about random stuff. It felt so good to talk to my brother again; I had missed him so much. I did love him with all my heart. He was my best friend. I would do anything for him.
We were sitting in the car on the ride home jamming out to spice girls, When Emmett turned down the music. I automatically knew something as up because he never turned down the music, ever! I sat up straight and looked at him.
"What wrong you okay?"
I asked looking up at him worried. He looked over at me and smiled. It wasn't a worried smile or a scared smile it was a happy smile. I was so lost.
"Yeah I'm great Bells but I have tot ell you something. You will be one of the first people to know so you got to promise to keep it a secret okay?"
I began to get excited the way I use to when Emmett use to tell me secrets when we were little because they were always really good secrets. One's that you literally couldn't tell anyone. My brother was good at finding things out.
"Yeah sure Em, what's going on?"
He began to smile big again and he actually had slight color in his face. I couldn't take it anymore I wanted to know what it was!
"Bell...I proposed to Rose and she said yes….and-"
I automatically started screaming! I was so happy for them I was waiting for them to get married for years! Oh my god! Finally the perfect couple is getting married yeay! I was beyond excited and I couldn't wait to talk to Rose and help her plan everything and it was just going to be so much fun to see him get married! I was so excited!
"Bell! Bell! Wait a second! I have more to tell you!"
He said laughing hard. We stopped at a red light and reached in the back of his car. What more could he tell me other then he was getting married that was the best news in the world! I was so happy for him! I literally forgot about everything! I was just full of happiness and joy for my brother!
"What could be better then you getting married?"
The light turned green and he turned around. He had a little envelope in his hands and he handed it to me. I began to feel butterflies in my stomach. This was just getting more exciting by the moment.
"Open it!"
He said making hand motions to open it. My heart beating faster and faster, I slightly began to open it he envelope I saw a bit of black then as I pulled the paper out of the envelope I saw a sonogram. I literally started crying. Tears of happiness and joy flooded my eyes and I reached over and hugged him, totally forgetting that he was driving!
"Wow, wow! I know its exciting but please don't kill us both before I get to be a dad and you get to be an aunt and godmother!"
I thought that by getting news that Emmet was getting married and having a baby was going to be enough to make my day. But now I'm going to be the god mother to? Now this was one of the best days in my entire life. I was so beyond happy, Maybe things wouldn't be that bad anymore. Maybe everything would work out now, yes Mike was an ass but now I didn't have to worry about him all the time because I had something bigger and better going on in my life. I was going to be an aunt and I was going to get a sister! I was so happy that I could literally run for miles!
"Wait you mean?"
Emmett nodded his head and looked down at the picture as we pulled into my driveway.
"Yeah we are wondering if you want to be the godmother. So will you Bells, will you be the godmother of my child?"
My smile was literally off my face I was so happy! I screamed yes and wrapped my arms around him.
Once we got inside we discussed how it all happen and it was quit the story. Turns out that Emmett surprised proposed to Rose and she started crying her eyes out and didn't even give a answer she just gave him the sonogram. And he started crying and once they both finished crying they decided that it was fate and they were more then happy.
Rose was happy that Emmett proposed before he found out she was pregnant and Emmett just couldn't wait to be a dad. He told me it was a girl and how Rose was three months in. They were planning on naming it Audrey Lilly Swan, and I told him I absolutely loved it.
As I was discussing everything with Emmett I remember that I had to meet Jake down at the reservation. I told Emmett thank you for the amazing day and I gave him the biggest hug and kiss and congratulated him on everything. I was beyond happy for him!
As I drove down to the beach I remembered how nervous I got when Jake was talking to me and how I keep just staring into his eyes. He most likely thought I was the weirdest girl ever and I honestly wanted to cry because I looked like such a retard. And I know I should have met him at the coffee house but I just wanted to be safe, but I kept wondering what he had to tell me. It had interest me the entire drive home. I knew I left without saying goodbye to Jacob, but not only did I get nervous around him but I knew it was dangerous for him to be talking to me in a public area like school.
I finally got down to the beach and I saw him sitting there. His perfect skin, glittering in the moon light, and him hair perfect even in the wind. My heart started to race. My mouth got dry and my throat got tight. I couldn't believe I was feeling these feelings for someone I hardly knew.
I parked the car and took a deep breathe and all thought I knew that this was dangerous and I couldn't get too close to Jacob in fear that Mike might do something, but at the same time I couldn't resist Jacob's charm. There was something about him that drew me into him. He just had some sort of good aura, ever since the first time I saw him. I just wanted him to warp me in his arms.
I got out of the car and tried not to hyper ventilate. I slowly made my way toward him my heart beating faster and faster as I got closer and closer.
"Hey…."
I said now feeling so light headed that I thought I was going to pass out. I wanted to scream!
He quickly spun around and threw the biggest smile in the world at me. And that alone made me go into cardiac arrest. I had no clue why but with him I just felt safe. I felt like Mike couldn't even see him or didn't even care to hurt me anymore. It was the most I have felt since before Mike became an asshole. I guess once Mike started hurting me I was scared to feel anything because I was scared that if I did try to feel love or anything then I would be able to feel the pain of Mike hitting me. And I didn't want to feel that. So that's why I kept running from Jacob these past two days because I felt something for him and it scared me.
"Bella!"
He got up and walked over to me, he wrapped me in a hug and at that moment I felt it. I felt warmth, I felt comfort. I smiled it felt…good. I wrapped my arms around him too.
And although it was weird to be hugging someone I had only known for two days, it oddly felt like the best thing that I could ever do. But I knew it wasn't right, I couldn't get to close to Jacob, for his safety.
So I quickly pulled away and ran a hand through my hair trying to get the tingle out of my stomach.
"What up Jake?"
I asked trying to put on a fake smile for him although I just wanted to cry cause these feelings were scary then ever, I just wanted to run. I hadn't felt anything like this. Even with Mike.
" Uhm I have to talk to you. I know you hardly know me. But I would hope that we were friends."
Honestly I wanted to be way more then friends with him, but no one could know that not even him.
"Uhm yeah sure, f you want to call it that!"
I said waiting to hear what he had to say. He made a weird face as if he didn't like what I was saying.
" Well, uhm I don't know how to say this and I know its none of my business but I felt bad and I couldn't' not tell you"
I began to feel weird. What did he know? My stomach felt like I was going to puke now. Did he see the bruises? Oh no was I going to have to hate him completely? Oh no Mike is going to flip.
"What…"
I said just sinking into the sand. How could a guy I hardly know figure this out but even my own father and bother couldn't. I felt the tears begin to come into my eyes. Mike was going to kill someone. I was going to die. I had to do something what about Emmett and Rose, and their wedding and the baby.
"I saw Mike today…."
And that was it. My heart sank and the tears began to flow down my face. Jake didn't like me he just saw Mike hit me and felt bad that I was some abused little , for once I felt something and thought maybe somehow in a great fairytale that I could get out of this horrible relationship. But I can't.
"It was nothing whatever you saw it was just him trying to be a better boyfriend"
Jacob's face fell and I could tell he got upset. I knew this wasn't a good idea to become close to him. It was the worst mistake of my life! I was fine where I was with dealing with Mike and all that. So why couldn't Jake just stay out of it!
"Bella he was with Jessica. How is that trying to be a better boyfriend? Bella I think there is a chance that he might be cheating on you. And I know you hardly know me and I have no right to tell you this. But I saw it, he was with her Bella and I didn't want to hide it from you. And I'm sorry if this hurts, but I had to tell you."
For a second my heart stopped beating so fast. That's what Jacob had tot ell me, something I already knew? I didn't feel so bad anymore. But I couldn't act like it was okay for Mike to be cheating on me because then it would be way too suspicious. So I just continued to let the tears fall and put on a small little act. And I knew that the only way to protect Jake was to lie. If Jake confronted Mike…..who knows what Mike would do? I had to lie…..
"No…he wouldn't you got to be kidding me. Jacob listen, Mike is my boyfriend of almost three years oaky? He would never cheat on me. He was most likely just kidding around with Jessica. Just stay out of my business okay? This is not your life its mine. I will talk to him about it and don't you dare ever say one word to any one got it?"
Jacob's eyes became small and his face wrinkled up a bit. He was mad I could tell, my heart was pounding in my chest and I crunched forward embracing for a blow in the stomach or face. I was just waiting for it. I kept crunching forward to the point where I was in a ball.
"What are you doing? Are you okay?"
Jacob asked looking at me falling to the ground. Why wasn't he hitting me? Anytime Mike got angry like that the next thing to happen was I would get hit….I guess I was just so used to it. My stomach was in knots and I was so confused and I couldn't stop crying…
Jacob moved closer and I tried to move back….but he wouldn't let me…
"Sh, its okay….You can't lie to me Bella I know what I saw. Don't deny it. Just break up with him okay? It's the best thing to do. You don't want to be taken advantage of like that. Your better then that…"
I know he was right but I couldn't bring myself to think that I was. I somehow believed that I deserved it in some way; I should have done better, when his mom died or when I knew he wasn't oaky. I should have gotten him help. But I didn't the truth was I deserved to be beaten by him. He deserved to have Jessica; she gave him what he wanted. I wouldn't I know I was bad at what he wanted. But I didn't want to be forced to do it and that's what he did.
So overall I did deserve it all. Jacob was wrong, I deserved it all. And one day when I did break free a part of me would miss Mike, the Mike I knew two years ago, the sweetheart who really did love me.
"I can't Jacob I love him and he loves me, he is my boyfriend and we have been together for a while. I have no clue why you decide you can come into my life and tell me what to do when I barely know you!"
I started to walk away but he gently grabbed my hand. A flashback of Mike fiercely grabbing me and pushing me down ran through my head and tried to get loose and surprisingly Jacob just let me go.
"Bella, I'm sorry I just felt bad and I know this a horrible way to start off but I felt bad and I didn't know what to do."
My legs were shaking and I felt sick to my stomach. I should have just stayed home. I was having the best day ever, and now it just turned into another normal day. I couldn't take it anymore. I was up to my neck in Mike shit and I was through with it. I had no clue what to think anymore or what to even do. I was beyond upset and all I wanted to do was cry.
"Jacob. I really don't care. You should just mind your own business don't get involved you will regret it big time! Please if you really care about me you will just stay away okay?"
Jacob didn't say anything. He just put his hands in his pockets and walked down the beach. I felt a bit of an ache in my heart. But I know I did the right thing, to get Jake involved in this was just ridiculous, absolutely and positively stupid.
So I hid my feelings like usual, deep down even where I couldn't feel them. It was the only thing I could do anymore, because if I had to feel my feelings to I would want Mike to kill me.
So as the tears were about to tall down my face I closed my eyes and just let them fall. I got in my car and started to drive. When I got home I saw Mike's truck, my heart started to race because Charlie had over time tonight and Emmett was with Rose. I knew I was about to get it bad from lunch. I was prepared I couldn't feel anything anyways so here we go.
So I myself was happy with the begging of this but I didn't like the end. I like the last chapter better. But review and tell me what you think! Thanks guyssss! Happy Halloween!
