That was dream?

My eyes fluttered open to sunshine, I looked over to the window and my heart jumped

Not only was I in my bed in my room, but the blinds were still on the window.

The realization hit me; I stumbled over to the dresser and looked in the mirror, my neck

Was UN marked my night clothes were on me and not tattered or ripped. The painful

Pull was still present and throbbing. As I looked into the mirror I could not believe how crazy my dreams had actually become, perhaps this was not a good idea. I was sure at this moment that I should have stayed in Florida and left this alone. I had not been rid of Edward for that long what made me think I would be able to make amends with Jake and be forgiven. I Should have married Justin and just dealt with the bizarre feeling, it would have gone away eventually.

I threw on a pair of jeans and a tee-shirt and went down stairs lost in thought as to what I was going to do to try and make this right. I was thinking I should leave and just get married, hat would force Jacob to move on with his life and forget me, and hopefully he would imprint soon and that would make him forget me. I walked into the kitchen to Kristin watching the coffee pot and threatening it for being to slow,

"You know "I said mischievously "Watching it makes it take longer"

"Yeh" she snorted "I guess your dad never herd of a bunn"

THe old percolator finished and made a loud shrieking sound, I laughed at the look on her face. She poured her coffee while mumbling about old fashioned appliances, and tossed over her shoulder at me," I am going outside its sunny and warm"

I poured my self a cup and followed her, settling into the chair on the back deck I remembered just how beautiful this place was. He damp ground was misting from the warm sunlight and the trees were so green and lush, it truly looked like a fairy would in the Forrest." I think I made a mistake coming here "I told her as she sipped her coffee.

"Maybe I should go home and forget this; I think I should move the wedding up to.

No point in waiting, Justin wants to get married now, I should just do it and start my new life" I sighed as I caught the look of surprise from my friend.

"What changed your mind?"

" I just think the best way for me to move forward is to just start my new life, and stop wallowing in the old one , what's done is done you cant change it."

she looked at me and nodded her head," so what are you thinking?"

"I think we should leave tomorrow morning and I think Ill try to have a small wedding in 2 weeks" that would be before Renee leaves for her trip so she could be there. "

Kirsten jumped up and spilled her coffee" you're not fair that is not enough time to plan a wedding" she made for the house "I will be in my room thank god for the internet, its going to take me days to pull this off"

I smiled at her she reminded me of Alice sometimes.

I leaned back enjoying the gentle warmth from the sun and tried to think of what I was going to say to justin. He would be thrilled, he had no desire to wait two years to get married, but still he would wonder at my sudden change of heart. Rustling branches near the tree line bought me out of my thoughts, A sandy beige wolf stepped out, while not as big as Jake this wolf was much larger then I remembered , "Seth" the wolf just tilted his head, "I guess you drew the short stick" Tell Jacob I don't need a babysitter anymore." "I no longer run with vampires" I chucked at the surprised look on his face.

"Please tell him I am sorry, I should have stayed away."

The pull in my chest became painful and strong, I tried to stand and was instantly doubled over, and I felt like my heart was being torn out. I choked on my next words "I won't come back" I dropped to my knees as a pained howl ripped through the air, seth took several steps toward me and then looked over his shoulder, torn between whom to go to. "Go "I said to him through clenched teeth, He looked at me again for a moment before taking off into the forest. I managed to make my way into the kitchen and sat down, trying to catch my breath. I just kept telling my self, I was doing the right thing.

I sat at the table trying to will my self back together and figure out what to say to Justin. My father was not going to be happy either, I got up and started to look through the freezer I would make a nice dinner for him and that would soften the blow some.

I found a couple of London broils, I could marinate them and put them on the grill and bake potato maybe a salad. Hat would be good, I liked to cook and it was a good distraction, I could think better with something to do. I would have to go to the store and pick up potatoes and salad, as I grabbed my purse; I hit dial on my cell phone and left Justin a message to call me. Here that is done now I just have to think of how to say it and how to tell dad. The drive to the store was peaceful I had time to think things out and had a much better perspective of what to do I was confident that this was right , my heart still hurt but that was my own doing and I would not cause him any more pain.

The grocery store was very busy; I hated shopping of any kind, more so in a crowded store. I started in produce and picked up a ten pound bag of potatoes and then two bags of salad, I also picked up a bottle of merlot for kirsty as a peace offering. I was in the bakery looking for nice loaf of French bread when a familiar voice said my name; I looked up into the scarred face of Emily, who as usual had a huge smile on her face. "Charlie said you were home, you look so good " she said as she pulled me into a hug, I hugged her back " you look great to " I smiled I had always liked this pleasant woman , she always had a kind word and a smile for me even when the others did not. We stood talking for a bit ,she told me she had married Sam and they were thinking of starting a family now that things were quiet, I understood what had quieted down ,now with the Cullen's gone. I told her about finishing school and looking for a job, when she totally threw me off by asking if I would come out for a bonfire the next night, "bring your friend with you Billy said she's funny" I was not sure if I had imagined the worried expression that flashed across her face as I explained that I would be heading back to Florida the next morning. "Oh Bella, I don't think so" She recovered quickly though and told me the offer was still open should I change my mind. I thanked her and made my way to the front of the store ,I had what I needed and just wanted to get away from her , she had made me nervous, what had she meant ,I dont think so . What did she know that I did not?

My phone rang as I was putting groceries in the trunk I let it go to voice mail and took the cart back to the front of the store. I checked the phone and saw the message was from my dad, better listen to it before I cook all this food ,I thought as I dialed the number to retrieve my messages ,My dads voice came on ,"I hate these things Bella, why do you make me talk to them?" "Anyway I just wanted to let you know that I invited Billy and Jake over for dinner tonight, I knew you would want to see him while you are home." talk to you later bye.

Crap, this was not part of my letting this go plan. I was so nervous by the time I got back to the house that I could barley get the bags out of the trunk, thankfully Kristin popped out the door and ran to help me. "I thought you would be glued to the computer for the rest of the day planning a fast wedding" I laughed

"Well I would have but Justin interrupted me she laughed back as Justin walked out the door. I started to hyperventilate. He ran over to help me into the house, "what is the matter with you Bella"

"Nothing I stammered "you just surprised me", Panic full blown panic was setting in, what now, what else is god going to throw at me today? I should not have asked ,just then my phone started ringing, I put up my finger as I answered it with out looking ,mistake, I was greeted by the high pitch singing voice of alice, " Bella What have you done?"

Note; I own nothing Twilight. I have the next chapter almost ready and will try to post it tonight or tomorrow. From that point Jacob will be taking a prominent role and the story should start moving forward. Thank you for reading and for your reviews!