Evan turned on the light and walked toward his bed. His mind was completely black. All he could see was Johns face. He couldn't stop thinking about him. His beautiful eyes, his firm face. He was so gorgeous, and funny, and sweet. He was perfect. He walked toward the bathroom and turned on the sink. He splashed some water on his face, then wiped his face with the towel. He stared at himself in the mirror.

"I'm fucking pathetic." He took out a pill from the cabinet and a beer from the fridge. He slowly walked over to his bed, and flopped his body on top of the comforter. He took the pill, and popped open his beer, Her grabbed the remote and flipped through the channels. He took a chug to help the pill go down.

"These fucking sleep pills better work." He put the beer on the table next to the bed. After he flipped through all the channels he turned the T.V off and threw the remote on the floor. He waited as his body grew numb, and then slowly fell asleep.

The next morning he woke up to his cell ringing. He looked at the clock, it was 2 pm.

"Damn." Evan sat up and grabbed his cell phone. He looked at the caller I.D. It was Ashley Massaro. He clicked the accept button.

"Hey."

"Hey. What are you doing? Me and Kelly want to know If you want to come out to dinner with us?"

"I just woke up. Give me about an hour and come pick me up I guess."

"Alright." Evan hit the End Call button, and walked toward his suit case. He took out a pair of destroyed jeans and a regular white shirt. He went and showered up.

When he walked down to the lobby he saw Ashley and Kelly.

"Finally. We've been down here for about like 15 minutes." Ashley said.

"Well I told ya'll to give me some time. I haven't even had coffee yet."
"We can go to Starbucks if you want." Evan shrugged his shoulders. They walked out and got in Ashley's car. She drove off, and headed toward Starbucks. Evan stared out the window, and didn't say a word.

"Alright kid. What's wrong. You're usually talking."

"Its nothing Ashley."

"I herd John took you to your hotel last night." Kelly said.

"So?"

"Well did something happen?" Ashley asked. Evan didn't say anything. He just looked at his watch.

"Ahhh, something did happen." Kelly said smartly.

"Tell Us Evan. We love this Juicy Information.'' Ashley said.

"Nothing happened. He just took me to my hotel and we talked and that's it." Evan said.

"Well what did you two talk about then?" Evan paused for a moment.

"I Told him my feelings." Kelly jumped and looked back him with her eyes bulging out.

"WHAT? What did he say?" Kelly asked.

"He didn't really say anything about it. He was just like ok."

"That's all?" Ashley asked.

"Yea."

"What an ass hole."
"Oh come on now. I think he was just really shocked at me just saying that. Evan glared back out the window. Kelly knew he wasn't saying what happened after he admitted his feelings, But she didn't want to test him.

They drove off and got Evan some coffee and then headed to the gym. They walked in and Ashley went to the treadmill. Evan walked over to the bench press. Kelly walked over with him.

"Ok, now that were alone. You can finally call off the bull shit and tell me what else happened."

"What do you mean?"
"I know you Evan. Something else happened between you and John."

"Its nothing Kelly." Kelly grabbed Evans arm.

"I want to know. You know how noisy I am when it comes to this."
"He just kissed me on the head. No biggy."

"Well the biggy just walked in through the door." Kelly turned Evan around as John walked through the door. Evans heart popped up in his throat and the butterflies were released in his stomach. He turned back around and hide behind one of the heavyweight machines.

"Oh you got to be kidding me." Kelly said. "Why the hell are you hiding from him."
"He told me he didn't think I was a freak. But I just know he does."
"He kissed you."
"On the forehead. Like I was little fucking child." Evan got up to see Evan standing next to Kelly.

"Hey Evan." John said with a big smile on his face. Evans body froze. Ashley was watching from afar.

"Evan? Say something." Kelly said. Evans eyes began to flutter. His head began to pound, as if a bass drum was inside of his head, being slammed with a drumstick.
"I need some fresh air." Evan walked past John and Kelly, his shoulder pumping against Johns. He opened the door and took in a big breathe. He didn't know what was going on in his head. He had no idea why he freaked out so badly in the gym. He placed his hands on the back of his head. He herd the door open. He stopped, he didn't want to look back, cause he knew who it was.

"Why did you freak out in there?" John asked. Evan took a big sigh and turned around. He stared at John, not really knowing what to say. Should he say that John scares him and evreytime he thinks about him he wants to jump up in his arms and kiss him. Should he tell him that everyday he wakes up he thinks about him. No.

"It's nothing John." Evan said.

"Its about what happened yesterday. Isn't it?"

"John…" Evan stopped himself. John looked at him and noticed that Evan was hurting inside.

"I'm sorry Evan. If I'm hurting you I can just go."
"You're not hurting me John." Evan smirked. "It's the complete opposite." John smiled.

"Would you like… to go grab something to eat later tonight? Well I mean if your not busy. Just two friends going out to eat." Evan looked up. It wasn't a date, but it was something.

"Sure…"