"Kagome, why are you so mad?"
"Because Kai! We had sex and I don't even remember it!"
I pushed back my tears of frustration. We were at his house, in his living room, and I wasn't happy.
"Kagome I'm telling you, I didn't do it against your will. You wanted to."
"Yeah, but I was also drunk and had speed too! I wasn't exactly in my right state of mind!"
"Kagome,"
He took my hands in his and stared deeply at me.
"I love you. I love you! Why would I do something against the will of the one I love? I was out of my right state of mind too. I'm so sorry if you regret it. But honestly? I don't."
"What? Why not?"
"Because Kagome! We love eachother and we did exactly that, we loved eachother! Why would I want to take back sleeping with you if that means taking back making love to you? Don't you see?"
"…I do love you Kai, I really do. It's just…"
My tears escaped.
"My first time was supposed to be special. A night I'd remember forever! And I can't even remember it a day later."
I sobbed into my hands and he kissed my head.
"Shh. It's alright."
"No it isn't!"
"Kagome, you can always have your first time again."
"What? No I cant."
"Yes! If you don't remember it then it doesn't count. We could…we could try it again…if you want of course. No pressure."
"Again? With no drugs or no alcohol?"
"With nothing but us. Together."
Tempting. So, so tempting! And I'm technically not a virgin anymore so there's no crime in doing it again…
"This better be amazing."
"With me, it will be."
"I'm home!"
I called when I came got back later.
"Hi honey! I'm just making dinner. Want some?"
My mom called from the kitchen, but I denied her offer and ran up to my room instead. I flopped down on my bed and smiled up at my roof.
"EEK!"
I couldn't contain the squeal any longer, so I buried my head in my pillow and let it out. I just had sex. Let me rephrase this: I just had sex and I remembered it. I wonder why most teenagers are still virgins' cause they are missing out! I lay in my bed for a while, but couldn't seem to control my excess energy. Only one thing to do when you don't know what to do…
Instead of putting it in my drink, I wrapped it up in aluminum tinfoil (Kai showed me how) and lit up. I sat by my open window and smoked my joint, the smoke mixing with the natural air outside. Aah.
Since I've gone out with Kai, I've most definitely changed. I've also discovered the greater joys in life: drugs, sex, and alcohol. Hmm. Maybe if I weren't high that thought would've upset me. But now it sounds just right.
"Kagome? Want some dinner?"
My eyes are probably dilated. She'll know.
"Uh, no thanks! I'm going out!"
"Alright. Call me if you need anything!"
I do need something. I need something to drink! The smoke's making my throat all dehydrated. I put out my smoke and headed to my grandfather's room. He normally has stuff to drink in his cabinet. I opened it up and looked inside. Lots and lots of vodka. Hmm. I plucked out a bottle of Bacardi and took a chug, then set it back inside. If I weren't so high, I'd probably be upset about doing that as well.
"Time to fly!"
I rushed down the stairs and out the door, letting my legs carry me. They carried me to the well house, down and out the well, and to Kaede's hut.
"Kagome?"
I opened my eyes, unaware that they were closed, and saw InuYasha stand up. We were the only ones in the hut.
"Hey you!"
I ran into his arms and gave him a big hug, giggling and laughing as I did so.
"Kagome…what the hell?!"
He held my forearms and pushed me back, keeping his grip on me.
"What?"
"What is that smell? And…"
He stopped and all the colour drained from his face.
"You slept with him."
"With who?"
I smiled dopey and tapped his nose with my finger.
"Don't play stupid Kagome! I can smell him all over you! It was today!"
"Chill InuYasha."
I laughed and he tightened his grip.
"What the fuck is going on with you?"
I laughed some more.
"What is going on here, with all this shouting?"
Kaede's voice asked us as she entered the hut.
"Something's wrong with Kagome. She smells heavily like something that's making me dizzy."
His voice was hard and cold and he stared down at me with a rough expression.
"Come here, Kagome."
I skipped towards Kaede, tripping slightly. She sat me down and checked me all over, poking and prodding my body.
"Her eyes are so very big, her breath smells like smoke and alcohol. She must be on a bad medicine of some kind."
"What do I do to make her herself again? Please…I'll do anything. I just cant see her like this."
Kaede sighed and shook her head sadly at me.
"Take her home and ask her mother about her. They have more advanced medicine and herbs that can cure her of this…problem. Go now, InuYasha, before the others return."
He nodded and took my arm, pulling me up. He then scooped me in his arms (making me burst out in laughter) and ran to the well, jumped through it, and hurried into my house.
"Oh! InuYasha! What a pleasant surprise. I just finished cleaning up dinner, but if you want some I'll just-"
"It's okay Mrs. H. I'm here about Kagome."
He set me down, making me wobble and giggle.
"Kagome…?"
She walked towards me and saw my eyes, gasping. She then sniffed me quickly and broke down in tears.
"No! No, no…not my baby…"
"What's wrong with her?"
"She…she…"
She hiccuped and sobbed then contained herself for a quick moment to speak.
"She's on drugs!"
"Drugs? Like medicine?"
She just shook her head and took my hand.
"Come to bed now Kagome."
"I'm not tired!"
"Just go!"
Her sad face made something in me refuse arguing, so I hopped up the steps to my room and plopped down on my bed.
"Why was mom and InuYasha so mad? I'm just having some fun…"
I yawned loudly. I shouldn't be this tired if I've had speed…maybe all the running around and the vodka settled me a bit…
And then I fell asleep.