Chapter 10: Mornings

Claire's POV:

I woke up with my face still pressed into Quil's chest and his arms wrapped protectively around me. He was whimpering in his sleep and his forehead was all scrunched up. His arms wound tighter around my hips and waist. "Claire," he whimpered, "Claire, don't leave me," He let out a soft sob. "Quil," I said, "Quil, I'm right here. Wake up Quil." He started thrashing around in the bed. I had to fight to get on top of him so he would quit moving. I kissed his forehead and he woke up and sat up quickly in the bed and wrapped his arms around me. He hugged me tightly and buried is face in my neck. "Quil, what is it? What happened?" I asked. He just shook his head from where it rested against my shoulder. "Quil, if you let go of me I'll make breakfast." "No, I just want you to stay here with me for a little bit," he said into my neck. His warm breath sent shivers down my spine. Our stomachs growled loudly. I moved to get up but Quil flopped me down on the bed and moved to hover over me. He kissed me hard and urgently. "I don't want you to leave," he said looking into my eyes intently. "How about we both get up and go make breakfast together?" I compromised. He rolled his eyes, "Why didn't I think of that?"

"Because you're a werewolf and don't think about how food gets prepared. You only think about how much is going into your stomach," I giggled. He growled playfully. He stood up from the bed and offered me his hand. He helped me up, and then he grinned wickedly before picking me up and throwing me over his shoulder. "Quil!" I screeched, "Put me down! Put me down right now! Quil!" I started kicking at his face and hitting his back and shoulders. He started walking down the hall that led to the kitchen and living room. When we reached the kitchen Quil set me down on the counter. I opened my mouth to say something rude but Quil stopped me by crushing his lips to mine. I just sat there for a minute until he whimpered against my mouth, then I tangled my hands in his thick, jet black hair. His hands were firmly planted on my hips. He suckled on my bottom lip. I let one hand trail down his bare chest and he gasped/groaned against my lips. His hands traveled from my hips to rest on my stomach under my shirt.

Quil's POV:

When her small cold hands traced the muscles of my chest my heart felt like it was going to explode. I moved my hands from her hips to rest on her stomach where hopefully one day my child would grow. I gently traced the scar on her stomach. I tugged my lips from hers reluctantly but I then knelt down by the counter and I was in front of her stomach. I tugged her shirt up and kissed her scar. I heard sniffling from above me. I raised my glance to see Claire wiping at her cheeks. "Claire? What is it?" I whispered, standing up. She just shook her head like I did this morning. "Claire, baby, please talk to me," I said trying to meet her eyes. "I'm damaged, scarred, and a killer. Why do you love me? I don't deserve you. I'm not good enough for you," she whispered. "What?" I asked. I was shocked. How could she feel this way about herself? I had to make it better. "Claire, I love you because you are sweet and selfless. I love you because you're beautiful and everything that I'm not. I love you because you're perfect for me," She had looked down and was silently crying. Claire didn't usually sob or scream. She just sniffled quietly and made you feel like scum if you made her cry. She wouldn't look at me. "Look at me," I whispered. She still wouldn't. "Claire, Look at me." She snapped her head up and I wiped the constant flow of tears from her cheeks. "You are not a killer," I said firmly. "You are not damaged. And I will love you until diamonds never sparkle and flowers cease to grow. When thunder never echoes and rivers don't flow. When hearts no longer wonder and hands are never held. When smiles are only memories and hope is never felt. When trees no longer bloom and stars refuse to shine-" She cut me off and whispered, "When God alone commands me then I will stop loving you." I kissed her softly and said, "Let's make breakfast." Our stomachs were not happy with us right now. While making the pancakes Claire took some of the batter on her finger and rubbed it on my nose. She laughed and ran down the hall to try to hide in the bathroom. "Oh hell no," I said and raced after her with the rest of the batter in the bowl on my hand. I blocked the door from closing with my foot and then pushed it open. I slipped inside and locked the door behind me. She looked scared. But like in a playful way. Like when you know you're gonna get hit with a water balloon type scared. The pancake batter was dripping from my hand and I grinned evilly. I wiped my hand from her chest down to her stomach. She screeched and glared at me. She lunged and tried to push me away from the door. I grabbed her and threw her in the shower and turned the water on. Before I could leave the bathroom though she grabbed my arm and tugged me into the shower with her. Her white shirt was now see through and I gulped loudly. She wasn't glaring now. She smirked at me and wound her arms around my waist and hugged me. My mind was telling me to push her away but, God I couldn't and I hugged her back. She looked at me and I kissed her lips roughly and led her to the back of the shower and propped her up against the wall. She wrapped her legs around my waist. She tugged her wet shirt off and threw it outside and it made a PLOP sound. My chest was pressed against hers and I groaned. Her nipples were hard against my chest. I used one hand to balance us on the wall and the other to find her breast. I bent my head and traced her scar there with my lips then I took her nipple in my mouth. I heard her groan wildly and grab my hair to tug me closer. I sucked her nipple hard, and again thought about how different they would be if we had a child like I hoped. I was painfully hard and wanted friction to release the pressure. I thought about the promise I made Sam that we would get this physical until she was 18 and instantly I pulled away and stormed out of the bathroom. I couldn't look at her or I wouldn't be able to resist. I felt bad for leaving her without an explanation but I would have to explain later. I went into my bedroom and locked the door. I changed clothes and sat on my bed and tried to think about anything but Claire. It was impossible. I could hear her walking down the hallway and I heard her stop at my door. "You know Quil if you didn't want me all you had to do was say so," she said quietly. I growled, had she not heard me earlier? I wanted to go to her and scream in her face how much I wanted her. I wanted to shake her hard enough to get that into her brain. I wanted to use all my strength to just keep her in my arms. Once I was calm I went out to finish making breakfast. I heard her in her room throwing stuff around and the occasional sniffle. My heart ached knowing I did this. I made her cry. I put my head in my hands and took deep breaths. Suddenly my heart seemed to leap from my chest and I cried out. It hurt really badly. Instinctively I ran to Claire's room to grab her and crush her to my chest to protect her from harm. But when I pushed the sheet serving for a door aside. I saw empty drawers and an open window. Then I heard it. A gunshot and a howl.

Oh I know I am so mean I left a cliffhanger. I know that Quil and Claire are really wimpy right now but Claire I made her that way because of her loss and Quil will get to be a hard ass later on. This chapter is the closest I have come to ever writing a lemon. Also this is my first fanfic so please be nice and keep that in mind. This is the last chapter I am writing if I don't get at least 5 reviews. Five reviews people that is all I'm asking for just so I know people are actually reading this. If no one is then there is no point in me writing and posting is there? Anyway some of the events in this story are loosely based on some stuff going on in my life. I used to self harm still in therapy for it so I know what I am talking about when I write the scenes when Claire harms herself. Bye for now!