Chapter 8: Monsuta's Feelings
Monsuta glanced over at Aizen who placed his glasses back on his face. He sat up and let out a sigh. "Aizen-sama.." He called softly. The brunette glanced at him and frowned slightly. "What is it, Monsuta?" He questioned. "Are you going to visit me at all... while I'm in here?" He questioned, looking towards him. "Not as often as you'd like. If I come see you everyday they will think something is going on. Maybe once a week at the most." Aizen answered coldly. "Once a week! Can't I see you more than that?" Monsuta cried, getting to his feet and walking over to the male. "No you cannot." Aizen growled back.
Monsuta stopped and looked at him with a surprised look. "You're not the Aizen that I know." He muttered, looking away painfully. Aizen looked at the upset male and gave an angry sigh as he stepped to the male and pulled him into an embrace. Monsuta turned his head away and looked at the ground beside him. "You've changed, Aizen... You're not the kind person whom I..." Monsuta complained, stopping himself before he finished. "You what?" Aizen questioned, looking down at him.
Monsuta shook his head and pulled away, walking to his bed. "It doesn't matter." He muttered under his breath. Aizen heard it clear enough and rubbed the back of his head. Monsuta curled up on his side with his back facing his leader holding his arms as he hid his face from him. His green eyes were concealed by his blue and black bangs as Aizen walked over. He grabbed the blanket and gently pulled it over the male. He knew the male was upset and could probably guess what he was going to say earlier. He brushed his hand through the male's hair and turned to leave. "Once a week... Is fine.." said Monsuta in a small voice. Aizen looked back at him and then left the cell, fixing the lock and entrapping Monsuta inside.
Shortly after he left, Ichimaru Gin entered the small space in front of the cell. "My my, Monsuta.. You look so depressed." He teased. "Go to hell, Gin." Came Monsuta's response with a low growl. "Tsk tsk.. You should respect your leader." Gin pressed. "I don't care! You're not my leader! Aizen is!" The prisoner snarled, sitting up. He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand and looked down, clenching the blanket in his fists. "Heh. Looks like you got into a fight with said leader." Gin sneered, stepping over to the entrance to the cell. "No.. We just... got in a disagreement.." He answered, his voice shaking. "Oh?" Gin answered, his smile starting to fade. Monsuta nodded, not looking at him. "You've fallen for him." Gin assumed, his smile starting to return.
Monsuta trembled at the words as if they were a whip and slowly nodded. "But I don't want to anymore... Aizen doesn't care about me like that.." He answered, his voice trembling. He hung his head, wiping his eyes with the back of his hands again. Gin snickered at Monsuta's confession and turned away. "Aizen doesn't care about anybody in that manner." He spoke harshly before leaving.
The door slammed shut and Monsuta cringed. He pulled his legs up to his chest and hugged them to his chest as he buried his face from view. He tightened his grip on his arms to where it was hard enough to leave bruises along his slim arms. He listened to the sounds from outside as he sat there silently.
What seemed like an eternity to the young male passed before anyone came to see him. He remained in the same position when someone approached his cell. "Well well.. You look absolutely miserable, Monsuta-kun." Sneered a familiar voice. The black haired male looked up from hiding his face and looked towards who spoke to him. He sniffled and rubbed his eyes with his sleeve. "Renji-kun..." He answered softly, slowly uncurling himself from the small ball he had been in for at least an hour.
"Why are you crying?" the red head asked. "H..Huh? Oh! I wasn't crying! What the hell are you talking about Abarai-kun?" Monsuta answered sharply. Renji smirked, catching his lying easily. "Yeah right. You were sulking. Did someone tell you how much of a pussy you are?" "Shut up! What happened between Aizen and me is none of your concern!" Monsuta fired back, his eyes widening slightly as he realized what he had just said. He turned away and looked down, his hair falling over his eyes.
"Aizen? What happened betw-" "It's none of your goddamn business!" Monsuta snarled. The red head stared at the male in the cell before him. Monsuta was never this mean.. or this cruel to anyone; especially Renji. Renji narrowed his eyes slightly as he stepped towards the gate to the cell.
"Monsuta.. what's pissed you off so much?" Renji asked in a gentle tone. "It's nothing!" the male cried back. Giving a sigh, he opened the gate and stepped in silently. Monsuta had his back turned to the lieutenant as he hung his head. Abarai stopped for a moment before walking over and putting his arms loosely around the male's torso.
Monsuta let out a gasp and looked back at the male who had embraced him. He wanted to pull away, but he instinctively leaned into the hug. Renji looked down at the young male and gently tightened his grip. "What happened?" Renji asked quietly. Monsuta shook his head and turned around to face him. "It's nothing, Renji.." He answered, rubbing his eyes. "Yes it is. You're this upset over something so it must be something." Renji pressed. Monsuta looked at him before his eyes welled up and he looked down.
Renji frowned slightly and felt sorry for the younger one. He stepped over and hugged him close once again. Monsuta pressed his face to the male's chest, his tears staining the male's clothes. He gripped the male's shirt tightly in his fist as he silently cried.
Renji looked down at the male who clung to him and he let out a sigh. He rubbed the male's back as if to comfort the male. He picked the male up and carried him to the bed and sat down with the younger male on his lap. Monsuta didn't even look up as Renji moved, only to cling tighter to him. "Monsuta.. It'll be alright." He answered softly, brushing the male's hair.
After a few minutes, Monsuta pulled away slightly and looked up at him. Renji glanced down at him and gave a slight smile. "Feel better?" He asked softly. Monsuta blinked and then gave a slight nod. "Thanks.." He mumbled, looking down. "You're not better.." He answered. "You're still upset.."
"So..?" Monsuta shot back. He rested his head on the red head's chest and let out a shaky sigh. Renji kept him close, rubbing his back. "Why are you being so nice to me?" Monsuta asked.
"Because.. I know Aizen is using you for something.. to distract the soul reapers." Abarai answered, frowning slightly. Byakuya had told the lieutenant everything he heard from Aizen and Ichimaru. Monsuta looked up at him surprised before looking away shamefully.
"How much of it do you know.. Abarai?" He questioned hesitantly. "Not much. Byakuya overheard Aizen and Ichimaru talking.. He came to that conclusion that you would be used as a diversion... And that you were created from Ulquiorra and Grimmjow... which are two arrancars that are working for Aizen.." Abarai explained. "So those are my parents..." Monsuta mused to himself aloud. "Huh? You don't know who your parents are?" The red head questioned.
Monsuta shook his head. "Right after I was born.. Aizen separated me from my parents and raised me himself." He answered, clutching his arms once again. Renji looked at the depressed boy in front of him and hesitated before speaking. "You... You're in love with him.. aren't you.. Aizen I mean.." He questioned cautiously. This assumption nearly sent the boy into the crying all over again. He hung his head and tried to hold back the tears welling up in his eyes again. He gave a slow nod, not being able to say anything.
Renji pulled the male closer. "I'm sorry.. He's an ass anyways. You could do be-" "He's not an ass! You don't know him like I do! He's gentle and kind and..." Monsuta objected, unable to finish for he began to cry once again. Abarai let out a soft sigh and ran his hand through the male's hair gently. "Still.. You can do better." He answered, gently wiping the male's tears away with his thumbs.
Monsuta looked up at the male who was there to comfort him. He hugged the male around the neck, closing his eyes tightly. "Thanks.." He answered softly, tightening his embrace. Renji stared in surprise, but blinked and then wrapped his arms around the male's waist. "Don't mention it." He answered softly.