WOW! I can't believe so many of you are still reading this. I am truly flattered.
I want to thank my Beta for helping me with this chapter; you helped me out a lot. I can't thank you enough. :D
AN: We are finally going to get back into Sam a little more in this chapter. I know we haven't gotten into what's going on with him in a while. So… get excited! Lol. *~Sis~*
He was surprised he even noticed it over the screaming sound of metal being cut into, and the hustle of all the other paramedics, but he did.
"Dean!… Dean, you need to calm down or you're gonna pass out!" Gabe hadn't been paying attention to Dean for a little while; he had been too absorbed in what was going on around Sam.
About thirty seconds ago things had gone from bad to worse when they lost Sam's pulse. He was getting ready to tell Dean he was going to help the other paramedics with his brother when he noticed the very pale complexion and shallow breathing coming from Dean. Dave had gone over a few moments ago to help with cutting Sam out of the car, so Gabe was on his own to try to calm Dean down now.
"Damn it! I was afraid of this happening." Gabe muttered to himself. He was just grateful he had been asked to stay with Dean to keep him calm, since he was the only one other than Dave that he was even letting near him. Everyone else, he would holler at and tell them they needed to help his brother, not him. But as soon as they started cutting into the roof of the car he had gone really quiet. Then about thirty seconds ago…
"Dean you need to breathe… just breathe with me, Dean" Dean had a faraway look in his eyes and was only looking in the direction of his brother. "Dean! Look at me!"
"Sammy… oh God…" Dean muttered, bending over with his head down and hands on his knees.
"Dean, you just need to breathe, c'mon. Deep breathes; in through your nose, and slowly out through your mouth…" Gabe tried to get Dean to listen to him but he was still hyperventilating; lost in his own mind
"… Sam… " All Dean knew was that his world was coming to an end. He heard 'We've got no pulse!' and his world crashed down around him. He couldn't breathe. It felt like his lungs were being crushed slowly, and he thought maybe Sam dieing really was going to literally kill him. No… he was sure of it, because if he wasn't suffocating, the pain in his heart was sure to kill him.
His vision was starting to go black, when a sharp pain to his cheek seemed to bring him out of it a bit. "Sonuva!" Dean looked to the side a bit and saw Gabe giving him a worried yet sheepish look.
"Sorry, Dean. It was either that, or bring you back to the ambulance and I wasn't doing that myself since everyone else is busy over there getting Sam on the stretcher." Gabe told him while looking over at the horrid scene of twisted metal and blood. "We need to get out of the way so they can get through." It was more that Gabe just wanted to get Dean moving before he passed out on him; Dean just nodded without moving.
"Dean! Don't make me slap you again! Now c'mon." The paramedic grabbed a hold of Deans' arm and started pulling him off the ground when he finally got the younger man to acknowledge him with a nod.
When did I get on the ground? Dean thought to himself as Gabe helped him up. God… when did it start getting so cold out here… I hope they give Sam some blankets, he was cold before- "Oh God…Sam…" He muttered.
He's gone! They lost his pulse… Oh, God, he's gone! Dean thought to himself with a sob building in the back of his throat again. No! Don't give up now Dean! They can still get him back! He's a Winchester. Winchesters don't give up. That means you can't give up on him! Dean mentally kicked himself in the rear and straightened back up. Pausing for a moment to take a breathe, then heading up the hill toward the ambulance that now held his baby brother. "I'm not giving up on you Sammy…" Gabe followed closely behind, a bit confused at Deans' sudden change in demeanor.
God, I'm freezing… why is it so cold? He tried to open his eyes, but couldn't build the energy up to do so. He knew that something was wrong. He could feel so much energy around him, but he couldn't quite make out what it was, it was like trying to listen and see from under water. Something told him that he just needed to open his eye and wake up, but at the same time all he wanted to do was slip back into the warm comfort of the abyss he was slowly struggling to climb out of, but he couldn't. it was just too hard.
…Open your eyes…He would know that voice anywhere. It was speaking to him from a recent memory.
Dean?… He remembered that his brother had been with him. He remembered Dean pleadingly telling him it was going to be okay, that he just needed to open his eyes. He remembered hearing the tears in his voice. What happened, to make Dean sound so broken? Where is Dean now? Oh God please don't let him be hurt too!
He was so confused. He gave one final effort using all his energy to just wake up; praying that he could just see him, and know he was okay. He had to just tell his big brother that he loved him one last time.
Giving everything he had, Sam opened his eyes, praying it would be Dean that he would see.
At first all he saw was red. Please don't be blood… Don't be Deans blood…
The noise was so loud around him, he could hardly stand it, but all he cared about was seeing Dean, knowing he was okay.
Finally the red moved from his vision, and there he was. He was a ways away standing on a hill watching. Watching over Sam like he always had; like a guardian, even though Sam knew that there was little Dean could do for him this time. He smiled a little, feeling the love Dean had always had for his little brother.
"Lv… yu…jrk" He whispered quietly. He could rest now, knowing his brother was okay, and that was what he did, finally letting his eyes close once more, and feeling the warmth in his heart.
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