AN: Hello again! Yeah I know I suck with finishing up all my other stories but I have been thinking about this new story for a long time now and decided what the hell might as well write I and get it out my system before I explode into tiny bits of flesh and what not LOL

Anyways for all future chapters I don't own twilight. If I did I wouldn't be working now. Id be with my family back in my mother land enjoying the never ending sun and coronas with lime. Also for those of you who actually took the time to read this and add it to your favs you guys rock! Sorry for this soo late! I was too drunk to even write and the next few days I took it to heal my hangover. Hope everyone has an amazing xmas! Did u guys get what you all wanted? I did..well sort of. (: I hope I don't disappoint with this chapter! The first few parts of this is like a narration. I suck at describing dreams so I decided to do it this way, hopefully its good

On with the story.
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CHAPTER THREE (Two weeks later ; back at Forks)

She stared at the old fashion wooden doors of the St. johns church. Her heart was racing. Her palms were sweating. Using both hands on each handle she gripped them tightly in her hands and swung open the doors to the church and stepped inside. The light was bright squinting her eyes all she could see was the form of her husband to be Jacob black waiting for her. A smile overcame her lips as she took one step towards him.

As she made her way to him, taking deep breaths as she went, her smile faltered. There was another woman standing there, holding a bouquet of flowers closely and tightly to her chest. Her dress was sinfully white with diamonds at the end of her dress. Tight around the breast area and slowly getting lose and fluffy at the bottom, leaving a long trail of her dress at the floor. she walked to their sides, glancing at the cross with Jesus at the altar she looked back at the two people standing there, oblivious to everything else "Jake?" she whispered, her voice going very small. Tears filler her chocolate brown eyes as she turned to face the woman standing in front of Jacob. Lifting up her veil she gasps.

Leah Clearwater

The doors of the church opened and she tore her eyes away from the two people in front of her as silent tears fell from her eyes. It was a nightmare for her, watching them both smile at each other and getting close and closer. Finally she couldn't take it and ran. Lifting her dress up she ran towards the door, a sob escaping from her lips. She was confused. Maybe she was falling in love with Jacob black. Maybe she was hurt to see that he loves someone else. Maybe she just wanted to be loved. There was a man in the door, his arms held open, inviting her in them. the light was still there, bright as ever and she couldn't even see his face. She crashed into him, holding him tightly as she cried into his shoulder. He held her tightly, not wanting to let her go, willing for her pain to just go away. All too soon she pulled away and ran out the door…

Gasping I got up from the bed. I was covered in sweat and my comforters were tangled up with me. taking deep calming breaths I tried to relax and forget the dream, but something in me told me I should just forget it, it told me to believe everything I dreamed of. it was real, so real I couldn't ignore it. Getting up I went to the bathroom and locked the door, turning on the hot water I sat in the tub, letting the water hot my face as I sat there, numbly and confused. I cried, and for some reason I couldn't explain why. maybe I was falling in love with Jacob. Maybe I was just tired and needed to relax. Getting out the shower I got dressed tied my hair into a messy bun and walked out my house and into my car. "Hey alice" I said into the phone as I pulled out "Can you meet for coffee?" I checked behind me as I noticed a silver Volvo speeding "Sure, why not? Let me just get dressed and tell jasper to meet us there too" agreeing I hung up and continued on my way. The car speeded past me "Stupid fucker!" I yelled out my window "you could have hit my car dammit!" I yelled again and put my window up.

Groaning I parked next to the silver Volvo that tried to run me over on my way here. Alice parked right next to me. "Al I swear people can't fucking drive!" I said angrily all over again "that fucker who drives this stupid silver Volvo almost killed me!" I yelled as I kicked the car and the alarm went off. Frozen on the spot I looked at the door as someone came running out. I couldn't breathe, those eyes. I knew those eyes. That hair, a messy bronze color that I dreamed of is here. It was Edward. "Hey!" he shouted as he looked over his car "who do you think you fucking-" he looked up at me then, gasping as he noticed who it was "Bella?" glancing around I pointed a finger at myself, completely shocked he was here "Why did you kick my car for?" he asked amused and a bit annoyed. Shaking my head I glared at him "you're the asshole that almost hit my car? On the fucking highway here?" I yelled as I huffed and turned around and made my way into the café muttering things under my breath.

Turning around I faced alice "well?" I said "are you coming in or not?" I didn't even look back to see if she was following me.

An hour in this café and everyone was getting along fine. jasper was Edward's older brother. something alice didn't mention to me but she also made it clear she didn't even know either. I stared at my coffee, twirling the spoon inside it. "Bella?" a gentle soft hand squeezed mines and I looked at Edward "You okay?" he whispered as his thumb ran over the top of my hand. I nodded, not being able to form any words. "So Bella when is the wedding going to be?" both edward and I looked at jasper then back at each other, his hand slowly left mines and every part of me wanted to grab it, tell him I didn't love the ma I was going to marry. "You're getting married?" he asked, his tone showed no emotions but his eyes betrayed him. He was hurt. Tears filled my eyes and again I was sure why. "I uh.." I didn't know what to say. "sorry I didn't tell you I was getting married. I like you, a lot even if I don't know anything about you" didn't cut it. instead I said "I have to go" getting up, my chair scrapped the floor and everyone in the table looked at me. grabbing my purse I felt the tears fall as I quickly turned around and pushed the doors open.

I ran to my car and unlocked it getting in and throwing my purse onto the seat next to me. grabbing the door handle I tried to close my door but it wouldn't close. Trying again I couldn't and I groaned as the tears continued to fall. "Bella? Talk to me why are you crying?" edward asked as he kneeled down to level with me. glaring at him I tried to push him out the way "Leave me alone. I don't want to talk to anyone" he grabbed both my hands in his and looked at me "Tell me why are you crying" he whispered.

I couldn't hold it in anymore.

I threw myself at him and cried. It wasn't all pretty I tell you that. I probably got nasty shit on his shirt, tear stains and my sobs were loud and my body shook with every cry I made ""Shh, just tell me what's wrong" he whispered again "please?" I pulled away from him and punched him in his chest "I hate you!" I screamed as I continued to hit him "for two weeks all I could think of is you. for two weeks all I ever fucking dream of is you! I like you, a lot and I don't know a fucking damn thing and I'm fucking getting married to someone I don't fucking love and, and I just…fucking hate you" I said as I gasped for air.

I froze as I felt his lips against mines. I made an un-lady like noise and weaved my hands into his hair kissing him back.

This was sin

A sin I was willing to make.

Sooo? How did it goo?

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