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Chapter Two

Edward's POV

"Edward" I replied. He looked genuinely happy to meet me, and I was just as happy. So happy I think I cracked a smile.

"Are you here for the 'Student Day'?" he asked.

"Yeah sadly" I stuttered back. "I already know I don't want to go here so what's the point?" Wait. Why did I tell him that? I could go anywhere I wanted to; I wasn't attached, in any way, to Bella.

"Well that's too bad" he said. "Well I'm late. I was supposed to help out with the student day. It was cool meeting you Edward; maybe I'll see you later."

The way he said my name sent shivers through my body. Bella never did that for me. What was I thinking? "Okay awesome!" I blurted out. He turned and started in the other direction and I found myself blushing as he walked away. I then unconsciously decided that this day may not be that bad after all. I then decided to go back to the main hall to go pick up some flyers about the classes. Who can say I didn't use my time wisely now? I laughed to myself and then jumped in surprise when I realized the unbelievably good mood I was in. I never thought about it until then but what would I do now that Bella screwed everything up for us? Maybe going here wouldn't be that bad, I smiled to myself. Psychology? Sociology? English? There were a lot of classes that interested me here I guess. Maybe I would apply here. I mulled the thought over in my head thinking silently about the pro's and con's. I honestly couldn't think of any cons. I finally got to the main assembly of students and went to visit a couple booths. Many people tried talking to me about my interests and what not but I mainly kept to myself and took quite a few flyers. I also picked up a map of the campus. It seemed pretty easy to get around so I decided to test my luck. So I spent the rest of the day wandering the campus; lost. I walked with my head mostly down trying to make sense of what I thought was an easy to understand map that I was given earlier. God only knows how long I was looking down at the map before I bumped into someone again. I looked up to see Jasper again with a pod of grade eleven kids wandering dazed and confused behind him. I smiled almost immediately.

"Hey again Edward!" He said with a smile that could melt a glacier. Did I really just think about his smile that way? I was detracted from my train of thought by his mesmerizing voice.

"Are you finding everything okay?" It was really cute the way he was trying to help me out. I was lost for words. This wasn't like me. I usually had at least something to say, I quickly started to recompose my features and my thoughts.

"Yeah actually" I paused, blood rushing into my face and primarily, my cheeks. "I have no clue where I am. I don't understand this map at all." I looked at the map then looked back up at him sheepishly.

He turned back to the kids and said "Hey you guys are cool to talk to each other for a bit right? Let me see." He said, taking the map from my hands. As he took the map his hand brushed mine and shocks pulsed up my arm once more. All his attention was focused on me. Was he always this helpful? I was glad it was directed at me. I smiled more at this thought.

"So where are you trying to get to?"

"I don't really know" I managed to say. I looked back at my watch and back up to Jasper and said "I have to be back in twenty minutes so I guess I should start going back to the buses."

Jasper looked back at me, that sexy smile in full effect. "Well you could join my little tour here if you wanted; I'm bringing them back now."

"Sure" I said smiling wildly. "Lead the way."

I don't remember the last time I was so happy.

I followed Jasper all the way back to the buses as we made casual conversation. I tripped awkwardly several times before we arrived back at the buses, each time winning a laugh and a smile from Jasper. I was in complete awe of how I was enjoying the look of his smile. We went to the second bus where students were being loaded on. Each student getting onto the bus was receiving a package from one of the helpers who ran the student day. Jasper then directed his group to the bus after giving them each packages himself. After all the students were loaded on the bus Jasper turned to me and said,

"Here," smiling he handed me a package to, "Maybe I'll see you later Edward." It seemed like Jasper added a lot of hope into that last sentence but then again maybe I just imagined it.

"Ya, you too." I said shyly. What the fuck? When have I ever been shy? Jasper said,

"Your bus is about to leave Edward." He smiled at me and I almost melted. I hope it didn't show on my face. I really hope it didn't show on my face. I looked at his smile one more time and made an attempt to burn it into my memory, then turned towards the buses and waved a good bye to Jasper.

I got onto the bus and took an empty seat near the back. I didn't have many friends so it wasn't surprising when they were already sitting with someone or when they had not even showed up on my bus. I sat there staring out the window at the campus I now wanted to belong to. The bus started and headed in the direction of home. It didn't surprise me when I looked up and no one had chosen to sit beside me. The bus ride was fairly uneventful up until now. We'd been on the bus for about an hour and a half and by now I was getting extremely bored of staring mindlessly out the window. I had nothing better to do so I decided to read through the information that I had been given in my package from the university. There were a few pamphlets on the courses there including psychology, exercise sciences, English, and a few others. I read up on psychology the most. I flipped through page after page losing myself in the information in front of me. I could really see myself going here. I liked the look of all the programs and how the dorms were set up. I looked at the prices and decided I'd definitely need a roommate. I looked more and more reading up on the histories of the city and university itself. I really did like it. The next thing I flipped to would have been passed over if it wasn't coloured differently from the other sheets. This one was a pale yellow and seemed to have the information about a weekend stay at the university. This, I thought, must've been what our teacher had been talking about. This event was two weeks away and it was an event where you could become a fake student for three days. Only grade twelve students could go to my relief. As I read further down the page it stated that you would even get to live in a dorm room with a student that had been there for two years or more. You would even go to the classes in the day the student went to. This was how they were trying to make it a genuine experience. The event was Thursday to Saturday. It was exactly two weeks away and I wanted to go so badly. I turned over the plain yellow sheet having read all the information on the one side to find a permission form. It had all the specifics of a regular form yet it had options of a dorm and which major you preferred your roommate to have.

What major was Jasper in? I figured it was something smart, he sounded really intelligent when we talked. He was like the popular guy everyone wanted to be friends with, the only exception, was that he was actually interested in what I was saying and what I was talking about. Like he actually cared what I thought. I was definitely going to this event; and not because of Jasper either. That wasn't it at all, I just needed to learn more about this school. Now that Bella screwed up our plans I had to find a new place. Why can't it be this one, right?

I looked up to find that we were actually at the school now. How did I spend an hour with my head down? I ignored everything and read the forms. I didn't realize that much time had passed I guess. The bus stopped and the students filed out. I decided to let everyone else out before me and so I was the last one off the bus. Just as my foot hit the ground from the bus the bell rang out from the school signifying the end of the day. I was so grateful for the end of the day to come since I didn't want any homework for the night. I walked around the school to the student parking lot to try and locate my Volvo. I drove home with the radio blasting. This, if anything, was a good indication that I'd had a good day and I was in a good mood. As soon as I got home I almost tripped getting out of the car. I was so excited to get out and get my form signed so I could go I just couldn't wait.

I opened the door and was jumped by a large animal.

"What the hell!" I was still startled as the animal licked up and down my face. I regained my senses to realize that it was a German shepherd. My second favourite dog. "Mom? When did we get a dog?"

I started to scan the house in an attempt to hunt down my mom.

"Honey, we found her and now we're going to keep her!" I shrugged and got down to business, and after much debating and convincing she finally signed the form. I could tell she had been drinking again; otherwise getting my form signed may have been a more difficult task and I don't think we'd have a dog present in the house. Regardless the form was signed and I couldn't be happier, especially with the new pet. I always wanted a dog as a child but our family was either too poor or just didn't want one. I ran up ecstatic to my room with the new canine close at my heels. I burst into my room and ran right into my calendar. I grabbed a pen off the desk in my room and hurriedly scribbled down the date on the calendar. I stared blankly at the calendar soaking it in. Why was I this excited? I probably wouldn't even see Jasper again. I then sat down at the desk and took out a black pen to fill in the rest of the missing information. I filled out my name, my address, and all the usual form things and then stared at the other column. Which dorm? Which major did my roommate have? I wrote in the first column I didn't have a preferred dorm and in the second one I wrote down psychology. I hoped Jasper had psychology classes with me. What was I saying? We were two years apart. We probably would never have any classes together. I laughed at the fact that I already assumed I was accepted into that university.

I went back to my bed and sat down. My train of thought was disrupted by a wet nose nudging my hand. I rolled over and stared at the dog right in her brown eyes.

"You don't have a name yet do you." More or less I was talking to myself. "Mya. Yeah I like it. Mya." I continued to sit there and scratch behind her ears. I was so restless and had no idea of what to do next. I had no homework, no test to study for, nothing. So with nothing to do I decided to scope out more about U of S. Specifically what the average student's average was that got accepted into the university. I did some searching and found out that last year's average was 78%. I think I was going to get in. I smiled silently to myself. I was distracted from my bliss by a buzzing of my phone, I looked down to see who had texted me and it was Bella.

"Edward baby, talk to me, please "

I was in no mood to deal with Bella right now or ever now that I think about it. I typed back a quick,

"No thanks Bella"

She was lucky I even texted her back. I didn't think highly of myself in any circumstance but I knew I was better than what she was doing to me. What did she ever do for me anyways? I don't think she deserved my attention if she was willing to risk it like that anyways. Even when we were "together" she really didn't make me all that happy, come to think of it. Jasper, I thought. Why did he send chills down my spine and not Bella? Why was I thinking like this still? I wanted to get rid of all this confusion. It was making my head hurt in a bad way. Maybe Rose would know. I decided to text my sister Rosalie. Rose and I were always close, especially growing up. Our parents would argue and Rose would always know what to say. Being two years older than me she would always take me out places. It was basically like a blessing. Usually older sisters would never consider taking their younger brothers out anywhere. When things got really bad between my parents she would sneak into my room at night and sleep in my bed with me, anything to help me not to worry. Rose could, and always has been able to read me like a book; this is why nothing was really off limits between us. I was the first person she told about her boyfriend Emmet and the first person she told about her tattoo. It was nice having that relationship with her. We never ratted each other out and everything between us always flowed smoothly. She has always been my perfect idea of a big sister.

"Rose, can we go for a drive tonight? I want to get out maybe talk."

I texted out. Not even a minute later my phone buzzed with a reply, but it wasn't the person I was looking for a reply from. Bella said,

"Please?"

I decided to ignore it. I then received the reply from the person I wanted one from.

"Of course Edward, I'll be there at nine."

I was so excited to see Rose. I typed back a quick,

"Thanks "

I was ecstatic now. This would be the first time I'd seen Rose in an entire month. I lied down on my bed trying to relax before Rose came, deep in thought.

Her old red camaro pulled into the drive way. I ran down the stairs and without a word to my parents ran out the door. I stumbled on the grass, slid across the hood of the car like the 'Dukes of Hazard' and got into the passenger side.

"You've still got it I see." Rose sent me a wink accompanied by a huge smile.

"Hey Rose!" I couldn't help but let a smile consume my face.

"Edward!" She pulled my in for a long refreshing hug. I couldn't actually remember the last time I had gotten a hug, from anyone. This felt really good.

"Rose you look amazing, why has it been so long again?" I stuck my tongue out at her playfully.

"Oh Edward." She shook her head at me. "You look just as good."

She put the car into reverse and backed out of the driveway. I always thought she could drive cars professionally. She handled them so well, especially the camaro. As soon as she started driving she started the twenty questions game.

"So what was it you had to talk to me about?"

"Well," I started, "I actually need some advice. What do I do if I think I like someone and they're older than me and probably not... into me?" I blushed furiously.

"Who wouldn't be into you Edward? You're just being silly. Be yourself is all I can say, girls like guys that can be themselves around them."

I decided not to take it further since I was definitely not ready to tell Rose it wasn't a girl I was trying to be myself around.

"Oh, okay, thanks Rose." I said faking a smile.

"No problem," Rose said hesitantly, "That's what I'm here for." I could tell right away she wasn't buying it.

"So how are you and Emmet doing?" I asked out of kindness. I also asked because I desperately wanted to change the subject. I knew if I didn't change the subject Rose would continue to pry about the issue and right now I had no interest in pursuing that.

She resisted but then decided to give it up. "Well he really is something else." She said.

I continued to nod and occasionally say the odd 'oh' and 'yeah'. Usually I would be completely into hearing all about Rose's life but tonight was different. Tonight I couldn't concentrate on my own thoughts, let alone someone else's. So tonight I stared out the window staring at the street lights, Jasper moving his way into every thought I produced. I thought about how he made me feel, the way he looked, the way I felt when he looked at me in particular, and that cute southern drawl. Then out of only God knows where, my thoughts pulled a 360, now I was frantically worried; terrified even. Why was I feeling this? Why was I thinking like this? Why did my entire brain revolve around thoughts of Jasper? I'd never thought about guys like this before and I've never been so consumed by things like this either. What in the hell was I doing?

"Edward? You aren't even listening. What's wrong?"

I pushed all my thoughts away and said, "I'm listening Rose," Trying to sound convincing.

"Edward, what's bugging you?" she seemed really concerned.

I didn't even know myself. Well I did but I wasn't completely sure so I thought until I was I wouldn't tell anyone. So I thought I would leave it alone for tonight. "Nothing." I lied casually.

"Edward stop lying."

Was it really that obvious? I thought I played a better lie than that.

"You haven't been acting like your usual self since you got into the car... How have Mom and Dad been to you? To each other?"

"They're fine." I lied again. Mom was never sober. Not that I knew of anyways. Dad wasn't either but he wasn't around much anyways. But what the hell was I doing? I was lying to one of the only people I trusted. I never acted like this before. Why was this any different than anything in the past?

"Edward, you can tell me whenever you're ready okay?" I looked over and gave her a small smile.

"Thanks Rose."

She nodded and looked forward again. "So have you given much thought to a university or what you're going to do after high school? That stuff is coming up soon right?"

"Yeah," I said, "I'm thinking of U of S." I said this with a little more excitement than necessary and a smile popped unto my face.

"Hmm, I've heard good things about that place. I know a lot of people that went there. A lot of my friends are there too."

"Oh really?" I said. My curiosity was flying all around the car by this time. I'm pretty sure it was tangible by this point. "Like who?"

"Well there's Collin, Beth, Jenny, and of course Emmet is there now too," a smile took over her face as she said this, "and I'm thinking of applying there for the upcoming year, I wanna be closer to Emmet, ya know?"

Funny thing was, I did know. I knew exactly how she felt. "Well," I said, maybe just a little too casual. "I was wondering if you maybe knew a Jasper who went there?"

"Hmm... Jasper...Well there was a Jasper in the high school I went to. He was really nice. Good looking too, if I remember." She looked over and winked at me. "Maybe it's the same guy?"

"He has blonde hair, blue eyes?" I tried to egg her on with these words. Only the description I had for him was a little different in my mind than what I had said out loud. My description would be more like this; soft honey blonde hair, eyes that I could drown in, and a smile that paralysed me on the spot every time he flashed it my way. But I couldn't bring myself to tell Rose that, not yet anyways. Rose suddenly started to speak again.

"What time do you have to be home by Edward? It's already ten o' clock." Was it really? I had thought we'd only spoken a little bit tonight.

"Is it really Rose?" I said with surprise edging its way into my voice.

"Ya, you've kept to yourself most of the time. I wish you'd let me into that head of yours."

She pulled into my driveway and put the car in park. Apparently she thought I should go home I guess.

"Edward I love you and call me if you need anything, okay?"

"Sure, thanks Rose."

I hugged her, pulling her in tight against me. I flashed a quick smile at her when our hug was finished then crossed the lawn and disappeared into the house. I had the rest of the night to myself, seeing as once again, my parents weren't home. This didn't surprise me in the least. I went up to my room and lay in my bed staring at the calendar across the room. Two weeks wasn't that far away. Why was that the only thing on my mind? I had parents who were in and out of my life faster than dentist appointments and this was the thing dominating my thoughts. It was starting to feel like an obsession. Or an addiction, I couldn't decide between the two. Maybe it was a sick mix of the two? Well this was infuriating. With that I hopped into the shower, only to think of Jasper even more. I got out dried off and paced the house waiting for my parents to come home. Once mid night hit I decided it wasn't worth it and went back to bed. I pulled the covers up and let sleep over take me; Jasper dominating my thoughts.

One Week Later

I was tapping my foot recklessly against the floor. I'd taken two pain killers in the past hour in a sad attempt at getting rid of my headache. I was getting headaches steady, all because of Jasper. Well I guess it's not completely fair to say it was all Jasper's fault, but it sure seemed like it. It was because my mind was going a hundred miles an hour all the time, thinking about, the one and only, Jasper. All the time. I was becoming moody, and anti-social. People started to call me out on it and I just denied it and pushed them away. I've decided it's a sick mixture between an addiction, sick obsession, and an infatuation that won't die with time. One week.

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