a/n: hey everyone this is chapter four. I hope you like it all. And be prepared for the slash ;) its on its way. So I was really happy with the amount of everything, like alerts and favourites, i would be really happy if you could review this one please, it would mean a lot. BIG shout out to darkkite23 and .me. thanks to both for inspiring me to go on ;) i apologize to darkkite23 for making her wait for this.

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Chapter 4

Edward's POV

I woke up that morning groggy and exhausted, Jasper running circles in my mind. It felt almost natural. Like breathing; but already? It really couldn't wait an hour could it? I was in a mix of emotions right now, and I didn't know which one was the strongest. I was happy when I was thinking about Jasper, but I was confused not knowing why this felt so... right? I was now also annoyed at my new state of early morning confusion. I was opening and closing my eyes trying to get used to the light that was pouring in through a nearby window. It felt warm on my skin. Once my eyes were almost adjusted I sat up and looked around the unfamiliar room. I struggled to think of what today was, and even more so what yesterday was. I lay back down and stared at the ceiling allowing my thoughts to run ramped in my mind. Why Jasper? Why now? Not remembering what happened yesterday I rolled over onto my side to get more comfortable and yelled out in pain. I'd forgotten what had happened yesterday and this was a very unfriendly reminder. I lifted my shirt to find the bruise was even worse than last night. It was becoming a very unattractive dark purple colour. All of the dark memories of yesterday started to flood back into my brain. As if my head didn't hurt enough already now there was this. Dinner, that's where it all began. A dinner I was so excited for and so disappointed about. I didn't even get to eat my meal of disappointment which now made me feel even worse. My stomach growled then and all my thoughts started to revolve around getting something to eat. That's when Rosalie ran into my room, Mya close to her side,

"Edward! I heard you yelling, what's wrong?" I had totally forgotten about that, probably due to the fact that I was in a desperate need of some kind of breakfast. I sat up without a response to Rose and I said everything I needed to by lifting up my shirt to show her the bruises.

"Edward! You didn't show me those last night! What the hell!" I then made my way slowly to the edge of the bed. I hated when she worried about me. I slowly lifted my weight off the bed and stood upright on my feet. I walked towards her and wrapped my arms around her waist. She was hesitant but then gave in and wrapped her arms around me as well.

"Rose?" I whispered in her ear.

"Yes?"

"What's for breakfast? I'm starving" She broke off her hold on me and I started to laugh.

"I'm sure we'll find something" She winked at me and left the room. I curiously poked my head out the door to see her busily doing things in the kitchen with pans and eggs. I hoped to God she was making omelettes.

I then decided to go into the bathroom to have a shower. I walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower, dreading the thought of another ten minutes with me and my own mind. I reached out and felt the water coming out of the tap. It was scalding hot and I quickly recoiled from the heat. I looked down at my hand that was now bright red, along with already being bruised. I turned the water back down and felt it again with the one good hand I had left. It was luke warm. In other words, perfect. I finished undressing and quickly jumped into the warm water. I enjoyed the warm water pouring over my aching muscles, causing me to let out a short moan. My shower was short lived since the water started to become cold. I was finished anyways so I started to get out. I dried off and wrapped the towel around my waist. I slumped back to my room lazily. I sat on the bed and contemplated how to put on clothes without feeling pain from bruises.

I came up with nothing.

I decided to just deal with it and went to my overnight bag and threw a few things to wear on the bed. "Breakfast is almost ready Edward!" Rose called down the hall. I tried to get ready quicker with little to no success. I threw on a white t shirt and black jeans and ran my hands through my hair in an attempt to dry it. Once again, not very successful. I pulled my phone off the side table and checked it for any messages. None, just as I assumed, but I glanced at the time to find school started in forty five minutes, that meant it was 8:45am. It was also Thursday. Thursday, I said in my mind. Thursday. I immediately started to get ready ten times faster. I started to get all my things packed into my bag; it didn't take very long, ignoring all the sharp pains coming from the bruises. I was so excited now that I'm sure it was pouring out from my pores.

"Edward!"

"Sorry Rose!"

I did a double take around the guest room to make sure I hadn't forgotten anything and as I made my scan I knew I had everything with me. I left the room and went to the kitchen where Rose still was; Mya on my heels. I breathed in heavily and smelt the tantalizing scent of omelettes. Rose was making her signature dish that I'm pretty sure I was entirely in love with. No one made omelettes better than Rose. It was filled with different garden vegetables, that I would assuming Rose got at the flea market. She was really into doing that healthy and local thing lately. My opinion on healthy and local was: As long as it still means omelettes when I stay over, then great.

"Emmet really lucked out." I said as I sat down.

A smile spread onto her face as she slid the plate in front of me on the table. "Oh just eat Edward." She rolled her eyes, kissed me on the forehead and walked back down the hallway to her room.

I sat there for a moment before indulging in my omelette. I decided right then and there that this, this right here, was much better than Christmas. Much, much better. I smiled to myself as I picked up my fork and stared greedily at my omelette. To be honest it was hard to savour this meal since I was so damn hungry. I tried very hard to eat this meal without jitters running up and down my spine in excitement for the events ahead. I was eating slowly but would start to forget I was trying to drag out my contentment and would start wolfing it down again. It wasn't five minutes before my plate was clean. I sat back in the chair and just took in the moment. I loved how the kitchen smelt, how I felt. Everything seemed okay in that moment. Like everything would work out. I heard footsteps coming from down the hallway towards the kitchen. I threw my last bite down to Mya and she ate it greedily. I looked up to see that Rosalie had walked back into the kitchen and this time stared at me with a look of astonishment.

"I was only gone, like five minutes Edward. You must've been hungry." She said this with a look of surprise on her face.

"Yeah" I said sheepishly.

"Well want me to make you another?" She offered.

"No thanks Rose," I said laughing, "I'm fine." I couldn't help but let a smile escape my lips and spread across my face. I stood up and wrapped my arms around her tightly. I did not want to let go. She did the same and I sighed into her shoulder. "Thanks Rose." I said.

"Edward, it's honestly no problem." I let go to look at her to find a smile on her face.

"Being here is way better than Christmas Rose." I don't know why but I just blurted it out.

"Well if I'd known that.." She looked like she was pondering the thought for a minute before a sarcastic grin overcame her. "Christmas might start to get a little cheaper." She gave me a wink and ruffled her hand through my hair.

"Hey!" I said, half annoyed.

"Oh suck it up." She stuck her tongue out at me and we both burst out in laughter.

I turned back to the table and picked up my dishes. I then turned back to check the time on the wall clock, 8:55am, and put my dishes in the sink. I started to wash them when Rose pushed me away.

"Hey, no, leave em. I'll do them later, we need to get you to school."

She had a point so I left them and went back to the guest room to double check again and to grab my stuff.

Once in the room I took off a few of the bandages and threw them in the nearest trash can. I grabbed my bags and my forms and left with a "See you later Emmet!".

I walked down the hall to the door and started putting on my shoes when Rose said, "He's sleeping" as she started laughing. I quickly said bye to Mya and we left out the door. I didn't realize it till now, but I couldn't imagine life without Mya, she was already a part of the family. Rose had even gotten to like her. I bent down and gave her a hug and whispered to her that I would miss her, her tail wagged and I got up to leave.

We stepped out of the door, Rose locked it, and we left the apartment. We crossed the parking lot and got into her car. I threw my bag in the back seat, and the casual conversation began. We talked about everything from school to family back home to the field trip I'd been anticipating for the past two weeks. We talked about everything that was on my mind except for the one that I was the most desperate to bring up; Jasper.

We arrived at the school and right away I was nervous. I could see the buses across the field in the opposite parking lot and once again all I could think about was Jasper. I felt like the car was heating up and I opened the window.

Rose pulled into an empty spot and put the car in park. I waited five long seconds, took a breath and grabbed my bag from the back seat. I looked at Rose who was cracking a smile.

"Edward, it's just a field trip. It's not a trip to the moon." She said sarcastically.

Was it that easy to see how nervous I was?

"Hey Edward seriously it's ok, just calm down. Everything will be just fine. If you need me to pick you up just call, okay?" She smiled and kissed me on the forehead. I could tell she felt bad about last night.

"Okk-kkkay." I stuttered out. I tried to mentally calm myself down. I tuned back and checked the side mirror to see how bad my face looked. Not bad, not bad at all. It just looked like a bad burn from wind chill... in the middle of spring. I sighed and started to get out of the car. I smiled at Rosalie and turned back to grab my bag from the seat. I waved and she yelled out a good-bye to me. She sat there for a minute before starting the car and driving off.

I headed to the bussing area across the field. As I was walking to the bus I looked down at my watch to see it was 9:23am. I was two minutes away from being late. The bus left at exactly 9:25am, no exceptions.

I quickened my pace and hurried across the field. I ran to the bus and threw my things in the side storage compartment and kept my ipod and cell phone in my pocket. I quickly got onto the bus and searched the bus for a friend or an empty seat. Sadly there were neither and I opted for the only empty seat near the middle of the bus. I sat down and took in the scenery around me. Nothing new for a school bus setting. Most kids were talking to everyone else and some had headphones in their ears. Nothing new. I looked down and glanced at my watch. Three, two, one, 9:25am. I was all of the sudden way to excited. I was honestly giddy, and I never got like that. A smile spread across my face but I tucked my head down to avoid being questioned about it. I sat in an eager anticipation as the bus then roared to life. The signal we were about to go.

"Permission forms everyone!" A teacher at the front of the bus called out among the shouting teenagers. I sat up a little in my seat to dig mine out of my pocket. We passed them up and once the teacher got a count of our names and a count of the forms she started her speech.

"Okay kids, listen up! There will be no fooling around on this bus. We should be there in about two hours so you'll just have to suck it up. We are not making any pit stops so I hope you've all taken advantage of a bathroom sometime today. So that's about it. Okay here we go." She sat back down and the bus driver pulled the gear shift into drive. I was almost bouncing up and down on my seat. The two weeks I had been waiting for had finally come.

I pulled my ipod out of my pocket and put the headphones in my ears. I searched my playlist for something to listen to but nothing was really jumping out at me. I was in a mood that I can't say is common or normal to me. I settled on a playlist I had made that was mainly composed of the Sick Puppies, the Summer Set, and few other bands. I sat there thinking about the day ahead and about what I'd do if I couldn't find Jasper. All my thoughts seemed to somehow come in contact with him, which I found extremely annoying and really enjoyable.

The next two and a half hours dragged by. I thought we were going to be there in two so it was a safe assumption to say I was annoyed when we arrived half an hour later than expected. I guess someone felt like taking their time I thought to myself annoyed. As soon as I thought it I regretted it. It wasn't like me at all to be like this with this much attitude.

We pulled into the university's campus and everyone's eyes were once again glued to the windows. The teacher then yelled for our attention. I gladly gave it to her to distract from my current thought process. I gave up on thinking about Jasper and was now intently listening on the blabber coming out of her mouth. She was now reading out the dorms we would be staying in. I was excited for this but at the same time it didn't make a huge difference since I had no clue which one Jasper was in. I tuned out all the names until I had heard mine.

"Edward Cullen! East Bay dorm, room 305." I trying to burn this information into my head since I didn't have a pen or paper on me. I then listened to see who might be in my room with me. "Bradley Henner! East Bay dorm" Bradley. No. I didn't want to be with him. He was one of the popular kids in my grade but he was only popular for one thing, drinking. "Room 305." Damn it. I let out a sigh of annoyance. Just great.

"What was that Mrs. G?"

"Same as Cullen!" She shouted out.

I figured he was just there for the frat parties I had heard about. So maybe if he spent a lot of time there it wouldn't matter. Well wait. It wouldn't matter anyways. I would be out looking for Jasper anyways. This made me feel a little better.

After every student was assigned rooms and dorms we were instructed off the bus. We stood outside the bus waiting for our bags. We each got a turn to rifle through other people's stuff in order to find our own things. Before we left the buses we were handed a map by the teacher.

"Okay kids! Your first assignment this weekend is to find the dorm and room you're assigned to. Enjoy!"

After I got my stuff I walked over to Bradley who was clearly getting impatient.

"Hey Cullen, just go on without me okay? I'm going to scope out some ass. Text me later when you find the place will ya? Thanks dude." He didn't really give me any time to respond so he slung his back pack over his shoulder and left in the opposite direction I was headed in. Did he realize I didn't have his number? I wouldn't be able to text him. Not that that bothered me, it was just he was going to be pissed later. I shook my head and walked away from the general student population. I headed in the direction of my dorm, and I say that pretty loosely since I didn't actually know where my dorm was. I was excited to find it though because the sooner I found it, the sooner I could unpack and go 'Jasper Hunting'. I replayed that thought over in my mind and realized it sounded really obsessive. I shrugged it off and let a smile come to my face. That's where I stumbled upon a sign that read "East Bay -" I followed the arrow pointing to the left down a hill and became even more excited over the fact that I could see the building. I had only been out here walking about ten minutes so I took my first assignment as a major accomplishment. I think I actually deserved an A+. At this point I started to walk a little faster seeing as I would be even closer to dropping my things off and getting to the main event. But hey, I had all day, I brought my speed back to normal human to not look as eager as I was to be here.

I finally got to the front of the building and looked over to see the giant sign "East Bay". I must have been in the right place. I kept looking around thinking this must have been a mistake. This place was immaculate. It must have been one of those rich dorms with kids who had doctors and lawyers for parents who paid for everything. I got to the door and realized I couldn't get in without a pass code or a key card. Damn it. Just my luck. Why the hell wouldn't the teacher tell us about this?

I stood there for a good ten minutes looking like a dumbass before another student made their way towards me. She walked up to me warily. She was a really tiny, but beautiful girl. She had jet black hair that fell to her mid back, suntanned skin and ice blue eyes. If I wasn't going to look for Jasper I'd definitely be making a move on her. She was wearing a pair of white shorts that stopped at her upper thigh showing off her fluid legs. She was wearing a black tank top and some simple jewellery; and bless her soul she was wearing a pair of converse to top it off. I wouldn't be surprised if I was drooling at this point.

Focus Edward! I yelled mentally at myself so not to freak her out. She glided over to me and looked right at me, "Are you in the student weekend program?" Her voice sounded like angels. It was honestly like nothing I'd ever heard before.

I looked down in embarrassment and managed a strangled "Yeah..." I was sweating I was so nervous, I could tell it was her because there was no way this weather was doing it to me. "I'm actually really glad you came by," I said. "I've been standing here for ten minutes with no clue how to get in."

"It's honestly no problem" she said sweetly. She started to dig something out of one of those impossibly small pockets. "Need help finding the room?" She pulled out a card key.

"Uhm.. it's room 305. H-hey, If you don't mind me asking, are you in this dorm?"

"Yeah," she said. "I'm on the second floor. Room 305?" She asked.

"Yeah, why?"

"Oh, I'm sure you'll have loads of fun in that room." Her voice was mesmerizing, I didn't even notice any infliction she added to the sentence. I almost forgot the words that went along with the melodic tune of her voice. "Want me to help you up there?" She said as she opened the door.

"No thanks," I said smiling, "I think I've got it from here. But seriously thanks for all your help. My name's Edward by the way."

"Sure," she said with a smile that was more beautiful than anything I'd ever seen before. "Alice." She pulled out a small piece of paper from her pocket. "Do you have a pen handy?"

"Yeah sure thing." I unzipped my bag and dug out a pen and handed it over to her.

She scribbled something down and handed me the pen and paper. "Just in case you need help with anything else" She winked at me and flipped her hair as she walked away. I stood there in a daze. I looked down sometime after and saw a phone number in neat writing with a heart beside it.

I took out my phone, put the numbers in and shoved the phone, pen, and paper into my bag. If I was being honest with myself, if things didn't work out with Jasper, she'd definitely be hearing from me again. I laughed to myself seeing all the hope I put into having things work out with Jasper.

I walked through the door and into a main lobby. I looked around and took in what I assumed was an average dorm room look mixed with a fancy hotel. The best part was definitely the view of some kind of body of water from the glass walls at the back.

I looked to the left to see an elevator and decided to start there. I went in and looked back at all the numbers there. It went from 1 to 2 to 3 to 4. I pressed the second floor button unconsciously thinking of Alice and then corrected myself by picking the third floor button. The elevator doors opened and I got out and started walking down the hall. I looked at all the doors. 201, 202, 203, 204. Shit. I was on the second floor. I dragged my things back to the elevator and pressed the up arrow again. I waited there looking foolish as students walked past staring at me as I stayed put waiting for the elevator that never seemed to come. The doors opened and I rushed in. I clicked the number three again and let my eyes drift back to my feet. I waited there for what seemed forever. The elevator doors finally closed and I looked back to the lit up three, and beside it was a 'close doors' button. Why wasn't my brain functioning today? All elevators had that. Why didn't I press it two seconds ago when I stood there looking like a complete idiot staring at my feet in the elevator. I realized I'd be meeting my roommate in less than five minutes. I convinced myself that if it was that bad I could maybe get away with rooming with Alice this weekend. Now that I thought about it, that may not be a bad idea after all.

Just as I thought about whipping out my phone and texting her my situation the elevator doors opened and I just stood there, too nervous to even move. 305 I repeated to myself. The elevator doors started to close and I threw my arm out to stop them from closing. They opened back up and I picked my things up off the floor and walked out of the elevator and down the hall. I counted each room as I passed it. 301. 302. 303. 304. 305. I stood in front of the door not sure of what to do. My new, pretend weekend, roommate was in there right now, I assumed. I was really nervous to get someone weird, but then again how much time would I be spending here anyways? Then I remembered my back up plan. This gave me some confidence as I sheepishly knocked three times softly on the door. I heard someone drop something clumsily on the floor on their way to the door. Then I heard the chain being taken out and my heart started beating a little faster. I was excited and nervous to see my new roommate, but mostly nervous. Wait though, what did Alice mean when she said "Oh, I'm sure you'll have loads of fun in that room."?

Slowly the door opened to reveal my new roommate for the next three days.

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