WARNING: SLASH, drinking.
A/N: Hi guys, i've been on a role, most times updating in a matter of 5 days or less. I haven't been getting a great response so far... so for all you slash lovers, I hope you enjoy this one. I made it twice as long because sadly from now on chapter sizes will be longer but sadly the updates may start to be a two week thing.. Sorry, life is invading. If I could just do this forever, I would ;) As always i would be really happy if you could review this one please, it would mean a lot. Seriously EVN ONE WORD :D And once again:
Disclaimer: I don't own twilight. Just my version of Jasper and Edward ;)
So without further hesitation, here it is.
Chapter 5
Edward's POV
I stood there nervously waiting as the door opened to reveal him. I looked into the face of my new and definitely weird roommate, and a huge boyish grin started to spread across my entire face. This was definitely going to be a good weekend.
"Well if I do declare, come on in Edward." I was soft butter in his hands as his southern drawl made it hard to make coherent thoughts. By the time I registered everything I noticed his smile must have been as big as mine. I also noticed that I hadn't said anything since he opened the door. I probably stood there looking like an idiot, and now I was wasting more time just thinking about it all.
"What has got you so happy Edward?" Jasper said teasingly. I was still taken back by how much his voice affected me. I could feel my face warming but really hoped it didn't show; or that he didn't notice it. I finally spoke.
"Well I thought I was going to end up with a dumb roommate for the next three days. You're the only person I know here so I'm just excited." I smiled widely and realized that Jasper was just as excited as I was. "Well are you going to let me in or are you just going to stand there and stare?" I stuck my tongue out and his face reddened little. It was really cute, I have to admit. No it was actually fucking adorable. He took a step to the left and made a gesture for me to enter into the dorm room. I took the offer and dragged my bags passed him. As I walked by his hand accidentally, I think, brushed against my ass, which in turn made my dick twitch. I thought over and over again about dead kittens and clowns. It was really crazy how just one touch from him sent an electric shock through my whole body. I calmed myself down and put my stuff in the door way. I took off my shoes and threw them to the side. Jasper casually slid past me and went right into the main room, which was connected to the kitchen, living space, bathroom, and bedroom. It was honestly like one big room with another bedroom and bathroom attached.
"Make yourself at home Edward." Jasper said.
He walked in further and I followed behind like a puppy following its owner, casually stealing glances at his ass; which was beautiful by the way. Jasper plopped onto the couch and I threw my stuff onto the nearest bunk bed.
"So aren't there supposed to be two of you?" he asked somewhat confused.
"Yeah, Bradley." I said dryly. "He's a barrel of fun."
"Wow." Jasper said in astonishment. "You don't seem to like him very much."
"Well he's okay I guess. It's just, he parties a lot and we don't get along that well."
"I see. " He sat there for a moment contemplating everything. "Well since you lucked out with me," He winked at me and it sent a shiver down my spine. "You must be interested in psychology?"
"Yeah, I was thinking of coming here to take it."
"Well you'd have an awesome tutor available." He said pointing to himself.
I honestly couldn't believe how I lucked out with getting Jasper as my roommate. All the sudden I thought of sleeping arrangements. "So where do Bradley and I sleep?" I blurted out. It seemed like around Jasper I had no control over my brain. At all. I watched him move trying to burn these feelings and images into my brain.
"Well you'd sleep in the bunk bed where your bag is, and the good thing is that you can pick your bunk since that other kid isn't here." I was brought back to reality as Jasper answered my previous question.
"Oh nice" I said.
I saw Jasper look at the clock and a look of panic spread onto his face. I was all of the sudden panicked. "What's wrong?" I asked.
"I have class in ten minutes." He said. "Damn it" he whispered.
I started to blush since I felt like I was the reason he was maybe late since I kept him talking. He ran into his room and came out with a notebook and a couple of pens, and started towards the door. He turned back and looked at me. "Wanna come with me?" He started to smile.
"Hell ya!" I said, smiling. I walked over to the bunk bed and grabbed a notebook and pen and ran to the door to meet him. I threw on my shoes and stood up to meet the most amazing smile greeting me on Jasper's face. "Are you sure you can handle this class?" He said, looking appraisingly at me. I laughed and pushed him towards the door.
"Let's go." He said. He walked out of the door and I followed behind him. He turned around and bumped into me. I felt like the breath was leaving me. The contact between our bodies sent more shocks through me than I could imagine. I could feel my face redden and quickly apologized. "Sorry."
"It's ok." He laughed. "I just need to lock the door."
He went past me and started to lock the door with a silver key. He shoved the key in the pocket of his blue jeans and we left the hall and got into the elevator. He pressed the button for the main floor, we got in and the doors closed as we drifted towards the ground. We didn't say much in the elevator but Jasper kept looking at the watch on his wrist. I could tell he hated being late. I would have to try to remember that. We walked briskly out of the doors to the lobby of the dorm and started talking casually again. I actually loved talking to Jasper.
"So do you have any questions about this fine establishment also known as a university?" He faked a professional voice and I couldn't help but smile.
"Well Jasper," I started, trying to fake the same professional tone, "I was just wondering where I would need to go to get a new roommate?" I said this but started to smile immediately after.
"Well I'm deeply sorry Edward but it seems to be far too late in the semester to request or complete a transfer. I suppose you'll just have to stick with the one you have for the rest of the semester. Once again I'm truly sorry.
I let out a heart breaking sigh and then jumped a bit at how dramatic it sounded. I looked over at Jasper and even he seemed a little concerned, but I started to laugh and then he joined in.
This playful banter continued all the way to the class. We walked into the class that was only three quarter's full with only two minutes to spare. We decided to take seats next to the middle of the room and set our books and pens down on the counter in front of us. I looked around the class and it was, to put it simply, a large lecture theatre. Kind of like the semi circle ones in Greece. I was busy in my own mind so it kind of startled me when the professor started to speak in front of the room. I heard Jasper making an attempt to stifle a laugh beside me and I elbowed him lightly in the side. The teacher started writing on the board and I looked over to see Jasper starting to skilfully take down the most important notes from the board. It surprised me to see how neat his writing was compared to how fast the teacher was talking and writing. Mine would definitely be close to illegible. I watched as his hands glided across the page leaving perfectly annotated notes behind. I stared back down at my own blank notebook and decided to try and take some notes.
I tried taking notes from where the professor left off and found that I couldn't keep up unless I one, really concentrated, and two, my writing suffered from a bad, bad, bad case of chicken scratch. I probably had some silly concentrating face on because when Jasper looked over he started to laugh quietly and turned back to his notes. I decided to take a short break from writing and write a different kind of note.
What's the title of this class even?
I slid the note over to Jasper who didn't read it right away but when the teacher continued to talk he read it and wrote a quick response,
Second year psychology: Drugs and Behaviour ;)
I looked over at him and I saw him let out a smirk. I actually couldn't care what look he managed, anything was beautiful with that face. There was no denying that. I smiled back helpless to resist.
Jasper looked back at the board and started taking notes.
Just to think. I was thinking about this for so long and now I was sitting beside him. I was off in my own world for I have no idea how long when my hand was nudge with a piece of paper.
Wanna come to a party with me tonight? I know it's not really your thing but.. I thought maybe you might wanna come.
I stared at the note long enough for someone to probably deduce that I was impaired in some type of reading skill. All I was doing though was concentrating on how not to explode and let the whole class not know how excited I really was. If it meant I'd be spending more time with Jasper then I was all for it. I mean it would only be a couple of hours but I still wasn't willing to give those hours with him up. So party tonight it was.
Why not?
I scribbled this back and looked back at my writing and decided I had the penmanship of a seven year old. He looked up and smiled at me, so I gave him a scolding look and nodded to the board to tell him to pay attention. We both cracked a smile and he shifted his attention back to the professor and the board.
For the remainder of the class I doodled on the page, not trying to keep up with the prof, stole glances at Jasper while he was writing, and let my fantasies and imagination go wild. Once again I had drifted off into my mind while the class was going on not paying attention to anything but Jasper.
My dazed and content lull was broken with the professor saying,
"So that wraps up this unit and tomorrow will be the start of our last unit, the affect of different chemicals on the neuro-system. I expect the pages on the board to be read by then. Have a good night guys and I'll see you tomorrow." He started erasing the board and kids started to pack up and leave. The professor walked back to his desk and students started to file out of the room. I picked up my things following suit, looked down at my watch, 12:30pm, and started towards the exit. My stomach grumbled as I walked down the stairs indicating lunch. I looked up once out of the class and found myself lost again. Shit, where did Jasper go? I sat there like a kid in the mall who couldn't find his parents. Sad, and lonely.
"Trying to lose me?" I heard Jasper behind me and I couldn't help but smile.
"Never." I said with a smile. I punched myself in the face mentally as I thought about what I just said. That was way to forward.
"Ya know what Edward? I don't really think this university would be a good choice for you to be honest."
My face fell and at this point I didn't really care if he saw.
"I mean I've had to rescue you from being lost about three times now since you've gotten here and unless you want me around saving you all the time you may want to consider somewhere else." A smile broke out onto his face and I felt relief and embarrassment flood through me.
"Well maybe I will then" I said teasingly.
"On second thought maybe you should stay. My day is far more fulfilling when I feel like I've helped someone."
"So your just using me eh?" I punched him in the arm.
"Hey no need to get rough." He laughed and we started walking towards the dorm. It was turning out to be a beautiful day. The sun was high in the sky and the weather was really warm now. It was odd for mid spring.
"So where do we eat around here?" As I said this my stomach grumbled in unison with my words.
"What are you in the mood for?"
You I thought to myself honestly. My eyes started to darken with lust but I tried as hard as I could to hide it and will it down. "You pick" I said smiling.
"You might regret this Edward, but hot dogs and fries it is." He smiled as we walked down a new road that seemed to lead away from the university.
"Sounds great!"
We walked down beside the lake that I assumed was maybe from a river behind his dorm. We walked for another twenty minutes before we had arrived at the place Jasper seemed dying to eat at. We stood up at the window and ordered our food form what seemed to be a shack. We stood there and I soaked up the scent of fried foods. Jasper saw me in my own little heaven and laughed. We started eating our food and half way to the dorm, sat down on the grass and watched the lake. It seemed calm today; one might even believe it was summer. I really enjoyed sitting here with Jasper, we didn't say much but I enjoyed it either way. The breeze off the lake played in my hair and it felt nice to be here. I didn't have the worry of my parents or the worry of anything else. I had Jasper and the lake; well neither of them belonged to me but I felt like they should. We finished our meals and got up to walk back to the dorm.
Once back at the dorm we found Bradley sitting on his bags outside the door. I guessed he hadn't been as lucky as me. In both ways. I laughed to myself and Jasper looked at me with confusion. Bradley finally looked up and caught sight of me.
"Hey Edward! Wanna take my stuff up to our room? Don't bother waiting for me, I think I'm going to a party tonight. So I probably won't be back till morning."
"Sure" I muttered and with that he was off. Jasper and I grabbed his bags and dragged them through the dorm, up the elevator, and towards the room. As soon as we got to the room Jasper dug out the key from his pocket and opened the door. We took our shoes off and threw Bradley's bags to the side of the room. So with a full stomach I went over to the bunk beds slid my things off it and carefully lied down, trying to be wary of my bruises. I had no intention in the world of telling Jasper about them. Jasper sat down beside the couch on the floor three feet away from me.
"So I guess you'll probably get the entire bunk bed to yourself tonight." He smiled and laughed lightly as he pulled his textbook and notebooks out. He got back up, went into his room and grabbed a second book, dumped it on the floor and sat back down. He sat cross legged on the floor and opened up his books scanning through tomorrow's lesson I presumed.
"I hope you don't mind me reading through this stuff." He looked up through his eyelashes and there was no way in hell I could say no to that.
Instead I decided to counter with "I hope you don't mind me taking a nap."
We both started laughing and then Jasper said "Go ahead." And he returned to his books. "Want me to wake you up for the party then?" Of course I did.
"Yes please, don't let me sleep too long, okay?"
"Sure thing!" He went back a third time to his books and I figured it would be smart to not bother him anymore. I looked back up to the top bunk ceiling and closed my eyes. I thought about the events till now and a smile can unto me. Sleep over took me easily knowing Jasper was there.
*.*.*
I was awakened by Jasper whispering my name and shaking me lightly. "Edward?" he whispered. I rolled over somewhat groggy. "Good morning," I said sleepily. "What time is it?"
"Uhmm.. Edward I'm sorry... I just.. didn't want to wake you.. you seemed so peaceful. It's, ah... eight thirty."
I rolled over again and groaned into my pillow. Fuck. I'd slept so long. I came here to be with Jasper and I was wasting that time. Wait no, I came to check classes, well no I didn't even want to lie to myself it was all Jasper. Oddly enough it was kind of turning me on to know that Jasper was watching over me while I slept. Wait, no. Dead kittens. There was no way I was getting hard here.
"It's time to go to the party sleepy head." He smiled at me and I melted. I was glad I was lying on the bed or I might have fallen over. I stuck my tongue out at him and stretched out on the bed while Jasper watched. He moved slightly but then got up and went to his room. I decided it would be best if I followed suit and did the same so I got up and looked at myself in a nearby mirror. Aside from looking sleepy I looked alright, so I decided not to change.
Jasper came out of his room and asked if he should wear the black shirt in his left hand, or the purple one in his right. I told him the purple one and off he went back into his room. I walked towards the bathroom to brush my teeth when I happened to glance inside Jaspers room. If I noticed anything it wasn't the guitar in the stand or even the snowboard propped up against the wall; it was his bare chest. He looked really good in clothes but honestly even better without them. I would've attacked him right there if I knew he felt the same way but he didn't and so I just kept admiring the sculpted body of a god that was Jasper. I then took another step towards the bathroom so he couldn't see me and looked down to see an arising problem in my pants. I don't think anything was going to work to calm this one down.
I went and stepped inside the bathroom and closed the door. I first lifted my shirt to check the bruises. They were the same as this morning, if not worse. I looked up to find that my face was actually better than this morning but everything else just hurt. I looked back down to the bruises and whispered a quiet, "Shit." If anyone bumps into me tonight it could be ugly, I laughed at the thought of screaming by being bumped. I figured tonight, it would probably happen. I put my shirt back down and quickly brushed my teeth. I rinsed, put my tooth brush away. I then quickly washed my face and walked out of the bathroom.
I went to where Jasper was standing putting his shoes on and started putting my own on. I looked at Jasper to see that the purple shirt was very nice. He actually looked really hot, and I'm sure he'd be getting some action tonight. I laughed, desperately hoping it would come from me.
"What's so funny?" Jasper asked.
"Nothing," I smiled, "Are we ready to go?"
"If you are then yeah." He smiled and did a quick scan around the room.
"Let's go." I smiled as I ran my fingers through my tousled bronze hair.
We walked down the hallway and into the elevator without a word between us. Jasper raised his hand, once in the elevator, and pressed the button for the main floor. The elevator music came on and we both laughed in unison.
We hit the ground with a ding and the elevator doors opened in front of us. We walked into the lobby and past the doors to the main entrance. The fresh air hitting my face felt so much better than I would have admitted. I sighed in the cool night air.
"What's wrong?" Jasper asked, concerned.
"Nothing," I laughed, "The air just feels nice."
We started walking to a house two dorms down. Jasper filled me in about all the party do's and don'ts and what to expect. I told him it was my first party and we both laughed when he commented on how innocent I still was.
I planned to prove him wrong tonight.
I thought quietly to myself as we walked there. Should I make a move tonight? If I was drunk enough and he was too and I made a move would he just forget it? I needed to do it tonight. I decided I probably wouldn't get another chance after tonight since there weren't really anymore parties. I figured if things went really bad tonight then I could just blame it on the alcohol but other than that I didn't have another excuse. It had to be tonight. I -
"Hey Edward, we don't have to go if you don't want to." Jasper said sheepishly. I hadn't even realized I was being this quiet. I felt really embarrassed now.
"No, no, no. I wanna go." I smiled to reinforce my statement.
"Okay well we don't have to stay, just tell me when you wanna go, okay?" He seemed really worried about this.
"Okay sounds good." I smiled again to try and get him not to be nervous or anxious or whatever he was feeling. "Hey Jasper, I just realized I have no idea what your last name is." I said confused.
"Oh, yeah, I guess I just assumed, it's Whitlock." He smiled.
"Cullen." I said.
"See, now were really getting somewhere." He winked at me.
We both laughed and I asked, "Hey so how much longer till this place?"
"About two minutes, it's actually just around the block." He said.
I was actually pretty excited. But if excitement was a nine out of ten on the excitement scale then my nervous scale must have been at least a fifteen out of ten easily. I took the break in our conversation to listen to try and hear anything party like. I actually heard the music. We must have been a minute away and I was seriously excited. I mean it was my last year in high school, and going to my first party. Maybe I was a little more excited than I thought I was. I looked at my watch and it was around 9:30pm so the sun was almost down.
We were less than half a block away and I could hear the music clear as a bell. There was some kind of techno song playing as we walked up the front lawn. "Wait, Jasper. What do I do if we get separated and I can't find you later?"
"Well, its nine thirty now. So how about if we get separated than we meet at the front lawn in two hours. So eleven thirty we meet here." He smiled, and once again his infectious smile spread onto my face.
"Sounds good, let's do this." I smiled and started walking to the front door. I could see flashing lights and colours flying out the window. It honestly seemed like I was walking out of my life and into a reality TV show on one of those music channels.
I reached out to open the door and as my hand touched the door knob I could feel the vibrations the music made pulsating through the knob; I wouldn't doubt if the walls felt the same. As soon as I opened the door a wave of dense heat hit my face. This definitely was what I expected. I took one step inside and I stopped when Jasper grabbed my other hand. Like the first time, a bolt of electricity spread through his hand and shocked my entire body.
"Just so you know Edward. You shouldn't bring any drinks outside if you have any. Security will boot your ass home. But we can't have that; you still have a few more days here to live like me." He winked at me and we stepped inside. That's when I realized that this would be my first time getting drunk. Ever. I turned around to face Jasper and also to confess my newly realized fact.
"Jasper, I haven't gotten drunk before." I looked down in embarrassment.
"Hey it's okay, I'll just drink a little less and watch out for you."
I felt a lot better knowing he was going to watch for me. "Okay." I said and turned back to the party. I walked deeper into the house and ended up in an open room. The speakers were blasting and it was extremely obvious that people were already hammered. I don't care if I've never had a drink before in my life, I knew that they had all sucked on the bottle before I got here. I was being bounced around like I was in a mosh pit, and with the adrenaline of being at a party and the loud music drowning out all my thoughts I couldn't even feel my bruises being hit. I mean I could but it wasn't too bad. I looked behind me making sure I hadn't lost Jasper before my first drink ever was downed and there he was, right behind me. He motioned his arm up to his mouth asking in sign language if I wanted a drink and I nodded and smiled. The music was making conversation next to impossible.
I followed behind him into a kitchen that made conversation hard but not impossible and he mixed me a drink. I was pretty sure it was vodka and orange juice. He handed me the glass and started to make one for himself. Once he was finished he lifted the glass in the air and we clinked glasses. We both took large gulps. I wasn't sure how much was in here but it tasted really strong, and I'm sure I made a face because Jasper laughed when he looked back at me. I decided to take another drink showing him I could handle it. As our eyes locked a hand grabbed me by the shoulder. I turned around preparing to be thrown up on and instead came face to face with Bradley.
"Take a shot with me man!"
Bradley took a shot glass off the table and put it in front of me and took one for himself. He poured in what I thought was rum and said,
"On three Cullen! You better not puss out! One! Two!"
I looked back at Jasper and shrugged.
"Three! Down!"
I picked the glass off the table and downed my first shot. Like a champ I might add. I coughed several times after it was down my throat but other than that I was fine.
"Yeah Cullen!" Bradley was clearly already at this for a while before he found me. He then took off, bottle in hand and left me there with Jasper. I looked back at Jasper and started to feel hot. This time it wasn't from looking at Jasper.
"I feel really warm Jasper." I admitted to him.
"Edward, your already starting. He laughed to himself and took another sip of his drink. I downed my second mixed drink and shook off the after taste. I searched the crowd and couldn't see anyone that I remembered. I turned back to Jasper and said, "One more?"
"Sure." He laughed and poured me about two shots of rum into a glass. No chaser. I laughed at myself because I never acted like this before. I downed the whole glass and a convulsion rocked through my body when it was all down.
"You didn't throw that up? I'm impressed Edward." He looked astonished.
I started to feel really warm now. I felt giddy and really... I guess loose was the only way to describe it right now. I'd only been in the house for about fifteen minutes and already I was probably buzzed. I looked back at the dance floor and asked Jasper, "Can we g-go dance maybe?"
All he did was laugh and motion me forward to the crowd. I swayed my hips in time with the music and tried to sing along with the song playing. I found my way to a girl in front of me and copied the move I saw at most of my high school dances. I put my hands on her waist and moved my hips in rhythm with hers. I didn't even know where Jasper was at this point, but I would find him after this song.
The girl turned around I couldn't believe who it was. She leaned her head back towards my head so she could get closer to my ear.
"Hey sweet heart." Her voice sounded even better right now than before.
"Alice, you look so fucking good." I whispered back to her.
"You too cutie." She winked at me and grinded her hips even closer to me. I let out a soft moan and I'm pretty sure with this music no one could hear anyways. We continued grinding our hips into each other through probably four songs, each time she tried something different.
We were dancing to another song now and she slid her hands up my waist and up into my hair and knotted her fingers into it. She dragged them back slowly down the back of my neck and slowly dragged her fingers across my neck. I couldn't control myself right now. The words in the music were blurring together and the lights were no one colour, now they were different ones everywhere. Bradley came past me and I grabbed his bottle out of his hand and drank more. He punched me in the forearm and took the bottle back. I didn't really know a lot of what was going on right now, I just knew that I was having a great time and I felt so light.
On a sudden impulse I leaned my head down and grazed my teeth against her earlobe. She responded by moaning back into me. I then started kissing down her jaw line to the corner of her mouth. She turned around and put one hand on my chest and intertwined the other one in my hair. I leaned over and kissed her softly. Then as she kissed back I started to suck on her bottom lip. She moaned a little more and my hands found their way to her ass as I started to pull her closer to me. Not only our bodies were moving together now but our lips too. I started to really lose it when she put both hands behind my neck, laced them together, and pulled me closer. I was really lost now. No thoughts entered my mind and primal urges kicked in, well either primal urges or the alcohol; I'd never been like this before. It felt great to have no worries.
Our tongues collided and her taste drove me nuts. I moaned into the kiss and she drove her tongue deeper into my mouth. I felt for Alice everywhere. I loved the feeling of her body. Adrenaline was coursing through my veins and I moaned louder not caring who was watching. I threaded my hands into her languid hair now and moved to her neck. I took in a breath and even her smell drove me off the edge. I started to graze my teeth across her neck and let my tongue drag across with it. I started to suck on her neck but not enough to give her any marking at all. I thought of Jasper now. It all came flooding back. What if he was watching me now? He'd probably be disgusted. Just then I was knocked away from Alice and on to my ass. I was now looking up at a brawl that was starting right on top of me. The beat in the stereo was still going on as I was pulled back up to my feet. I looked back to see some older random kids smiling at me holding beers in the air.
"Thanks!" I tried shouting over the music. It was probably no use. I tried looking for Alice again and had no luck seeing her in the crowd. I decided to go on a search for Jasper. I looked at my watch and it was ten thirty. I still had an hour before I had to meet him. I was trying to make coherent thoughts but it was really hard. I tried walking out of the room into the kitchen and stumbled a lot. I got to the kitchen and couldn't find him so I took the back door out of the kitchen into the back yard. I realized this must have been a frat house because there were tons of people out here and a pool covered a back corner of the extensive yard; which was now over-filled with beer cans and rowdy teens. I went farther into the crowd and found Jasper talking to another guy. I went over to his side and tripped. He caught me and instantly my face turned red.
"Woah Edward, you've had a bit haven't you?" He was so fucking hot.
"No I'm f-fi-ine." I looked at him and smiled widely. I looked at his friend and he looked at me up and down and back at Jasper. "Well have fun Jas, looks like you have something to look after now. Don't take advantage of the poor kid." He laughed and walked away.
"I'm sorry," I said. "I chased your friend away."
"It's okay Edward." He laughed. "So how much have you had?"
"I can't remember." I said honestly. "You?"
"I'm still on the same drink Edward." I looked at him and laughed. Then the floor started to tilt and I wondered how. Once again I was in Jasper's arms. "Wanna lay down a second Edward?"
I nodded my head and he let me slowly to the ground. He sat beside me as I looked up at the stars amazed. I was in my own little world. I couldn't peel my eyes away from the stars. I'd always been fascinated by the sight of them. I always thought they were something more. I used to go out in my yard and do this at home; especially when I needed to think about stuff. We didn't say much in that time, and then Jasper said, "Do you wanna try getting up now?"
I nodded my head thinking it was smart not to talk in fear of saying something stupid. We were away from the main crowd by the pool shed now and Jasper kept giving me odd looks. "Jasper, I'm s-seriously fi-n-ne."
"Maybe we should get you home to bed..." He seemed worried like I actually didn't know what I was doing.
Someone passed us and I took their bottle too and took another two swigs. Immediately after Jasper took the bottle away and simply stated, "Edward I think I should cut you off." I was definitely more than tipsy so that probably wasn't a bad idea; especially if I was going to remember tonight. People were still partying and still yelling. I looked down at my watch again and it was about 10:45pm.
"Jasp-p-per d-do you have class tomor-ro-row?" I slurred out.
"Yes I do and you're going to have a pretty big head ache too." He gave me another one of those concerned looks. I was having mixed feelings about them. I liked them because I knew he cared about me, but on the other hand I didn't like them because I didn't like the fact that I was the cause of his worry. I noticed Jasper still hadn't finished his drink. He really did want to watch over me. I was surprised at this discovery.
"Wanna go back to my place and watch a movie?" He asked.
"Y-yeaaaaah. S-Sure. That'd'd be ni-nice." I couldn't believe how hammered I was now. I'd never been like this and I couldn't have felt more free, and so completely guilty.
"Okay, that's probably the be-" Jasper was cut off by another party go-er.
"Jasper!" the guy came closer.
"Hey Bobby" Jasper said, "I actually have to go right now."
"Well this one's pretty hammered, try not to take advantage of him Jas!" Right away Jasper's face lit up into a bright shade of crimson.
I didn't know if it was the booze or not but I'm pretty sure I heard two people tonight tell Jasper not to take advantage of me. Did that mean what I think it did? Was Jasper gay? Or bi? Openly? I didn't really want to admit it but I really hoped so.
"Ja-asper-r?" I said questioning the guy's statement. I was now slurring worse than before. I was also more off balance. I think the rum was catching up to me. Things were also starting to blur together. Probably not good.
"Ya?" He said. He was quick to respond but I wasn't sure if he was responding to his name or the question, but I really wanted an answer, either way he was extremely embarrassed. I didn't need to be sober to tell that.
"Ar-e-e you... strai-aight?" I said, not holding any restraint against my mouth. I think it would be impossible to do that by now anyways.
"No, not really." He said, blushing even deeper. He seemed embarrassed that I had found out, but to be honest I was really excited.
"Fo-or how l-long?" I stuttered out. I looked down waiting for an answer thinking it would be easier for him if I wasn't staring him down. I was also looking away from him trying to gain some courage to do what I was about to. This was the only chance I was going to get. I wanted to take it more than anything.
"About a year or two... but Edward, I swea-" I didn't really think after that I just reverted into primal basic instincts and needs, and right now, Jasper was a need. So midway through his sentence I decided to give up every other thought I had and focused on him. Only him. It's not like it was hard though, I've had a lot of practice in this.
I pushed Jasper up against the pool shed and place my lips softly on his. I couldn't believe I'd actually just done this, and the best part was that I didn't care if anyone was watching, but that credit might need to go to the alcohol. He had the best taste on his lips. Maybe even better than Alice's.
I pulled away and looked at him, anticipating the reaction. The last three weeks I had dreamed about this and it finally happened. Now all that mattered was his reaction. Now I was nervous.
"Edward? I think you're really drunk." He looked surprised but insanely happy, so much so that he started to laugh a little. I couldn't help for the millionth time smiling. It seemed like whenever he was happy I was.
"Nooo-o I swe-wear I'm fine." I wished I was more sober to form real sentences so he would know I wasn't kidding around.
"Are you sure? Cause I don't think you'll remember this in the morning."
I decided not to respond with words. After all it's been said that actions speak louder than words, and if that was true then what I was about to do would be like screaming into a mega phone, in a library, at night time. I went back to him one more time and started kissing at his collar bone and continued up his jaw to his ear.
"I've never been so sure of anything before in my life." I knew I was been forward but I guess I had the liquor to thank for that. What I was feeling now was way better than I'm sure any high would ever be. I had adrenaline running through me like never before. I let my lips find their way across his jaw line and back to his lips. I kissed him softly at first, increasing the passion as time went by. He didn't protest this time and moaned into the kiss, egging me on. I started to suck on his bottom lip and he pressed up farther against me. I stopped and regretted it immediately when I stopped.
"I think I'm going to pass out." I confessed.
I started walking to nowhere in particular and Jasper caught up to me and put his arm around my back helping me walk.
"Thanks Jasper."
He responded with, "Let's go back to my place, you need sleep."
We stumbled back out of the house and on to the street. Being this close to Jasper was driving me nuts. I breathed him in and my senses were going wild. I didn't know how to control myself.
"Edward!" I turned around to see Alice running after us.
"He's in rough shape" Jasper informed her.
"Want some help?" She seemed to be as sober as Jasper.
"Sure, that'd be nice."
She took my other side and helped to prop me up as we walked.
They talked about me and I only caught a few words between them. Edward. Drinking. Dancing. Kissing. Oh God what were they talking about? I guess I would find out in the morning. I didn't remember much of that walk.
I must have blacked out because the next thing I remembered I was walking out of the elevator with Alice and Jasper still holding me up.
"Hey Guys... I think I got this." They slowly let me go and I was counting the rooms as I stumbled past them. 301. 302. 303. 304. 305. I slumped up against the wall and fell down the wall onto my ass.
"He's really out of it. What did you give him?" Alice asked.
"I think he just found it on his own. I only gave him one drink." Jasper remarked.
They both smiled and laughed; in my general direction. Alice was now at my level and I had no clue how she got down here. I was fading in and out quickly now.
"Text me tomorrow okay darling?" she gave me a kiss on the forehead, waved a good bye to Jasper and headed back towards the elevator.
"Come on Edward we need to get you inside." Jasper said.
"But where is Alice going? I miss her..."
"You can see her tomorrow, okay?"
I agreed and let him help me up so I could get inside. Jasper dug out a key and unlocked the door. He opened it and let me in. We both got in and as soon as we were in, Jasper turned on the lights and took off his shoes. I stood there and after I didn't make a move Jasper started to take my shoes off. He was so adorable. He took of both my shoes, stood up and closed the door. He turned back and faced me.
I wasn't even thinking. I just acted. I pushed him against the door and closed the space between us, our lips met and a shock ran through me again. Jasper put his hands around my ass and pulled me closer. I took it as he wasn't going to argue so I tested my luck and ran my tongue across his bottom lip. He opened his mouth letting me taste him as he moaned into it making me thrust my hips to be closer to him. I grabbed a fistful of his hair and pulled his head closer to mine deepening our kiss. I pulled him farther into the room, tripping over books and bags. He started to take control and pulled us into the direction of his bed. He pushed me into it when we got to the edge and made his way on top of me. I tugged at his shirt as his mouth worshipped my neck. He got the hint and pulled it off. If I thought Jasper was beautiful earlier today, then now was even better. His window was open and moonlight poured in soaking his back, accenting every muscle. I stared at him wondering if there was any part of him that wasn't perfect. I started to pant as he made his way back up my neck and towards my ear, pausing for a moment and then returned to my lips. We moved in unison like we knew every part of each other. But if he was studying me as much as I was him then I guess it made sense. He went back down to my neck and started to mark me. I let moans escape my mouth without my permission. Right now I didn't care who heard us. I was too wrapped up in the feeling of Jasper. His teeth past over my neck and I again raised my hips to be closer to him. He stopped whispered in my ear.
"Edward are you sure? I think you're past drunk and I don't even know if you're serious. Maybe we should wait till the morning.
"No Jas, please." I breathed out. I didn't even know what I was asking for. I wanted more of him, and that's all that I knew.
I started to absent mindedly take my shirt off and Jasper tried to help the effort. He stopped half way up my stomach and just stared. Shit.
He didn't say one word about it. I let out a sigh and he started to talk.
"Edward... what happened? Did this happen tonight?" His voice was pained and barely above a whisper. I hated seeing him like this. He moved off me and I sat up to meet his gaze.
"No, no-t ton-night. My Da-dad." I said clearly still drunk. I could barely get the words out before tears started to fall from my eyes. He pulled me into a hug and ran his fingers into my hair.
Edward, fuckin pull yourself together. I was crying in front of the guy I wanted so bad, and moments ago, I had him. More tears started to come out then. I buried my head into his chest as sobs now rocked through my body. Imagine if Alice saw me like this. He started to get up but I pulled him back down. I shook my head in protest to his leaving.
"I'll be right back Edward. Just stay here."
He left the room and was back in less than a minute with my pyjama bottoms.
"Do you wanna put these on?"
I got up without a word and walked, with the help of the wall to guide me, to the bathroom. Once in the bathroom I looked into the mirror and saw I was a mess. I decided to not look there anymore cause it would only make what I was feeling worse.
I slid off my black jeans and threw on the pyjama's. I walked out of the bathroom and Jasper was there to help me back to the bed. We walked slowly back to the bedroom and he helped me back into the bed. I got in and got closer under the sheets. The bed was warm and really comfortable. He lay down beside me and joined me in the bed. As he lay there I put my head on his chest and he put his arm around me. "Edward?" he whispered.
"Yeah?"
"It'll be okay."
I pressed my body tighter against his.
It took me a long time to fall asleep but finally sleep found me, yet the sleep I fell into was broken and restless.
a/n: that was my first slash writing so I hope I didn't disappoint, and I hope you all liked the longer chapter. Thanks for all the readers who have stayed with me to this point, and thanks for all the support always. It's amazing to hear from you guys, your all my favourites ;)
Much thanks, Xavier Willow
P.S. look for the next update in the next two weeks, maybe sooner if the response is good enough ;)