WARNING: SLASH.
A/N: Hey guys and gals, UPDATE IN FIVE DAYS! I WAS WRITING THIS ONE LIGHTNING FAST : ) I wanna thank everyone again who reviewed or favourited or alerted. As always The updates may start to be a two week thing still.. Sorry, life is attacking me : \
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So without further hesitation, here it is.
Chapter 9
Edward's POV
I awoke with Alice behind me; I rolled unto my other side to see if she was up. Her lips were closed as she breathed silently in and out, causing her chest to move in a systematic pattern. She was clearly still sleeping so I took the liberty of trying to move my body, stretching out and moaning quietly. Slowly my body let go of the sleep that had me in its palms nearly minutes before. I welcomed the new state my body felt but also rejected it seeing as my muscles still ached from the beating I took last night. I reached down and still felt the bandages that Alice had placed on me yesterday, I still felt the cuts underneath the bandages but was aching to get them off. I'd had enough of all the bandages I'd had in the past two weeks, they sucked, and plus they were only reminders of what had happened. To me they were definitely more noticeable that cuts, scars, or bruises. I rolled over again so I was on my side facing the bedside table, there was a clock there with a digital reading of; 10:24pm.
Shit. I had already missed the first period of the day. I laid there wondering if I should even try to get up to go to school or if I should just take another day off.
Another day off. I had made up my mind and I was going to stick to it. I took it upon myself to get up and try to get dressed without waking Alice up, but first I looked out the small window I had in my new room and checked out the weather. It was damp, from the rain last night, but at the same time it was also sunny and bright, few clouds in the sky. The sun shone into the room I had, three walls painted blue, and the one that held the window, was painted white. I walked slowly to my new closet and realized I had no clothing put into it yet so I went to my bag and bent down to grab a shirt and shorts. I took out deodorant and boxers to and set them aside, I then took off Jasper's shirt and grunted a few times as I did it, it was kind of hard trying to dress when all the new bruises hurting so much. I stood there for a bit getting mentally ready before I put my own clothes back on.
Just then I felt a warm pair of hands wrap themselves around my chest.
"Good morning cutie," Alice whispered in my ear. "Need some help?" She had a teasing tone to her voice making me laugh, it felt good to laugh.
"Yes please." I said, defeated.
I raised my arms as Alice put on the other shirt I had set out for myself.
"Thanks." I said smiling, as she ruffled a hand through my hair. I grabbed the deodorant from the side of the bed and put it on, without ease. I then took the rest of my clothes and went to the bathroom to put on my beige shorts, and boxers.
I finished quickly and when I was out of the bathroom Alice already had new clothes on. A cute tank top, white, and jean shorts, her long jet black hair tied back in a pony tail. I stared slightly as my mouth drooped a little. She could seriously be a model.
She caught me in the act and my face lit up red from embarrassment.
"You're green shirt makes your eyes look even better." She commented as she walked past me.
I laughed a little as I went back to my room to put away my laundry. I then thought of Jasper. Fuck, I wish he was here right now. I grabbed his shirt and put it in a special place in my closet. I then looked down at myself, assessing my bruises and injuries. I had a minor bruise near my eye where I was smacked, and where my Dad had hit me a few times. Luckily or unluckily, they were in the almost same place. The only other evidence was the cuts on my arm, I went to look but they were covered by bandages, I then went to pull them off but decided against it seeing as Alice might be mad. So I went out in search of her to try and get rid of them.
I walked into the kitchen to find her making french toast. I smiled then walked up beside her, leaning over, I put my bandaged arm on the counter.
"So when can these come off?" I asked.
"Now if you really want, it was just so the healing process could start and you didn't lose more blood. Like I said, one of those cuts was pretty close to a major vein." She said matter-o-factly.
"Okay," I said smiling, "And are those for me?"
"Yes they are mister."
I smiled and walked to the garbage bag to pull off the bandages. I took off the clips that held them together and placed them on the counter so Alice could use them again, then I took off the bandages and gauze itself. After all the gauze was unrolled I threw it away. Then I looked at the cotton balls that were the last block between me and the scars I didn't really want to see. I looked at them for a second, gaining courage to take them off then finally without hesitating I ripped off the first three. I threw them away and without looking further I ripped the other ones off. I threw them out as well and then looked down slowly. I winced when I saw what they looked like, more so what they reminded me of. Looking at my arm I saw six cuts across my arm, each getting more prominent as they worked their way up from slightly above my wrist. I felt my fingers from my right hand against my left arm, feeling over the bumps that the knife made in my skin. The first cut was small and looked like it was already healing well, the second looked a little worse but not by much, from there to the last was a major difference. The last cut was wide and deep and reached about four inches away from the crease of my elbow; I was shocked by how straight the lines were for someone who was so drunk, not that he made them quick or anything. Touching the lines made all the memories of how painful it was come back, as my father slid the blade across the flesh, not making any motion to finish quickly. Each cut was a slow agonizing pressure.
I was broken from my trance like state when Alice asked if I wanted whip cream on my French toast.
"Sure." I said, forcing a smile.
"Okay." She said a little hesitantly.
We sat down to eat when I noticed that Rose was either still sleeping or was out and that Emmet was probably out too. I knew that Emmet was at work and that Rose may be too.
I looked down at the breakfast Alice made and it honestly looked like it came from a five star restaurant. I sighed thinking how it was unfair that everyone but me could cook, or maybe it was just Alice and Jasper.
"What's wrong?" Alice asked sympathetically.
"It's not fair." I said, not really completing the comment.
"I know bud, but it'll get better, you're at Roses now, and I'm sure you and Jasper will see each other soon." She smiled trying to encourage one out of me.
"No Ali, I mean that I can't cook and you're so good at it." I choose to leave Jasper out for some reason even unknown to me.
She laughed a little and ate some of the food she'd made. I looked down at the food and figured that I mine as well eat something, although I didn't really feel in a mood to. I picked up my fork and ate a bit. My mood darkened a little as I thought more about last night and about Jasper and how he wasn't here and how I so desperately wanted him to be. I ate a little more as I watched Alice finish her plate. I wanted so badly to finish the food in front of me just for Alice, I always thought it was really impolite to not finish the food in front of you when someone offered it to you, so I tried eating more just for her sake. As if she just read my mind Alice said,
"Edward, if you don't have a huge appetite I completely understand, don't worry about finishing it, okay?"
I nodded slightly and pushed the plate in front of me like I was six again. Then I realized how much of a douche I was being and picked the plate up, scraped the leftovers into the garbage, then put the plate in the dishwasher. I saw Alice's eyes widen as she took in my cuts and I was grateful when she didn't say anything about it.
"Thank you for everything Alice," My thanks had a dual meaning which I'm not sure if she picked up on. "It was really good, and... I'm sorry." I looked down at my feet and kicked my right one against my left one a little.
Alice lifted my chin up a little and said, "Don't even worry about it. And you're welcome." She smiled and cleaned up the area we used for breakfast. I walked over to the living room and took a seat on the leather couch, but a seat turned into me sprawled out lying on the couch with my eyes closed. I laid my head on the arm of the couch and it was comfortable for the time being. I racked my brain for something positive to think about and didn't really come up with anything optimistic. I scowled a little as I turned on my side and lifted my legs into a semi-fetal position.
Giving into the urges I had in my brain I thought about Jasper. I usually thought about him only when I was thinking in the subject area but today was different, today I thought of how I would get back to see Jasper. I knew his exams were either coming up soon or going on now so I guess I wouldn't be able to see him until then but I still wanted to figure out a way to see him, so I immediately went to the small desktop computer we had and googled bus fares to the university. All the bus fares seemed to be around $150 for a round trip. I thought that was a little excessive but I also had my car at my parents house that I could use. That's what I decided I would do. I would drive there on the weekends. It wasn't a long drive so I guess it could be done... But how would I explain what I was doing to Rose? Alice and Jasper were the only people who knew... Well they did and I guess anyone who saw me at that huge party. It clicked then; the party was maybe a pre-exam party? Damn it. And Bradley knew now I guess. I chose to forget Bradley and then scrambled my brain for ideas to tell Rose.
After about five minutes of thinking, my brain came up with a grand total, of wait for it. No ideas. I sat back in the chair and heard the door open. I then heard Rose's voice collide with Alice's. Both of them were talking about something so I took the opportunity to walk to the door, put my shoes on, and go for a walk. I closed the door silently and left with my converse shoes out the apartment. I had to clear my head to make room for possible new ideas, so with each new step my head cleared a little more. I then took my time from Rose's place to a local river that was about eight minutes away. I always came here with Rose last year and we both loved it, it was quiet and secluded and not many people knew about it. I walked through town to get to this place that was kind of my own little refuge.
I walked slowly, some might even say sombrely, as I finally cleared my head. I thought of how to tell Rose, because by now I knew it was really the only way I could get to see Jasper. I then stopped right in the middle of an intersection as I realized that Jasper would then probably have to meet Rose. Wait, they already knew each other. What if she was mad?
HONK. "Hey! Get out of the way shithead!" Some older man yelled out his car with a raised fist. I quickly moved to the sidewalk as he drove off.
I cleared my mind of the shock I just had ploughed into me, and then had another realization. Rose was pretty open-minded. Whenever anything really happened Rose was cool with it, so hopefully she would be okay with this.
I arrived at the river and sat down. I took off my converse and slipped my feet in. It was a lot warmer then out at the cabin and I was appreciative of that. I let the water roll over my feet as the sun warmed my back in the mid sky.
Rosalie's POV
I walked in the door chipper, as I dropped the things I got from the farmers market this morning on the floor. I heard Alice approaching and gave her a cheery hello, she did the same and we talked a little. Apparently Edward was currently on the computer looking something up and his mood just recently, as Alice told it, was sombre at best. I grabbed my coat and left to put it in my room as Alice joined me to finish her story of this morning's events.
"He didn't have much of an appetite today." Alice said sadly.
"Yeah... I didn't think he would, his appetite gets affected pretty easily by this stuff."
I took all her stories in and thought I heard the door close, but it could have been my imagination.
We left my room and I looked at the door, Edward's shoes were gone and so I figured he'd gone to the river. Well, I didn't know for sure but that was my best educated guess. Suddenly the phone rang and I walked over to answer it. I didn't recognize the number but I picked up anyways.
"Hello?" I said, kind of curiously.
"Hello, is this Miss Rosalie Cullen?" The person on the phone sounded like a man, mid forties.
"Yes, it is. May I ask whose calling?" I said, somewhat concerned.
"This is police officer Tate. I was told you called last night?" His tone was serious.
"Yes that's correct."
"Well I just wanted to let you know that your father was arrested last night and brought in. He's denying all charges made against him so I may have to come over and interview Edward. He is there with you, isn't he?"
I smiled a little knowing that fucker was where he deserved to be. "Yes well he's out right now but I could have him back in twenty minutes if you wanted to head over?"
"Sure that would be great, thank you Miss Cullen." He sounded sincere.
"You're welcome, and I'll see you soon then?"
"Yes, I'll be over within the hour."
We exchanged good-byes and he hung up the phone. I immediately started to draw out directions on a napkin for Alice. I drew them from the apartment to the river, assuming that's where he was, and I'd better be correct or this cop might be pissed. I handed the directions to Alice.
"Would you be able to go find Edward? I drew you some directions, the cops called and they want to interview him."
"Sure thing." She smiled and left the door.
I then went around the house frantically trying to clean everything up to get ready for this cop, he didn't know how much I appreciated what he was doing so the least I could do was clean up a little. I grabbed my phone before I got too into my cleaning and sent a quick text to Edward,
Edward, the police are coming for some questioning about Dad, they put him in jail last night but there are other things, just hurry home please.
I put my phone down and started to clean. It took about ten minutes before I heard a knock on the door. Shit! As if he was already here. I walked slowly over to the door trying to straighten up. We had no 'peep hole' in the door so I was forced to open the door before I could make sure it was the cop.
The person at the door was definitely no cop, and if he was he hid it very well but the one thing that made me almost positive was the bag he held in his hands. He was about my age with honey blonde hair and crystal blue eyes, wait, what the fuck? Was that Jasper Whitlock? Fuck, I think so.
"Jasper?" I said confused
"Oh." He said, obviously startled, "Yeah, hi Rosalie." He smiled a little.
He hadn't really changed a bit, he was good looking in high school and he still was now. "What are you doing here?" I said, still confused.
He laughed a little and I motioned he come in. "Well Edward was my roommate for the university thing and he forgot his bag there, then the school contacted me for it but I thought I could just bring it. They said they'd pay for packaging and mailing but I'm done exams now so I didn't mind bringing it. But I guess the address I had was wrong because the first house I went to had an erratic lady who looked like she wanted to kill me. But she gave me the address anyways and now I'm here."
I quickly apologized about the lady, knowing very well, it was my own mother and invited him in to sit down.
"So is Edward around?" He asked, seemingly impatient.
"No, he'll be here soon though. This cop is coming by to interview him."
Jasper looked shocked as I told him. "What for?"
We sat down and I started to explain the whole story to him.
Edward's POV
I sat there thinking about Jasper and how life would be almost back to perfect if he was here next to me when Alice pulled up in her car. Her figure glided over to me in the most fluent of ways proving once again that a career in modeling would be an easy choice for her. I looked back down at the river still engulfing my feet as Alice sat down next to me,
"What are you thinkin' bout?" She asked curious.
"Want me to be honest?" I was being kind of rhetorical but she asked anyways.
"Yeah, I do." She was quiet when she spoke, almost understanding without knowing. I knew that she already knew what I was going to say but she probably just wanted me to say it out loud.
"Jasper mainly." I said quietly, then took my head up and looked across the river, at nothing in particular.
"Mainly? What else?"
"Well, I want Jasper here right now, how I led you on and probably let you down, Mya, school, and, the feelings I get around Jasper." I spurted out.
"That's a lot... Well first off you didn't let me down. I'm glad we can still be friends, and I love how I feel like I can tell you everything, I like how you seem to tell me everything, it's just great. I've never really had siblings so it's cool, so don't worry okay?"
I looked up to see Alice's eyes were sincere, it reached into her other features as well. "Okay." I semi-smiled.
"Second... Hmm. Mya will always be at the lake for you and I know that it hurts a lot now but it will get better. I lost my little sister when I was seven... She was five and we were playing on the road and I went to get something from the other side of the road and I came back and she was gone... I never saw her again, she was kidnapped." She looked like she was in a far off place. "It will get better. But I blame myself everyday for her not being found or her being kidnapped in the first place, but it gets bearable."
I thought about Alice's sister and how if she could make it through that then I would probably make it through this. I had hope to hold onto and that was a good thing. I took Alice's hand in a friendly way and held it. It was a silent thank you for her being there for me.
"Let's see... what else... oh right. School; what's going on there?"
"Well, there's this guy Bradley who tried kissing me when he saw how I acted around Jasper and I punched him... and then there's Bella, the school whore who wants me but is into and does it with other guys. I don't really have as many close friends to talk to that everyone assumes."
"Well I'd say ignore them all for now. Maybe find that person in school that you can be good friends with. It would be good to have that someone."
I simply nodded as she continued with other things that were on my list.
"So explain your feelings around Jasper... It might help."
I was nervous at first but took a shot at explaining it to Alice, I thought about it for a few minutes then slowly started to clarify.
"Well, when I see him my heart pounds in my chest... my hands and body start to shake and I get kind of flustered. Then whenever he bumps into me or we touch somehow I get physical sparks where ever we hit. It's like being electrocuted but probably feels way better. It stays with me and then reaches my head and makes me all fuzzy like I just landed in a dream. It's like that shock is my reason for living, my reason to breathe. It's like a super charge on happy emotions." I wanted to explain this so much better to Alice, but I felt like I didn't have to words to describe how perfection could feel following the aftershock of a lightning bolt. I just wanted to show her but I really couldn't. Describing it made me crave it more and now I just wanted Jasper here more, the shock was addictive. It was like a drug that I've needed since birth but couldn't find; and now that I've found it I need to take more than necessary to make up for the years it's been absent from me. That would probably seem silly to anyone else but me right now and for that reason I left that part out of my description.
"Well, that must be a hell of a strong connection you've found." Alice sounded astonished.
"Yeah." It was the only word I could muster.
"I have a confession to make Edward." Alice sounded nervous again. "After hearing that, you'll probably want to kill me but I need to tell you anyways. I was selfish and I don't even deserve an apology but I'm praying that you'll give me one." By now Alice had removed one of her flip-flops and put one foot into the water, making ripples that floated out to touch me.
"Ali I don't think I would be mad at you."
With that in mind Alice spoke the rest of her concerns, "Well I was going to bring Jasper with me but decided not to. I was too curious of what you said you wanted to talk to me about so I thought you wouldn't if Jasper was here so I just came alone instead. I'm so sorry, I know you want to see him right now... and I feel terrible."
When she was done, Alice wouldn't even look at me, she stared down at her leg making small circles in the water below us. Her hand was still intertwined with mine and I gave it a squeeze.
"It's okay Alice. I'm not going to forgive you though."
She looked up and looked something short of terrified.
"Oh Edward, I'm sorry, I'm so sor-" I cut her off while she was talking.
"Alice. I can't forgive you because you didn't do anything wrong." I forced a small smile. "If it's anyone's fault it's mine. I left you after telling you we would talk later, then I took too long with Jasper-" Saying his name left tingles on my tongue. "-And then left you wondering what I said without a good bye even. So I'm sorry."
Alice leapt up and wrapped her arms around me in a hug that seemed to last forever. "Thank you so much Edward."
Our hug was disrupted by a buzzing in my pocket, coming from my phone, indicating a new text message from Rose,
Edward, the police are coming for some questioning about Dad, they put him in jail last night but there are other things, just hurry home please.
I looked up at Alice with a smile on my face.
"What?" She said curious.
"My dad's in jail."
"Oh yeah... I forgot to tell you that. We need to get you back, come on."
Her face became impossibly red and she stood up, pulling me to get up so we could get in her car and go.
We climbed in and she drove back to Rose's perfectly, not once taking out directions, getting there in under four minutes.
"Wow Ali, I'm impressed, it's like you have this city memorized."
"Just a good memory." She said, poking a finger to the side of her head.
As we went to go inside something hit me so we stayed sitting in the car and I questioned about it,
"Alice, did you finish all your exams or are they on right now?"
"We finished them about the end of April Edward." She laughed. "Why?"
"Well then why were you and Jasper there at the campus?" I was beyond confused right now.
"Well Jasper probably stayed to help out with the event thing and I stayed because my family was visiting. They stayed with me until you guys came, that's actually where I was coming from when you ran into me coming back to the dorm, I was coming back from saying goodbyes to them."
It all clicked now. "So how did you guys bring me to classes?"
"Well there are spring and summer classes to help students get caught up, so they probably brought you to those ones."
"So was Jasper supposed to go back after the thing was done? Like back home?" I asked sheepishly.
"Yeah I think he was going to go to the coast for the summer to his family's summer home."
My face dropped as I got up and left the car. Alice noticed but didn't say anything.
As we got to Rose's place Alice went in first, opting to go to the living room and then Rose and a tall man, somewhat muscular, greeted me at the door. He looked all kinds of official in his police uniform and he was no young man, probably about mid forties.
"Hello, you must be Edward." He spoke.
"Yes, hello." I answered with a soft tone.
"Would you mind if I asked you and your sister a few question's out in the hall?"
"Sure."
I let out a sigh before the officer, Rose, and I exited back into the hall.
Alice's POV
I walked past Rosalie as Edward was already being bombarded with questions by the police officer, who, had just gave me the once over as I headed into the apartment past him. I walked into the living room and felt my jaw drop as I took in the person who was sitting on the couch across the room.
"Well I'll be damned." I said.
"Me too darlin'." Jasper said, adding a little more southern drawl than usual.
I walked over to him slowly, almost like in the dorm. "I'm sorry. I should've just let you know about where I was going and why; I should've told you the situation Edward was in." I listened to the apartment and realized we were alone. "He wanted to tell me something in private when he was there on his last day and he left to see you instead so I figured the only way he would tell me was if I was here alone."
He nodded taking everything in. "And did you two talk?" He asked quietly.
"Yeah." I said. "He told me a lot about you. You're pretty lucky you know?"
Jasper became seriously confused as I said this.
"Last night there was a thunderstorm and he told me he didn't like them." Jasper nodded. "The whole time he was asleep he was saying your name, he was still pretty scared. He thinks an awful lot of you, so you better not break his heart Jasper Whitlock." He looked down slightly embarrassed and nodded again.
"He actually said my name?"
"Yeah, a lot." I said sternly.
"Oh."
We sat there for a good ten minutes before I heard the door open and then close with just the sound of Rosalie and Edward flooding the room again.
"Go hide in his room." I suggested, and playfully winked.
Edward's POV
The officer was nice enough but he didn't really do a lot of questioning. He basically examined all my bruises and injuries, there was no real bad bruising but the cuts were very noticeable. He recorded all of them and took a few pictures for records and then asked about previous assaults. I told him everything about the past month and all the times before, hoping it would help. He recorded all of them in a small notebook and when all was said and done, thanked us for our time and left the hall. Rose and I walked back in and I took my shoes off finally. I realized that I had only been up for a short while but I was still kind of tired so I walked into the living room and sprawled out on the couch. Rose walked in after me and a look of confusion spread on her face.
"What's wrong Rose?" I asked.
"Well where's -"
Alice cut her off by saying I should go to my room if I was really tired. I was going to protest and ask what was going on but I didn't really have the energy to put in the effort, nor did I care at the time. I just wanted Jasper. I walked out of the living room leaving Alice laughing and Rose still confused, starring at her. I once again didn't question it and walked into the room and flopped down on my bed, face first. I lied there on my stomach for maybe twenty seconds before I heard footsteps beside my bed.
"I'm trying to sleep, go away." I mumbled into my pillow.
I felt the figure lean over the bed and into my space, breathing on my neck.
"Seriously go away." I mumbled again.
"Are you sure?" A voice whispered to me.
I rolled around unto my back as quick as I could to see Jasper over top of me. I lit up instantly grabbing him around the shoulders pulling him closer to me, holding him tight. I breathed in his scent and it drove me wild. I felt like I could almost feel my eyes darken with lust. Every nerve in my skin felt like a live wire. I looked back at him and took in his features. I had them committed to memory already but scraped my eyes over him anyways. My heart was beating almost out of my chest as Jasper hovered over top of me. The electricity was back but in all my features and it felt like I was on the biggest high known to mankind. I reached up, using my elbows for support and kissed him softly, letting my eyes close. I felt my lips move against his and I felt at home again. I had never felt so whole as when I was with Jasper. His tongue slowly left a trail of burning fire along my bottom lip as I greedily opened up to accept him. Our tongues clashed and felt along each other and I was in ecstasy. I lost myself in him as the room around us disappeared. I poured all the love and want I had in me for him, into this kiss. We broke for air and the next kiss was more rough, more need than desire. By now Jasper felt like air to me. His hand felt its way up my side as I pulled him closer to me, the feeling of our bodies near each other adding more fuel to the passion between us.
There was a knock on the door and Jasper immediately got off of me licking his lips and smiling wickedly in the process.
I was going to kill whoever was knocking on that door.
"Want lunch Edward? Jasper?" It was Rose. She was dead walking.
"Sure." We both called out, Jasper in a happy-go-lucky voice and me in a moody sombre voice.
I couldn't help it if I was so pissed at her. She interrupted and I owned the right to be mad. Jasper leaned over and kissed me once more, chastely on the lips,
"Let's go help."
I got off the bed and as Jasper was going to open the door I pushed it closed from behind him. He turned around to say something but I caught his lips in another kiss.
"I miss you too." He said.
I smiled and we went to help Rose.
She was making some kind of salad and sandwich kind of thing so I figured I'd let Jasper help knowing I was seriously going to be no good.
"I would love to stay but I have to get going." Alice announced.
I walked her to the door with her things and she kissed me on the forehead.
"Text me and let me know how things go, okay?"
I hugged her tightly and nodded.
We said goodbyes and she left out the door. I turned back and went to the kitchen to help Rose and Jasper, well supervise anyways. Jasper and Rose were almost done so I figured that maybe my supervision wouldn't be necessary today. So I took a seat and watched, mainly Jasper's ass, as they made the rest of lunch.
When lunch was all ready, Jasper and Rose sat down and we all started to eat. They salad was a ten and so were they sandwiches, well you couldn't even call them that; it was more like bistro style cuisine. Damn Jasper and his irresistible cooking skills. I took a bite of the bistro sandwich and moaned a little as it exploded with flavour in my mouth. I loved how Jasper could make anything taste good.
We finished lunch quicker than I thought, probably due to my constant eating without saying a word, so Jasper and I cleaned up then left the building to go for a walk, and for some alone time. I wouldn't admit it but I missed Jasper a lot. I don't care if it had only been one day, it still was one long ass day.
Jasper and I walked out of the apartment and into the fresh air. We walked for about ten minutes before arriving at a park that was operated by the city. The grass was a brilliant green and it looked freshly cut. I stared down at the newly landscaped park and smiled. I had memories in abundance of coming here with Rose and I was glad I would have a new one, here with Jasper.
"So how are you doing?" Jasper asked cautiously.
"I'm actually doing great." I answered honestly.
"Edward... Rosalie told me all about your Dad and Mya." He paused a little most likely going back over it in his mind again. "Here, let me see." He reached out a hand, nodding his head to indicate he wanted to see my arm. When I finally let go of my relenting emotions, he took my arm in his hands and winced when he saw the cuts.
We both stood there in silence as he examined my arm.
It took me by surprised to hear the sadness in Jasper's voice as he spoke,
"I should've been there... this isn't fair."
His head was hanging down over my arm and I pulled him back up softly by his chin. "It's okay Jasper. Really. My Dad is in jail now and he won't be out for a long time, so don't worry." I looked into his clear, morning sky eyes and sighed a little. He still looked upset and it bothered me that he didn't believe me. I leaned in carefully and let my lips gently graze his, igniting more sparks between us. It was hard for me to pull away but as soon as I felt reality slowly flood back in I realized what I had just done.
"I'm sorry Jas, I'm so sorry." I felt panic rush into my features as we started to sit down. Jasper looked puzzled as he sat down cross legged in front of me. I looked into his eyes again and this time he was puzzled.
"Why are you sorry? If anything I should be thanking you for that." He laughed a warm laugh that made me want to be wrapped up in his arms. His laugh was like the sun to me, clearing away the grey skies. I smiled a little but started to explain,
"Jasper, I kind of just attacked you... in public." I spoke with a shy tone that I didn't really intend. He shrugged his shoulders and let out a small huff, a motion that seemed to signify that he didn't really care.
I reached my arms over and hugged him, "Thank you." I whispered in his ear. He nodded and then we resumed our original seats.
"So I'm going to assume you'll be back at your sister's for the rest of the summer?" He asked excitedly.
"Yeah I guess that's the plan. You don't have exams anymore do you? So where will you be?" I rushed out the question wanting to know the answer to it as soon as I could. I couldn't, or didn't want to live without Jasper anymore. I know that was selfish but I couldn't change how I felt, it was like he was part of me now, and that, I surely wasn't about to alter.
"Yeah I was going to go to my parents summer house on the coast, it's an older house but it's actually really nice, and it's on a beach, and I was..." He trailed off leaving me with a mad lib to fill in.
"And you were what?" I encouraged.
His face reddened before he spoke,
"I was wondering if you'd wanna live out there with me this summer, my parents only come out for weekends and I have the place to myself and... It might get lonely, not saying that that's the only reason I want you there it's just I-"
I put my hand up, even though it was cute that he was so worried, although I wouldn't want to do anything else with my summer than be with him, where ever that was. I thought about how we could wake up in the morning on the beach, how I could attempt making pancakes for him and how much I loved the water.
"Of course I would want to Jasper. What the hell else would I do with my summer?" I mocked his earlier nonchalant attitude, and we both laughed.
"Well now that that's settled, I wanted to ask you to do something with me next, well actually this weekend. I know you've kind of done it before but not the way I do it." A smile spread across his face as he tried to tell me what he had planned.
"Anything, name it and I'm yours." I smiled back as his grew to fit his whole face and then some. I brushed my hands along the grass and today, I didn't feel like ripping it out by the fistful; it was a good feeling.
"Camping. I want to go and bring you camping but with tents, in the wilderness, kind of. This weekend, I'll pick you up on Friday and then we can go from there." His smile never faded from his face.
"That's a great idea! I'd love to!" I had never gone camping and I was beyond excited. In fact I was probably ecstatic. I couldn't hold in my emotions that were over coming me. I loved how Jasper blushed when he asked me things and how much he cared. I jumped from my spot on the grass and tackled him to the ground. My breath was coming out in pants mixed with laughter as I tried to regain my normal breathing over top of him.
"I'll take this as you're excited?" Jasper laughed, pinned underneath me.
"Very." I said rolling off him and unto the grass. It felt nice against my arms and skin. I felt a sense of relief wash over me and suddenly I was tranquil. I would never understand how he could do that to me, bring me out of the worst and make me feel my best.
"It's getting late, we should get you back." He was right, Jasper the punctual, had noticed that the sun in the sky was now setting and that it would soon be dark. I hadn't realized how long we had been lying there in the grass until he mentioned it.
"If we really have to." I sighed out dramatically.
"Yes, we need to, just so you can get sleep to be able to think at school tomorrow, just so you can pass maybe." He winked and I felt a chill run down my spine causing me to sigh again. The things he made me feel were unreal, and I wondered if he actually felt them too.
We arrived back at Rose's just before the sun set. Jasper had already had his keys in his pocket so I walked him to his truck so he could leave. He got in and the scent of the truck bellowed out and barrelled into me. It smelt a lot like Jasper and that made me realize how much I missed it. I pulled him back out of the truck awkwardly and pulled him into hug him. I let my head fall into his shoulder and then breathed in. He still smelt the same and it caused me to blackout all my other senses while I took him in. I let him go regrettably and he got back in laughing. I stood leaning against the passenger side door, arms crossed entering his open window, as Jasper started the engine.
"I gotta go cowboy." He said with a smile. It was a warming smile with a tinge of sadness.
"Alright." I breathed out.
"Your bag is inside okay? Don't forget to unpack it." Jasper winked and I leaned in to kiss him softly one more time before he had to go.
With that he backed out of the parking lot and drove off. I stood there in the parking lot awkwardly as he drove away. Once he was out of sight I left the lot and went back up to the apartment.
I walked up the stairs quickly and opened the door to Rose's apartment; it was nice to hear Emmet's voice along with Rose in the living room. I was in the best mood I had been in for a long time when I came into the living room, I'm sure it was emitting from me in waves right now, because they started to smile.
"What's with you?" Emmet asked laughing.
"Nothing." I smiled hugely and walked back into my room to find my bag I had brought to Jasper's on my bed. I slowly started to unpack it when I realized, to my great pleasure, everything smelt like Jasper.
I slowly put all the folded clothes back into their appropriate spaces and then reached in for the last item of clothing. I pulled it out then found a small slip of paper at the bottom. I flipped it over and found a ten digit number, area code included, on it. My heart leaped as I saw Jasper's name scrawled across the top.
I immediately ran to my phone to type in the number and save it in my contacts.
I stared at it a while before actually registering what to do with it. I looked at the number in my phone and started a new text message. I wrote four different messages before I found one that I actually stuck with.
Hey cowboy : )
I sent the message as my hands started to shake. I looked at the clock,
One minute,
Two minutes,
Three minutes,
Each time the clock's long hand went in a three sixty motion once my heart leapt again, waiting for the message I didn't know was coming. I was an anxious wreck as I waited in my bed as patiently as I could, tapping me feet to keep from exploding.
I jumped about ten feet in the air as I heard my phone's familiar buzz, rattling right in front of me. I took the phone in my hands and looked at the message, it was from Jasper and I opened the message over and over. It read,
Get to bed, you gotta be good for when I get you on Friday ;)
I looked at the message and replied with a quick,
Fine, night : )
I got a response within thirty seconds this time and a smile was smeared onto my face involuntarily.
Night love : )
My heart was exploding right now with an emotion I couldn't even begin to describe. I jumped off my bed and plugged my phone into the charger. I went to the bathroom and hurriedly brushed my teeth as I rushed back to my room. I changed into pyjama pants and the shirt I had from Jasper. I breathed in and the scent coming off of the shirt was almost intoxicating.
I laid there face down as moonlight poured in through window and splattered patterns across my back. I thought of three things, and nothing else. I thought of school, Jasper, and camping, in no particular order. I thought of how school was going to be in the morning. I thought of how Bella was going to be there, I hadn't gotten a text or call from her for a while so that was good, but that's usually how it went, ignored and then when she saw me, she'd be all over me. As for Bradley he probably try and attack me in a private place tomorrow so I made a mental note to stay in view of at least one teacher tomorrow, at all times.
I thought of camping next, I'd never been tenting so I was unbelievably excited about getting a chance to. Even more excited that Jasper was there, I decided I was going to teach him the fine art of sand castle crafting.
Lastly I thought of Jasper, nothing in particular, but again, just the little things. The things that made me feel good, the things that made him blush, and the things I couldn't live without; the things that felt like my own necessary intake of oxygen. I fell asleep that night, for once, in a tranquil atmosphere, filled with my own personal type of oxygen.
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