SLASH, still, and not stopping.

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"Well, if we aren't going this weekend... then I thought that maybe... I could maybe... take you out on a date?"

My heart sank into my chest.

Chapter 11

Edward's POV

He looked up and the expression on his face was one of excitement and uncertainty.

I then looked down at my feet, unable to actually look into his celestial blue eyes. My stomach was turning in ways I hadn't known until now. This time right now, felt right. He didn't have to force these feelings on me and I for sure wasn't forcing them either. I was taken by surprise and I think instead of sinking, my heart was actually falling off a cliff into an endless pit. Basically like the adrenaline rush you get when on a roller coaster, that's the feeling that consumed my every being. My arms and legs vibrated with the same rush as my heart pounded in my chest like an African drum. A smile spread onto my face and I rushed to wrap my arms around his waist. He instantly laughed and hugged me back. Then I interrupted his perfect laugh as I crushed my lips against his, eagerly pressing my body closer to his. It felt like a lightning bolt had just crashed through me, setting all my nerves off, causing me to pull him closer.

This kiss once again wasn't like the others, I was still on my adrenaline rush and I felt for Jasper everywhere. I pulled him closer to me as we bumped into things. I fisted my hand in his hair as he breathed a moan into my neck.

We ended up in the middle of the hallway near the front door as Jasper pushed me lightly up against the wall. His teeth brushed against my ear as he breathed a strangled, "So what do you say?"

I sucked on his bottom lip then trailed my tongue in a small line to his ear, whispering, "Definitely." He pulled me tighter against him as I felt the smile spread across his lips. We stood there for a few minutes as I rested my head on his shoulder.

"You should go to bed, you've got school in the morning." He whispered to me.

Sadly I couldn't have proved his point any better if I actually tried by actually yawning into him.

"Bed time cowboy." He said in his southern drawl. I yawned a second time and then nodded.

"One condition." I muttered out.

"And what's that?" His voice sounded like a soothing wave on a warm day. In that moment I was brought back to the day we spent at the beach and sighed.

"Sleep over?" I looked up at him, my eyes hopeful.

"Are you sure?" He asked cautiously. "I don't wanna..." I pushed my palm up to his mouth not allowing him to talk anymore.

"I'm positive actually." I lifted my hand and the mouth that I covered prior was almost a frown but was properly replaced with another trademark smile. I gently pressed my lips against him, and this time his hand fisted in my hair. I smiled as I playfully teased his tongue with my own.

Click.

Creak.

Crap.

"Damn it." I whispered it in a slow and dragged out way into Jasper, my lips broke from his and my head landed on his shoulder. I let my eye lids droop closed.

I heard them standing there at the door and didn't know what to say. Fuck me. This must be even worse for Jasper. Fuck. Maybe if I pretend they didn't see anything then maybe it would be okay. Maybe I would look up and realize that I just imagined it. Then again Jasper and I were in pretty... compromising positions. There wasn't a thing that I could think of in terms of an excuse that would involve Jasper having me pinned against the wall with his fist in my hair, my body being voluntarily pressed into him, and our mouths locked together.

I gave up on trying to explain anything and let it all go. I gave out a sigh and within a minute Rose and Emmet, still standing in the open door, also let out something resembling a sigh. I leaned into Jasper's shoulder and breathed in, feeling my face completely heat up as we got out of our rather suggestive positions.

"So... how is studying going?" Rose asked in a quite but most certainly awkward way.

"Ya Rose... Jasper and I are kind of... together." I said this into Jasper's shoulder, making sure to keep my eyes closed. Anxiety curled up in the pit of my stomach like a kitten, clawing from the inside out. I felt really exposed right now, feeling like my deepest secrets were being put on display for everyone. Of course I wasn't embarrassed of Jasper, but I was however scared of not being accepted.

"Edward? Can I talk to you in the living room for a second?." Rose said in the same quite voice.

This was clearly awkward for everyone involved but then again I guess it was good that this was out there. It was also going to have to be talked about sooner or later so I guess we were now deciding on sooner...

"I know." I said.

Rose and Emmet walked past Jasper and I and went to take seat in the living room.

I looked down trying to think about everything going on. Trying to figure out a game plan in my head, something to say, but I was dumbfounded when I came up with nothing. I didn't know what I was going to say and my mind was running at a hundred miles an hour. How would I explain that Jasper was everything to me now, how I didn't want to live without him and how he made everyday worth living? How would I be able to tell her that he was my everything? I was made conscious of my involuntary shaking when Jasper grabbed my hand and entwined it with his. It seemed like my world revolved around him, and I was just all too happy to let it. He pulled my chin up with his other hand and lightly placed his lips against mine. My eyes closed involuntarily again as I poured all my love for him into this kiss. It ended all too soon and I rested my forehead against his.

Jasper let his lips trail down to my ear and whispered, "It'll be okay."

"Are you sure?" I sighed out my concern.

"Well you're here, so for me it'll be okay." I looked up at him and he had his signature grin on his face as he winked at me. The smile I bore on my face caused him to let out a small laugh. I couldn't believe that he felt that way. I must've looked like an eight year old kid on his birthday.

"Let's go talk this over with your sister, okay?" I nodded and we left the hallway and stepped into the living room.

Jasper sat down on the loveseat and I sat next to him. Somehow, my body found its way to Jasper's side as I nuzzled closer to him. His body was warm against mine and it felt like a security blanket wrapped around me, I definitely felt safer and more at home with Jasper by my side.

"So..." Rose was already starting this awkwardly, so I thought, maybe I could just talk, or at least start. Jasper wasn't leaving and that comforted me, allowing me to just say what I needed to with an ease I never knew existed.

"Rose?" I asked, attempting to gain her attention.

She was still thinking in her mind, as I could tell, so my interjection caused her to look up somewhat baffled. "Yeah?"

"I'm bisexual, actually probably gay; but seriously I'm not really concerned with labels if we're being honest here." I said it flat out without any hesitation. It felt odd to finally say it but they were just words, and if by saying these words that meant I could stay with Jasper then I would basically say any combination of words, no matter what they really meant.

"Okay..." She was still a little confused. I myself was wondering what there was to actually talk about in regards to this whole thing. I like Jasper, Jasper liked me. What else was there to it that needed to be talked about?

"So... How long?" She asked. Her and Emmet sat together on the couch, hands entwined.

"I'm not really sure, maybe three months, maybe two." I didn't know how to explain lengths of time anymore. There was time when I was with Jasper and time when I wasn't. Other than that, months didn't really matter, neither did weeks or days.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?" Rose asked with a touch of sadness.

"It's not like I have cancer or something Rose. It's not a huge deal." I started to get defensive and Jasper noticed it. He cautiously placed a hand on my leg, warning me to calm down a little.

"Edward, I just wanted to know, you don't have to get mad, I just wanted to be there for you, let you know that Emmet and I are cool with everything." Apparently Rose noticed too.

"Thanks." I said roughly. I sat up and walked back down the hall to my room, expecting Jasper to follow.

I lunged onto my bed and covered my head in my pillow. I didn't know why I was acting like this. I just didn't feel like myself for a second. It was just Rose and Emmet, A.K.A. family you douche bag. I felt bad immediately and regretted my cocky response. I honestly felt like a girl with too many hormones. I gave a big huff into my pillow, feeling beyond frustrated with myself.

_._._

I woke up to hear footsteps coming towards the bed, a weight bringing the pillow down, and a hand on my back. I hadn't even realized I'd fallen asleep.

"I'm sorry Edward." It wasn't the voice I expected but it was Rosalie's who spoke now. "I guess I should've just told you I was okay with everything and let it be. There was no reason to have a talk, or whatever. We should've just, I don't know. I'm happy for you. Jasper's awesome. You feel asleep and..." Rose looked incredibly embarrassed. "We kind of, well, we... asked... well kind of just interrogated him."

I gave a half asleep glare to Rose. She looked sheepish as she shrugged her shoulders,

"Emmett approves if that helps at all?" She tried smiling.

Emmett approves? Well... I guess that was a good sign. Rosalie's smile spread onto my face and I laughed a little, pulling her into a hug.

"Thanks." I whispered.

"No problem, that's what we're here for." She gave me a slight wink. "Now its midnight though so maybe you should get changed out of these clothes and go back to sleep."

I nodded, my brain still muffled with slumber. Rose got off the bed and started to leave the room. "Rose?" My voice still sounded a little rough but she quickly turned around to face me. "Is Ja-?"

"Yes Edward, he's welcome to stay here. He and Emmett are just talking; he'll be in any minute."She laughed a little and walked out of the room.

Knowing Jasper was still here gave me a comfort that I hadn't known before. It wasn't even something huge, just the fact that he would stay was enough for me. I got up awkwardly from my bed and went over to my dresser to find some pajamas but opted for boxers and a t-shirt instead. I threw my worn clothes into a laundry basket and quickly put on a pair of solid, light blue boxers and the shirt of Jasper's which I'd never given back. I turned off my bedroom light and crawled back into bed, fighting off sleep so I could say good night to Jasper.

My eyes were almost closed when he entered the room. I rolled over on my side and watched as he walked up towards the bed, "Hi Jas." I said smiling sleepily.

"Hey, you should be sleeping." He smiled back at me and stripped down to his boxers and his t-shirt. I lifted up the sheets for him as an invitation to jump in and he gladly accepted, crawling over me to place himself facing my back. His warmth was beyond comforting. I had been having nightmares frequently and I felt like tonight I wouldn't even come close to having one disturb me. Jasper's arm held me closer, I wouldn't admit it but I loved his protective side. The way his breath hit my neck as he nuzzled closer was becoming increasingly distracting. Instead of counting sheep the good ol' fashioned way I began counting them in terms like,

One sheep. Breathe.

Pine Sheep. Shiver.

Cotton Candy Sheep. Exhale.

I put the sheets back on and slowly tried to allow sleep start to creep up on me, yet Jasper was continuing to be distracting so I was getting no where.

That's when I felt it.

His fingers slowly traced small patterns across my skin, leaving light trails of fire along my arm. I never told him this but this, beyond anything else, this was my major weakness. It was the one thing that drove me wild, feral even. I shivered under his touch, causing him to continue his trail of light touches up my arm, leaving me in my lustful pains of ecstasy. I swear I could feel him smiling on my neck, as I writhed underneath his finger tips. They trailed back down my side and as he slowly lifted my shirt, ran across my abdomen.

I pushed into his touch and let out a groan, one that came up from the depths of my very being. He kissed along my earlobe learning my sensitive spots faster than I had time to react to them. "Jasper..." I breathed out. "So good... more... please..." I didn't know what I was begging for but it was something that I knew only Jasper could give me. I defiantly rolled over to his side, crushing my lips against his. His tongue tasted like sweet honey mixed with exotic fruit. I couldn't help but crave more of him. His velvet tongue swirled with mine causing me to involuntarily let out a moan that urged him to continue, which he all too happily did. Turning completely selfish I rolled on top of him, not caring who walked in the room. The cat was already out of the bag, it didn't matter what anyone saw now. I pushed myself between his thighs longing for more friction as my erection pressed against the fabric restraining it.

I pushed against Jasper and caught his length rubbing up against my own, sending me into an abyss of pleasure. My head fell into the crook of his neck and I inhaled his scent deeply, he smelt woodsy like a hiking trail in mid October. He quickly caught my lips in his and dragged his tongue over my bottom lip, begging for entrance. When it came to Jasper, any kind of begging he did was something I was incapable of denying. He was too, influential, to ignore. I teased him and instead of opening up to him, forced my lips along his neck. I slid my tongue along his jawbone leading to his ear, whispering into it,

"You taste so good baby." He let out a groan and bucked his hips, the feeling of collapsing from pleasure washed over me in waves as he slid himself against me. I let go and fell onto his chest, breathing in and out heavily as Jasper's finger casual entwined themselves into my hair. I didn't want to go too far yet so I slowly backed off from my high and curled farther into him. I revelled in the feeling and hummed into his chest happily. I slowly came down from my high and Jasper laughed a little as I sighed into him. My whole body felt complete with Jasper there. My head rest gently on his chest as his arms wrapped themselves carefully around me. My breathing evened out and the room darkened, as I was embraced in Jasper's soothing warmth how could I begin to even fathom a nightmare? Tonight, I could only dream.

_._._

"Oatmeal?" The words left my lips groggily before I even knew I consciously spoke them. The smell of oatmeal filled the room, accompanied by oranges, brown sugar, and... vanilla. I was in love with the smell of vanilla and it dominated my sense of smell happily. I brought my hands up to my eyes and rubbed them vigorously trying to get all sleep out of them. I opened my eyes to find the best thing to wake up to right in front of me. Jasper sat there in front of me smiling widely with a bowl of oatmeal and a glass of orange juice.

"Are you opposed to breakfast in bed?" His lopsided grin spread from his face to mine as he placed the oatmeal in front of me. The fumes from the oatmeal spread up into the air between us. He brushed a strand of hair out of his eyes and I smiled. I loved when he did that, it was just really fucking adorable.

"Why do I smell vanilla?" I questioned.

Jasper's face looked worried, "Damn, do you not like oatmeal? I can make you something else..."

"Jasper it's perfect." I smiled at him and he shifted out of his tense position into a more comfortable one by laying across the end of the bed.

"Try it." He suggested. I took the oatmeal in a spoon and put some in my mouth, and the subtle hints of vanilla made me slightly moan, blushing when I realized what I'd done. I looked at Jasper expecting him to laugh but all I saw was darkened eyes full of wanton desire.

I looked down and grabbed my bowl, slipping out of bed casually. As much as I wanted to, I had to go to school first. I took another spoonful of oatmeal and ingested it. I started dressing and could feel Jasper's eyes on my back as I changed t-shirts. I finished the oatmeal quickly and gathered my things up for school, heading to the door, which was suddenly blocked by Jasper, the same look in his eyes.

"Later Jas, I have to go to school." I teasingly brushed my lips against his and walked past a very confused Jasper.

I grabbed my shoes, said a quick good bye and was out the door, heading to school.

_._._

My locker closed with a harsh slam and found Bella standing on the other side of it.

"Hey sexy." She leaned up against the wall of lockers and pushed her chest out a bit trying to attempt being seductive. I honestly thought Jasper yawning was sexier than anything she was attempting right now. She looked at me through hooded eyes and her hair fell shining chocolate brown, one loose strand covering her eye.

I turned without a word and headed to my first period English class. The halls were packed with students all going to their own classes, and as I pushed through them I was excited to finally get to the class I was assigned to.

I walked into class and was surprised to see Bradley sitting, mocking a smile, beside the seat I usually took in class. I walked near the back of the room, passing two black boards and a few students. The light seemed brighter in the class today considering the rain that fell on the outside of the window pane, the clouds blocking all natural light.

I sat down expecting the worst. "Hey." He said casually.

"I punched you in the face and all you have to say to me is 'hey'?" He looked slightly confused. "Bradley in case my fist hadn't made it clear enough we aren't getting together, ever, then I guess I'll just have to say it, we're not getting together." He looked discouraged but not technically beaten. I would never understand why he wouldn't give up.

I'd never have given up on Jasper.

This seemed different though. "Well one day...?"

"No, Bradley." I wasn't going to budge on this.

"Students! Now that I have your attention I would like to inform you that exams start Friday! Two days from now. Friday. Any questions?"

I looked down and wondered how the heck I would study for English. We had to write an essay on Hamlet and I had no idea how to study, I knew the play back and forth but other than that I guess I was set. I decided to text Alice and make plans to study other things,

Alice, wanna help me study biology this weekend?

I waited for a response as Bradley ogled me with his eyes. I looked up to realize that the teacher had already taken the liberty to write today's assignment on the board, Exam Prep.

Prepping for this exam was next to pointless so I decided to break out some biology instead. My biology exam was on the Monday coming up and I felt, like I felt for all my exams, oddly unprepared. I pressed my head to the desk in hopes that Alice would respond sooner rather than later. I thought to myself silently that if Jasper was in town at all this weekend I would surely fail every subject.

"So Cullen..." Bradley started. "Wanna study together this weekend? My parents are out of town."

A/N: Not really a cliffy for this chapter but just a little something for Edward here to consider, don't know when the next will be up but I'm sure it will be up soon (Hopefully by mid February?) Review please and thanks everyone for reading and staying with me this far, it means a lot. :)