Find Forgiveness Within You
Disclaimer: I do not own glee, but if I did blaine would totally be with Rachel.
Enjoy the second chapter. I wont be able to update as often, but if I get lots of feedback, then I will.
A/N: Please, R&R !
Chapter 2: Victimize Your Enemy xD
Rachel wakes up to a sun-filled room and realizes she's not in her studio apartment, but at home with the people she ran from. Her mom comes in and sits at the foot of the bed. No one says a word for a good minute. The silence became too much to bear.
"Mom, I'm sorry about last night." She says softly.
Shelby looks at her grown baby girl and says, "Rach, I'm sorry for trying to dictate the way you deal with your issues. I just worry sometimes."
She hugs her mom and whispers, "I know, mom. I know."
After they talk for an hour, Rachel decides to go to the park. At the park, she sees kids running around giggling with no care in the world. She knows that their lives will change forever when they grow up. Watching them makes her envious.
She walks over to an open swing and sits down. Kicking her legs back and forth, she glides in the air and she hears her own giggles though they sound foreign to her ears. She can't remember the last time she laughed so much. Swinging put her mind at ease and she allowed herself to be a kid for a while longer.
When she finally stopped swinging, the sun was setting and the park was deserted. Though it was getting dark, she stays a while longer. She lays down on the slide and looks up at the sky, waiting for the stars to come out. The stars always reminded her that she wasn't alone.
Looking up at the stars, she drifted down Blaine and Rachel Lane. They fell so hard, so fast and didn't even care. With that accidental kiss, she found her other half. He never loved any girl until her.
Those beautiful nights at this same exact park, this park was their s. They signed their names on the slides to mark their territory, their haven. He used to get lost in the stars and she'd watch his beautiful face until he noticed her. Their love, though immature was stronger than most.
"I remember those nights like they were yesterday. I come here to think about you." Blaine says quietly, breaking her from her trance.
"Well, I was just leaving."
He blocks her route and pleads, "Please, Rachel. Let me explain."
"Explain what? Explain how you decided to marry Brittany? What do you have to explain?" She shouts furiously.
"Rach, you know what I'm talking about. You never let me apologize and you never let me explain that night. You ran and left me here to figure things out on my own." He says with a shaky tone.
She walks past him and he grabs her wrist. "Let me go, Blaine. I'm not going to do this with you."
He pulls her back to face him. "You never want to deal with any of your problems. I'm sorry, Rachel. I really am, but I am not sorry for loving Brittany. When you ran away, you abandoned me and at first I thought, you had a right to be angry, but then years past and you never came back. I know we made promises, but you broke them when you left. Brittany picked me up when I fell."
Rivers flow from her eyes and she wipes her tears rapidly. "Blaine, please, just let me go. I don't want to talk about this."
He releases her wrist and she dashes away, leaving him with tears. His heart kept screaming for him to go after her, but his brain told him to go to Brittany. He listened to neither and stayed at the park. Seeing her again felt like the first time he looked at her really looked at her.
Brittany lay in bed waiting for Blaine to make an appearance as usual, but as the minutes turn to hours, she falls asleep. Rachel coming back to town was bittersweet for her. She missed her so much, but she worried that Blaine might leave her for Rachel.
She wakes up to find that she's alone. Blaine never came and she would be more worried, but she knew that freaking out would only push Blaine towards Rachel. He was her life and the thought of losing him was unbearable. There would be no life without him.
She takes a hot shower and gets ready to go over to Rachel's. They have been friends since kindergarten, but in high school, they drifted. Brittany got caught up in popularity and Rachel went emo, but technically, it was because Brittany abandoned her. Rachel wasn't a loner, but she did prefer to be alone.
When she arrives at Rachel's, she walks in like they were still the best of friends. She runs up the stairs and into Rachel's room, hoping she was awake, but she was sleeping peacefully. She seats herself on the plush loveseat by the window and waits. Rachel's beauty was self-evident. Without her dark make up she was stunningly beautiful.
Brittany walks closer to inspect her face, hoping to find some kind of flaw, but every flaw only made her more beautiful. Her thick eyebrows only made her look fiercer. Her lengthy lips made her more desirable. Her big nose shaped her face perfectly. She wanted to make her ugly, but she couldn't.
Before she could compose herself, Rachel wakes up and screams because Brittany's face is mere inches from her own.
"What are you doing here?"
Brittany plasters on a perfect smile and responds cheerfully, "I'm here to see you, Silly. Get ready. We're going to go try on my wedding dress."
"I didn't know guests had to do that."
"Rachel, you're my best friend. I want you to be my maid of honor!" Brittany exclaims.
Rachel shakes her head, "I can't be your maid of honor. Santana would kill me."
"Santana will get over it."
"Can I think about it?"
Brittany lets out a frustrated sigh. "Sure."
"If you don't mind Brit, I'd like to catch a few more hours of sleep. You do realize it's six in the morning, right?"
Brittany plays it off by laughing. "Duh. I'm just so excited you're home."
"I'm glad to be back." Rachel lied. The truth is, Brittany wanted to keep her eye on Rachel. Blaine would have no time with her if she was a slave to Brittany. She loved Rachel, but she would not lose her man to her. Not again, anyways.