A/N: Haha, you guys rock! I should make promises like that more often :P Alright, so here's the chapter I promised. Lot's going on, so hope you enjoy! As promised, it's long.
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Oh, there is a Lemon in here. Just giving you a heads up. And uh, violent? Rose and Dimitri get a little... Demanding? Or aggressive maybe.
And WildChildBornGood? Thanks for the review, you weren't far off either. lol
Chapter 15: Haywire
Rose POV
I glared at Dimitri snatching my hand from his, "No. I don't give a damn. I don't want to talk to you right now."
Dimitri looked at me, completely not expecting this would happen.
"What? Why?" he asked, baffled.
"Because," I spoke, "You cannot just act like a complete douche bag and then decide to change your mind! It doesn't work that way, and the world does not revolve around your big ass head." I glared at him.
"Rose-" he started.
"Whatever, Dimitri," I said, walking away from him, going to my room.
He caught my arm again, staring at me once more with those dark eyes of his. "Please," he pleaded again."Look, I just want to-" but again I didn't let him finish.
"I said leave me the hell alone Dimitri! I'm not for this crap right now," I just about yelled to him, as I turned around and walked away.
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I sighed again, and shut my computer down as I flopped on my bed. Racking a hand through my hand, I gritted my teeth. I really fucked up earlier. I hadn't meant to blow up like that at Dimitri. Here he was trying to talk things through, and I blow up at him. I did mean a little of what I said earlier, about him being ready to talk when he wanted to. Even though I constantly tried to reason with him, I wasn't mad or anything, because that's exactly how I use to act.
Ugh.
It also didn't help, that I had taken the darkness from Lissa. I didn't even know I was doing it, it just happens sometimes. I turned around, so that I was lying on my back. I really, truly didn't mean most of the things I said earlier. Truth was I wanted to talk this out as much as he seemed to. Though, I couldn't figure out a way to, without telling him the main reason.
I groaned.
I sent him a text, deciding to test the waters.
Hey, um I fucked up earlier. Can we…um, can we still talk?
-R
I waited for a reply.
Nothing.
Dimitri always texted me back within a minute or so. So when 45 minutes had passed, I figured he didn't want to talk to me at the moment. Throwing my phone on the floor, I continued to stare at the damn wall again.
I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me, it isn't over
I noticed that my iPod was still playing at random, and couldn't help but shake my head at the song choice. Lissa had gotten me hooked on this girl, Adele I think her name it.
I had to admit though, I liked her music.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
It did hurt now, but I was going to make it last in love. Me sitting here, waiting for Dimitri to text back wasn't solving anything, nor was feeling sorry for myself. I slid off the bed, pulling on a gray sweatshirt, and slipped on my Nike flip flops. Locking my door, I made my way across campus to the Guardian Wing.
It was now or never.
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Knocking on the door for the 700th time, in like 10 minutes I got my answer. Guess he didn't want to be bothered.
Too bad.
Bending down, I remember Dimitri once telling me about the spare key he kept under his door mat. I found the key, which was taped under the mat as I stood back up. Unlocking the door, I walked in to find the room completely dark.
"Dimitri?" I called out.
No answer.
The shower wasn't running, but as I looked around the room, it was clear he had been here. There were more clothes on the floor, than last time. As was the jacket I had seen him wearing earlier. The bed was unmade, and things were scattered around.
But that wasn't what caught my eyes.
Everything looked as it had been kicked or thrown around. A couple of frames were broken on the floor, along with a broken glass. There was a dent in the wall, the size of a fist.
I couldn't help but feel worse than I did. I had a feeling this was because I me.
I sighed.
Walking back out the door, I closed the door and softly placed the key back how I found it.
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Walking aimlessly around, I noticed that I had ended up away from the buildings and such, but still on the Academy grounds. Walking a little farther, I saw the cabin come into view.
Walking ahead, I went to the cabin. I opened the door, knowing it wouldn't be locked. It was dark inside, except for the light coming from the gray skies.
Huh, guess it's supposed to rain today.
There was somebody sitting on the windowsill, so I quickly got into a fighting stance. No one really knew about this cabin. Dimitri had told me so. But when I saw the outline of the body and smelled the mint aftershave, I relaxed.
"Fancy seeing you here," Dimitri spoke in a monotone, still looking through the window.
I didn't say anything, and walked over to sit across from him on the windowsill.
We sat in silence for a few minutes.
"Why are you here Rose?" Dimitri finally asked, turning around to face me.
I looked him in the eye.
"Dimitri, I need you to know I didn't mean to blow up at you earlier. I was upset and angry. It didn't help the fact that I had also taken the darkness from Lissa," I told him, "and I'm sorry."
He stared at me, his deep brown eyes thoughtful. Reaching out his hand, he stroked my cheek, until he dropped his hand back to his lap. "I'm not mad at you Roza," he said quietly, looking back out the window.
I couldn't help, but let out a small smile.
I took his hand in mine, and laced out fingers together. But Dimitri dropped my hand, and turned so he was facing me fully.
"Roza," he started, "I need to tell you something."
He stared at me, an anxious look on his face.
"Go ahead," I said. Whatever it was, it must have been something big.
"Rose," he hesitated, racking a hand through his hair.
"Just spit it out already Dimitri."
He sighed, "Alright. I did something I'm not proud of, and I can't believe I fucking did it. I'm so fucking stupid. God, but I need you to know it meant nothing to me. Absolutely nothing. I was angry and upset, I wasn't thinking."
I blinked.
What?
"You…were with another woman?" I asked calmly.
But I was anything but, it was clear he had clearly been with someone. And that hurt. It hurt; like someone had fucking ripped my heart out. I understand why he was upset, but actually being with someone else? That was low, and it hurt like hell.
I snatched my hand away from his, standing up I walked so I was standing over him."I don't ever want to see you again. Whatever we had it's over," I spat, glaring in his direction. I walked a few steps toward the door, before Dimitri stood up and pulled me back. "Get the hell off me!" I growled, pushing back against his chest.
Dimitri held my wrists, looking me in the eyes. His brown eyes were darker than ever. They were black as coal.
"Roza," his voice was low, "Listen to me, I need you to know this-" but I cut him off again.
"Dimitri, leave-" but I stopped talking, as Dimitri slammed me against the wall. Not too hard, but enough to get me to listen.
"Look," he spoke again, his voice low and his accent was much, much more pronounced. "I know you're upset with me. I get it okay? But I need you to know I did not have sexual relations with anyone. It…we were just making out. I was pretending she was you. All I thought about was you. Please…just… It meant nothing," he finished.
I sighed and closed my eyes, leaning my head against the wall.
Did I understand? I did.
Of course I did.
But it hurt.
It stung.
Knowing it meant nothing, helped but it didn't exactly fix it.
I opened my eyes, to find Dimitri staring at me intensely. A few strands of his hair framing his face. His eyes were black and bottomless. His breathing was a little heavy. One of his arms rested over my head against the wall, while the other rested on my waist. His forehead was mere inches away from mine, and he was looking at me expectantly.
It was intoxicating.
"Dimitri-" I started, but he cut me off as his lips collided with mine.
Pulling me closer to him, one of his hands traveled under my shirt while the other released my hair from the elastic band. His tongue met mine, exploring my mouth as I let out a low moan. I wrapped my arms around his neck, not being able to help myself as I fisted my hand in his hair.
He growled.
"Dimitri," I spoke, my voice breathless as I opened my eyes to look at him.
"Hmm?" he spoke, kissing down my neck. I pulled him up by his hair, so that he was looking at me.
"You're mine, okay? Not anyone fucking else's. Don't you ever forget it. Never *kiss* ever *kiss* ever. *kiss*I love you," I said, as I leaned my forehead against his. "So damn much."
He nodded, tipping my chin up so that I was looking at him. "Neither do you. I love you so much it hurts. You're mine as well. Mine. I…need you I need you so much, Roza," he whispered, closing his eyes as his fingers interlaced with mine.
"Me too," I whispered back, as my lips met his.
Our fight from earlier was forgotten as Dimitri lifted me up and pressed me against the wall. I groaned against his lips, as I wrapped my legs around his waist and felt him on my inner thigh. I grabbed him by his shirt, pulling him close as possible.
"I need more. I need you," I breathed, kissing Dimitri roughly.
I let my head rest against the wall, as Dimitri placed open-mouth kisses along my neck, shoulder, and jaw. I whimpered slightly, the need to feel him was overwhelming. I quickly got rid of his shirt, ripping it off when I noticed there were too many buttons.
"I liked that shirt," Dimitri mumbled, claiming my lips again. We continued to kiss, our intensity growing as our pace increased. The kisses weren't soft or gentle anymore, but hot and hungry. I couldn't get enough; Dimitri quickly took my sweatshirt and shirt off while carrying me to the bed. I fell back against the bed with Dimitri hovering over me as he kissed down my neck. Stopping above my breast, he undid the clasp on the back and 'hummed' in approval as he threw the bra across the room.
"So beautiful," he spoke, capturing my lips again. His hands ghosted down my body, and stopped right below my stomach. Looking for my approval, I nodded as Dimitri took of my panties and flung them across the room.
His eyes darkened, as he stared at me hungrily. Sticking a finger slowly inside my damp heat, I moaned.
"Fuck Roza, you're so wet," he spoke, his voice thick. I responded by opening my legs wider, inviting him further in. One finger, then two slid inside me, as I cried out with pleasure. His fingers slicked over my clitoris and pumped in and out of me. I writhed off the bed, as I felt my orgasm building up.
"Let it out Roza. That's it, come for me," Dimitri spoke, and that was all I needed to send me over the edge.
My heart stopped, as I drowned in bliss, forgetting where I was. I let out a shaky breath, and reached out to Dimitri as I captured my lips with his.
"Dimitri…" I murmured against his lips, "Now…I need you now."
He nodded as his own need was resurfacing. I unbuckled his pants and pushed them down as he kicked them off his ankles. Sucking on my neck, Dimitri fell back on the bed as he climbed on top of me. His eyes locked on mine, he slowly slid into me, but I needed him now. So I wrapped my legs around his waist, as he slid fully in, filling me up.
We both groaned in unison.
Lacing his fingers with mine, above out head, Dimitri set a steady pace as he pumped in and out of me. Pushing himself fully in and fully back out. Staring into my eyes, he looked at me, so much love and adoration pulled into his face that I smiled.
"I love you," I whispered, caught in the moment as Dimitri continued hitting my core over and over again.
"I love you too," he whispered back, kissing my lips as he sped up his pace.
"Fas-s-ster. Harder," I moaned, closing my eyes as my nails dug into Dimitri's back.
Our pace increasing, our breathing speeding up, we both were in tuned with each other's bodies as out orgasms began to build up. Dimitri hissed, as I buckled my hips up wanting more friction between us. Taking my left leg, he placed it over his shoulder, as he began driving into me further and deeper, the new position satisfying us both.
"Fuckkkk,"Dimitri groaned, closing is eyes, as his breathing picked up again.
"I'm…I'm so close. Harder," I panted, grasping his right hand in mine, and my left digging in his back with my nails.
A few more pumps, and I was completely thrown over the edge, as my vision blacked, I saw stars in my vision. I heard Dimitri growl, and let out a snarl, as he finished after me. Collapsing on top of me, he buried his face in my neck, both of us catching out breath.
"Hmm," he hummed, placing a kiss on my neck and stared into my eyes, caressing my cheek.
"I love you Roza. So much," he spoke, kissing me again.
"I know," I smiled, "and I love you too."
We lay in each other's embraces, Dimitri on his back, with me cuddled into his side. My arm was lazily thrown across his chest, as we intertwined our hands together. The blanket and sheet, was wrapped across us, our bodies still sweating from earlier. We both were still in our after sex haze, as we enjoyed each other's company.
The sky had gone completely gray outside, and it was raining pretty heavily. Lightning and thunder was striking every other minute. But it was all very calming, and soothing. The only light was coming from outside. I pulled the cover over me some more, and snuggled more into Dimitri, his scent filling me.
He gazed down at me, a smile evident on his face. He brought out my hands to his lips, and kissed them. "You're perfect, you know that?" he asked, staring at me.
I shook my head. "Everyone has faults, Dimitri," I said, turning on my stomach, and resting my chin on his chest.
He shook his head. "Well let me rephrase that. You're perfect for me, love," he said quietly.
"As are you," I whispered, staring into his eyes, and resting my hand on his cheek.
We lay in a nice silence, for awhile, only hearing each other's breathing and the weather outside. Dimitri held me close to his body, breaking the silence to ask me a question.
"Roza," he whispered, playing with my hair lightly. "Would you take a bath with me?"
I nodded against him, the thought soothing me even more. "Of course."
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Easing into the tub, I slid between Dimitri's legs so that my back was to his chest. I sighed, closing my eyes as the warm water enclosed me, and leaned back, Dimitri holding both of my hands in his.
"This is perfect," I said turning my head slightly, and kissing his cheek.
"I know," I could hear the smile in his voice. I rested my face in the crook of his neck, and placed a kiss there.
Dimitri sighed and closed his eyes, letting his head fall back against the wall. "I could stay here forever."
I nodded against him, agreeing completely. The water, completely warm against our skin, and Dimitri's even breathing was enough to keep me content enough, that I found myself falling into a blissful sleep.
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I stretched, opening my eyes as I took in my position. I was wrapped into Dimitri; meaning our legs were tangled together, my head on his chest, with his head resting on mine, one of his hands holding mine, while his each of our other hands rested somewhere on us. The blanket was cocooning us together.
I looked up, and noticed Dimitri giving me a lazy smile. "Did you sleep well?" he asked.
I nodded, giving him a smile and laying my head back on his chest. "Did I wake you?"
He shook his head, "I've been up for awhile."
"Oh."
We lay together in silence for awhile, Dimitri lazily drawing circles on my back. Dimitri let out a deep sigh, and ran his fingers through my hair.
I knew it was coming.
"I'll explain Dimitri," I said, resting on my elbows on each side of him, so I was looking up at him.
"I wasn't-" he started, but I gave a small smile and covered his mouth with my hand.
"It's fine. We need to talk about it anyway," I said while sitting up, I scooted up the bed, so I was sitting beside Dimitri, holding his hand.
"When I told you that I couldn't be with you, I meant it. I physically couldn't do anything. My hands were tied. You have no idea, how hard it was for me to resist you." I gave a small smile. "I tried so hard."
And so I proceeded to tell him about my conversation with Kirova. Everything from exactly what she said, to my thoughts about it all. I told him about my trip/talk with Elijah and what we talked about. Then finally, how I went to his apartment looking for him.
"I've really been a complete dick, haven't I?" he grimaced, rubbing circles on my hand.
Yeah.
"No," I chuckled, but then sighed and shrugged my shoulders. "Okay, so you've been a complete arrogant, douche bag, jerk," I told him, straddling his hips and place a chaste kiss on his lips. "But I don't blame you."
He raised an eyebrow, tilting my chin up to him. "You don't?" he asked.
I shook my head, and traced his jaw with my finger. "Of course not. I know I must have acted similar when it way you pulling away. I admit, I was a bit of a bitch," I grinned, and twisted my fingers in his hair. "You just make me so crazy," I whispered, wrapping my arms around his neck.
He placed his hands on my hips, his nails lightly trailing up and down. "I know the feeling," he whispered back, kissing my lips lightly. "I am honestly so sorry how I treated you. I was way out of line. You should have slapped me," his lips twitched up. "You know how my temper can get. I need to work again, at getting it back under control."
"I'll help," I offered, placing a kiss on his collarbone and lightly sucking there. He groaned, gripping my hips tighter and buckling his hips up, so I felt his semi-erection. The only separation between us being was the sheet.
"You're such a tease," he hissed, as I smiled and kissed his cheek.
"No I'm not," I winked, giving him a seductive smile.
"Are too," he growled, burring his face in my neck. I moaned, as he started to suck on my neck, no doubt knowing it will leave a mark. I pulled his hair bringing his lips to mine, as I kissed him senseless.
I grin against his lips, as I hear him groan, our passion and intensity kicking into overdrive. Falling back on the bed, I straddle Dimitri again so that I'm completely in control. Kneading my breasts in his hands, I threw my head back, the sensation overwhelming. I ripped the sheet from between us, and lowered myself down on Dimitri feeling his tip at my center.
Gripping my hips, he slid inside of me as I slid fully off, and slammed down. We both groaned, loving this new position. I began moving back and forth, slowly building up a speed as we stayed in tune with each other. I began feeling my stomach clench together, and knew my orgasm was building up. Letting out a string of profanities, and a low hiss, I knew Dimitri wasn't far behind.
"Dammit…ugh, faster. Harder," I panted, bouncing up and down on Dimitri a bit. His fingers were digging into my side.
"I know Roza. I'm so close. So…" he let the sentence fall, as we both picked up our pace. Sitting up in a sitting position, I wrapped my legs around Dimitri's hips as his hands held my back firmly. He thrust into me, one last good hard time, as we both crashed over the edge, or orgasm heart stopping, mind bending, and absolutely mind blowing.
Laying our heads on each other's shoulders, we let our breathing slowed down to normal. I whimpered, wrapping my arms around Dimitri's neck as he moved us back so his back was against the head board. "I love you," he breathed, his forehead resting on mine.
"Me too," I panted, still coming down from my high.
Resting my head in the crook of his neck, I placed a light kiss there, my nails lightly scraping the back of his neck.
"Mmm," he sighed, closing his eyes and leaning his head back.
My lips lifted up into a smile, as I enjoyed his breathing picking up a bit. Laying my head down on his shoulder, I continued caressing his neck with my nails, while I ran my other hand through his hair.
Dimitri purred, and pulled me closer, placing a kiss on my head and leaning back again. I continued, and giggled as he purred even more. The sound both, turning me on and making me giggled. He peaked an eye open, his lips fixed into a smile.
"Something funny?" he asked, a relaxed smile on his face.
I nodded, "You're purring. Like a kitten." I giggled again.
He mocked being angry. "A kitten?" he scoffed, "No babe, maybe a lion or tiger, but most defiantly not a kitten."
He continued to stare at me, as if I lost my head.
"Whatever," I sang. "You are so a kitten. My cute little, adorable kitten," I grinned, a full smile on my face.
Dimitri growled playfully at me, and pushed me down on the bed. "Kitten huh?" He grinned back, tickling my sides, and holding my arms over my head with his other hand.
I squealed. "Dimitri, stop!" I yelled, trying to get away to no avail.
He shook his head, "Nope." He smirked, and began to tickle me under my arms.
I kicked my leg, so I could try to flip him over.
Not happening.
Dimitri sat on my legs, and continued his cruel punishment. After about 30 more seconds, he stopped and gave me a satisfied smirk. "Wanna apologize now?" he asked, his hands ready to begin tickling me at any moment.
I stuck my tongue out, "Over my dead body."
He shrugged, "Oh well," and proceeded to tickled me along my ribcage again.
"Okay, okay!" I gasped, still giggling and laughing as I tried to squirm away from him. "I'm sorry Dimitri," I pouted. "You're not a kitten," I used the moment to flip us over. "You're a panda bear!" I smiled.
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I looked up at Dimitri through my eye lashes and said, "I don't think words could describe how I feel right now." My head was resting on Dimitri's hard, strong chest.
It was true. I was happy, content, smitten, joyful, so many emotions.
I couldn't even begin to describe it.
"I know how you feel," Dimitri smiled, kissing my hand that was holding his.
I reached up, kissing Dimitri again. I honestly could kiss him all day. Running his hands down my body, I braided my fingers in his hair, deepening the kiss. Groaning, he slid me onto his lap. He moaned against my lips, as I began rocking back and forth on his hips, his erection very much alive.
Buzz. Buzz.
I heard my phone ring on the floor beside us. "Ignore it," Dimitri said, laying me down on the bed and kissing down my body, swiveling his tongue around my breast and taking it in his mouth.
Buzz.
I nodded, cell phone completely forgotten as Dimitri moved his way down my stomach, grinning as he kissing down my thigh. Skimming his nose, down my sex, he licked his tongue around my slit.
Buzz.
I whimpered, threading my fingers in his hair as I guided him to my center. He was sucking lightly on my center; my hips were buckling off the bed.
Fuck.
Buzz. Buzz.
The phone beeped indicating a message, and began to ring again. I panted, sitting up and pushing Dimitri's head slightly. "Could be im-important," I nodded, "Yeah, important."
I reached down, and grabbed the phone, flipping it open to answer the call.
"Cock blocker," I heard Dimitri mumble.
I shook my head, and lightly smacked his chest.
He shrugged, and gave me an innocent smile.
"Hello?" I breathed, trying to not sound as if I had just finished having sex.
"Rose? ROSE! You need to get here quick," I heard, rustling in the background. "Now." The voice was hysterical.
Thoughts? :)
Will update soon. Can we beat 48 reviews?
Ugh, just looked at the number of words. 4,529? I swear it was 12 1/2 pages in Microsoft word.
Sorry, will work on that. Hope you still enjoyed?