Chapter 9: All Over Again
Finally, right? Sorry this took so long. PLEASE review! (If you haven't noticed by now, each title of the chapters is lyrics from a BTR song.)
We joined the guys in the lobby and went to rehearsal. I had to practice holding the microphone with a cast, and try to get over my dizzy spells. The doctor warned me to take it easy, but I couldn't let our fans down. I mean, sure we got along fine without Kendall that one time, but I hated to see the fans' disappointment when they realized they couldn't meet him. Greeting the fans is always the best part for me.
So I suffered through and I managed. I knew I'd be fine for the concert, but James was about to jump out of his skin from being so concerned.
"James, I'll be fine." I reassured him for the thousandth time.
"Carlos you say that one more time and so help me. Your doctor said to take it easy. Singing and jumping all around on stage is going to strain you and then you'll be even worse. You cannot perform tonight." He crossed his arms and leaned back, content with his argument.
I sighed and decided to play the innocent card. I looked up at him with my sad puppy dog look and said, "Don't you want me to sing with you, baby?" I ran my fingers down his arm, making him shiver. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. I slid my hand down his chest, stopping at his belt. "Don't you want to dance with me, sugar?" I asked and moved my hand down, rubbing him through his pants and causing him to moan out.
A door slammed and a voice suddenly rang out, "I do not want to know what you guys are doing!" I turned around and saw Kendall standing in the doorway. There were a few moments of silence and then James spoke up, "Don't worry about it. Hey Kendall, don't you agree that Carlos shouldn't sing tonight? He's been feeling dizzy and you know the doctor told him to take it easy."
Kendall thought for a moment then answered, "Well I think he should sing. He did fine at rehearsal. But no dancing. He could just sit or something."
"But it'll ruin the effect if I'm not dancing-" I started, but James cut me off.
"Who the hell cares if you're not-"
"James, stop." Kendall interrupted. "Carlos, you can sing tonight, but no dancing. We're only doing three dancing songs anyway. The fans will understand, it's for your health. Now stop arguing." He walked out and we were alone again.
"Carlos, I wish you would just listen-"
"James, imagine if it was you. If I was telling you to miss a concert. We both know you wouldn't even think about missing it. I'm not doing this to get back at you or purposely make you upset. I want to do it. Doesn't it matter what I want?" I started to tear up and turned away.
He suddenly changed expression and pulled me in, hugging me tight. "Of course it does, Carlos," he whispered in my ear. "I'm sorry I'm being such a dick. I just don't want you getting hurt again, I won't be able to take it."
"I'll be fine, James." I mumbled into his shoulder. "I'm just really passionate about this, you know that."
"I do. Don't worry, we'll kill it tonight." He pulled away and flashed me his adorable smile. I smiled back and kissed him, glad to be over the argument.
A few hours later, we were heading to our dressing room, coming back from the concert. I barely managed to stay in my seat in the center of the stage the whole time. What I really wanted to do was jump up and join the guys on stage, but I knew it wouldn't be smart.
Walking into the dressing room, I saw Logan and Kendall shirtless, locked in an embrace. I cleared my throat loudly and they jumped away from each other. I laughed at them and Logan stuck his tongue out. Kendall chose a more vicious approach and flipped me off. I shoved him and we got into a wrestling match with Logan trying unsuccessfully to pull us apart. James walked in and, seeing us, tried to help Logan but ended up fighting with Logan. Kendall shoved me away and went to protect Logan, while I hopped on James' back and covered his eyes. Kendall and Logan fell to the floor, rolling around.
DBelt walked in and exclaimed loudly, "You guys are so gay!"
We all got off each other and laughed, but soon started hooting at Kendall who was sporting a fresh hard-on. To DBelt's disgust, Logan stepped over and started rubbing him through his pants.
We all expressed sounds of displeasure as Kendall pretended to moan along.
"That's enough!" DBelt said and pushed them away from each other. We all went our separate ways and got changed, then headed back to the hotel to pack.
During the ride to the airport, Kendall was in obvious distress without Logan, who had to ride with DBelt and our manager.
"Don't worry Kendall, soon we'll be in Florida and you can finally fuck Logan and solve your-"
I couldn't even finish before he punched my arm, which caused James to hit him back, starting a fight. I had to struggle to push them apart.
Once he settled down, Kendall said, "And besides, Sarah's starting to realize what's going on and won't let us stay in the same room."
"What do you mean?" James asked.
"I mean Logan is rooming with Carlos and you and I have to room together."
"Fucking Sarah." I mumbled.
We didn't really talk much more after that and everyone but me fell asleep on the plane. I stayed up for about an hour, requesting drink after drink. I didn't want to, but I couldn't stop myself once I started. When I had enough I fell asleep surprisingly quickly.
I woke up from the sound of Logan's soft moans. "Not here, man." I said, kicking the seat in front of me. The sounds cut off, but I realized I had enjoyed them. I was semi hard and thinking dirty thoughts about Logan. I blamed it on James, we hadn't done anything in a while and I just awoke from a steamy dream starring my favorite jew.
I fell asleep, resting my head on James' shoulder.
I woke up again to the voice of the pilot, informing us of our landing. I groaned and stretched, neck stiff from staying in one position. I nudged James to wake him up. He yawned massively and got up to use the bathroom. I frowned after him. He hadn't even said a word to me.
Logan popped up over the back of the seat in front of me and cheerily said good morning. I sighed. He would say good morning.
"Good night too, huh?" I asked, winking at him.
He blushed and punched my shoulder.
"Is that why Kendall's still asleep?" I asked. "Too rough, you wore him out?"
I dodged his next punched and he replied, "Kendall wasn't even awake-"
"Whoa! That's illegal!" I exclaimed, cutting him off. I wished James was here to hear that, it was good.
"You ass!" He said, fist connecting to my jaw. I saw James coming and I knew he had seen it.
"James! Logan hit me!" I whined, grabbing his arm.
"Carlos, stop." He said, shaking me off and sitting in his seat. I looked down at him. "What's wrong?" I asked.
"I have a headache, I hate sleeping on planes, and you're not helping." He replied. I shut up and sat down.
"Well, we're close to the hotel and we can all go to sleep again." Logan told him. He nodded.
The plane landed and we stumbled through the terminals to the car waiting outside. Logan and I lead the group, being the only two awake enough to process where we were going. We all piled our stuff in the trunk and climbed in. James fell asleep again right away, even though it was going to be a short ride. We were packed in tight because we were trying to cut down the amount of cars we use. James was leaning against the window on one side with Kendall against the other window. Logan and I were squished together in the middle, talking quietly about the tour. He suddenly changed subjects.
"Carlitos, listen…" He said. Logan was one of the few who still called me that, but only when he was being serious.
"Yes?" I asked when he trailed off. I suddenly got nervous, but I don't know why. It's just lately I've been thinking about Logan a lot, especially after last night. I've always had a soft spot for Logan, he's just so sweet and caring.
"I…I've just been thinking. About…I don't know, about life in general. Doesn't it seem…audacious to…to kind of seclude yourself?"
I stared at him blankly for a few seconds. "Logan, what are you talking about?"
"Is James treating you good?" He asked suddenly, lowering his voice.
"Of course. James is amazing to me." I replied, confused.
"I guess I should get to the point." He said. I nodded.
"I've never liked settling with one person." He explained. "Don't you think it's wrong to seclude yourself to one person if you're not sure about them?" He asked, looking up and staring into my eyes. I stared back, dazed. He looked down at my lips and slowly leaned forward.
The car hit a bump and James and Kendall both groaned. Logan stopped and turned away just as we reached the hotel. We all grabbed our bags and went to the lobby where we were given our room keys. I was a little uneasy sharing the room with Logan, especially after I discovered the single bed.
"Ugh, why do they always do this?" I complained.
"Maybe it won't be so bad…" Logan responded. He disappeared into the bathroom and I heard the shower turn on a few seconds later. I pulled out my phone and texted James, hoping he hadn't fallen asleep yet. I sat on the bed waiting, having a strange sense of déjà vu. This situation was like what happened to James and I…except there were two other people in the room. Logan and I were alone.
I thought about Logan in the shower and instantly got turned on. My stomach started hurting with guilt. I couldn't cheat on James. But we weren't dating, technically. Is that what Logan had been talking about in the car?
The water shut off and I started to panic. I shut my eyes and focused on taking deep breaths. Logan walked out of the bathroom, towel wrapped around his waist. I peeked up at him and found him looking at me.
"Carlitos," he said. I got even more turned on from him calling me that. My hand twitched toward my crotch and Logan looked down. He smirked and stepped toward me. My breathing sped up as he put his warm hands on either side of my face. He tilted my head up and slowly leaned in. My heart was pounding; it was all I could hear.
Our lips connected and I couldn't help but pull him close. His fingers tangled in my hair and I let my hands roam his slick body. He sat on my lap, straddling me. His tongue crept along my lips, and I opened my mouth, allowing him entry.
I separated to take off my shirt and he pushed me back, running his hands down my chest. I put my hand on his head as he kissed my nipple, swirling his tongue around it. He continued kissing down my chest, while one hand found my bulge and started rubbing it. I moaned, arching my back and pushing his hand to rub me harder. He undid my belt and quickly pulled off my pants. I pulled his face to mine, kissing him with no regrets. He moved down and began skillfully sucking me off. My fingers tangled in his hair, moaning in time with his head bops. His towel fell to the floor and I started pumping him, causing him to moan which sent vibrations through my penis. I screamed out his name as I came, him coming a moment later.
We laid there, catching our breath. Logan got up and I cleaned us up. He put on boxers and joined me in bed. We fell asleep quickly.