Chapter 18
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Erik POV
Yes. She made me so angry. I didn't need her. Why then am I so upset? God, I wanted to throw something, break something, kill someone.
I threw the handheld mirror Faye used to the wall, where it shattered into little tiny pieces. It was her all over again. But I wouldn't have found Faye if she betrayed me. Why was Faye still my mind? It wasn't Christine in my head anymore, invading my thoughts, my mind, my sanity, it was Faye. I couldn't stop thinking about her face, her body, her personality, her laugh, her smile, her tears… My God what was wrong with me? I need her back. I needed her back in my life. But I needed a plan to find her. Her voice. Her voice needed my help. She needed me. More importantly, I needed her. Remembering the way she spoke, with such feeling, with her soul. How could I let something like that go?
How could I have I called her…Christine?
I don't know, after all the years spent helping for her, caring for her, maybe it was that I was caring for her for so long I thought Faye was like the Christine I never had?
NO! SHE WASN'T A CHRISTINE!
I never thought there would be a day I would hate Christine, but today was the day.
I had to stop referring her to Christine! I almost couldn't recall her face or her voice now.
God, all I saw now was my new obsession, my new life, my Faye. I remember her singing the first time. The Purple Rain song, how calming it was and different. Yet though she didn't know I was listening, I felt very peaceful, for the first time in years.
All those nights of trying to deny everything I knew. I look back at myself and laugh for she left me for a fop. She didn't care at all about me. For I was a poor dog ready to die for her!
Then Faye came into my life, rescued me from the mob that would've killed me. And I would have never experienced the true meaning of love.
She saw my face and she didn't cower in fear and run away from the horror, not she stood by me during the masquerade and she was ready to risk her life for me. She never did anything wrong for me to be angry with her. I messed everything up…again.
I knew I had to get her back. But how? I spent days trying to come up with a plan and to no success. My mind was filled with her sighs and her perfect voice.
I needed rest. I haven't slept since the night of…the mistake I made. Sometimes I wonder how I live with myself.
Then I remember, Faye is the reason for living, someone from above must've known that we both had suffered and both had dealt with different pains. And knew that we were meant to be together.
I went to the bed to lie down. And tried to go to sleep.
I was haunted by many plaguing dreams, torturing me and I saw my Faye running away from me. I wonder what she must think of me. She must think I was an appalling, loathsome man for calling her by a different name. Oh, how she must've suffered! Oh, my sweet Faye in pain. How I couldn't bring myself to see the image and once it did. How it made me weep.
Oh my darling Faye, why was I so blind? How could I not see?
Oh my dearest treasure, I am truly sorry. If I caused you any pain.
What was I talking about? I caused her SO MUCH pain.
Darling, I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me.
For I know I don't deserve it, I hope you can and forget.
I never felt so alive when I've thought about you, now numerous of times.
One day, I promised myself and to Faye wherever she was that we will be united again.
And I promise you Faye, will be together always!
And we will never have to say goodbye.
Because I'll love you until my dying day…
Sorry so short…Curse you stupid homework! Gahh!
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