Alright so this is sort of a filler sort of chapter. The next one is going to have some action in it, with Puck, Sam, and Blaine present as well. Enjoy this one though.
"Wow you're really checking her out." I jumped when I heard Quinn's voice. I had been watching Rachel sing for the better part of an hour and I can safely say that it wasn't getting boring at all. Brittany and her were now singing a duet and even though it was just a silly video game Rachel's voice always sounded perfect. I was leaning back on the couch occasionally putting a few pieces of popcorn in my mouth while Quinn had her legs over mine and sometimes had me toss her a few pieces of popcorn in her mouth.
"Fuck off Quinn." I muttered still keeping my eyes on Rachel. I couldn't get over the way she looked in my old clothes. She was singing a song by some weird Barbra something-or-another lady but she sounded so darn amazing. "Encore! Encore!" I shouted after Rachel belted out the last note. "You're so amazing." I told Rachel when she leaned down to grab a handle of popcorn. She blushed but tried to hide it failing miserably. "Really, I could listen to you sing all day."
"Thank you!" Rachel said showing me one of her million dollar smiles. Rachel and Brittany went back to singing which of course left Quinn to bother me.
"Come on Lopez, my room…" Quinn said tugging at my arm.
"No, I'm watching them sing." I told Quinn. She sighed loudly and stole the popcorn off my lap. My gaze shifted down to Rachel's backside. I wonder if she works out, I mean her ass is pretty amazing I'll have to admit.
"Dude you're just checking out her ass!" Quinn scuffed a little louder than I had hoped for. Rachel turned and sang part of the song lyrics while looking directly at me. "You guys really didn't do anything last night?" I shook my head no. "I can't believe you wouldn't try, I mean you look so horny right now." I rolled my eyes and stole the popcorn back.
"Shit I need to escape this right now…I'll be back." I got up and brushed my hair out of my face before walking towards Quinn's door.
"Where are you going?" Rachel asked. I didn't realize that she had paused the game and everyone was staring at me till then.
"Just to grab something." I lied through my teeth. "I'll be right back." I assured them. I left Quinn's apartment and bolted to my room to go get my stash. I needed to get high right now otherwise I was going to either sleep with Quinn or make a total ass out of myself with Rachel. I took a seat on the floor with my back up against the side of my bed. I didn't bother closing the door. Emilio was gone and my mom was out at work.
I grabbed a newly rolled joint from my stash and lit up. As soon as I inhaled in I heard the creaking of the floorboards. I barley had time to turn around before Rachel was plopped down on the ground next to me. "Why are you doing this?" Rachel asked solemnly looking ahead. I took another long drag and exhaled before I answered her.
"Because of Quinn…because of you too I guess." Rachel stopped me from taking another drag. "What are you-."
"Tell me how it feels." She said focusing her eyes on mine. I looked at her and hated myself for kissing her yesterday. Her eyes were the purest I'd ever seen she didn't need to be corrupted.
"But I already told you-."
"Then show me." I didn't understand what she meant. Where was this coming from? I got up on my knees and positioned myself between Rachel's legs. Her look of confidence faded from her face, but she didn't break eye contact with me.
"Ever heard of shotgunning?" I asked her and she shook her head no. "Are you afraid of me?" She shook her head again. "Okay…close your eyes." She hesitated before she finally closed them. I wondered if that was because she finally trusted me, or she was throwing caution to the wind. I put my right hand gently on her cheek, just resting it there. I took a hit and leaned in so that my mouth was only inches from Rachel's. I pressed my lips against hers exhaling in her mouth. I could feel her body relax, I could feel her hand shoot up and grip mine as the smoke filled her lungs. She opened her eyes at the same time that I did and I disconnected our lips.
I felt a horrible sensation after the kiss, the loss of contact was unbearable. When I kissed her I felt a spark. It was amazing the way her lips were so perfect and gentle, and I wanted to kiss her again so badly, but I didn't. I pulled my hand from her face and took another drag before I said anything stupid.
"I don't know what to feel." Rachel said looking up at my ceiling.
"Don't think about it." I told her.
"Why did you want to get away from me?" Rachel asked. I was still on my knees in-between her legs. What would she do if I pulled her body closer to mine and kissed her?
"Because I feel something with you…it's hard to stop feeling things like this." I explained honestly.
"Is that why you want to kiss me right now?" She asked sheepishly looking up through her thick eyelashes.
"Yes."
"But you aren't going to?" She asked. I lean over and put out the blunt in my makeshift ashtray. I placed my hands gently on Rachel's hips letting my eyes roam over her toned abdomen and beautiful neckline. Without warning, I pulled her closer to me and leaned down so that our lips were only centimeters apart. We both had our eyes open, breathing heavily and wondering if either one of us would lean in any closer.
"Do you want this?" I whispered in a low voice keeping my eyes connected with hers.
"I don't know what I want anymore." Her eyes faulted and went to my lips before they returned to where they were. I brushed my lips against hers and then pulled back.
"Sorry." I said after awhile of comfortable silence.
"For what?" She asked pressing her finger to her lips.
"For giving you what you wanted."