i locked my bike away and walked inside the building were i lived.
I am 20 now, i study literature. Edward and i live together in our apartement.
We're living 5minutes from campus, we chose to both go to Yale.
I walked in to our apartement, Edward sitting on the brown couch his feet on the coffee table.
It was summer vacation so we didn't have classes to attend and we needed that.
"hey" i whispered in his ear and kissed his cheek "Hey bells" edward answerd without taking is eyes of the tv. He was playing a video game, again, that's all he did the last days. "what do you want to eat tonight?" putting the groceries away in the fridge. "you chose, love" he made an attempt to look at me but something 'important' happend on the screen. I groaned and start to put everything away and slammed the kitchen door a little to hard. He noticed nothing. I was so sick of this, is this what we become? Lifeless? Sometime's at night i wake up, Edward gone next to me to play a stupid game. He used to dim the noise but now he just turn it harder. One night i was so angry.
"What do you think you're doing cullen?" i asked him with a cold voice. "what does it look like?" he answerd, i cocked my eyebrow. I walked to the xbox "hey go away! You block my view" he yelled. That it, i pushed the off button. He just stared at me with an angry expression "what. The. Fuck?" he said through clenched teeth, i pissed him off. "it's 4 o'clock i want some sleep so put the fucking noise down!" i yelled at him he stood up and walked to our bedroom "what do you think you're doing?" i repeated again "sleeping, because someone put off my xbox." He snapped "do you really think i'm going to sleep next to you?" he finally looked at me a little shocked i never let him sleep on the couch. "what?" he said calm.
"look edward," i sighed "you're playing those stupid games for months now, you never look at me again, we never talk, fuck we don't even had sex for weeks !" i slammed my fist on the table i saw edward jump a little. "i fucking miss you and we live together. Do you find that normal?" i felt my tears well up. Edward walked to me "i'm sorry" he took the hand, i slammed on the table "you've hurt yourself" i cried "you hurt me more" i whispered and i walked into the bedroom.
After that night it got a little better but a week later, we were back to where we were. I walked out of the apartement "miss Swan" a voice called. I turned around and saw miss Turner our neighbour walk out of her apartement, she loved to give me a speech about the noise we made. "Yes miss Turner" i turned around balling my hands in the pockets of my jacket. "I believe you know why i'm calling out on you, again" i sighed "yes i think i know." "i can't live with that noise all the time, i can't sleep, i can't eat all because of the noise that comes from out of your apartement!" she started to yell at me and that did it. I started to sob, i was so tired. I could tell miss Turner felt a little bad, she put her arm around me "now come my dear, i didn't intend to make you cry." She soothed "It's not you, it's Edward" i start crying harder and she huged me. "come inside for a cup of tea" she wasn't always the anoying neighbour like Edward like to call her. It all started when he started to played those games. He always played those games and i didn't mind sometimes i played along but last couple of months he started to play without stopping sometimes he didn't sleep. Only paused to pee or eat.
"now come Bella" miss Turner wiped my tears from my eyes "tell me what's going on, you two looked so happy when you first came here. I remember you backing cookies for me all the time and invited me for diner why did that stop? What happend" she asked and started to boil some water "Edward has this i think i can call it an addiction to a stupid video game. That's the noise you hear. I can't sleep anymore. I'm so tired" i put my ead in my hands "he bearly sleeps and when he does it's on the couch, we sleep apart, we eat apart. I think he doesn't love me anymore" i started sobbing again in my hands. I heard Edwards game noise through the walls it wasn't as loud as it was at our home, but it was to loud. Then all of a sudden it stopped and i hear him shuffeling around after some seconds i hear him yelling my name and my phone going off, i left it on the countertop. He yelled my name again, not angry but worried. Miss Turner watched me "let him suffer him a little more" i nodded, i wanted him to get worried. I heard Edward calling all my friends, Jasper and Alice, Eline, Lisa, Jennifer, Rose and Emmet, people i know from campus. Then when nobody knew where i was, i heard our front door slam close. For i minute i thought he was going to come to miss Turner but he didn't "can i make a call?" i asked Miss Turner she gave me her phone and the list of names i gave her of people she needed to call when something happend and she couldn't get a hold of me.
I called Jasper i told him where i was and why "bells of course he loves you, he was here minutes ago. He kept saying she's leaving me" i felt guilty but than Alice started talking to me "i think you did a good thing by scaring him a bit, he needs it!" "alice!" i heard Jasper call on the back ground "No jaz he's taking her for granted, she's been to good to him for years." She was right. Before we lived together he did these little things like, taking me out for dinner, giving me flowers without any reason, he once made a song for me and sung it under my window. Now? He did nothing for me anymore, he didn't even toss his dirty laundry in the basket. "you can stay here for some days bella" Alice said "no Alice i think i'm going to Jennifer and the girls for a while i miss them. Thanks for the offer i love you" "love you too sweety" she said "and he loves you too don't never doubt that" "ok i'll try bye ali, tell jasper i said goodbye" i ended the call "Miss Turner thank you for everything but i'm going to stay with some friends" i gave her a hug "no problem and please don't become a stranger to me again" she said kissing my cheek "not ever again" i smiled "Can i bring you?" she asked "if you don't mind yes, i think edwards took the car, let me grab some things from my apartement." I walked to our apartement, took a duffle bag and put some clothes in it and my cell phone i didn't left a note i just left everything like it was and closed the door. Than i heard Edward "fuck fuck fuck" he kept on saying i ran of to the garage were Miss Turner waited for me, and a minute i got in Edward called me. I didn't pick up he left a voicemail. I called Eline "ow bella ! Edward was here, where are you?" i heard Lisa call behind her for jennifer "bella's on the phone" i heard her say "thank god" jennifer sighed "i'm fine can i stay with you guys! I miss you all so much" i started crying again, Miss Turner took my hand and squeezed it. "of course baby and we miss you too!" Eline soothed. "see you in a minute" "ok see you soon Bells" i saw edward tried to call me 20 times but i ignored him "what should i say when he comes knocking on my door and comes asking for you?" i shrugged "tell him you didn't see me" i want him to be worried about me, feel alone like i do for months.