This is my first story and I am so overwhelmed that 300 people have read the first chapter in two days. Thank you all for reading.

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Chapter 2

She didn't get much sleep last night, not with all the thoughts of what took place in his kitchen hours before. The thoughts of what they could possibly be in the future. She tried to sleep while she lay on the couch; but the only thing that led to was this dream.

They were in his kitchen right where they left off last night. He hand was massaging her breast, the other cupping her ass, while his hot mouth was making love to hers. She couldn't believe this was happening. If there was a Heaven she just found it. He began moving his mouth over her cheek until he made is way to her ear. He roughly whispered how much he needed her. Then he bit her earlobe and made a path of kisses down her neck sucking and biting. He brought his hand up quickly to her waist band of her jeans trying to unbutton them hastily. At the angle they were in he was having some difficulty. She wasn't any help because she was desperately clawing at his shirt with her head thrown back. He was getting impatient he grunted and pushed his erection into her core hard. All she could do is moan loudly. They were in a frantic state and they were losing control. Desperate to get where they wanted. Within minutes they would be at their peaks. She continued moaning louder and he just kept rubbing her core harder and faster just in the right spot.

She woke up panting and very wet needing a release. The dream seemed so real. She needed him so much. What was she going to do if this doesn't happen between them? The need for him to be here with her was great. She knew she couldn't call him so soon; especially not tonight. She was in deep and she didn't really want to get out.

Even though she was in the state she was in, she couldn't help but think. He was still technically married and they were partners. The partnership could be an easy thing to deal with. There are other cops who were partners and had relationships. As far as she could see Kathy had been MIA for a year. It didn't look like she was coming back. At least that's what she thought.

This afternoon El showed up around 3:00 without any notice. She was a little stunned; but extremely happy to see him. She reached for him right away to hug and kiss him. He moved aside to avoid her touch. He walked over to the window in living room looking out into the city. She knew something horrible had happened. He had changed his mind about last night. Less than 24 hours, her hopes and dreams were given to her and were about to be destroyed.

When she turned to look at him across the room, she could tell he was having a hard time. She walked over to sit on the couch, stared straight ahead at the wall, and waited for the ball to drop. She knew he was going to tell her he was transferring out; because of what they did. Tell her Saturday visits were over. It was all a mistake and he was wrong to let it happen.

She was surprised when he finally spoke with a quivery voice; said Kathy came back this morning. He never told her the reason why Kathy left to begin with; but she thought Kathy was gone for good. She couldn't believe after all this time Kathy was back. He said they talked things over. That it was best for Eli for them to work things out. He didn't want to do this to her; but he didn't have a choice. She could hear his voice crack, as he told her he needed to do what was best for his children. He still loved her and wanted to be with her more than anything. He said he didn't tell Kathy what had happened last night. For that she was thankful. Kathy knowing would be devastating. She's sure he would lose Eli. She didn't want that to happen.

When he finished talking, he walked over to her to sit down. She was still staring at the wall in front of her. He grabbed her and held her tight, as they began to cry. She felt like her world had just ended. She still had something to hold on to. They still had their partnership. They would get to see each other everyday, that's good. Things will be okay; she was sure of it. At least that's what she tried to believe.

Before he left he told her that he was sorry; he hoped she understood. She assured him that it was for the best and they would see each other at work. With a solemn look on his face he turned and walked out the door. She sank back down on the couch, with her head in her hands, as her heart split into.

Now hours later she is sitting in the dark wondering why her life can't be easier. She doesn't understand why she can't have the things Kathy has. She wants a man that isn't hers and it's selfish. She knows this. It's been a year and she's grown to love this man more than she ever had before. He is the only person in her life whom knows more about her than anyone else in this world and loves her anyway. This past year with him has been wonderful and she would never regret the time they've shared. It's going to hard knowing their time outside of work is over. It's probably going to be harder for Eli. She is going to miss seeing that kid. Maybe when things settle down she could ask El and Kathy if Eli could hang out with her some.

As the tears fall down her face, she doesn't understand why this hurts so much. They were just friends and last night was the first time they acted on their deeper feelings. It was just a little making out. It didn't last that long. She shouldn't be this upset.

Who is she kidding? She has loved this man for years. Now that she knows what it's like to kiss him and be held by him. She doesn't know how she's going to be able to deal with all this. All she can think about what could have been.

TBC

Will they be able to go back to what they had before?

Sorry. I know it was hard to read. I have a plan I promise.