Hey everyone, I know I'm late with this, but I finally completed this second part to 'Missing.' I hope all of you will like it. Please reply!
Disclaimer- I don't own One Tree Hill, or My Immortal by Evanescence
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Haley Anne Scott
Beloved wife, friend and daughter
May 27, 1989- December 12, 2006
Nathan stared at the tombstone across him while he held a dozen white roses.
So much has occurred since that day after Haley's death…
Flashback:
"Now we pray that Haley is in a happy place, where she can be in peace and watch over us, knowing we have accepted her actions. Haley Scott is to be remembered and loved. God rest her soul," the Reverend spoke, as he signaled with his hands a cross of peace followed by instructing the men controlling the truck to let down the casket.
Everyone from the side watched the coffin sink into the ground, inch by inch. Each inch it dropped, the more painful it was to those that loved Haley, and the further pain of accepting that she was gone for good.
In the first row stood the most important people in Haley's life— her parents, Lucas, Karen, Brooke, Peyton, and then Nathan. Not intended to be last for but respect and separation from the James'. Truth be told, Nathan was warned not to attend the funeral. Half of the crowd who has attended hated Nathan Scott; he took away the one precious person they all loved. They couldn't see any good in him. But they didn't stir a riot due to the fact that he was Haley's husband, the man she loved; took her life away for.
When the burial was finished, the first row stood still, and stared at the grave that was now completed. The others from the back all walked individually to them, expressing their deepest grief and sympathy until it was only the front row and Haley's grave. Nathan bowed his head, gripping further the single white rose he held.
"I hope you're happy," Jimmy spoke bitterly. "After all, Haley did this for you, to finally be happy," Jimmy said repeating Haley's last words from the letter. Nathan kept his head down, swallowing in the pain.
"I…I, I didn't…" Nathan couldn't continue his sentence. How could he? All that was running through his mind was the word murderer. Peyton turned her head towards Nathan, reaching to hold his hand, but quickly Nathan shook it off. Since Haley's death, Nathan hasn't spoke to Peyton; he didn't want to be near her, and as wrong as he knew he was, he couldn't help but hate Peyton. Replaced me with Peyton was all Nathan thought when he saw her.
"Haley, know that I love you" Lydia cried, as she kneeled by her daughter's grave. "And that it's ok. I forgive you. Your dad and I forgive you… say hi to your grandma for me, and don't worry sweetheart, I'll see you soon."
"We'll see you soon" replied Jimmy by his wife's side, holding her hand to lift Lydia up. "We'll see you soon. Until then my Haley-bop… my baby" Jimmy softly spoke, tearing along with his wife Lydia. Their child was gone, and that's not how it is suppose to go. They, the parents are supposed to die first, then their children. That's the order. Looking one last time, both James' parents turned to Karen, and both hugged her. The two older women held each other crying, until Jimmy untangled Lydia away. They said their goodbyes and the James' were gone, never looking once at Nathan.
Following, Karen kneeled to Haley's grave, lightly touching the tombstone.
"Hello my dear. I read what you wrote to me, and I also forgive you, and I don't hate you. I don't blame you. Just know that I loved you as the daughter I never had. I remember the first day I met you in your ballerina outfit, asking for milk and cookies. So many memories, so many great ones, that I shall never forget," Karen said beginning to tear, holding tightly to the edge of the tomb. "I'm going to miss all the advices you would ask of me. And I will miss that radiant smile of yours, as will my costumers. Bliss your soul, my daughter. One day we'll see each other again. That's a promise," Karen finished as she rose from the ground. Turning around, Karen walked over to Nathan, who still had his head down. She stooped inches away from him. He looked up at her. She simply glared at him, followed by a slap across the face. Nathan turned his head back at her, touching his cheek.
"I don't want you anywhere near my café or near me. Haley didn't deserve to die, you did," Karen spoke bitterly as Nathan's eyes grew further teary. "I really hope you're happy because Haley did this for you and your happiness," Karen said, wiping away her tears and preceding her walk to Lucas; who hasn't spoke to anyone since Haley's death.
"I'll wait for you in car," Karen spoke faintly. Lucas he simply nodded. From there, Karen gone, and following along was Peyton.
"People always leave… I hate that sentence with every fiber of my body. I didn't mean to mistreat you. I was just mad. I was mad because everyone I love always leaves, but the thing was that you came back, and I channeled all that anger towards you," Peyton said while she kneeled down next to the grave. "Instead of hating you, I should have been supportive. I should have been there for you, and look what happened…you should hate me, Hales. Hate me. I'm sorry Haley, and you're not a disappointment. I am for not being there for you when you most needed me the most. I so sorry Haley, I will never forget you. I hope you and my mother happiness in the after life. Lastly know this, Nathan and I never had anything going on. He loves you and regrets everything. He's hurting badly… we're all sorry" Peyton replied, quickly rising from the ground and walking as fast as she could away from them; away from the pain.
Brooke slowly walked to Haley's grave, kneeling down as the rest had. She forced a smile, trying her best to hold back the tears; the tears that had been pouring down since that day.
"Hey Haley, I bet heaven's really nice. I bet you have a crowd already, waiting for you to sing with that angelic voice you have, and I bet that you're really happy than how anyone from down here is. Hales, we miss you, severely. I don't know how I can take another day without waking up in the apartment and knowing you're not there. You were my roommate, my sister. Do you know that Lucas hasn't spoken to anyone since that day you… I don't know if I can help him. I can't be the strong one, you were the strong one," Brooke replied sobbing all over again. "In the letter you wrote that I forgotten all about you, it's not true. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. I thought you were improving, I didn't know you were dying inside. But you're right; Lucas and I barely made time for you. That's my biggest regret. Damn it girl, I'll miss you, but I won't always grieve. We had great times together that I will never forget. I won't forget you. Never, I love you tutor girl. I'll always love you," Brooke finished, dropping her rose on Haley's grave, and smiling one last time followed by walking to Lucas.
"I'll be with your mom. Take your time," Brooke said, kissing him in the cheek, though Lucas didn't reply, only stood still. Brooke sighed, walking over to Nathan, whose appearance only reflected one word: broken. Brooke rubbed his shoulder, while Nathan didn't reply. Weakly smiling, Brooke whispered goodbye, and she was gone.
Lucas and Nathan remained, both still and speechless. Lucas walked closer to Haley's grave, kneeling down. He also touched the tombstone, tearing all that he kept in these last days.
"Why Hales?" Lucas spoke for the first time. "Why did you kill yourself? You had so much to live for. Why did you let one guy tear you apart? It was suppose to be me and you against the world. Remember? Though it was me that forgot, Hales; I didn't mean to abandon you. Like Brooke, I thought you were improving, but it was all a lie. Why didn't you tell us the truth? I would have been there for you. I will…was always there for you. You were my best friend, no scratch that, you were my sister that shouldn't have died. I'm so sorry Haley if I have failed you. I never meant to spend more time with Brooke and focus the rest to basketball. I should have been with you, checked up on you. Who am I now suppose to go to for help, or to just hang out with? The river court guys miss you just as bad, but they'll never be my best friends like you were. No one ever will. I miss you Hales, so much. I keep thinking back at all the great memories we had. Like every year we write down our grade predictions, then our mini golf course on the roof. Our movie nights, and, our book conversations. I haven't even finished the book I began. It just reminds me of you because I'm in the chapter about you. It's too hard. I love you Haley, and know that I forgive you and that this is not my last visit. I love you" Lucas sincerely said, dropping down his rose on the grave and making his way to Nathan, who looked at him tired and scared.
Lucas stopped his walk, directly staring at Nathan. So many emotions ran through the Scott brothers.
"I don't know of what to think of you," Lucas spoke coldly to Nathan, whose eyes grew further teary as before.
"Then be like the rest, hate me. Hate me for taking away your best friend. Hate me for being an ass to her. Just hate me and leave," Nathan said as he looked down at his rose.
"But I don't want to hate you. I don't. But Haley's not here anymore and if she was, I know she would say not to hate you," Lucas replied.
"Then what do you think of me?" Nathan asked. Lucas stepped closer to him.
"Indifferent. All I know at this point is that I never want to see you again. For what we been through, you're not my brother anymore. He wouldn't have allowed Haley to kill herself," Lucas replied, followed by walking away, and from then on, he was also gone. Nathan remained alone, both on the outside and on the inside. He sniffed, trying to keep it all in, though no use. He laid on the top of his wife's grave, crying his eyes out, no caring if he had dirt all over him.
I'm
so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And
if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause
your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I wish this was one all a bad nightmare, which I could wake up and you'd be there beside me to calm me— beside me not dead. I didn't mean to cause so much grieve. I was just too fucking stubborn. Too damn stubborn for this pride I couldn't let go, and look what happened, look what it did. You're dead.
These
wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's
just too much that time cannot erase
"I never deserved you. Yes, I told you that you had a gift, and you do…did have one. The only reason I said that stupid ultimatum was because I was afraid you would leave me for good. I knew you would
get famous quickly, and then you would forget me and leave me. I didn't want to loose you, but I lost you anyways. I was selfish, and ass, any name given to me for treating you the way I did when you returned from tour. Why couldn't I just forgive you and let us be happy? Why am I like this? Why am I this stupid? You were the best thing that came to me, that happened to me. The only best thing that happened to me, and I took that for granted. I selfishly took you for granted, and for that I'm sorry.
When
you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd
fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of
these years
But you still have
All of me
"I also deserve all that hate from the people that love you. They all blame me, and I blame myself. Hales, come back. I need you. I need you so bad. We all do. I can't acceptance the fact that you're gone. I cant, I won't. Why did you have to kill yourself? Why couldn't you just divorce me and moved on. I would have preferred that, than this; anything but this. I don't want you gone. I need you here, beside me where you belong. What have I done?
You
used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by
the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant
dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
"You know, I think back on the day you first tutored me. How direct you were, and how you wouldn't take any of my crap. How much you taught me, how much you changed me. Remember when you got drunk at the beach and barfed on Dan? I'll never forget that. Then when you first cheered at the Secret Competition, and all the times you sang to me, when I felt most blue. You were always making me feel better, always. At our wedding, you looked so beautiful; then again, you always look beautiful, no matter what you were wearing. Baby, I…I… don't even know what to say anymore. This hurts me so much that I hurt you so much to make you have killed yourself. I feel like a murderer. Might as well say I am.
These
wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's
just too much that time cannot erase
"I know you are gone, and I pray you're at a better place, but know this. I love you. Always and forever, Haley, and I will never forget you. You will always be my wife, my first true love. You have all of me. I'm so sorry for have ever had caused this pain. I didn't mean to, I really didn't. If I could, I would take everything that has passed in a heart beat. I would do anything to have you back in my arms, Hales. But I'm too late. I was too fucking late! You needed me and I treated you like shit. I let others treat you bad as well. I allowed myself to hurt you. I ignored you. Ignorance is not bliss. Not now and not ever. I can't ever forget you. No one can ever replace you. I love you…always and forever," Nathan finished as he held onto the dirt while he sobbed.
I've
tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're
still with me
I've been alone all along
After awhile, Nathan rose from the ground and placed next to the tombstone the plastic bracelet he had once gave Haley. Swiftly, Nathan wiped away his tears, and then placed the rose next to the bracelet as he stared at his wife's grave one more time. He knew things would never be the same, but one day he had to accept those changes. After fixing his rose and bracelet, he gripped the top of the tombstone.
"Don't say I never gave you anything," Nathan faintly said and began to walk away, not once looking back.
End.
Over the course of the years, Nathan did come back and visit. He would visit on important dates like Valentines Day, Haley's birthday, and other accessions. He would tell her how his life has been like and that life never went back to normal, but then again, things would never go back to normal. Eventually, Karen forgave Nathan and that so did Lucas. The James', some talk to him, but Haley's parents will never forgive him. Though, Nathan was ok with that. Part of him could never forgive himself either.
With the friends, Peyton now owns Tric and is married to Lucas. They're expecting a child very content. They became a couple around two years ago, after Brooke and Lucas slit up. It was a mutual thing. Now they're great friends, and Brooke continued her fashion business and is now part of a campaign to help people around the globe with depression. She is also engaged to an actor. Karen and Keith also married while Deb and Dan are in marriage counseling. Though it took time, people did progress and slowly adjusted to their life without Haley. Her memory flows in Tree Hill, and it always will.
"Daddy, look! It says my name, Haley," the little blue eyed brunette pointed at the tombstone while Nathan smiled, and lifting her up.
"Yeah it does, but she's another Haley. Someone I want you to meet," Nathan said as he kissed his girl's cheek. Nathan then looked down at the tombstone.
"Hey Hales, I finally brought her like I promised. This is my daughter, Haley Jane Scott. She's six years old. Hay, say hello," Nathan told his daughter.
"Hello," Little Haley said, then went off to play with the flowers in the corner.
"She's cute isn't she? She's really smart too. Her teachers always complement her on how proficient she is on her tests. I'm really proud of her. Wow, I still can't believe 10 years have past. I still miss you dearly. But I kept my promise, like you asked. I found happiness. And I'm doing well as a lawyer. Basketball wasn't all I hoped for. But I am happy nonetheless," Nathan said while he watched his daughter play with the flowers.
"Just know that I love you, and I'll come back again, real soon. Happy anniversary, Hales, and one day, I'll see you again," Nathan said smiling as he placed the dozen white roses by Haley's tombstone. Staring for awhile more, Nathan began to walk away.
"Haley lets go," Nathan said as the bubbly little girl ran to her father and grabbed his hand. They walked to his car in complete bliss.