So Much Love, Too Much Drama
First of all, i jut want to let you know i Love Selena to pieces, so please don't Judge by the way its Written, it just came to me, and i wrote it as the idea's came. i apologize for anything that upsets people in this story. but like i said, this is the way it came to me. please don't judge for the sake of the story. like i said its just a story lol.
second, its not a Bieber Love story like most, its actually a Ryan Butler Love Story lol hope you like it
***There is a Language Warning in this story***
Chapter 9
Trip Down Memory Lane
I opened the door and who was standing there but Selena."What the hell do you want" i asked glaring at her "i'm sorry for what i did to you Sam" she said "i needed to come and talk to you because i'm not here for long just one day, actually i'm leaving after Justin's concert tonight" she continued, i wasn't really interested in hearing what she had to say, but i would listen because Ryan was standing there, and he wanted me to be the bigger person "but you need to know i do not want to lose Justin again, i couldn't help but notice that you avoided coming in contact with me when you got off the plane, and i wondered why" she asked "you want to know why i avoided you?" i said "well how about this, for number one,"
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i walked into the bathroom, and she was there waiting for me. "Selena?" i asked "I thought i told you to stay away from Justin" she said darkly "listen Selena" i started, backing toward the door, "there is NOTHING going on between Justin and I, i am in love with Ryan" i said, backing out the door slowly with her following me, Ryan seen me, but didn't rush, he knew that she would attack quicker if he did, but he started walking toward me with Kenny's brother. "No Sam, that's a lie, i seen the pictures, and the way you were looking at him" she snarled and proceeded and backed me into a wall, "Sel, c'mon you don't want to hurt me, you know, you don't want him to choose between you and me, he will choose me, I'm his lil sis." i tried to reason "NO" she screamed and lunged for me. and the last thing i remember seeing was Ryan Running for me.
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"or how about"
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BANG! was all i herd it woke me out of a dead sleep "Ryan" i whispered "Ryan, Babe, are you awake?" i asked, "Ryan" i started panicking and getting scared, BANG! there it is again, i started shaking Ryan frantically, because i needed him to be awake with me, "huh?, babe what time is it" he asked sleepily, "its a little after 3am, but i heard something outside and I'm scared Ryan, i want to know what it is" i said almost in tears Ryan wiped the tears from my face took my hand and led me downstairs, he opened the door and who was standing at the door but Selena, automatically i went to attack her, but Ryan pulled me back behind him. "What the hell do you want Selena, haven't you caused me enough pain tonight" i snarled "Calm down Sam, I'm not here to fight" she said "Well what the hell do you want then?" i shot back "I'm here to apologize, i attacked you when i shouldn't have, i was surprised to hear that you didn't tell Justin, you could have destroyed the one thing that matters most to me aside from my career, but you didn't and i wanted to know why"
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"Selena, i want nothing to do with you because of what you did to me, you and i were friends, you betrayed that, you also really hurt Justin, who is my brother, you know that, he hates when someone hurts family and friends. you are EXTREMELY lucky to have a second chance." i told her, she was just standing there in disbelief that i was talking to her like this "and another thing, do not, and i mean DO NOT think that we are friends, you can come out here and see J all you want, i will tolerate you, for the time that i HAVE to be around you, but you really hurt me, and we are no longer friends." i looked her right in the eye "Remember that" i said. "Sam, i truly am sorry for what i did, i know i betrayed that trust, i just hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me for what i've done, and hopefully we can work on the friendship thing." she said turning around and leaving.
"i'm proud of you babe." i felt Ryan's pull me back closing the door "you didn't attack her, you just told her what was on your mind. i told you, you were a better person" he said, i kissed him, and let him pull me back on the couch so he could hold me. we were listening to the radio when one of Justin's songs came on, That should be me, "every time i hear this song, Ryan, every time" i said, "i know babe, me too, me too" he said and held me tighter.
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"RYAN" i screamed "WHY? why would you do this to me?, how? i know we haven't been together long, but you know what i've been through the past few years with John, and Mitchell" i started crying, "i'm sorry, how many times can i say it so that you will understand" he said, it looked as though he was almost in tears, and it's not often you see a 15 year old boy in tears "Sam, we have been friends for years, and i swear i didn't mean to do it" he said "HOW CAN YOU NOT MEAN TO KISS ANOTHER GIRL" i screamed not understanding how he can do it, i mean he was on tour with Justin, he knew i was back home, i mean yea we've only been together a few weeks but still "i told you, she gave me a sweet basketball, i went to kiss her on the cheek to thank her and she turned her head and got her lips instead" he sniffled, crying by this point "Ryan, i am not understanding how you Accidentally kiss someone that is NOT your girlfriend, or should i say WAS" i was in full out tears by now, and so was he, "i'm done talking about it, i had to find out all over the news, and internet, it might have been different if it had of come from you, but it didn't you tried to hide it." i said, walking away.
I was halfway down the road to my house, i was happy it was raining so no one could see my tears, i just couldn't walk anymore, my legs just wouldn't carry me, they just gave out on me i collapsed on the side of the road, i loved Ryan so much, i always would, Justin may be my brother and protect me, but Ryan, he was always there for me, to protect me, and threaten or hurt the deadbeats i dated. i couldn't stop thinking about him, "what have i done" i sobbed to myself "why was i so stupid, why did i have to open my F***ing mouth" i was so busy talking to myself i didn't notice Ryan come up behind me, he must have followed me, "F**k Samantha, you are so Stupid" i said "You are by far, Not stupid" i herd, i jumped a little because he scared me, but he sat down beside me and just held me while i cried into his chest, i'm glad it was a black one because my liner was running, "why did you come after me?" i managed to ask between cries "Because, when you said we were over, i felt like my whole world came crashing down, and i realized how much i love you. Sam you don't understand what you mean to me and i can't lose you, you are my world, and you have been for a very long time. can we please start over, baby, i really need you in my life" he was in full out tears and he was holding on to me for life, i could feel his arms getting tighter around me and i just clung to him hiding my face.
It was still raining and we sat on the side of the road for what seemed like hours. "Ryan" i said looking up at him looking into his beautiful clear blue eyes, that were all glossy from all the crying, he looked back at me "please" was all he said and i could see it in his eyes that he was really sorry for what had happened in Atlanta, and that he would never let anything happen like that again. "Of Coarse we can start over, i'm so happy you came after me Ryan, like, i couldn't stand the pain of losing you so i collapsed, i was so stupid to say i was done, i'm so sorry baby, i'm so fucking sorry Ryan" i sobbed and started crying again. "shh" he said " It's not your fault, now lets get inside before we both get sick" he said, and picked me up and carried me back into the house where he told me to put on a pair of his jogging pants and his YMCMB sweater which were over sized on me he took one look at me when i changed and his eyes popped out of his head, "damn, you look sexy, ima let you keep those pants and sweater" he told me, i was glad because they were comfy. "Ryan, i'm gonna call my dad and let him know i'm staying here tonight" i told him, he nodded and kissed my forehead. That Should Be Me, Justin's new song, came on the radio station we were listening to as we drifted to sleep.
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Ryan and i were sitting on the couch snuggling and crying together as we remembered that night, there was another knock on the door, but this time Justin came through the door, we didn't even have to move, he seen us sitting on the couch crying with each other "whats wrong guys?" he asked and came in and sat down "oh its nothing Justin" i said whipping the tears from my eyes, "That should be me, Feeling Your Kiss" the Radio sang and Justin then realized what happened "that was a long time ago, why are you crying over it now?" he asked confused, he obviously didn't realize how big that was in our relationship, it had been one of the biggest fights we had "Justin, that night was a big night for us" Ryan said "I almost ruined the best thing in my life that night, tonight we are more emotional about it because tomorrow is our Anniversary" he explained "ohhh that's right too, i'm sorry guys, i forgot, i just wanted to come down and give you guys some news" he said "Selena isn't staying, actually her and i decided that its better for the two of us if we take some actual time apart, which means both of us single, until my tour is done" he said. "Justin, you realize that they are extending your tour to mid 2012 right?" i said "yeah and that's exactly why we're taking a break because neither of us have time for a relationship, with her tour coming up and her movies, and my tour and new album coming out this summer" he explained "anyways guys, ill leave you be for now, ill see ya's tonight at the concert" he said and headed out the door.