Rewind, Remix, Replay-14
Hello everyone! How's your week? I'm just happy that Castle is back :D My Tuesdays are happier now:) it's a great start to the week, don't you think? Sorry for the long wait again:( if I had more incentive, I would write faster;) ha ha ha. and OMG I sent a letter to stana yesterday i hope she gets it in time for Beckett's birthday:$ I still can't believe that my birthday is so close to hers
My special mentions this week go to castlebeckett siempre, BlueTigress, Caskettforever (),
for being so sweet and leaving me with some reviews:D
Oh yeah! Shoutout to all my story alerters! Thanks so much for alerting and reading my story:)
Disclaimer- if I owned castle, Castle and Beckett would make out the entire episode...
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Previously:
Italics- "CASTLE? What the he- HOW DID YOU GET IN HERE?"
Beckett grabbed the nearest piece of clothes she could find, which just happened to be Josh's old T-shirt, and held it over her half-nude body. Castle averted his gaze as he handed her a robe that was lying on her bed, since the thin T-shirt she was clutching so tightly didn't do much to cover her tall and slim body. Beckett flushed visibly but tilted her head downwards as she gladly accepted the robe, and proceeded to gracelessly run into the bathroom with whatever dignity she had left.
She reappeared a few minutes later, with her face scrubbed and her hair tied up neatly in a ponytail, dressed in the fluffy pink robe. She had stuffed the T-shirt into the rubbish chute the moment after she entered the room.
"Why detective, pink DOES look good on you. And you really didn't have to go through so much trouble, I've seen everything already." He expected a chuckle of some sorts but got nothing. The only reply she graced him with was curt and to the point.
"What do you want, Castle?" She knew she was supposed to laugh in order to humor him, but she just couldn't summon the energy to. It was already killing her on the insides to see him here, when he had obviously not chosen her. "I just wanted to talk."
"Great. Well, talk away, because that is probably the one and only thing you know how to do." He flinched visibly at her harsh words, and she didn't draw back. Her wall was crumbling and she didn't have much defenses left. He may hurt her today, and she was going to die if he did. So, the only thing left to do was try to push him away, or die trying; but unfortunately for her, other than the initial shock of her words, Castle ignored her completely and started speaking again.
"You're soaked. The rain didn't start until at least 20 minutes after you left. " She looked up in alarm, after figuring out where this was going. She was caught red handed. She looked up at him in anticipation, But he merely raised his eyebrows in question." I'd say you were still outside my door eavesdropping, weren't you? And you were still there when Alexis came home." She tried to rack her mind to formulate an excuse but came up with nothing.
'Damn it! The rain really turned my brain to mush, didn't it? And it has absolutely NOTHING to do with Castle sitting in front of me.' she thought. 'what am I going to say?'
"What do you want Castle? Either you spit it out right now, or you leave; because I have other things to do, instead of just talking to you. " She said sharply.
"I want to know, why, Kate. Why did you stay and listen to me and Meredith? Why did you even agree to the contest in the first place? Why did you sleep with me that night, even though you knew we were drunk?" He stepped forward and looked into her eyes. He saw the anger, the confusion, the guilt; but what he saw that shocked him the most was the fear that she now bared. She was terrified. Not of him, but of what he was implying.
"I-I... I was under the influence of alcohol. So, I had no control over what we were doing. I wasn't thinking when I said anything. It was obviously a mistake. And I shouldn't have stayed. It wasn't worth it." She shook her head and stared back at him stubbornly.
"Kate Beckett, are you in love with me?" He asked her seriously.
"No. I'm not. I don't have any feelings for you." Kate replied. She had to get him out fast, or she will break down in front of him.
"Why do you still lie, Kate? When you and both know that i can see right through you?"
"Castle, you're just deceiving yourself with silly dreams and aspirations of me being in love with you. Stop it. It's clouding your view of reality."
"Silly dreams? I never said anything about dreams. It sounds like YOU'RE the one who is deceiving yourself. "
"I am NOT in love with you. Please leave Castle, I can't deal with you right now." she shut her eyes and pinched the bridge of her nose, in an attempt to calm herself down. When she opened her eyes, Castle was standing so close to her that she could feel his breath on her lips. "Care to test that theory?"
He cut her off with a kiss before she could say anything more. It was short, but intense, and it took Kate's breath away. Making buried memories from that night come back and hit her with a vengeance. Hell, she wanted him again. Badly.
At such a close distance, Castle saw her pupils dilate until he could barely see the deep brown in her irises. He could see that even such a short kiss had aroused her immensely, and was slightly surprised at her reaction. Since he himself was trembling on his feet. "Now, do you love me?" He asked shakily, when he finally found his voice. She said nothing, just continued to stare at him. Until something snapped within her.
"Please, Rick. You did what you came to do. So now, please just go."
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to-" He started.
"Yes, you did. You meant it. Now go." She turned away and went to her room, and locked the door, before the dam broke.
The whole place was silent except for the soft sobs that came from behind the locked door. Rick stared blankly at the door and the rest of the house. It was messy and there were pieces of clothes strewn over the place. It had an air of sadness and forgotten memories carefully buried residing in the place. The pitiful atmosphere tore at his heart and he couldn't resist the urge to place his ear at her door. She was still crying, but it was less painful.
"I'm going to go now, but I just wanted to say what I had originally intended. I love you, Kate. And I choose you over her. " He whispered through the door.
He left with a heavy conscience, knowing that he may have just ruined the best thing that he could have ever had.
All the while, in the small and enclosed space of Kate's bedroom, Rick could not hear Kate sobbing "yes" over and over. She lay back onto her tear-soaked pillow, and whispered the words "I love you too", to the empty room.
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Hey Guys! How was it? I'm going to end this fic soon, but it was great writing it:) don't worry, I'll save all the sappy stuff for the end:) hahaha. Anyway, so what do you think of this chapter? Personally, I wrote it during choir practice when I was sick, so I am not that satisfied with it. But I felt that I should update this fic, instead of waiting so long, so there you have it:) I think this one was too short. So hopefully I can write something longer next chapter…
Some reviews please? It would be a great present for my birthday;) yup! Another year has passed and I'm still alive :D I wanted to upload this before Sunday, because I will be so busy I have so many concerts to prepare for, and lots of work to do.
I'll update as fast as I can, but only if I can find the time, because my schedule is fully packed. And I am not even doing NaNo... Lol :) okay i will stop rambling now, before I bore you guys to death :)
Hope you liked this chapter! Please leave a review on your way out and see you next time!
~Lianna