Title: Getting over it 3/
Author: MsCrazybird
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: PG
Summary: The story continues as Callie gets closer to her patient and feelings flare up in the hearts of our characters.
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A/N: Reviews equal love! Updates are going to be much slower as class has officially started up again, but I promise to work on it!
Callie sat there in astonishment. How was it exactly that she was sitting, her eyes puffy and red, with the very same woman that had broken her heart? The one that had caused so many of the same tears recently that made her eyes red?
Arizona had dragged her into the on-call room just a few minutes ago, no words had been spoken between the two, but looking into each others eyes Callie had burst into tears. She didn't really know exactly why she had cried; it could have been seeing Arizona today, or her own kiss between Jackson, or Molly's situation, or even just a combination of all three that had just teetered her over the edge.
Arizona sat there and comforted her to the best of her abilities, but somewhere inside her she felt that the reason for these tears was only because of what she did. How could she let herself be so unprofessional? In a hallway? A shudder crept through her body at the thought of someone other than Callie seeing them. She could have been knee deep in trouble if a patient or worse a parent of a patient had seen them. Her stomach churned as she began feeling a little sick.
She lowered herself to sit next to Callie rubbing her shoulders trying to calm the sobs that were being splayed throughout the entire room. Arizona wrapped her arm across her back grabbing Callie's shoulder with her hand leaning her into cry on her shoulder. She didn't know what words to say in order to comfort her; instead she sat there silenced, allowing the sounds of Callie to fill the entirety of the room.
She closed her eyes. It was all strange that they would be in this on-call room. The very same that they had shared so many good moments, so many precious and heart felt moments; moments that were, as she always said, perfect, but then anything she had ever done with Callie was, in her words, perfect. A solitary tear rolled out of her eye leaving a streak down her cheek before she wiped it away with her index finger, letting out a breath that she didn't even realize she was holding.
Her whole body quivered for just a moment as she sucked in a lung full of air letting it out slowly. She refused to let herself crumble, not now. This was not her moment and in the depths of her entire being she knew this to be true. Taking in a deep breath, Arizona knew that she had to, in some way, correct all of this. In her mind it was all her own fault because of her frailties. Because she knew that she couldn't work on a future if she couldn't deal with her past and it was her flaws that had led the woman that she loved more than anything in the world away, and now into tears.
A child, she thought to herself, nothing was wrong with wanting a child. She always questioned her own ability to be a good parent, but some how it had never really bothered her. But now it was a constant. Callie meant everything to her, but her own insecurities drove her away and on several occasions she had scolded herself looking into the mirror only to turn away from what she seen. It had been Callie that gave her that ability to roll everything away and now it had to be her finding comfort in all the wrong places with all the wrong people.
Arizona sighed taking in a deep breath, "Callie…I'm…I'm so sorry…about, well…everything." She tried desperately not to let the pain that she felt escape through her words and she winced when she heard that she in no way covered it up. Callie said nothing, but the sobs seemed to have subsided sending a rush of relief throughout the blondes body. She started up again speaking softly. "Callie," she paused a moment and Callie shifted her gaze to look into two pools of blue, "I know that this… what I did… I wasn't thinking, it was stupid…I'm so sorry…it was nothing…I never meant to hurt you." She babbled on for a while.
Callie straightened up. Putting her hand up in front of Arizona's face, she managed to stop the blonde from rambling on. "This, this here," She motioned around the room beginning to speak animatedly. "It honestly had nothing to do with that. And the fact is I'm sorry. I truly am sorry that I had to break down in front of you. Because really, I am just so stressed and this, this was not about your lack of professionalism, this was about me and my closeness to a case and subsequently my patient even more. Thank you."
Arizona's eyes widened and her mouth fell open just a little bit. She was dumbfounded as she racked her mind for something anything to say, but there was nothing. Maybe she was being a little full of herself when she automatically had assumed she was the cause of any sort of feelings from the Latina, but she could feel her cheeks growing hotter by the second. And although she rarely ever allowed herself to indulge in anger she could feel its strong grasp crippling her body because, although, Arizona was used to much taunting or ridicule for her overly perky outlook, when it came to someone questioning anything about her professionalism it sent her sky rocketing into anger. And right now her anger was directed solely at one person, Callie.
Deep down Callie had known that she had stricken a cord with Arizona. But somehow her not giving in to her true feelings seemed a whole lot better at the moment. Callie looked at her unfazed, honestly she had been unprofessional, but calling her out on it was a totally new ballgame. Callie crossed her arms in front of her chest and looked at Arizona, she was trying her hardest not to turn into mush right in front of the blonde because, like always, the sight of her being mad made her want to crumble and take everything back.
Callie knew she had to be strong, if not for her for Arizona, because her breaking down would lead on to more meaningful moments that she knew neither of them could truly handle. So she tried to wash her true feelings away and be as stone-face as possible, feeling the blondes anger building causing tension in the room, she knew she cared, but she tried not to. Replacing love and hurt with anger, Callie prepared for what Arizona would undoubted unleash upon her.
"Professionalism!" Arizona huffed getting to her feet so that she would be able to stand in front of the brunette. She looked down at the sitting figure intently, squinting her eyes and wrapping her arms in front of her chest. Her face was hot with anger and her whole body was shaking. "You, Callie, you are questioning my professionalism. How dare you? There is no way that you are going to come around me and question my professionalism, I am anything, but professional at all times!" Callie grunted a little at her statement rolling her eyes. "Are you trying to imply that I'm not?" her tone raised her face looking shocked. Callie opened her mouth to speak, but her thoughts were cut-off by Arizona picking up her ranting. "No, don't speak; you have no right to speak. There is nothing you could say Callie; nothing that I want to hear escape those lips because deep down inside you know that you are wrong!" she was panting pointing at Callie. "A person does not get 25 million dollar donation for being unprofessional!" she nodded. She felt a fleeting feeling of victory taking over for a brief passing moment before Callie started.
"That," she spoke in a hushed angry tone speaking through teeth, "that in the hall was anything but you acting professional, Arizona and I am so tired of you always bringing that donation up. It is not always going to work as a trump in every conversation. You can't always win especially when you know you're wrong. Now you're just trying to cover your ass, but you can't. It is not going to work this time, you…" she huffed trailing off. She had almost lost complete control, but she was trying her hardest not to loose everything and ending up saying something that she would most definitely regret. "You," she spoke again a little softer shaking her head, "just you, ugh" she threw her hands up in frustration unable to find anything to say.
Callie leaned down covering her face with her hands closing her eyes tightly. Somewhere deep inside she was crying, but not out here, not now, not again. She prayed that this moment wasn't real and soon she would wake up in her own warm bed to her alarm clock, but it was real and there was no way of getting passed this all.
Arizona opened her mouth to protest, but then quickly shut it realizing she had nothing to say, Callie was right and there was no getting around it and boy did she hate that she was right. She just stood there arms crossed looking down at the woman. There was no sense in denying the truth and Arizona knew it. Slowly she slumped sitting once again next to the brunette letting out a loud sigh there was nothing she could do or say to make this situation any better. Then worry struck across Arizona's mind. Callie would never tell anyone what she saw, would she? She was definitely going to tell Mark. Mark could totally keep a secret; I mean no one ever heard about Erica and Callie's relationship. But she was going to tell Mark and that meant one thing: more of his inappropriate talk, great.
Callie stood bringing Arizona back from her own world of thoughts. Callie didn't want to be in this room anymore, she couldn't stay in this room anymore not with her exhaustion slowly taking over every coherent thought she had. Not with her mind racing and her senses still tingling from when the blonde had rubbed her back. No, she knew that she could not do this and her body was breaking down now. She forced back more tears letting out a long shaky sigh as she swayed just a little. Sleep sounded amazingly good right now, way better than storming off out of this room, but deep down she knew she had to do it.
Arizona knew Callie all too well. The moment that she heard that shaky breath she could feel it in her bones, Callie's hurt and pain. Now she was able to see it all of her attempts at being strong all in that distinctly Callie way she had come to spot out whilst they were together. In that breath she knew that Callie was fighting back tears and in that sway she could tell how overly exhausted she was, maybe she wasn't getting any sleep either. She felt her spirits lift just a little at the thought of the beautiful Latina missing her presence as much as she missed hers.
Before Callie could make it to the door Arizona reached out grabbing her hand and pulling her back to her as Arizona stood. "Callie" was the only words that could escape the blonde's lips as she stared into the dark orbs that were now puffy and red from tears. They stood locked in a trance for the briefest of moments before they could feel the surge of old feelings making its way through each of their bodies. Their bodies tingled with the sensation of just the small contacted that they had. Goosebumps dotted Arizona's arm making its way up from were her hand tightly held onto the brunette's.
She could see it in her eyes, the way they went misty and were even darker than their normal soulful brown, Callie, too, was feeling what she was. Arizona took a small step closing the distance between them. She searched the deep pools of brown before slowly closing in, leaning her upper body closer to Callie's. She stopped a mere inch between their lips as she breathed in the intoxicating smell that was Callie. Seeing that Callie did not move or hesitate she finally closed the gap between their lips lightly applying pressure as she kissed her.
The moment their lips touch it was like a volt of electricity had run down each of their spines sending little shocks out to their limbs. Callie let her eyes close at the softness of the lips that were against hers allowing the blonde to have full control of the kiss. Callie's lips separated subconsciously as Arizona's skilled tongue entered her mouth eliciting a slight moan from each of their mouths at the familiar taste that greeted them. Arizona's tongue swirled around in Callie's mouth massaging her tongue and trying to reacquaint herself with all that she once knew. She sucked on her bottom lip slowly as she rubbed her tongue against it before taking it between here teeth and pulling slightly causing a low moan escape Callie.
Arizona could feel her want building inside of her forcing her body closer to the brunette's desperate for more contact. As she felt the warmth of her body she shuttered she could feel her arousal growing from the slightest shift in position and she wanted more, needed more. Her hand moved up the side of Callie's body rubbing her side as it went further up to grasp a hand full of black hair. Maneuvering Callie's head to the side, Arizona slowly kissed her jaw line down to her neck lavishing her tongue onto her pulse point.
Callie loved the familiarity of Arizona's mouth on her body. She felt as her arousal increased setting her body on fire with lust and desire that she could hardly control it any longer. Her hands swiftly moved from their place by her side to around Arizona's waist traveling down to grip her ass tightly in her hands pulling her impossibly further into her body allowing her thigh to slip between the blonde's legs coming in contact with her center.
Arizona pushed down onto Callie's thigh rubbing back and forth feeling her wetness spew from within her. She loved the friction that her panties caused against her center as she continued to rub against Callie's thigh. She let her hands slide down the brunettes sides stopping at her waist as she returned her mouth to hers kissing her heatedly. Rubbing circles under Callie's top Arizona began slowly pulling up the shirt gently rubbing the skin that her hands traveled over. She cupped the lace clad breasts as she reached them starting to massage them gently, pinching a nipple with her index finger and thumb. Callie arched closer to Arizona's body wanting more contact.
Callie wanted this, she needed it and she couldn't get enough of the blonde kissing her. Her body was pushing up against hers fitting together with hers like to perfectly matched puzzle pieces forming to each others body. A moan sounded from Arizona as she ground harder against the brunette's thigh. Callie's hands pulling her hard down against her thigh was driving her insane, but it wasn't enough she wanted more, she wanted what she had been dreaming of all too often and this was her opportunity to get it and she was determined to get it.
Arizona pushing Callie's bra up revealing her bare breast, she immediately lowered her head to eye level with them taking in their beauty before taking one into her mouth sucking on it gently as she swirled her tongue around her hardened nipple before flicking it, making Callie moan loudly. She gently massaged the other breast with her free hand as Callie's hand made it to the golden locks pulling her closer to her body, begging for more. Feeling the brunette's pull Arizona slowly let her hand trail down the caramel colored abdomen before finally reaching the top of jeans. Skillfully she unbuttoned them as her hand slipped in finding her wet center and massaging the hardened nub before rubbing along the entire length of her slit eliciting a moan from deep within Callie.
Callie's head fell back as she moaned. Her senses were rushing all around her. Thoughts only returned to her mind as the name of the blonde slipped from her lips in a guttural moan. "Mmm…Arizona," Callie's eyes opened widening with the name that she just spoke. She realized the name she spoke and feeling the hair between her fingers she knew that it wasn't one of her sweet dreams, this was real. This was real! Wait it was real. Yes oh god yes right ther… no, no this no it's wrong. Oh, but it feels so good, Arizona yes, no okay, no. I'm not easy not just what you can do and hurt and have your way with no matter how much I want to do this. No. Okay, I have to stop her that is exactly what I am going to do. Stop her. She chanted the last words to herself for a brief second before finally pulling the blonde's hand away and pushing her breaking their contact.
Arizona stared at her questioningly.
"I can't. We can't, this can't happen. We both know that we can't do this." Callie answered her unasked question, adjusting her clothing before turning towards the door to run out.