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We all sat around the table, and I have to say that it was quite awkward.

"So," James clapped his hands together. "What have you been up to, sis?"

I looked at my plate and started, "Uh, you know...normal, boring teenager stuff,"

"Like what?" he proceeded. Was he trying to make me uncomfortable.

"School," I said while nodding.

"And you're out for the summer, correct?" Mrs. Knight asked.

I nodded. "Out forever, kind of..." I added. "I graduated last month,"

"How'd you manage to do that? You just turned seventeen," James added.

"I had plenty of credits, so..." I said awkwardly. I never even looked up at my brother until an awkward silence.

I looked up at the others when James was looking down- I mouthed 'help!'.

"Erm," Logan started. "These dinosaur chicken nuggets are wonderful, Mrs. Knight!"

"There the same ones that I fix every week," she said when raising her eyebrow.

"Yeah, we must be very hungry!" Carlos added while stuffing his mouth.

I started rubbing my temples.

Kendall must have noticed, because he started talking about how hard Gustavo was working them today.

This dude seemed like a terrible boss, and I don't know how anyone could put up with him. He made them do several hours of harmonies, and he constantly yelled at them.

"Does this guy ever give you guys a break?" I asked un disbelief, starting to feel more comfortable.

"Never," all of the guys said.

There was another silence for a minute and then James, of course decided to ask me questions again.

"So how's mom?" he asked, I finally looked up at him.

"Nothing's changed, but she's probably busier than ever," I said simply.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"What do you mean?" I asked him.

"You're acting really weird," he stated.

"Thanks, James!" I said sarcastically.

"See?" he said. "Guys, don't you think she's being weird?"

I shot him a look, and the guys didn't dare to answer. What was up with James and his questions?

"May I be excused?" I asked Mrs. Knight.

"Of course honey," she said. "You can go ahead and grab your luggage,"

I slowly got up from the table and grabbed my luggage.

"I'll show her to her room and help her unpack!" my brother exclaimed.

I clenched my teeth and felt an arm around my shoulder.

"It's down this hall," he smiled his pearly white smile. I wasn't sure if he was trying to be nice, or what.

We came to a door and he opened the door. The walls were painted a light turquoise color, and there was white carpet. The bedding had a big teal floral pattern on it and my bed was queen size, schweet.

"I hope you like it," he said with his smile returning.

A small smile twitched onto my lips and I started unpacking my suitcase.

"You've changed a lot, you know that?" he told me while sitting on my bed.

"You have too, you know,"

"I know, but I wish I would've been there," he told me.

"You're here now, isn't that enough?" I asked.

He shook his head and gave me a fake little laugh. "No, it's not. I missed your graduation, homecomings, proms, and all of the little things in between," he listed off. Was he trying to make me guilty? It's not like he could've made time even if he knew.

"I never went to homecoming or prom," I assured him.

There was yet another awkward silence and then he blurted out, "Why didn't you call any of us?"

I swallowed hard and said, "I really didn't want to talk to you,"

He nodded and then rubbed the back of his neck. "That's a little harsh, don't you think?"

"You left Minnesota without saying goodbye, that's a little harsh, don't you think?" I mocked him.

"It's not like I had a choice!" he said in an angry tone, matching mine. "You are my world, Jade!" he said at a loss for words.

Tears started to form in my eyes. "You had a choice, and you took a chance. I'm glad you did because you got what you always wanted- to be famous," I said softly. "You didn't need me or mom to get in your way,"

He rolled his eyes, but his expression softened. "You wouldn't have gotten in the way, how could you even think that?" he asked while his hazel eyes bared into mine of the same color.

"I have my reasons," I said, putting my clothes into the drawers and slamming them shut.

"My question is- why are you here now?" I paused for a moment.

"Mom is in Europe, and she wouldn't let me stay in Minnesota alone," I said. "If you want me to leave, I will. Trust me, I never wanted to come," I said shaking my head.

"You're not 18 yet, so you can't leave," he told me. "And that makes me in charge of you,"

I laughed at is childish remark. "Actually," I started. "Mrs. Knight is in charge of me. And you've acted like you didn't want me here since dinner,"

"I want you here!" he said in a shrill voice.

"Then act like it!" I said frustratedly. "You ask me awkward questions all through dinner, and you won't even let me breathe!"

"I don't see how questions can't be awkward when your little sister has ignored you for 2 years," he mumbled.

I heard what he said- it hurt, and it was true.

"Go away," I said, tears starting to cascade down my cheeks.

He looked up at me, and I repeated what I said. He listened, and walked out my door.

I burst into tears as soon as the door clicked shut. I couldn't even handle James. I felt so guilty about isolating myself. I wonder what Logan, Carlos, and Kendall thought...

What seemed like seconds later, my phone started ringing. The caller ID said 'Brooke Diamond'.

I wiped my tears away and cleared my throat.

"Hey mom,"

"Hello, sweetie! How are you getting settled in?" she asked.

"It's great mom," I said simply.

"Have you and James caught up?"

"A little, but we haven't had much time yet,"

Not a complete lie...

"Are you okay?" she asked.

"Why would you ask that?"

"Just thought I'd ask. Are you sure everything's fine?"

"Yeah, everything is great. You don't have to worry about me. I'm having a blast," I assured her.

That was a total lie...

"Okay honey, well I have to go. I'll talk to you later,"

"Don't worry about me, bye mom,"

"Bye sweetie, love you,"

"Love you," I said with my voice cracking. I hung up and sat my phone onto my bedside table. I sat on my bed, pulling my knees to my chest. Tears were still free-falling from my hazel eyes.

I heard a knock at my door.

"Go away!" I yelled.

The door opened anyway, revealing Kendall with his hands in his pockets.

"Are you okay?" he asked, shutting the door behind him.

"Why does everyone keep asking that?"

"Because we know you're not," he said, sitting down on the bed next to me.

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Sorry that I had to leave it at a cliffhanger!

I can't wait to develop the Jade/James and Jade/Kendall relationships more though!

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