Title: Who Knew
Chapter Two: Hurt
Summary: When Tori Vega stopped talking to her long time best friend Jade West she never expected the heart break she felt, and now that she's found her again she wont let her go.
Rated: T for now, but possibly M later on. I'm not sure.
Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious, unfortunately.
A/N:Just like in real high school, teenagers have potty mouths. Even though I try to use some of the random words Dan put in his shows.
Jade refused to look at me the rest of the day, even though she, Beck, Cat, Robbie, his creepy puppet Rex, Andre and I had lunch together and she sat beside me, but refused to look my way.
If her arm accidentally brushed mine, she'd recoil, lean into Beck and kiss him wrapping around him like he would solve all of her problems. Some people might think she was marking her territory, but I knew she was hiding behind him.
I wasn't sure why, or who (okay probably me), she was hiding from but it amused me to no end. I fought the laughter on my lips, but I was failing to keep it inside of me. Her leg brushed mine under the table and I heard her growl under her breath in frustration.
I bit down on my lip and moved closer to Andre to relieve her of her impending anxiety attack. "Torriii!" my sisters whining voice pierced my ears. I noticed three things happen when she approached, everyone fell silent, Jade shifted subtly toward me, and a headache pressed on my skull as her fingers dug into my shoulders, "Tori's friends."
"I'm not her friend." Jade snapped, like she did every time she had the opportunity, her eyes focusing on the coffee in her hand. Something in my stomach twisted at the words.
"Oh really? Because I seem to recall-." Jade and I jumped at the same time, I slapped my hand over Trina's mouth, and Jade threw her drink at Trina, making Trina flail, ending with her dumping her coffee on us, most importantly my shirt.
"Shit. Just look what you did you idiot!" Jade snarled, her hands rolling into fists. I dug my nails into Trina's arm, she cried in pain and I hauled her across the asphalt café, and more importantly away from the table full of people who didn't need to know about the things Trina almost spoke of.
"Keep your mouth shut. Nobody needs to know about Jade and I, got it? Nobody." Trina rolled her eyes at me, I dug my nails into her arm, she whined and tried to pry her arm out of my grip, I wouldn't let go until she agreed to keep quiet, and then I walked back toward the table, ignoring the fact that she said Jade and I were both alike.
"Come on Vega." Jade growled before I could make it to the table, she pulled me off my feet almost, shoving my bag into my chest and pushing me toward the bathroom, pushing harder then the last time each time I would pause until I was inside the bathroom.
She checked the stalls, flipped the door locked and spun to face me, her eyes burning with anger, "what the hell is that demented sister of yours thinking?" Jade screamed, her hands balling into fists.
"Oh would you stop being so dramatic." I snapped, rolling my eyes. Whythehellwasshesoworriedaboutanyonefindingout?
"Oh like you've run around telling people you know me!" Jade replied, giving me a pointed look. I let my bag drop to the floor, turning to the mirror and away from her, looking at my ruined shirt, "Don't ignore me, Vega." She growled.
"Look, I'm respecting the fact that you want to pretend you never met me, and that's just fine with me, but you need to stop all your jumpy crap. Everyone else might not know why, but they all know you're hiding behind Beck for some reason. Do you want them to find out?"
"No! I don't want them to know I was every friend's with someone as stupid as you!" she yelled back, I tried to hide it the best I could, but I was hurt by her words. Somewhere deep down in the part of my heart that still loved her, it hurt.
"The feeling is deeply mutual. And you owe me a new shirt." I told her calmly.
"You ruined my boyfriends, we're even." She snapped. I rolled my eyes, my fingers curling around the bottom of my shirt and pulling it up, "what are you doing?" she sounded freaked out and annoyed. It made me chuckle.
"I'm washing my shirt." I answered, tossing the stained shirt into the sink. I felt Jade's eyes raking over my stomach and back as I stood washing the shirt. I did have a hoodie in my bag, but making Jade uncomfortable was pretty funny because it was always a rare occurrence, "and we're not even, you ruined my shirt yesterday when you dumped coffee on my head. You owe me a new shirt, West." She was silent.
Eventually she stepped up to the sinks behind me, her own shirt dropping into my sink above mine, but unlike me, she had a tank top on. I pulled my shirt out of the sink and tossed it into another one before starting to wash hers.
She raised an eyebrow, obviously not expecting me to actually clean it. After I rang it out I slammed my hand down on the dryer button and hung the shirt over it so it would dry. I hung mine over the other one and then pulled my jacket out of my backpack. Her eyes were wide with shock when I pulled it out as I examined my damp bra.
I pulled the hoodie on and reached underneath it to unhook my sticky bra, dropping it in the sink as well. Trina owed me a new bra. She had ruined another bra, I don't know what her malfunction was but my last bra she spilled juice on. It's like she knew I was wearing one of my good bras and she just couldn't stand it.
"To-Vega." Jade corrected her, leaning against the sink to watch me, absently pushing the button on the heater when it shut off, she leaned over and hit the one on my shirt too, "I'm sorry about this, I really am. But I can't handle my ex-best friend walking into my life out of nowhere. I haven't ever told anyone-."
"About you being a lesbian once upon a time? I kind of figured that out on my own." I replied, picking up my bag off of the ground, ripping my shirt off of the dryer, grabbing my bra and marching toward the door, "I'm not stupid Jade, you know that."
I jerked the door open, stalking over to my locker angrily, I threw my shirt and bra into it, jerked out my books, and slammed the locker door closed, "well someone's a little bitter. I guess Jade has that effect on people, huh?" Andre was leaning up against one of the other lockers around mine.
"You have no idea." I muttered under my breath.
"You just met her, eventually she gets better." Andre tried to reason, shouldering his backpack and wrapping his free arm around my shoulder to push me toward our math class. I flopped uselessly into my chair and dropped my bag on the ground.
Andre sat beside me, trying to get me to smile, but it wasn't working. I was angry. And Jade simply calling me stupid had evoked this. What was wrong with me? I rested my head on my folded up arms and stared blankly at the math problems on the board that I was probably supposed to be doing.
"Miss Vega! If you're going to sleep during your first day in my class I'm going to have to give you detention, tomorrow after school." I nodded absently, sitting up and flipping open my book to act like I was paying attention.
"Who else can I ask for a ride?" I yelled after Trina, she just kept walking away. With a frown I shuffled into Sikowitz's class, dropping into a seat with a frown.
"You don't look happy." Jade's merry and sarcastic voice rolled through my head, I glanced up at her and narrowed my eyes at the smile on her face that made her cheeks push up in the nicest way.
Shehad great cheeks.
"Jade, play nice." Beck told her, pushing a coffee into her hands before he took a seat, "what's wrong Tori?" he spun in his chair so his folded arms were resting on the back and his legs were wrapped around it.
"Trina is ditching me after school because I got a frickin' detention, so I have to walk home." Beck's mouth turned up into a grin and he glanced at Jade who looked instantly annoyed, "What is it?" I pushed myself up in my chair to look between the pair of them.
"Well, I have detention this afternoon." His eyes were on Jade and so were mine, her eyebrows shot up, "So I can drive you home Tori." Anger flashed through Jade's eyes and the hand around her cup tightened, the top popped off and coffee sprayed on my hair.
"Quit getting coffee on me, West!" I snapped irritably.
The back door of the room burst open and Sikowitz strolled in, "Quick! You're passionately in love with the person you're looking at." Three things happened then, Jade's eyes widened for a millisecond, Beck's jaw dropped open, and almost in unison Beck and Jade dropped down in front of me, and said "I love you Tori/Vega."
Ihappened to be staring at Jade; I turned from once to the other, "I'm sorry Beck! But I'm in love with Jade!" he faked heart break while Jade grasped my hand, it sent shocks up my arm and my eyes snapped over to her, she was staring up at me with an intense look in her burnt green eyes.
"Vega, I want to be with you forever. I'm so in love with you!" Her eyes swung from me to Sikowitz who was making fun of Robbie who was acting in love with Cat who was in love with Rex. When she looked back at me I could see the laughter in her eyes.
"I'm in-."
"Okay, and we're done!" Sikowitz called laughter in his voice as he watched Robbie stare in shock at Cat who had been kissing Rex. Jade was too busy watching this happen to realize she was still holding my hand, and our clasped hands were resting on my thigh.
But when she did realize it, she violently jerked her hand out of mine and threw herself at Beck, snuggling against his side and kissing him until Sikowitz cleared his throat. Jade let out an annoyed sigh and leaned up against Beck, pulling out her phone.
Sikowitz went on and on about this stupid bird scene I had to do, but I wasn't listening. My arm was still tingling, my heart was hammering in my chest and all I could think about were the words I'd wanted to hear for so long, no matter what contexts they'd been said in, she fucking said she loved me.
I was over reacting, I needed to stop. It was an acting exercise, she hates you Tori. Well, not hate, but she sure as hell doesn't even like you, let alone love you. You're getting worked up over nothing.
The bell ringing jarred me out of stupor, and I found I missed the whole freaking class, but I didn't care anymore. I picked up my bag and started walking out to lunch with everyone else.
"So Tor, you have any guesses what Sikowitz is going to have us do Friday?" Cat asked.
"What do you mean?" I asked, stabbing at my salad, "What's Sikowitz having us do Friday?"
"He said we're going to be paired up for some team building thing." Andre shrugged in response, taking a bite out of his burrito. I was about to reply when a booted foot shoved at my hip until I was practically sitting on Robbie, who was elated when this happened, and Jade dropped down onto the bench next to the empty space that I used to be sitting on.
"I don't think so, West." I hissed, scooting back into my original spot, stabbing once more at the lettuce of my salad. Everyone gave me a shocked look, then looked a Jade as if waiting for her to stab me or something, and then pretended to be completely invested in whatever they were having for lunch.
"Watch yourself, Vega." Jade hissed, leaning to whisper it in my ear. I rolled my eyes at her and turned to Andre, asking him to tell me about whatever Sikowitz was having us do since I 'fell asleep'.
"Well he said Friday we're getting paired up with someone in the class as a team building exercise, laughed all creepy and said it would be a fun game." Andre shrugged; taking the final bite of his lunch as I finally stuffed the butchered lettuce into my mouth.
Cat started babbling about something that I didn't listen to because I was busy pulling out my script for the bird scene I had to do. It seemed simple enough, but I wasn't sure why exactly I needed to do it.
Aside from the fact that Sikowitz was a lunatic and is probably just doing this for some sort of amusement, the reasoning behind this still baffles me. All I wanted to do was be in Andre's play, not to perform some stupid bird scene.
Oh well.
"Today's detention will be held in room D14, please make sure to report for detention." Rang over the loud speaker right after the bell, the sound seemed to vibrate through my locker, and into my head.
A body slumped against the locker beside me, when I turned to look at it I found Beck looking down at me with a concerned look "are you alright? You look like somebody kicked your puppy."
"Well, if I was sad, that would probably make me even sadder." I replied, slamming my locker door shut and adjusting the bag on my shoulder, "I'm just tired and I don't want to go to this stupid detention."
"What'd you get detention for anyways?" Beck asked as we started walking toward room D14, he fell into step beside me.
"Spacing out during math class, on my first day attending class." I answered, "What about you?"
"Skipping class." He shrugged, pulling open the door for me; I stepped into the room ahead of him, looked around and headed straight toward the back of the room. Beck followed me and took the very last seat in the back beside me.
We sat in relative silence, I was working on my math homework and Beck was working on a script for one of his classes. Occasionally he'd ask me for help with a line or I'd ask him for help with my math homework.
After two hours of sitting there bored out of my mind, we were finally dismissed to leave. "I just need to go get something out of my locker and then I'll take you home." Beck told me, pulling my arm and dragging me across the halls to his locker, which was about five down and the bottom row from mine.
It was a clear locker, you could see right through it. All of his books and an extra shirt were clearly visible inside it. He pulled out a few books and put a few more back before leading me out the door.
"The passenger door only unlocks from the inside, hold on." Beck told me, slipping into the cab of his truck through the driver's seat, he unlocked it and pushed it open before beckoning me inside the car.
I hopped up into the cab and pulled the door shut, setting my backpack at my feet. He started his truck, flipped on the radio to a rock station, and backed out of his parking space just as his phone started ringing.
"Shit that's Jade. Can you answer it for me?" he asked, "my phones in my backpack."
I flipped off my seat belt and reached down to grab Beck's backpack, rifling through it until I found it. A picture of Jade smiled back at me on the screen, "nice picture." I commented before hitting accept and speaker phone.
"Hey babe, Tori's in the car, you're on speaker phone." He sounded way too happy about it, for some reason. Almost as if he was teasing Jade.
"Oh great. Well hurry up and drop her off, I'm waiting at your place." And then she hung up. The words stung a distant place in my heart at a distant memory of those words. A distant memory of Jade and I going to my house when my parents and Trina were out and just snuggling on my bed kissing and watching some horror movie.
"Tori?" Beck called, my eyes lifted from his pearphone, which I had been staring at absently, to his concerned face, "did you hear a word I said?"
"No, sorry I didn't." I shook my head to clear my thoughts and tossed Beck's phone back into his bag, "what were you saying?"
"I said I probably shouldn't be telling you this, because I'm supposed to be Jade's boyfriend and all, but she told me about you. I saw how hurt you were when you came out of the bathroom, was it because you thought she hadn't told anybody?"
"What exactly did she tell you?" I asked, worried that if I said too much Jade would hunt me down and murder me in my sleep.
"That you two used to be best friends a long time ago. This one?" I glanced out the window; we were outside my house now. I reached down and grabbed my bag.
"Right. Thanks for the ride Beck, and trying to make me feel better." I hopped out of the car, pushed the door shut and walked quickly up to my front door, slamming it open and shut behind me before running upstairs and taking solace in my bed.
I had thought I was over Jade, or at least I could deal with being around her and not being her friend or her girlfriend, but the more I was around her the more hurt I was. With every kiss she and Beck shared a hole in my heart started getting bigger.
I told myself over and over that it was because she was my first love, and that first loves never really mean anything. I'd get over it. I had boyfriends on and off, but I never felt anything near the way I felt with Jade when I was with them.
Kissing them was boring, pointless, there was nothing too it. Just lips on lips tongues mingling. With Jade it had been passion, fireworks, warmth in my stomach, curling of my toes, comfort, everything good about her in her soft pink lips melding with mine.
I would never feel that again. Not with anybody except for Jade and I would never have Jade again. There was no chance for me ever being with Jade again. I curled up on my side and pulled my pillow into my chest, curling into a tight ball around it and burying my face in the fabric.
I must've fallen asleep at some point during my crying, because the next thing I knew my mom was knocking on my door and I was hanging half off my bed, my eyes red and sore and my throat aching.
"Tori hunny, your father and sister are out, I got some pizza. Come downstairs, you look like you need to talk." She gave me a warm smile as I rolled out of bed and followed her down the stairs into the kitchen.
As soon as we sat down on the couch words came pouring out of my mouth, I told her why I got in the fight with Trina (something I had refused to tell her or dad since it happened) about what happened with Jade, and Beck, and about Trina ruining my only good bra (she offered to take me to the mall tomorrow to get a new one since I was wearing a bra size two cups too small) and she told me that I'd never 'get over it' but it'd eventually stop hurting so much.
Of course I didn't tell her about my feelings toward Jade, the whole being in love with her and about us dating, she never knew that and I was scared to find out what would happen when she did find out. We never really talked about that kind of thing, I was too scared to breach the subject and I doubt it ever crossed their minds.
After we ate we watched Easy A and then I went upstairs to do my homework, I showered, practiced the bird scene (which I had to do for the third time now) and then I crawled into bed to prepare for the fun that would be tomorrow.