WAAAZZZAA!
I am so glad to be back writing! You guys have no idea...
So, I feel like I should tell you all why I've been gone for a couple weeks:
I lost someone extremely close to me.
I've never had anyone die in my family that I knew so well, so it's been so tough.
I have never been able to wrap my mind about how quickly this all spiraled down, but it was scary to lose this person. My whole family knew it was going to happen soon, but we weren't as prepared as we thought. (Especially me.)
But, I'm better now.
I've been looking at this all as a positive thing, which is hard because I am a genuinely pessimistic person no matter what I tell myself.
Anyways...sorry about not posting.
Honestly, I've missed writing so much.
On with the story!
Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush! However, I do own this plot and my OC, Jade.
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I was pulled out of my deep sleep when my alarm sounded.
6 o'clock was way too early.
I grabbed my phone and shut the obnoxious tone off. I moaned, stretching slightly. I felt a warm sensation to my side, remembering that my boyfriend had fallen asleep next to me.
I rubbed my eyes, finally opening them to see one of the cutest sights. His head was rested on my shoulder and his lips were just barely parted.
"Kendall, you need to wake up,"
He groaned, tightening his grip around my waist. I stifled a giggle and grabbed his hand, rubbing circles with my thumb.
"Come on, we gotta get up. We have an important plan, remember?" I spoke softly into his ear.
His eyes fluttered open and he sat up on the couch, releasing me from his arms. He yawned and clapped his hands together. "We better get to moving,"
"I'm gonna get ready," I said, getting up from the couch. "That Matthew Everhart guys' office opens at 7 o'clock," I remembered the card that he gave me for the modeling agency.
Kendall nodded and I was off to the shower. I removed my clothes and stepped into the steaming downpour.
For me, a shower seemed like a place to think.
I wondered if this would work. I even thought about if it didn't, and what I'd be missing if that were the case.
Mr. Everhart, the one who was scouting, seemed like a genuine guy. He said he didn't pick just anyone. It almost seemed like he knew who I was. Not that I was anything spectacular, or even beautiful. It seemed like he knew I had promise. Like he knew about my family, and all the shadows I've been living behind.
I felt like this job was promising. It wasn't necessarily my dream job or something I wanted to do. It was something I had to do if I didn't want to lose my brother.
Regardless, this was all so important.
I felt like everything was riding on my shoulders.
If I wasn't as perfect as Kendall told me, I wouldn't be successful enough to stay in L.A. If I wasn't as convincing as I thought I was, mother would ship me to Europe, which seemed like millions of miles away.
Anxiety.
After I forced myself to stop over-thinking everything, I finished washing up.
I stepped out onto the cold tile and cleared the fog off of the mirrors. I looked at my reflection, judging my body from all angles.
I was rather thin, but I've always felt less-than-perfect.
Remembering what I was told about being too hard on myself, I wrapped my body in a towel. I turned the handle, feeling a draft when I walked across the hall to my room.
I locked the door behind me and picked my outfit out: a gray cardigan with a mint green t-shirt underneath and some dark skinny jeans. Then, I chose a pair of black Vans to finish off my look.
I rushed around and managed to straighten my brown mane, letting my bangs hang to the side.
I decided to just wear a little blush to highlight my cheekbones. I never liked to overdo my makeup like some girls did.
I checked the time on my cell phone and saw it was 6:45. I needed about 15 or 20 minutes to get there through all of the rush hour traffic.
When I walked into the living room, I saw three more guys than last time. Meaning, Logan, Carlos, and James were finally awake. They were all sitting at the counter with bowls of cereal and waffles.
"Want anything to eat?" James asked, taking a bite of his Cap'n Crunch.
"Nah, I'm good. I'll get something on my way back," I said, rolling up the sleeves of my sweater.
"You look nice," he said, causing Carlos and Logan to nod in agreement.
"I don't look like I'm trying to hard, do I?" I questioned the boys, who all just shook their heads and smiled.
Then, I heard a jingling of car keys.
"Ready to go?" a certain blonde asked me.
I hesitated. "You don't have to come,"
"I want to," he gave me a perfectly-dimpled grin.
Something about his toothy smiles made me feel at ease, like he was pulling for me. I mean, he is my boyfriend, but he really just makes me...happy.
"Well, let's go," he said, placing a hand on the small of my back.
I said adieu to the boys and they wished me good luck. I was going to need it.
...
When Kendall and I reached his mom's van, I started feeling a little shaky. I've never been this nervous before.
I got in and pulled the seat-belt over my body.
He backed out of the parking lot and must have noticed my timid expression. He reached over and squeezed my hand. I felt the coarseness of his skilled, guitar-playing fingertips. I felt comfort.
"Hey, everything is going to be fine," he cooed.
I gave him a small smile as he drove onto the busy freeway lined with palm trees.
I slid down in my seat a little and rested my head back.
I squeezed his hand back, not expelling one word from my lips.
"Nervous?" he asked me.
"Yeah," I said, pursing my lips.
"You will do perfect," he assured me. "I've never met someone as stunning as you. I know you'll get this modeling job and do amazing," he glanced over at me. "I can most definitely see you, my girlfriend, on a billboard or on a magazine cover. No matter what you say, I'll always think of you as my cover girl,"
This caused me to break out in a smile. "Thanks," I said. "I'll always admire you, Kendall Knight. You always know the right thing to say. You'll never know how glad I am that I overcame my stubbornness and decided to let you guys back in my life,"
With that, we drove the rest of the way to the agency with grins stretched ear to ear. But, when we got there, I started feeling jittery again. The car was put in park and my face fell expressionless.
"Well, we might wanna go in now," he unbuckled his seat belt.
"Kendall, I'm scared," I glanced in his direction, swallowing a lump in my throat.
"You'll be fine," he stressed every word in a sympathetic way. "Let's go," he reached over and unbuckled my seat belt.
I took a few seconds to compose myself.
I can do this. I'll be perfectly fine.
"Can you stay in the car?" I raised an eyebrow.
He tilted his head and then spoke, "Are you sure?" I nodded and he said, "Alright, whatever works for you,"
I looked straight ahead at the bold letters on the company's sign.
With a swift motion, I opened the door and made my way into the building, glancing back to see Kendall giving me a 'thumbs up' gesture.
With the 'ding' of the entrance, I felt intimidated.
"Welcome to Groff Modeling! Do you have an appointment?" a quirky secretary asked. Morning people kind of freak me out. She was quite beautiful, with a short, chin-length blonde bob and brilliantly white teeth.
Act confident.
"No, I actually don't," I said with a smile. "but I was given this card by Mr. Everhart," I pulled the card out and showed her.
Her facial expression brightened up. "It's been a while since he's brought in any girls! He's really picky," she explained. "You're so gorgeous!"
I chuckled. "Thank you,"
Wow, this guy must be a big deal...
"He's free right now, so go down this hall and it's the last room straight ahead," she directed with a wave of her freshly manicured hand.
I grinned and said "Thanks," in a chipper voice. I followed her instructions and knocked on the door.
"Come in!" the familiar voice from the coffee shop said.
"Hi," I said a little awkwardly as I peaked my head through the door. The walls of his office were a deep red color with intricate little paintings of girls' silhouettes. I saw the same man with a dazzling white smile and a small mohawk. "How are you, Mr. Everhart?"
"I'm fabulous!" he said, placing his thick-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose. "And I absolutely remember the stunning girl that I met at Starbucks," he exclaimed, causing me to blush. "So, have you come to sign a contract with me?"
"That's what I'd like to do," I smiled. He motioned for me to take a seat in front of him and I did.
"Okay, first I'd like you to tell me a little bit about yourself," he said.
I took a deep breath. This is where it all begins. Make a good impression; you don't want to ruin this.
"Well, first off, my name is Jade Diamond. I'm seventeen years old and I've lived in Minnesota all my life,"
"What brought you to L.A.?" he asked, intrigued.
"Actually, I'm visiting my brother and his friends," I told him. "They're actually in a band called Big Time Rush,"
"I've heard of them!" he told me. "They're a boy band right?" I nodded.
"Yep," I smiled proudly. "Anyways," I went on, starting to feel comfortable at how casual this interview was. "I graduated this spring- valedictorian and I'm hoping on enrolling at a college by the end of this summer,"
"Wow," he said, impressed. "You don't find too many girls like you that are smart as well, so that's definitely a plus!" he nodded.
We talked for a good thirty minutes about more friendly stuff, and then some processes and establishment I'll have to go through.
He then handed me some forms. "Have a parent or legal guardian fill this out and we can hopefully start as soon as possible," he flashed a smile, clapping his hands together.
"That's it?" I asked curiously.
"That is it!" he assured. "I'm hoping to hear from you soon!"
I got up from my chair and kindly told him, "Have a good day, thanks so much!"
He told me the same and I went out of his office and back into the main area. The lady from earlier said goodbye and I walked out to the 'ding' of the glass door.
I tucked the paper into my purse and made my way to the red mini van.
The door was unlocked, but he was dozed off.
I slammed the door and brought him out of it. "Damn, could you just knock next time?" I laughed at his sudden crankiness. "I take it you got the job?"
I nodded, wiggling my eyebrows. I was actually excited.
"That's amazing, Jade!" he gave me a tight hug.
I smiled and said, "I just gotta get mom's signature on a few papers and I'm ready to go,"
"That's great," he pulled away from the hug. "You're great," his dimples appeared on his lower cheeks.
He looked at my lips and then back at my eyes. Then, he leaned in and his lips fell perfectly with mine. The kiss was full of power, happiness, and most of all, safety.
Now that we were to this point, things were bound to turn out our way for once.
We both parted our semi-swollen lips with a smile.
"Starbucks?" he asked with the raise of a thick brow. As if that was even a question...
"Let's go!" I said, buckling myself in.
...
He ordered for me as I found us a table. I whipped out my phone, texting James that all I needed was for her to sign on the dotted line and this would be set in stone.
He was ecstatic, but she wasn't even awake yet.
"Black coffee for the lady," Kendall sat down my drink, securing the lid. "and a chocolate cupcake!" he said in a childish voice.
I giggled. "My favorite,"
"So," he started. "now that you're going to live in L.A. permanently, what's the first thing you wanna do?" he took a sip of his coffee, without pealing his olive orbs off of me.
I aimlessly ran my finger along the seam of my Starbucks cup. "Oh, I don't know," I said truthfully. "You know I want to apply to a good college, and hopefully UCLA will accept me," I trailed off.
"Wow, college already?" he asked in disbelief. "It feels like just yesterday we were trading Pokémon cards,"
"Yeah, I know," I unwrapped my cupcake, taking a big bite. "Just yesterday, you were just a hockey player in Minnesota," I swallowed my food. "Apparently anything is possible,"
He just grinned. He had the type of smile that anyone's favorite person would have. We sat in the most perfect silence as we ate our cupcakes and sipped our coffee. Kendall laid my hand flat on the table and traced what I perceived as hearts on the center of my palm.
"I like you, Kendall Knight," I told him with a smug look.
"Well, I'd hope so," he said with a smirk, glancing up at me. "I like you too, Jade Diamond,"
I got chills down my spine when he said my whole name. He must've noticed because he winked at me, causing me to cackle at him.
He let out a small laugh, "What?" he asked in an amused voice.
I shrugged. "I don't know," I still hadn't wiped the smile off of my face. He was so cute. I laughed again out of the blue and he did the same, but louder.
We finally got ourselves composed and decided to leave the coffee shop. He and I piled into the van once again.
"Are you ready to go back to the Palm Woods or..." he trailed off as he started the van.
"Whatever you wanna do,"
The corners of his mouth turned upward and he took off, driving about a mile to the beach.
"Why are we here?" I interrogated.
"I figured we could take a walk- or something?" he said in a bashful voice. "Or we could just leave? You probably think this is stupid. We can just go," he put his hands back on the steering wheel.
"No!" I said a little too quickly, throwing my hand on top of his. I blushed as he surveyed my eyes in his. "I want to take a walk with you,"
"Then, let's go,"
We vacated the car once more and he took my hand delicately in his.
"I feel like we haven't been here in forever," I said, looking to the crystalline shore.
"That's partly my fault," he told me.
"Don't say that," I said. "I know you've been working so hard," I acknowledged with complete sincerity.
"I still feel bad," he said lowly.
"Please don't," I puffed out my lip. He gave an apologetic look and I stopped in place. "Hey now," I tugged on his hand, pulling him over to face me. "Don't feel bad. I'm happy that the album's done. Just remember that now, we have all the time in the world to spend together,"
I reached up and placed my arms around the back of his neck. He tenderly put his hands on the lower part of my hips.
He brought his lips to mine and time seemed to stop.
I remembered our first kiss. It was purely accidental, but I was so glad it happened. I remembered how mad I was at James and the guilt that I felt for being away so long. I felt so comforted in that moment that I could confide in someone so special. The smell of chlorine and the sight of an admirable dusk brought me back to why I loved Kendall Knight with such raw passion.
We pulled away breathless, not caring about the rest of the world.
I ruffled up his blonde locks and ran towards the ocean, free as can be.
We shot banter back and forth as he caught up to me, picking me up bridal style. He swung me around and I clutched onto him, chuckling into his chest.
I gave him a kiss on the cheek and he sat me back on the sandy ground.
"This is fun," I told him as we resumed walking the shoreline.
He started swinging our clasped hands back and forth as we paced ourselves.
"Yeah, but Vans aren't really the best to wear to the beach," he kicked one of his feet up in the air.
"Oh yeah, we match," I chuckled. "We gotta stop doing that,"
"I kinda like it," I could sense a smirk on his face.
"Really?" I asked.
"It's very flattering," he said. "to both of us,"
"Aww," I said, mocking him.
We must've been strolling on the beach for an hour before he decided we should get back to the apartment.
When we walked in 2J, Mama Knight and my mom were sitting at the counter and the rest of the guys were playing video games.
"There you two are!" Mama Knight said in a happy yet motherly tone.
"Here we are," I said awkwardly.
"I was wondering where you were at. Jade, you need to start packing if we're going to leave by 5 o'clock," she pointed down the hall to my room.
I looked at Kendall and over at the guys who had paused their game.
"Actually," I started. "I don't think I'll be going with you back to Europe," I eased her with a smile.
"Oh?" she said, almost in a sarcastic way. "What makes you think that?"
I pulled the contract out of my pursed and unfolded it, showing it to her. "This,"
She read over it with skeptical eyes. "A modeling contract?" she asked in disbelief. I couldn't really read what was going through her mind. "Where did this come from?"
"Groff Modeling," I said simply. "They're willing to sign me for a year if I can get your signature," I explained to her.
She raised a brow.
Then she laughed; right in my face.
"You really thought that I'd let you stay here?" she said after her laughing fit was over. My brows were knitted in a mixture of anger and confusion.
"Jade, you can't be serious," she cocked her head.
"I am serious," I told her. "I really want to stay here with James instead of go to Europe with you,"
"You can't make decisions like that, it's not up to you!"
"Don't you want me to be happy?"
"You'll be just fine with me," she said stubbornly. "Now go pack your bags,"
"I think you should give her a chance," Mrs. Knight stood up for me. My mom gave her a strange look. "Jade is a very responsible young woman,"
"She's just a teenager!" the hazel-eyed villain scoffed. "I'm sure that James doesn't want to babysit you until you turn eighteen,"
"It's not like you would," James stood up from the couch. "She may only be 17, but I think she should have a say in this," he said firmly, placing an arm around me.
No one said anything at all. The atmosphere of this area was thickened by the intensity of the silence.
James spoke up again. "I will do whatever I need to do to help her. I'm not losing my baby sister again," his voice stayed strong, but at a low noise level. "I am willing to take custody of her,"
She sat there, mouth agape. "We are not having this conversation," she said to herself, closing her eyes and rubbing her temples. "James, go to your room," she said.
"You can't make me; I'm eighteen!"
"Go!" she scolded him, causing him to sprint off to his room in fear.
Fantastic.
A lump grew in my throat as Logan bit his lip, exiting the room with Carlos following suit. I don't blame them for walking away.
And then there were four...
"Brooke, you should just listen to what Jade has to say," Kendall said calmly.
"I'm her mother!" she said with clenched teeth. "Legally, she has to listen to whatever I say,"
"You make me feel like I'm 12!" I said. "I'm almost an adult!"
"Almost," she said, crossing her legs and folding her arms over her chest.
I rolled my eyes frustrated with my whole world. It seemed to be crumbling to my feet and worst of all, Kendall had to watch.
"I am not leaving everyone behind just to go to stupid Europe with you,"
"All you have here is your brother and a few of his friends!"
I crossed my arms. "They're the best thing in my life right now!"
"But, they're not what's best for you. You need your mother,"
"Would it change your mind if I told you I had a boyfriend here?" I blurted out.
He facial expression immediately softened. "You have a boyfriend?" I nodded. "Who?" she asked me.
I looked behind me, up at Kendall, who had just swallowed a lump in his throat. All I did was take his hand in mine. "Kendall is my boyfriend," I said boldly.
"That's really sweet," she said admirably. "I always hoped that you two would end up together," I felt a weight being lifted off of me. "But, it won't change anything,"
And there was the weight again. My heart and stomach both sunk to the floor.
Kendall squeezed my hand, trying to reassure me. It didn't help.
"So that's it?" I questioned her. "You bring me here so I can spend time with my brother and then you tear me away from him again?"
"Jade-"
"I finally find someone as amazing as Kendall and you're going to make me leave him?" Tears were brewing in my eyes. "This is it?"
She sighed. "I'm afraid so," she told me. She regained her power, "Now go pack your bags; we're leaving at five,"
"This is bullshit," I said, pivoting on my foot to go lock myself in my room.
"Jade!" she called after me. Tears blurred my vision as I slammed my door. "I'm just doing what's best for you!"
Yeah right.
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So...what did you think of that?
I think I genuinely hate Brooke now.
I'm going to hopefully post sometime this week, so stay tuned.
There will probably be only one or two more chapters in this story, but I am for sure making a sequel!
Thank you so much for reading.
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