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Okay, so I'd like to let you know that this will be the last chapter of 'Back In My Life'.

But, since I love writing this story for you guys, of course- there's going to be a sequel!

There's no telling when I'll decide to start publishing chapters, but I'll try to get them out in a couple weeks or so.

For now, enjoy the last chapter!

Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush, but I own my OC, Jade and this storyline.

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After slamming the door, my heat sank even more.

I collapsed on the floor of my room, pulling my knees up to my chest and sobbing more intense than ever.

Was this actually happening?

I thought that everything was going to be just fine, like everyone promised. The plan was supposed to work. All of us thought it would, but I guess we're all just a bunch of stupid kids.

I was bawling by the time my door was abruptly opened and shut again in an instant.

I looked up and saw Kendall by my side. He enveloped me in his muscular arms, instantly calming me down. I felt so small, crying in front of him.

"Please don't cry," he cooed after a few calming moments. I couldn't bring myself to look up at his face. Instead, I looked straight ahead at nothing at all. He shakily wiped a few stray tears with his thumb.

"Why does this have to happen to us?" I asked him. I didn't expect an answer, because I knew it was something that would be hard for either of us to come to terms with.

But, after a deep breath, he spoke up. "I think it's happening to us because we can make it through,"

I sniffled a little, thinking about if what he was saying was actually plausible.

He cleared his throat, "If this happened to anyone else, they wouldn't even try to stay together," he said softly. "It's different with us; our relationship is more special than anyone else's,"

"You think we'll make it?" I asked him. "There's still eight months until I'm eighteen and that's a long time. What can we do 'til then?"

"We can call each other all the time and face chat," he told me. "and you can visit me whenever you want; I'm sure your mom will be okay with that,"

"Eight months is too long," I frowned and laid my head on his shoulder.

"Just think about when this is all over," he said. "We can do whatever we want then," I could sense the grin creeping on his face. "You and me are gonna be together for a long time; I just know it," he sounded so full of hope and sure of himself. He was so confident that we'd pull through, and it was getting easier to believe every word he said.

"I'm going to miss your pep talks," I chuckled. "You better not fall in love with someone else while I'm away," I said half-jokingly and half-serious.

He just shook his head. "That would be a waste; I already have the most amazing girl in the world," he grinned like a little kid. "It's you that I should be worried about,"

"Why's that?"

"All of those European guys and their foreign accents. Plus, you're too beautiful for them to ignore," he shrugged.

"Shut up," I playfully smacked his arm. "What about my rock-star boyfriend that has millions of girls that know his name?"

"Him? Oh, you might have to worry about him," he said, causing my eyes to widen. "I'm kidding!" he raised his hands up in defense. "Your face was priceless, by the way,"

"You aren't funny," I crossed my arms over my chest. I sighed loudly, not meaning too. I was going to miss all of these little moments that make us closer. "I can't believe that I'm actually leaving,"

He kissed my temple. "I love you,"

"I love you too," a few more stray tears made their way down my cheeks. I quickly wiped them away. "I should probably start packing," I swiftly got up, opening my closet and getting my old suitcase out from the bottom.

I unzipped it and tossed it on my bed.

Kendall didn't move; he just sat against my bed and stared down at his hands.

It hurt me to see him like that.

I knew that he wasn't trying to make me feel sympathetic, but it seemed like every little piece of him made me miss him already.

I grabbed an armful of shirts from my closet, folding each one sloppily before I placed it in a big muddle in my suitcase.

As much as it pained me to even look at him, I couldn't help but glance over at him while I packed.

He ran both of his hands through his perfect blonde hair and brought his knees close to his chest. I could tell that he had a lump in his through, similar to the one in mine.

I bit my lip and continued preparing my bundle until everything had seemingly disappeared out of my room.

I zipped it up with ease and looked back at my now empty guest room.

The only recognizable thing in the room was the tall blonde, still plopped down on my carpet.

"I'm done," I said in a voice tinged with depression, trying my best not to sniffle.

In that moment, he glanced at me. I caught a glimpse of something I'd never seen before.

His eyes.

They were the same eyes that I saw and admired every single day. But, they weren't the normal yellow-green olive tone. His orbs were glazed over, and the variety of pigments I was so fond of was now a bluish-green color. The bleakness in his eyes was almost haunting.

I didn't know exactly what to say to him, or if I should even say anything at all. Everything had grown sullen.

"Um, I'm gonna go to the bathroom," I said, prying my eyes away from him and pivoting on my foot.

I felt like such a coward, just leaving him there like that.

I went to the bathroom across the hall and closed the door.

I splashed cold water on my face and gazed up at the mirror.

What was wrong with me?

My reflection was of a girl with tired, puffy hazel eyes. She has light tear stains down he face and looked completely miserable. For a moment, I didn't believe that she was me.

"Jade, can I talk to you?" James knocked lightly on the door.

I unlocked it without a word and looked up at my brother.

"Come here," he said in a soft, brotherly tone, placing his arms around me. I gripped him tightly, halting my salty tears.

"I am so scared, James," I told him in a hushed voice. "Being away from you guys, just-" I struggled for words.

"I know, I know. I thought this would work," he whispered. "I-I really did. I'm so sorry,"

"No, it's not your fault. Nothing can stop her until she gets whatever the hell she wants,"

He released me and we both sat against the bathroom wall. "One of these days we'll win. We'll beat her at her own game," he told me in a determined mindset. "It just pisses me off that she has no idea what she's doing,"

"She knows how our family has never been good at sticking together," I ran a hand through my hair. "What's does she think she's accomplishing by separating the only two that still get along?" I questioned. "I feel like it's her fault just as much as dad's,"

"Do you still miss him?" he asked, catching me off guard.

I hesitated and took a deep breath. "I miss certain sides of him,"

"I think about him a lot too, kiddo," he said with some weakness laced through his usually strong-natured voice. "I think mom's lonely sometimes, and that's just her reasoning for wanting you to be around,"

"Maybe," I said bitterly. "But, you know how she is; she's never been extremely close with either of us,"

"I think she's just like that," he said. "Independent, hard-working, you know,"

"Work is always her excuse," I told him. "Sometimes it's hard to think of her as my 'mother',"

"I know how you feel," he said in support.

We sat in silence, and he let me lean on his shoulder. I felt contained, still nothing was right.

Then, he gripped me in his arms, holding me tightly and placing a kiss on my forehead.

"Are you okay now?"

"Better," I answered unsure.

"That's good," he said. "Now, go spend the rest of your time with Kendall,"

"Are you sure?" I asked, taken back a little.

He nodded, "Yes, do this for me, okay?"

I grinned at the brunette teen and hugged him once more. "Thank you bro,"

I pecked him on the cheek and made my way back to my room.

Kendall's back was facing me and my suitcase was open.

"Hey," I said slowly. "What are you doing?"

He turned around and gave me a half smile. "I was packing a few extra things in your suitcase," he said.

I smiled, and walked over to him. I placed an arm around his waste and saw what he had packed.

"Your favorite sweatshirt?" I asked, feeling touched.

"And the beanie that you always steal from me," he said. "I want you to have a piece of me in Europe,"

"That's the nicest thing anyone's ever done for me," I gazed up at my blonde boyfriend. "I love you,"

He kissed me, sweet and slow. His emotions and mine were mixed in the moment of intense passion. There was faintheartedness, hunger, and distanced feelings compiled into one moment.

We pulled away, and my eyes darted up to his, and then back to the floor.

I gulped, feeling rather scared for us.

Tensions were heightened, and in a jittery way for me.

He put a hand on my cheek and stroked my face, causing me to look up at him.

Kendall had the ambition to make me happy in his eyes. He simpered and gave me a rosy smile.

"It's perfectly fine to feel scared," he eased. "I am too," he said in a simple, honest way.

My breath hitched as he slowly brought his lips back to mine. I snaked my arms around his neck, playing with the back of his hair.

He placed his hands on my hips and our lips moved in flawless sync. It felt like a requisite to be with him always. I wish that I could've been.

Then, he bit my bottom lip for entrance. I denied him, until he bit harder, causing me to open my mouth, gasping.

He slipped his tongue in my mouth, and we fought for dominance.

The kiss deepened, and he pressed me up against a wall. He grind his hips into mine, and then we pulled away for air.

We have each other that look of lust, but also of boundaries.

He took hold of my wrists and stretched my arms over my head, pinned up against the wall.

We smiled into our kiss, and I felt so safe. We parted lips slowly, in a breathless way.

I lowered my arms back down and said, "Well, that was fun,"

He gave me one of his famous smirks and I lowered myself to sit on the floor.

I bit my lip and patted him a seat. He sighed sitting down, "Why do you always insist on sitting on the floor?"

I shrugged, taking his hand. I just sat there, biting my lip and rubbing circles on his hand with my thumb.

"What do you think about us?" I asked hesitantly.

"Us?" he asked. He stroked his chin. "Well," he started. "You're my best friend. We've only dated a couple months, but I really enjoy your company," he told me, nodding his head. "I couldn't even begin to imagine what this summer would've been like if you never showed up here," he paused. "That's one thing that you can thank your mom for,"

I turned up the corner of one side of my mouth. "I guess that's true," I said. "She may be stubborn, but sometimes it's for the best,"

"Exactly," he said. "Absence makes the heart grow fonder," he said in a sweet and dear way with a small smirk.

"I guess it does, doesn't it?" I looked straight into his olive irises. "You know, I've always been scared of commitment and attachment," I said. "But, all I know is that my life's so much better when you're in it,"

He lifted my hand to his lips and placed a kiss on it. "I can most definitely say the same," he said. "and we're going to keep this up. You're the most important thing in my life,"

"You make having to leave so hard," I laughed lightly.

"You're gonna be alright though, promise?"

I sighed, and then looked at his eyes that were searching for an answer in mine. "I'll manage," I said truthfully. "I promise," I said with a lump in my throat.

He frowned. "That's not very convincing,"

I kissed him on the lips for a moment. We parted lips, leaving him dazing at my eyes. "I'm not going to be as happy as I could be," I ran a hand through my hair. "But, I guess what matters is that we're staying together through this all,"

"That's my girl," he smiled and pulled me close to his chest.

I snuggled up to him, wanting to make this moment last, but time goes too quickly whenever I'm enjoying it, or so it seems.

"Jade!" Brooke called from outside my door. "We have to leave in 15 minutes, come say goodbye to everyone!"

"I'm coming!" I called back. I frowned at Kendall, who just helped me up. I gazed to him, both of us pursing our lips in pure dread.

My heart lost its sinking feeling and started to beat more rapid than usual.

This is it.

This is the last time I'm going to see all of my favorite people for a while.

I steadily opened my door, composing myself on my way to the living room.

There they were; James, Logan, Carlos, Katie, and Mama Knight.

I went to Mama Knight first, we hugged. "Thanks for taking care of me," I told her in simple words.

"No problem, sweetie," she said softly, almost teary-eyed. "You're welcome here any time," she let go of me.

I moved to Katie, the petite girl with long brown hair and big brown eyes. "I'm gonna miss you, Katie,"

She held on tight, "It's going to be so different messing with the guys without you,"

We giggled, and we parted, sending my body in Carlos' direction. He engulfed me in a bear hug. "I'll see you soon, beautiful," he told me. With each person going down the line, it got tougher to say goodbye.

"See you soon, Carlitos," I said half-heartedly, with a sad little smile on my face.

Then, I turned to Logan, who withdrew his hands from his pockets and placed his arms around me. "I promise that we'll get Gustavo to book us some European dates," he said quietly.

"Thanks," I said, holding him at arms-length. "I'll miss you, Logie-bear," I smirked, causing the group to chuckle.

"You said you'd stop calling me that!" he said frustratedly. I smiled and patted him on the shoulder, fluttering my lashes. "Oh, fine. I'll miss you too," I chuckled and I went over to my big brother.

I threw myself in his strong arms, letting him hold on to me firmly. "Don't grow up anymore while you're gone," he mumbled into my hair. "I don't know if my heart could take it,"

The lump came back to my throat, but I knew better than to let it get the best of me. I closed my eyes, with my head rested on his shoulder. "I'll try not to," I choked out. "Thanks for being my brother,"

I heard some 'aww's from everyone and a sniffle or two, perhaps from Mrs. Knight.

"Anytime, kiddo," he said, holding me at arms length. "I love you," he kissed me on the cheek.

"I love you too, James," I gave him a half-grin. "I'll talk to you soon, I promise,"

He grabbed my hand and gave it a squeeze, letting it go a moment later.

Then, I felt a familiar hand on my shoulder.

I spun around, and my eyes met with a gorgeous, green-eyed boy. "Don't forget about me, okay?"

"I couldn't, even if I tried," I said with a cliché full grin.

We leaned in and kissed, not caring who saw.

After I withdrew my lips from his, I was embraced once more. "I love you so much," his words were muffled into my ear.

"I love you too," I replied, kissing him on the cheek during the duration of our hug.

We pulled apart and he took his hand in mine. I ran my other hand through my dark hair, while simultaneously biting my lower lip. I sighed and mustered up the courage to say: "Goodbye, Kendall Knight,"

"This isn't goodbye, Jade Diamond," he said, causing me to raise an eyebrow. "It's-" he squeezed my hand tight. "It's 'I'll see you later',"

My face broke out into a grin. I pecked him on the lips once more and hesitantly grabbed the handle of my suitcase beside the exit. "Call us when you're off the plane," Kendall said.

"Are you ready?" my mother asked me, placing a tender touch onto my arm.

"Yeah," I breathed out, no honestly of course.

"I'll see you all soon!" I blew a kiss to my big family.

They all called back, telling me to have a safe trip, goodbye, and among other things, they'll see me soon.

I took one last glance as my mother shut the door behind us.

I took a picture with my mind of my favorite people. I took note of everyone's glistening eyes, and broken half-smiles.

I took one last look at the beautiful blonde that I'd be missing.

I'll see you soon.

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I hate writing sullen endings, but it had to be done!

However, this is not the end! As I said earlier, a sequel is in the works:

-It will be called "Going The Distance".

-It will take place in France at first. (So lovely!)

-Jade will make a new friend that Kendall's not so happy about.

-Jade will begin some type of career while in Europe.

-Kendall will be in the story, I promise.

That's all I have to say! Stay tuned and check for my upcoming story!

Thanks for sticking with me throughout my writing process for this story. I seriously love you guys.

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