…Open my window, sing me a song.
Baby can't you see that this is where I belong?
With your hand in my hand, still feel that love
Really wish that we could go back to the way that it was.
They say if it doesn't kill you it'll make you stronger.
Oh, but I can't be without you any longer.
Everytime I let it go, baby it's true.
Nothing compares to you…
Nothing Compares-Pixie Lott
My birthday…I was turning 18…technically an adult. Did it feel that way? No.
It was just a normal Tuesday, I hadn't even heard from Emmett in three weeks. He seemed to be a little mad when I told him about Jacob even though I really don't know why. Sighing I got up and put on a black and white striped poncho top where the black horizontal stripes kind of looked like they were painted on. Biting my lip I picked out a pair of skinny jeans and my black lace up army boots, and I decided to put on a little more make up today so I added a little winged liner along with the mascara and a red lip stain. For my hair I tied it up in a high messy ponytail letting the waves show.
With a sigh I looked in the mirror and decided I looked as good as possible and grabbed my shoulder bag.
"Happy Birthday!" my parents called and I put on a wide smile as they held out gifts.
"Thanks," I put my bag down and took the first gift my mom had. For some reason I carefully unwrapped it and revealed a new pink floral pattered infinity loop scarf. Quickly, once I was done, a new one was set down and I carefully revealed a new pair of lace up peep toe booties. By the end of the pile I had a few new shirts, a new cardigan, jacket, and two pairs of jeans. My father's one and only gift he actually picked out by himself was my favorite. It was just a plain miniaturized thimble with an acorn, hooked to o-ring on a silver chain.
"You remembered," I smiled talking about my favorite movie as a child.
"Of course I remembered," he chuckled. "You had us watching that movie every night basically. Always pretending to fly and saying you'd never grow up. I thought it fit since you're all grown up now.
"Put it on?" I smiled holding it out to him. He got a wide smile and stood up putting it around my neck. I moved my hair out of the way and quickly felt it drop onto my neck. "Thank you Daddy," I smiled and wrapped my arms around him.
"Geeze if I knew I only had to get a necklace I would have," My mom joked and I pulled back and wrapped my arms around her too.
"Thanks mom," I whispered as her arms tightened around me.
"You better hurry and get to school," She said pulling back and I looked up at the clock.
"Yeah you took so much time opening those," Dad laughed as I grabbed my bag, coat and keys
"Well I don't want a paper cut," The words flew out before I had even realized. They both shook their heads and I shook my own, but while theirs was jokingly mine was to try and clear the pictures flying into my head.
As I pulled into the school I saw the Normals, plus Bella sitting around Tyler's van. Sighing, I put on a smile, that paper cut comment I had knocked me for a loop.
"Happy Birthday!" they all cheered as I got closer and I quickly flashed back to standing with Edward in the same parking lot with Alice doing the same to Bella. It seemed like forever ago.
"Thanks guys," I smiled.
"Get anything interesting?" Jessica stuck in.
"Some clothes." I smiled, "the norm."
"Oh," she sounded a bit disappointed, what did she expect a jet?
"Is that new?" Angela asked examining my necklace, always an observant one.
"Yeah," I smiled fingering it, "the only gift my Dad actually picked out."
"What is it?" Lauren asked a bit snidely.
"A thimble and acorn."
"Why?"
"Peter Pan was my favorite movie as a kid."
"Oh," She responded.
"Yup," I gave a short laugh at her disappointment.
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Basically after the morning nothing had gone on as abnormal. I got various'happy birthdays' throughout the day but nothing spectacular. When I got home mom had a dutch apple pie waiting for me-since I preferred that to cake- along with some vanilla ice cream. After a couple TV shows and game of cards I decided that I should go to bed since school was in the morning.
With a frown I walked into my room, this whole day had been filled with reminders of one of the worst days in my life and it hardly bared any resemblance. Biting my lip I walked over to my dresser and pulled out my ponytail holder. Just as I was about to walk over to my closet I saw a dark shadow moving through my window. Running over to the lamp I flicked it on and saw someone that would make everything better.
Skipping running around the bed I just jumped on it and launched myself into his arms.
"Hey Babe," He smirked catching me, "Happy Birthday."
"Emmett," Was all I could get out as I wrapped my arms and legs around him.
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"So what's this I hear about another guy?" He fake glared down at me after I had changed into his shirt and a pair of short sleep shorts and got settled into bed.
"Jacob," I giggled. "He's Bella's friend, well I guess he's mine to now. But he's helped her a lot actually. She's not a total shell anymore. She smiles and laughs."
"Edward would be furious at that. Thought he wouldn't ever admit it," He chuckled softly.
"How is…" I started and he frowned
"He barely calls, I think it's been three times since we left. It kills Esme." Biting my lip I smoothed my hand back into his dark curls and he turned his face slightly taking in a deep breath before moving his face back to mine. "What's that?" He asked after a couple seconds and moved his eyes to my chest bringing up his fingers. "A thimble and acorn?"
"Its dad's gift to me, I loved Peter Pan as a kid. I never wanted to grow up, so he thought I would be a good gift to give me since I'm 18 and technically grown up."
"That reminds me," He smiled and pulled out a little box from his pocket.
"Am I going to like it?" I wriggled my eyebrows.
"Well Alice said you would so…" Smiling I looked down at the unwrapped simple white box and quickly took off the cover. Standing up inside was a gunmetal colored ring. It wrapped around the finger leaving a couple millimeters in the middle empty. What made it special though, was the two bear heads facing each other on the top half with small etchings to resemble fur.
"Alice was correct," I smiled and took it out slipping it onto my middle where it fit perfectly. "Thanks Em," I leaned in giving him a small kiss.
"Yeah that's not all," he chuckled and got off the bed pulling a bag out from under my bed. "These are from everyone else…well except Edward."
"Wow," I smiled and started pulling the presents out. I watched him moved back behind me leaning against the headboard and quickly afterwards I was pulled back, so my back meeting his chest. Turning my head I looked up at him and he leaned down placing a soft kiss on my lips.
"Love you," I whispered.
"Love you too," He whispered, pecking my lips again. "Now open them, they are expecting a full report when I get home." Giggling I nodded and opened the presents. Quickly I opened Rose's gift to see a new vintage looking tan and black messenger bag with gold buckles. Devan ended up giving me a new pair of Ray-Bans, which were a kind of rust brown color. Alice and Esme got me new set of make-up brushes and a few pieces of jewelry. Finally I pulled out two books, one was the book I had been reading from Carlisle's library about.
"He said to tell you that it's yours." Emmett said over my shoulder.
"But it's over a hundred year's old," I whispered and he gave a tiny shrug. Gingerly I set that down and moved to the leather wrap journal.
"Now that technically is Jasper's gift since he started it but we all added to it. Alice mostly drew the pictures. Then he got it all bound together." Smiling I flipped it open to see that most of it was full. On the very front page was a picture of all of us horizontal on the page I was in the middle with Emmett, his arms around my shoulders. Standing behind and off to the right side a little bit to his right was Edward and Bella almost in the same position but he was holding her hand. To my left were Alice and Jasper he had a hand on her shoulder and she was reaching up touching it. Then to they're other side were Rose and Devan with his arms around her waist her hands over his. Completely on the other side beside Edward and Bella were Carlisle and Esme, his hand place on her shoulders and one of her hands crossing over her chest to touch his hand.
Once I got over the beauty of the page I turned to the first page and saw a drawing of just Emmett's face, with smaller pictures drawn around it. There was one of his and Jasper wrestling, one with his arm slung around Edward and Devans shoulders. My favorite though was the one on the bottom edge of him and I sitting on the couch just facing each other were weren't even touching but Alice had drawn so much emotion into the picture. I flipped to the next page and recognized his writing.
"It's each of our stories. Some start in our human lives like Jazz's and some start mostly after like Alice's." Quickly I scanned through the book and saw that there were pictures scattered throughout the stories but every single one started with a close up of the person.
"I love this," I whispered looking over the different writing and felt his arms wrap around my waist.
"I'm glad," he whispered back and leaned forward kissing my cheek. "You better get to sleep. You have classes in the morning.
"Alright," I groaned making him chuckle. Quickly he moved out from behind me and cleared off my bed placing everything on my desk. "Actually can you put the journal in here," I motioned to my nightstand drawer and he gave a little nod as I got under the covers.
"What are these?" he asked and I looked over seeing that he was holding the notes he'd left.
"Well I couldn't throw them away," I mumbled looked up at him. Smirking he just tucked them back and closed it. He settled in beside me tucking his arm around my head so I could rest it there and I wrapped my arm around his torso.
"Goodnight, Pip."
"Goodnight Em." I whispered, "I'll miss you."
"I'll miss you too." He whispered back before kissing the top of my head.
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Time seemed to run smoothly after that I'd become a regular visitor to Jacob Black's garage thought not as regular as Bella and it seemed to work for the both of us. She wasn't dwelling on the empty spaces anymore where her mind could drift and I wasn't counting down the seconds until Emmett would call.
She thankfully was getting better on the stupid bike which was good in some aspects but that also meant she would soon look for the next adrenalin rush to get to hear him. I think she got that too because soon she was almost obsessed with finding the meadow. But like I said time ran which lead me to Bella begging me to come the Friday after Valentines Day to a movie.
"Bella that movie is supposed to be horrible." I groaned lying across the couch in the Swan house on Thursday.
"Come on please," She frowned and I felt a little stab of pain for her.
"Fine," I sighed and she got her smile back. "I'd better go finish my homework then."
"Come by here after school and we can all go together."
"Alrighty." I waved over my shoulder before exiting the house.
'This is gonna be fan-freaking-tastic.'
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I ended up driving behind Mike the whole way to Bella's and seriously hoped it wasn't just going to be Her, Jacob, Mike and me.
'I wonder if I can fake sick.'
Jumping out of the Jeep I noticed that Jacob's Rabbit was there.
"You finished!" I shouted and watched as his frown became a smile.
"Yup just last night!" he called back.
"Awesome," I skipped us beside them as Mike came up.
"Hey, Bella, Piper," I watched his eyes glance at Jacob.
"Hey, Mike! Do you remember Jacob Black?" Bella said a little too enthusiastically.
"Not really," He held out his hand.
"Old family friend," Jacob said and did the whole which hand is stronger thing…of course he won.
Just then the phone started ringing, "I'd better get that, it might be Charlie," she rushed inside leaving us as an awkward trio.
"So are you guys together?" Mike tried.
Both of us glanced up as each other before laughing.
"God no," I said.
"Dating Piper would be so weird," He added and I nodded in agreement as Bella came out.
"Ang is sick," she said a bit glumly. "She and Ben aren't coming."
"I guess the flu is making another round. Austin and Conner were out today, too. Maybe we should do this another time," Mike suggested.
'oh yes please, please, please.'
"I'm still up for it. But if you'd rather to stay behind, Mike…" Jacob taunted and I narrowed my eyes up at him.
"No, I'm coming," Mike interrupted. "I was just thinking of Angela and Ben. Let's go." He started toward his Suburban
"Hey, do you mind if Jacob drives?" Bella asked, "I told him he could, he just finished his car. He built it from scratch, all by himself." She bragged.
"Fine," Mike snapped.
"All right, then," Jacob said, he seemed to be the only comfortable one.
"Fan-freakin-tastic," I mumbled and Bella elbowed me in the ribs. "Oh like you weren't thinking the same thing," I hissed so the boys wouldn't hear.
"Scoot over Newton," I called noticing his disgusted face and climbed into the back before him.
On the way there Jacob was his normal bubbly self while I was sitting next to mister sulky. I glance over and saw a smug grin before he lurched forward putting his chin on the shoulder of Bella's seat.
I tried to hold the giggle as she scooted away towards the window. "Doesn't the radio work in this thing?" Mike interrupted Jacob.
"Yes," Jacob answered. "But Bella doesn't like music." Pulling back slightly I was surprised that he knew that.
"Bella?" Mike asked, clearly annoyed.
"He's right," she mumbled.
"How can you not like music?" He demanded.
"I don't know. It just irritates me."
"Hmph." He leaned back glancing over at me. Pretending not to see I looked out the side window.