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Chapter 231 – I love that they are fighing
As the song Gitana by Beyonce and Alejandor Fernandez was coming to an end, Nathaniel became the Nathaniel that I know. I smiled and listened.
"Esmeralda, what do you think of this song?" my mate asked with anger
"I was reading" my Esmeralda said innocently, yeah right!
I smiled to myself, eyes still closed.
"Liar, you were listening" Nathaniel said. Oh you are a bright one Nathaniel….hahah
"I like the song, it is the type of Spanish songs I listen to" she said
"do you love him?" I asked anger
Okay, best question ever!
"Nathaniel" she said shocked "you know how I feel"
YES! She loves me.
"do I? who do you love" Nathaniel asked
Wait..maybe she loves both of us since she has told Nathaniel she loves him like four times in like the past thirty minutes. Damn, thank God my Esmeralda has a conscious and stopped him from having a full out make out session be sitting behind my wife. Damn…for normal vampires they cannot hear when Music is playing loudly..I am blasting the Ipod but I am like no other vampire.
"oh my God, what has gotten into you" Esmeralda said full of anger.
I was trying really hard not to laugh. I put my hand over my mouth.
"I don't know..he did kidnap you twice like the song said and well..I want to know" he said l
"figure it out yourself…what the hell do you think I have been doing for the past forty years" with anger and I heard the page of the book turn. I have read the book she is reading, in fact Elena gave it to me to read. She said she would be my Noah if I ever forgot my memory. She said she would write down my story and she would read it to me everyday so I do not forget Esmeralda. I thanked her and then read the book to see what see meant. I laughed when I finised the book, I called her and said 'good thing I am a vampire"
I need to thank Elena once I see her in Dubai. These songs are perfect!
I like this song. It is in Spanish and it means Hug me Tightly. I think of Elena when I hear this song, she feels like this about me but I feel like this about my wife.
Cuando tu estas conmigo,
es cuando yo digo
que valió la pena
todo, todo lo que yo he sufrido.
No se si es un sueño aún
o es una realidad
pero cuando estoy contigo es cuando digo:
que este amor que siento
es porque tu lo has merecido,
con decirte amor que otra vez he amanecido
llorando de felicidad;
a tu lado yo siento que estoy viviendo
nada es como ayer.
This song is really sad but it is so powerful. When I heard this song, Elena was already engaged and I felt so bad for her. Then I told her that I will be her best friend for ever and she cried and said that she could like with that. I guess Elena loves me the way I love my Esmeralda. The song starts off with the following 'when you're with me is when I say. It was worth everything, everything that I have suffered" For me, it is so true because I can see Esmeralda when I want to..in fact all these years I have had photographers follow her and Nathaniel. Off course they would only take pictures of her. Elena makes fun of me for it, she says I am obsesses and a stalker. Her happiness is worth it, worth my suffering. Just like Elena suffered for my happiness when she almost died to get my heart to move. I sometimes wish I could forget my Esmeralda but I can't there is not a second that I do not think about her.
Next verse of the lyrics is perfect, it means the following 'do not know if it is a dream still or is it a reality, but when I'm with you is when I say. This love that I feel is because you deserved it. To tell you again I love dawn with tears of happiness" Well Esmeralda does deserved to be loved. I guess Elena thinks that she loves me because I deserve it to.
"wow, he need a hug..go give him a hug" Nathaniel said.
I heard a punch. "shut up..seriously. you are taking these songs way too seriously" Esmeralda said
"you hit me…" Nathaniel said laughing and I heard a kiss.
"let go..I want to read" Esmeralda said laughing. Nathaniel also laughed.
Abrázame que el tiempo pasa y el nunca perdona,
ha hecho estragos en mi gente como en mi persona.
Abrázame que el tiempo es malo y muy cruel amigo,
Abrázame que el tiempo es oro si tu estas conmigo,
Abrázame fuerte, muy fuerte, más fuerte que nunca,
siempre abrázame.
Hoy que tu estas conmigo,
yo no se si esta pasando el tiempo o tu lo has detenido
así quiero estar por siempre,
aprovecho que estas tu conmigo
te doy gracias por cada momento de mi vivir
The next part of the song was even sadder "next to you I feel I'm living nothing is like yesterday" True..yesterday I was depressed in India and today I am sitting behind my the love of my life. It gets even sadder "hug me because time passes and he never forgives, hold me in your arms that the weather is bad and a very cruel friend..hold me that time is money if your with me hold me tightly ..tightly than ever hug me forever". I just shook my head at him part, eyes still closed.
The next part of the song also matches my situation.. I am running out of time in this plane. Now two hours left. This is meaning of the other verses 'now that your're with me I do not know if spending the time or you've stopped you. So I want to be forever..I take you with me that these. Thank you for every moment of my life"
The last part is so true…I want to actually say it out loud, I want to thank her for the memories that she has given me. It is because of her that I am here. I would probably have died as a gardener. Never would have found out who I was…
I love the next part of the song.
Tu cuando mires para el cielo,
por cada estrella que aparezca amor es un "te quiero".
Abrázame que el tiempo hiere y el cielo es testigo
que el tiempo es cruel y a nadie quiere por eso te digo:
The translation is the following. It means 'for every star you see is love 'I love you' hold me hurt that time and the sky is witness, time is cruel and so nobody wants to tell you" This part is so true, I wish I could talk to my love and tell her that every star she sees, she should think that I love her.
I remember I had read in her diaries that she use to sleep in her balcony some nights and think about her life, in one page she wrote that she was looking at the stars and thinking about who she will love..how he would be. She wrote, I laughed when I read it, she wrote in Spanish ' to think that that lucky man who will be the love of my life is walking on this heart right now..my husband. God, I pray to you to keep him well and happy' She had written this like when she was sixteen.
Abrázame muy fuerte amor, manténme así a tu lado
yo quiero agradecerte amor todo lo que me has dado,
quiero corresponderte de una forma u otra a diario;
amor yo nunca del dolor he sido partidario,
pero a mi me toco sufrir cuando confié y creí
en alguien que juró que daba su vida por mi.
The end of the son gis really sad and powerful as well. It's translation is the following 'I want to thank you for all the love you gave me, I can correspond in one way. I hate the pain that this love has brought me but I had to suffer when I trusted and believed someone who swore he gave his life for me'
"nice" Nathaniel said and laughed.
Well the last part perfectly matched our situation..I remember that when I was going to commit suicide, my brother told me that he could not live without me, that I had to be alive for him and in a way, I think what he said made me lie and say that I do not love Esmeralda. So in this song, I have corresponded by trusting the man that swore he would give his life for me if something happened to me.
This song started and I smiled. This song was Elena's. I just shook my head. Oh Elena and her songs.I opened my eyes and looked at the name 'Damanged" by Danity Kane. I closed my eyes again, I look the beat of this song.
"I like the beat of this song" Nathaniel said. Boy, we have always liked the same things.
Do, Do you got a first aid kit handy?
Do, Do you know how to patch up a wound?
Tell me,
are you patient,
understanding?
Cause I might need some time to clear the hold in my heart and I
I've tried every remedy
And nothing seems to work for me
Baby, (baby)
this situation is driving me crazy
And I really wanna be your lady
But the one before you left me so
"do you have a badage or first aid kit in your bag Muneca" Nathaniel said laughing.
"Nathaniel" my Esmeralda said with full of anger! I smiled and continued to listen to the song.
[Chorus:]
Damaged, damaged
Damaged, damaged
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is
Damaged, damaged
So Damaged
And you can blame the one before
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)
This song was so Elena. She said she was trying to get over me with Todd. Todd knows how Elena feels and he has tried everything to get us together. Todd is madly in love with Elena and he would do anything for her. I finally talked to Elena and told her that if would make me happy if she gave Todd a chance and off course, to make me happy Elena started to go out with him. They have been together for twenty years and after proposing multiple times Elena agreed because I told her that this time, I helped Todd pick out the ring. Oh Elena….she is truly an interesting character. I chuckled to myself thinking of Elena….I cannot wait until she get married and has children. I have told both of them that I will so spoil their kids. Elena asked me in private how many kids I wanted to have and I said six, I want a volleyball team. The next day, Todd was so happy and told me that Elena wants to have six kids with him. I congratulated him and just laughed. She was going to have children with him so that I can see little babies and kids and I could spoil them….
I joke around and say " Elena, you are pretty special…like special aid special"
I say this in front of Todd and Todd punches my arm and I laugh it off because it really gets to Elena.
Todd manages my finances and he is also a vampire. Actually, Elena and I had a fight once, we fight like every three days and Cooper says we look like a married couple. Elena's eyes beam with happiness whenever he says this so she provoked more fights..she curses out Esmeralda, calls her stupid for leaving me and says she is a horrible person etc. etc.
The night Todd was turned, Elena fought with me because she said I should so erase Nathaniel's memory of Esmerlada and problem solved. In the restaurant I told her to go get a life and to leave me alone. She stood up and Todd, dressed in a suit, walked in with another woman, they were holding hands and his heart skipped a beat. I was sitting down, I did not look at whose' heart skipped a beat but I hears Elena laugh and she said "alright..but you will do some major damage control" and then she bit him, he fainted and everyone saw. I erased every person's memory in the restaurant, turn Todd and erase his girlfriend's memory of it. I was so mad at Elena that I disappeared from like two years but Todd found me and said that Elena is in trouble. It was a lie; Todd wanted me to see Elena so she could apologize to me.
The song ended . This next song is one of my favorites. It is called Barrier of Love. It is in Spanish.